Friday, January 9, 2015
Was the Ellen before a joke?
If she didn't mean it, it is a joke. She doesn't mean it now. Ha ha ha, no offense.
At least we'll all know why
about these things. ;o
Ha ha ha. I committed the sin. I joked. Tell me, will I die on a tree? And the joke wasn't a real joke!
Ha ha ha. I committed the sin. I joked. Tell me, will I die on a tree? And the joke wasn't a real joke!
Why?
Why would someone not like me? No one does. I'm a normal person.
I'm not submitting to perverted thought for stimulation. I don't need it. I'm not mad. Is anyone else about what I seemed to try to say?
Like, punishing me in wrong ways. Mainly telling me I did all these things I didn't do, like there's stuff around me ya'll wanna boss around.
I'm trying to prevent myself from getting mad. I just wanna be me.
You all don't have to keep talking to me about liking me like an SO.
I'm not submitting to perverted thought for stimulation. I don't need it. I'm not mad. Is anyone else about what I seemed to try to say?
Like, punishing me in wrong ways. Mainly telling me I did all these things I didn't do, like there's stuff around me ya'll wanna boss around.
I'm trying to prevent myself from getting mad. I just wanna be me.
You all don't have to keep talking to me about liking me like an SO.
I just wonder
why this person does all these things and I am not supposed to. Like Chloe Grace Moretz in Dark Shadows with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp. Just one thing and she's automatically right.
I do not forgive.
Hey, I'm not attacking anyone. I'm just talking about something. Some of it is funny. Some of it seems controversial to some.
You think you can come back again and be nice to me after being nice to all these teens, different people. That's forgiveness. It's not gonna work. You already made me feel bad. I don't know what I like, anymore. I'm confidently independent, sound. I can't take your pity on this point, anyone. It's like I never wanna do it. Never wanna trust in you guys. As being in a nice relationship with me. Or something like that.
I do not forgive.
Hey, I'm not attacking anyone. I'm just talking about something. Some of it is funny. Some of it seems controversial to some.
You think you can come back again and be nice to me after being nice to all these teens, different people. That's forgiveness. It's not gonna work. You already made me feel bad. I don't know what I like, anymore. I'm confidently independent, sound. I can't take your pity on this point, anyone. It's like I never wanna do it. Never wanna trust in you guys. As being in a nice relationship with me. Or something like that.
What if you're right
but just wrong to successfully punish me?
You want to be wrong but successfully right to punish me. Aren't you the "hero" doing all this dirty work for everyone like I'm a hostage?
You want to be wrong but successfully right to punish me. Aren't you the "hero" doing all this dirty work for everyone like I'm a hostage?
Aah, what's up, Doc?
They are making me feel bad about myself by making another girl cancel out my relationship with anyone. They're telling me I can't let it out on the inside in what I think. I can't set the scene, paint the picture. I just suspect something else controversial is to come. Why not call it off? Give me the outcasts. I won't be alone, that's for sure. I'm either with someone or not. I do things and live in a legal/scientifically accurate environment that can become closely monitored.
So, the point is I can joke with the facts as long as I don't wish ill on anyone. I don't know if anything else won't come up later. I don't joke constantly.
I want to take it back, but something could happen again. Why don't we call this part of the relationships off? You're all just discriminating against me racially and telling me I blew it every day. Do other people or can other people always do what you want or else it's off? Why sniff up everyone's butt all the time, too? If you accept me, you accept me. I'm not here to say I'm in a contest and I blew it. All these ideas I'm doing something punishable is wrong. No one responds to this and just says this is how I buy my attention. Well, it's not, son.
So, the point is I can joke with the facts as long as I don't wish ill on anyone. I don't know if anything else won't come up later. I don't joke constantly.
I want to take it back, but something could happen again. Why don't we call this part of the relationships off? You're all just discriminating against me racially and telling me I blew it every day. Do other people or can other people always do what you want or else it's off? Why sniff up everyone's butt all the time, too? If you accept me, you accept me. I'm not here to say I'm in a contest and I blew it. All these ideas I'm doing something punishable is wrong. No one responds to this and just says this is how I buy my attention. Well, it's not, son.
I need to learn to control my temper.
Even if someone did something to me I wouldn't do to anyone. I didn't mean anything, but I knew I was being wronged and it seemed to be affecting my life in different ways. I just don't want to be mean to anyone. Is that conceited, to you? Cuz that's what started this whole mess.
The Psychiatrist
Interesting visit.
He wanted to know how I was doing, and I said I wasn't doing anything, like school/work. They seemed to be into rehab programs. I wanted to check in there a week.
He wanted to know how I was doing, and I said I wasn't doing anything, like school/work. They seemed to be into rehab programs. I wanted to check in there a week.
Apology
I went coocoo again and thought of something that could be seen as risque and definitely an insult. I wish I didn't. It's so hard to think with these animals. I thought it was a way of dealing with a thought, but I guess not. I went and thought something nice in the end and found a problem to weed out, tho, so that wasn't really good news tho. It was very much not in the spirit of things, and the idea still confuses me and I don't get it other than a false punishment. Some people care, some might not. I was envisioning people being tacky and they brought up something they didn't care about for me and I thought of it in a tacky way. You can judge me how you want, it was mean of me and I was just confused. You get the picture? I'm in trouble. I will try to ignore it and not think of the tacky thing.
A Few Things That Startle and Upset Me
Help me wherever I am so nothing else/worse happens if possible.
1- always putting someone before me just to punish me for cursing about the ticking noises someone put up in my room
2- discriminating against me racially
3- saying I'm nothing cuz I'm fat
4- testing me little by little in ways that startle and upset me so you can reject me in the end rather than talk and go or not putting me in the picture so I don't get on someone's bad side, esp. like someone I will run into again or like someone famous just for kicks
5- doing things to my life to make a mark or getting overly involved like in my circle of relations in a bad way
6- threatening me and saying like whenver I think of my possible future kids I think of pooh or something like that
1- always putting someone before me just to punish me for cursing about the ticking noises someone put up in my room
2- discriminating against me racially
3- saying I'm nothing cuz I'm fat
4- testing me little by little in ways that startle and upset me so you can reject me in the end rather than talk and go or not putting me in the picture so I don't get on someone's bad side, esp. like someone I will run into again or like someone famous just for kicks
5- doing things to my life to make a mark or getting overly involved like in my circle of relations in a bad way
6- threatening me and saying like whenver I think of my possible future kids I think of pooh or something like that
Apology
Sorry for when I was stupid and being mean. I guess there are more than one time, and I guess if you did read "what" was recent you know what I'm talking about. I should not post risky things in a hurry. It was not intended in any bad way, and I posted that. People just tend to take things their way and then when you're sorry about it they like to use it to their advantage. People are being mean to me, tho, but I'd say it anyway. Guess people just want to get you in trouble. I'd say it cuz it's just people looking to hurt you to say something factual but not really insulting. I'll try to not do it, anyway. Why? I dunno, I just don't like hurting people. I can see myself saying it in different context, like with others. I don't think anyone's feelings should be hurt, but like I said they probably are using it for self-pity or attention. Sorry if anyone's feelings are hurt, namely the person who'd guess they were. I just wanted to explain I didn't mean anything in a hurtful way.
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