Tuesday, January 27, 2015
I didn't check yesterday. It takes so long to load! All the posts are so nonsensical. Why don't they have blog readers, instead? Twitter seems fun on-the-go. I didn't watch Ellen's birthday sho'. I am gonna watch today's after I eat, I guess. Guess I'll just hang. I really want mac and cheese. Maybe will be up for a salad tomorrow?
Dr. Phil - Twitter
You mean if someone "has an issue?" Yes, they might avert being direct.
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Well, my brother seems more interesting in different ways, but we don't share a home.
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Yes, it's an excellent thing to chose to do. It's a job where intelligence comes in interesting forms.
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I think it all has been messed up by careless adult figures who don't wish to be adults to children who aren't as much younger.
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Well, my brother seems more interesting in different ways, but we don't share a home.
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Yes, it's an excellent thing to chose to do. It's a job where intelligence comes in interesting forms.
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I think it all has been messed up by careless adult figures who don't wish to be adults to children who aren't as much younger.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
It is twisted that the father wants to keep the girls away from their mother. I say give the girls to the mother. The police do not listen to people after they know someone reported them and make unfair judgements and do not listen to the alleged perpetrater. They do not think that maybe there is something wrong with the perpetrater, that they had been mistreated.
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That girl has a right to her own children, and if someone called the police on me that I did that, I'd be thrown in jail.
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My therapist seemed concerned I indicated or hinted that I was like being abused emotionally by my dad. I asked why he was mean and said he lied, and he wanted to eventually throw me out the house that second or drop me off on the street, after making fun of me in life that I was sheltered and not allowed to like watch PG13 movies at any age even after 13. That's quite bipolar? When we drive and stuff he acts like he suddenly tries to get close to me, tho he always has a negative attitude about me and "what I've done" he thinks.. failing school, slipping my tongue to a degree, etc.
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Post modern, or what's called like "post-post-modern/contemporary.." times is affected in every facet of life, from music to divorce to who knows what, the creation and deletion of certain jobs I'd think. I don't hear of anything big these days, like IT and some other positions that were common. It's probably the creation and deletion of bad kinds of music, too, in fact. On the topic more, modern you say to mean means more bending of the rules of family and existence. I don't really hear of "the importance of family," anymore, like everyone is socially rebelling. My family is modern insofar as I ended up "needing" a break from school or work and live at home with my parents at 28 still. I'm gonna get "in" and plant myself in community college this summer. I'm in on a grown-up's educational path, my original major of Music Education. So, the way people have families at odds is more natural than one thinks, like kids still seeing mom and dad. My parents hardy -ever- see their moms. It was about us kids and their ways of "secretly disciplining us" pretending we were good for image but telling us we weren't that good on the inside in how they treated each of us. They find it impossible to parent in the modern world and we almost were able to maybe all split up somehow.
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(a girl saying a boy hitting you means love)
A lotta people would understand that. My good ole dad taught me that people bothering you means they are trying to get your "attention." That's a really big thing to know in life. Good luck on reception of this episode. I dunno, sometimes when I say something I mean it. It means I want more of you. I'm upset no one was really ever together. Do I have an STD?
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That girl has a right to her own children, and if someone called the police on me that I did that, I'd be thrown in jail.
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My therapist seemed concerned I indicated or hinted that I was like being abused emotionally by my dad. I asked why he was mean and said he lied, and he wanted to eventually throw me out the house that second or drop me off on the street, after making fun of me in life that I was sheltered and not allowed to like watch PG13 movies at any age even after 13. That's quite bipolar? When we drive and stuff he acts like he suddenly tries to get close to me, tho he always has a negative attitude about me and "what I've done" he thinks.. failing school, slipping my tongue to a degree, etc.
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Post modern, or what's called like "post-post-modern/contemporary.." times is affected in every facet of life, from music to divorce to who knows what, the creation and deletion of certain jobs I'd think. I don't hear of anything big these days, like IT and some other positions that were common. It's probably the creation and deletion of bad kinds of music, too, in fact. On the topic more, modern you say to mean means more bending of the rules of family and existence. I don't really hear of "the importance of family," anymore, like everyone is socially rebelling. My family is modern insofar as I ended up "needing" a break from school or work and live at home with my parents at 28 still. I'm gonna get "in" and plant myself in community college this summer. I'm in on a grown-up's educational path, my original major of Music Education. So, the way people have families at odds is more natural than one thinks, like kids still seeing mom and dad. My parents hardy -ever- see their moms. It was about us kids and their ways of "secretly disciplining us" pretending we were good for image but telling us we weren't that good on the inside in how they treated each of us. They find it impossible to parent in the modern world and we almost were able to maybe all split up somehow.
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(a girl saying a boy hitting you means love)
A lotta people would understand that. My good ole dad taught me that people bothering you means they are trying to get your "attention." That's a really big thing to know in life. Good luck on reception of this episode. I dunno, sometimes when I say something I mean it. It means I want more of you. I'm upset no one was really ever together. Do I have an STD?
Dr. Phil
I think he is smarter than me cuz he gave Point A and Point B. He said the children are no safe with such and such. Simple as that. I said just give the kids back to the mom because the situation with the other parents was inappropriate. I think they were all nice, maybe had some prerogatives of their own, as people I come across seem to have. I'd have to say no to the man cuz he seemed to wanna hurt me. I don't want to simply put myself in a situation. I already know that. If someone wants to off me cuz I'm there, I say no. I do something back or leave. I can't tell the police. Because it was just how they acted, their attitude. Also, if it was someone who did something to me, they would get back and know I told. Unless, I know I could get'm for good, I guess, but that sounds really weird and dangerous. I think that the mother/grandma was a bit harsh but more considerate than the guy. I think they are good together. She wants someone who will do something to her without backing off, backing off in love. I think that girl, who is nice, need' to get in rehab. I think there should be a court order to put the girls elsewhere, even if with the drug addict mom. Lotta parents secretly do drugs. They don't abuse children.
IMDb - The Soapbox
Feeling Really Bad
I said I didn't like these people pretending to be someone watching me in my room. They simply are not stopping. This has gone on, awhile.
And they say it's cuz of something I did tops it off..
And they say it's cuz of something I did tops it off..
What I Wanna Take
1 - Child/Adolescent (infancy thru adolesence)
2 - Adult Learner (higher education)
2 - Adult Learner (higher education)
My E-Mail to the Department of Education @ a Community College
I want to get a DME, a doctorate of music education. Would the AA in Music Ed at Seminole State be a good foundation? Didn't it used to list more music courses, like the BME? They take music theory? I think I have enough music electives. Should I take music theory, anyway? Thanks. I have a meeting set with someone in Music for the fall. He wants to see me in September, as of now. Also, do you know why SS took away sports and ballet/dance? Why did they do that now? I think the Music Education program looks like more fun. I believe in the graduate level, they are more music courses. I know I wanna do summer school and music you have to start in the Fall. Maybe, I can take some Education courses then.
I see Introduction to the Teaching Profession and Introduction to Diversity for Educators are available in the summer. It says we need 6 hours of international/diversity/modern foreign language. 1 of these requirements is already listed, so we need 3 or 6 more education hours than the courses already listed here: https://www.seminolestate.edu/education/aadegrees/edu-mus? I plan to come into the school sometime, to ask some questions, in case you don't understand me.
From the looks of it, I think I will take Music Theory, in the fall and spring. I might have to do my general studies later. I don't know what I will be advised to take when. I'm not looking for a heavy course load. I guess I will take the 2 education courses in the summer. The tech course I can take maybe next year. Perhaps, I will still take private voice when I'm finished with the other requirements an dam working on general studies. I do have an interest in music performance, as well, in singing. I took piano/organ/voice my 1st year. So, I'll do 2 courses of education in the summer and focus on music in the fall and spring or whatever the adviser tells me to do with a light enough course load yet at a pace that is conducive to my future.
I am 28 years old, by the way. Music Education was my original major. I went on a break and got "sick."
Thanks!
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
I see Introduction to the Teaching Profession and Introduction to Diversity for Educators are available in the summer. It says we need 6 hours of international/diversity/modern foreign language. 1 of these requirements is already listed, so we need 3 or 6 more education hours than the courses already listed here: https://www.seminolestate.edu/education/aadegrees/edu-mus? I plan to come into the school sometime, to ask some questions, in case you don't understand me.
From the looks of it, I think I will take Music Theory, in the fall and spring. I might have to do my general studies later. I don't know what I will be advised to take when. I'm not looking for a heavy course load. I guess I will take the 2 education courses in the summer. The tech course I can take maybe next year. Perhaps, I will still take private voice when I'm finished with the other requirements an dam working on general studies. I do have an interest in music performance, as well, in singing. I took piano/organ/voice my 1st year. So, I'll do 2 courses of education in the summer and focus on music in the fall and spring or whatever the adviser tells me to do with a light enough course load yet at a pace that is conducive to my future.
I am 28 years old, by the way. Music Education was my original major. I went on a break and got "sick."
Thanks!
Sincerely,
Christina Barrett
Music Education
It seems they made it more into an Education AA rather than a Music AA. They also took out sports and dance. Ever since I "got in trouble" at another community college. Who's meddling in my life?
Letting Go
I did seem mad at someone, but I guess you just wanna be the judge of what happens. True, it's not good. I'm just a bit out of it, maybe from living in Orlando. Everyone is always racist and tells me it's cuz I'm bad. I dunno what to do. I told you what I really mean and it just came off that way. I dunno. My dad had just annoyed me a lot, too. I bet he made it that way, which I don't like. I'm pretty sure, for I know I mean what I mean. It just seems bad.
IMDb - The Soapbox
People watching me pretend to be a person all the time.
There are cameras and speakers around my room, apparently.
They load the page and make noises like a person, and tho I like the person, I do not like whatever they are doing.
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They load the page and make noises like a person, and tho I like the person, I do not like whatever they are doing.
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How I Was Upset
Seems maybe I was upset at someone innocent, but I'll have you know I can't do that and was upset perhaps at the source simply cuz it was the source. I was upset tho that this person is taking over my life. I see them around, and it can be okay an often desired. I don't wish to follow this. Do I wanna be upset? Well, no, but my feelings are hurt and I'm annoyed. It takes over every facet of my life in ways, socially.
Problems
Well, I woke up happy, as usual, and my parents had a bad attitude towards me. My dad is crazy and wants me to act self-hating that he thinks I did things wrong that I didn't.. I don't mean to think these bad words, but I think he quickly made me think them.
Something I just couldn't stand was that someone made it start that someone will always steal attention from me cuz I cursed about them on my blog, well at what they did I think moreover. I was taken aback if I did it at them and even had to use my dad as a scapegoat, who was really mean to me. I never tried to scar him when I did.
Something else is that they said I did something to deserve to listen to them act like they are some person watching me all the time.
Someone is mad and manipulative over my life, too.
The person they are acting as is false and annoying. She doesn't really do that, what they do as her, to me. I don't really wanna listen to this person being recreated in my room 24/7. They said I did something. I got upset on my blog. Someone's just a stickler for all caps and "all up in my business." They've acted like this person since mid-2012. It can't hurt anyone's feelings if I don't wanna do this. No one would really want me as that. I can admit it.
I'm upset at what's at stake. It might not matter to you, but it matters to me. They were at it, or my dad was, at supper. Whatever he did was annoying and I wanted it to stop the whole time. Did you know my dad is glued to my mom, as well as me, being attractive as girls? Yet, when I say something, he just ignores that and tramples over me. He thinks my mom is better and thinks I'm not cuz I'm related to him or maybe his mom or something. I dunno, I just come out for supper and he acts all large and in charge and manipulative. I feel kinda trained and affected by him. He doesn't do that to my mom, but he does something. It wasn't really all about something important, he was just really whiny, like he thought he could get close to me but can't or something, cuz he thinks I only deserve it in a way that he hates me. I'd describe his emotions towards me as a kid as more like a businessman, his hugs very "cool" and businessy. They don't have to dress up anymore, neither, I've seen in certain situations thru the years. I bet the girls are dressier than the guys, these days..
So, he was just kinda mad at me in general. Something was the issue near the beginning. I can't change what people wanna give to me, of course, but I didn't like what they claimed I did. How perverted.
I am a bit upset that my dad must be upset at me for thinking, like, "No, stop it," all the time. This is all very ridiculous, my problems, from people like my dad just wanting to be mean with no reasoning behind it.
I know what they are doing about that person, but they said I did something to deserve it. I'm not taking any of that from anyone. I don't know how to get it to stop, but I sure don't "accept" it. Esp. if it's all supposedly something I deserve. I know this person thinks that me and other deserve meanness. That's something else. They even said they were too embarrassed to say if something was wrong, as though they didn't know what was gonna happen.
It's a bit upsetting. Who wants to know someone with a life like mine? People think I'm either too old or too young. Can that be true? No one has to pay attention to me. When they do, I try to be nice, but some of them or a lot are older and I just can't provide some things. I have a great magnetation to people my age. On TV yesterday was a girl who looked my age talking about science and ghosts, in war. I think people don't realize all the time how bad war really is. It's not a service but a sacrifice.
So, I am always nice, but my dad keeps hurting me. My mom barged in when something seemed bad about me, and he was wheezy and said she needed her meds. I was upset but didn't really hurt her. She made it up. I just said it in a way that wasn't submissive and she tried to "suck out my soul.." I think it might be because my dad was there. I try to be nice to everyone, but I just couldn't ignore my dad's constant shuffling around.
Something I just couldn't stand was that someone made it start that someone will always steal attention from me cuz I cursed about them on my blog, well at what they did I think moreover. I was taken aback if I did it at them and even had to use my dad as a scapegoat, who was really mean to me. I never tried to scar him when I did.
Something else is that they said I did something to deserve to listen to them act like they are some person watching me all the time.
Someone is mad and manipulative over my life, too.
The person they are acting as is false and annoying. She doesn't really do that, what they do as her, to me. I don't really wanna listen to this person being recreated in my room 24/7. They said I did something. I got upset on my blog. Someone's just a stickler for all caps and "all up in my business." They've acted like this person since mid-2012. It can't hurt anyone's feelings if I don't wanna do this. No one would really want me as that. I can admit it.
I'm upset at what's at stake. It might not matter to you, but it matters to me. They were at it, or my dad was, at supper. Whatever he did was annoying and I wanted it to stop the whole time. Did you know my dad is glued to my mom, as well as me, being attractive as girls? Yet, when I say something, he just ignores that and tramples over me. He thinks my mom is better and thinks I'm not cuz I'm related to him or maybe his mom or something. I dunno, I just come out for supper and he acts all large and in charge and manipulative. I feel kinda trained and affected by him. He doesn't do that to my mom, but he does something. It wasn't really all about something important, he was just really whiny, like he thought he could get close to me but can't or something, cuz he thinks I only deserve it in a way that he hates me. I'd describe his emotions towards me as a kid as more like a businessman, his hugs very "cool" and businessy. They don't have to dress up anymore, neither, I've seen in certain situations thru the years. I bet the girls are dressier than the guys, these days..
So, he was just kinda mad at me in general. Something was the issue near the beginning. I can't change what people wanna give to me, of course, but I didn't like what they claimed I did. How perverted.
I am a bit upset that my dad must be upset at me for thinking, like, "No, stop it," all the time. This is all very ridiculous, my problems, from people like my dad just wanting to be mean with no reasoning behind it.
I know what they are doing about that person, but they said I did something to deserve it. I'm not taking any of that from anyone. I don't know how to get it to stop, but I sure don't "accept" it. Esp. if it's all supposedly something I deserve. I know this person thinks that me and other deserve meanness. That's something else. They even said they were too embarrassed to say if something was wrong, as though they didn't know what was gonna happen.
It's a bit upsetting. Who wants to know someone with a life like mine? People think I'm either too old or too young. Can that be true? No one has to pay attention to me. When they do, I try to be nice, but some of them or a lot are older and I just can't provide some things. I have a great magnetation to people my age. On TV yesterday was a girl who looked my age talking about science and ghosts, in war. I think people don't realize all the time how bad war really is. It's not a service but a sacrifice.
So, I am always nice, but my dad keeps hurting me. My mom barged in when something seemed bad about me, and he was wheezy and said she needed her meds. I was upset but didn't really hurt her. She made it up. I just said it in a way that wasn't submissive and she tried to "suck out my soul.." I think it might be because my dad was there. I try to be nice to everyone, but I just couldn't ignore my dad's constant shuffling around.
Strange Dreams
1 I remember was I was on the Phil show. He looked like he was looking at my dad and asked, "So, do you wanna do this..?" I think he nodded and covered his face cuz he was about the same age.
@Robin_McGraw @DrPhil fun fun fun fun fun fun - a bouncy bubble - I love bouncing on the road. Gum is yum! 🍒 👀 Such a nice shoot! 👓 💫 🐯 😀
— Christina Barrett (@Christina4333) January 27, 2015
Facebook - Robin McGraw
taking pictures with results
I did that today at Disney but nothing. Good advice.
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her beauty product
Ice skating works. It gave me skin patches, fairer skin.. It got to where I couldn't do it in the end, tho, so I can't keep doing it. Yes, I could go back. This product is lovely! I hope it makes my skin fairer like when I ice skated!
I did that today at Disney but nothing. Good advice.
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her beauty product
Ice skating works. It gave me skin patches, fairer skin.. It got to where I couldn't do it in the end, tho, so I can't keep doing it. Yes, I could go back. This product is lovely! I hope it makes my skin fairer like when I ice skated!
I do like everyone and this person in particular.
They just keep like acting funnily and rubbing it in trying to annoy me with such a nice person.. maybe they are jealous. :( Good they have an interest/attraction? :) You know what to do.
Dr. Phil - Twitter
when strict parenting goes too far
When you like other kids better than your own. My mom wondered why I wasn't outgoing about things like others..
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Be happy with life as it is and know good things will come.
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At least gays don't all believe in drugs.
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people who have nothing to hide
They need a hideout and can hide their body parts when getting dressed.. ahahahahaha how unusual of me to think. ;o
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I have no idea, I guess it all boils down to if your spouse is an opposites attract. I heard all marriages were that or love..
When you like other kids better than your own. My mom wondered why I wasn't outgoing about things like others..
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Be happy with life as it is and know good things will come.
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At least gays don't all believe in drugs.
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people who have nothing to hide
They need a hideout and can hide their body parts when getting dressed.. ahahahahaha how unusual of me to think. ;o
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I have no idea, I guess it all boils down to if your spouse is an opposites attract. I heard all marriages were that or love..
Dr. Phil
An important show to me I've seen is Forensic Files cuz I worry about the safety of each and every person.
I liked the show today. The father was unbelievably nice. It seemed like my situation, except I'm in the garage. I tried to m********* to go to Heaven.
I think people need to learn that if you are at a level of perfection, you need to make a change and you will be good at different things and not just that one thing. You want that one thing to get better and better, but it won't. (Got the idea also from American Dad, right now.)
I am worried the girls might do something bad or something bad will happen to them. How did they get the money for food??
I liked the show today. The father was unbelievably nice. It seemed like my situation, except I'm in the garage. I tried to m********* to go to Heaven.
I think people need to learn that if you are at a level of perfection, you need to make a change and you will be good at different things and not just that one thing. You want that one thing to get better and better, but it won't. (Got the idea also from American Dad, right now.)
I am worried the girls might do something bad or something bad will happen to them. How did they get the money for food??
Dr. Phil - Facebook
I just know that the dad seems like the kind of personality who would descend into abusive behavior, but he's nice, nicer than those I've known..
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I just know there has been a lot of confusion as to if daughters are as good as their moms these days because so many of them were flower children, and then it is this group of a generation who overshadow kids today, everyone knows that.
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I think it is popular for people to just blurt out to imagine people in their underwear, as long as it isn't Ellen- I know I'm being watched with cameras in my room even with my invitation to not have to do this, tho I'd miss whoever doesn't wanna meet me some other way. I assume I am in some solitary confinement. It really helps me that I get these messages, but I wish there were some normal way, like someone on a blog. No one is my friend, now, so that might be "why I get it." I can't really think like other people. There are other reasons. It may be why I can't stop letting bad words come to my mind sometimes. People don't like that, the people who experiment on me, as I say on my blog. F.y.i. no one seems to really communicate to me ever since this happened. It's a very different life and very sad and distressing, like being trapped in a box out in space.
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My extended is a game of mix and match. LOL. My parents were gonna separate for my brother, so he wouldn't have to move when my dad gets a job. He liked his dog trainer, martial arts instructor, and tennis teacher. I knew all these people, and they treated me graciously. When the hurricane hit, we all moved. I am so sad! College has been so bad! My parents seem like they are in a game where they judge who I am compared to like my mom, like it (things) makes my Gramma mad, who just knows what goes on via phone. My dad doesn't always stand on his own 2 feet, what can I say, and wants his mom to influence him with advice and listens to her obediently in her insinuations yet lets me know when I ask that she does indeed bother her, as we've seen the drama in the past. The thing they do is if I do something, they blame my mom, who cannot see with one eye and who has breast cancer and supposedly bone cancer and I thought something else. It's hard to think of an example. I know I broke 2 or 3 computers that were already broken supposedly. I know I am deeply ashamed by all I've done, all accidental errors. I understand if I am not forgiven and have to "deal with the consequences."
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I tried imagining my partner being like an exciting, upbeat, imaginative boy just slightly older by months. My other I fell for was like a twist on a "good" "devil" personality, who seemed a bit older. I can't settle on one thing. I will always love everything.
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I have a lot of experience messing up in life, like my whole life every day. About me, myself, and I .. Making kids the best they can be seems to work out if you learn lessons from different people rather than expecting things from other people who just aren't up to it for whatever reason. It's a lotta trial than error, but in the end it is your responsibility. Why? So you cannot blame another person.
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I don't believe in psychiatric medicine cuz it doesn't cure. As for those other drugs, I didn't think it was a joke.
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People are not ready for kids. They have not come to terms with themselves. Still, they have them..at least.
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I just know there has been a lot of confusion as to if daughters are as good as their moms these days because so many of them were flower children, and then it is this group of a generation who overshadow kids today, everyone knows that.
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I think it is popular for people to just blurt out to imagine people in their underwear, as long as it isn't Ellen- I know I'm being watched with cameras in my room even with my invitation to not have to do this, tho I'd miss whoever doesn't wanna meet me some other way. I assume I am in some solitary confinement. It really helps me that I get these messages, but I wish there were some normal way, like someone on a blog. No one is my friend, now, so that might be "why I get it." I can't really think like other people. There are other reasons. It may be why I can't stop letting bad words come to my mind sometimes. People don't like that, the people who experiment on me, as I say on my blog. F.y.i. no one seems to really communicate to me ever since this happened. It's a very different life and very sad and distressing, like being trapped in a box out in space.
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My extended is a game of mix and match. LOL. My parents were gonna separate for my brother, so he wouldn't have to move when my dad gets a job. He liked his dog trainer, martial arts instructor, and tennis teacher. I knew all these people, and they treated me graciously. When the hurricane hit, we all moved. I am so sad! College has been so bad! My parents seem like they are in a game where they judge who I am compared to like my mom, like it (things) makes my Gramma mad, who just knows what goes on via phone. My dad doesn't always stand on his own 2 feet, what can I say, and wants his mom to influence him with advice and listens to her obediently in her insinuations yet lets me know when I ask that she does indeed bother her, as we've seen the drama in the past. The thing they do is if I do something, they blame my mom, who cannot see with one eye and who has breast cancer and supposedly bone cancer and I thought something else. It's hard to think of an example. I know I broke 2 or 3 computers that were already broken supposedly. I know I am deeply ashamed by all I've done, all accidental errors. I understand if I am not forgiven and have to "deal with the consequences."
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I tried imagining my partner being like an exciting, upbeat, imaginative boy just slightly older by months. My other I fell for was like a twist on a "good" "devil" personality, who seemed a bit older. I can't settle on one thing. I will always love everything.
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I have a lot of experience messing up in life, like my whole life every day. About me, myself, and I .. Making kids the best they can be seems to work out if you learn lessons from different people rather than expecting things from other people who just aren't up to it for whatever reason. It's a lotta trial than error, but in the end it is your responsibility. Why? So you cannot blame another person.
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I don't believe in psychiatric medicine cuz it doesn't cure. As for those other drugs, I didn't think it was a joke.
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People are not ready for kids. They have not come to terms with themselves. Still, they have them..at least.
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