My Phone

I got mad with it.  I've seen people drop theirs on purpose..  :(  I just squeezed it, can still call and everything, is a cheap 1.

Twitter

weluvJoshGroban

You're all

sitting there imagining I am bemused at your instructions or decisions playing around with me.

If you are mean to me

I'll just talk about it here.

If I'm not good enough, I'll talk about it here.

I wasn't even raging

and you go all schizo and mad.

You all are just a big group of clowns

and I have to pop all the balloons to get you to stop and me be in peace.

My messages

are carefully crafted, and all I get from you is some pun.

So

What others do is perfect?  You all are just doing things you would never do before.

They're making me explosive.  Stop it.  You're giving me cancer.

I thought you didn't even want me to think about it.

They won't stop.

Problem

I just got another negative message and am being told I do something bad.  They're clowning around at me, and people are mean to me.  You can't get mad at me.  I didn't do anything bad.  I'm not even allowed to have thoughts.

Problem

What'd I do now??

Upset

Audio and voice recording >>

You just do something I don't like and say if I get upset at something else I get punished or say "I said something" else.

Why

were you messing around like that?  I don't believe the reasoning behind it.

All you all do is make sure I'm not like everyone else.

I didn't say it was wrong.

Why DID you think with such simple intentions?

People are REALLY on top in their own way.

For once

I deserve to be on top.

In fact

no one is "better" than me.

I've seen people I admire.

I feel I don't know myself but I don't want to not like myself and turn into an ogre and convince myself it's okay.

Like

if your dad embarrasses you, would you want him to touch you and act like he's Ellen DeGeneres?  I'm trying to argue I do have a relationship.  Obviously not the same.

People are who they are.

I don't want to be tricked into thinking my dad is some things he never was for me.  That's like saying it doesn't matter who a person is, you can get the same feeling from them all.  You don't like that, yourself.  What if I am too old mostly?

Why can't I feel something I want to feel?  I'm not in the right health and physical shape?  Why did my mom decide that for me?  What I did wasn't enough.  It was more than what some kids had.

Why do you

want my dad to affect me in a way I don't like?

I'm feeling uncontrollably upset still.

I'm having trouble with my feelings.

Problem

People take what I say way too seriously and make assumptions and hack at me for it.

Problem

People keep hurting me.

Comedy

these days is sick.

New Shows

I'm recording Madame Secretary with Erich Bergen and New Girl with Zooey Deschanel.

Edit

I edited my new Twitter profile.

I am a success

BECAUSE I HAVE a blog

Also

I hit my Ellen sweater mad I was probably being made fun of.

I have nothing to do

because my friends are gone.

Liars

You all act like I ^did something^.  If I can hurt myself, so can you.

I do not accept this.

This other person feels only they are always right.

Do you know anyone

who thinks they're the best in the world and don't have to listen to anyone?  And if they do, they make themselves ^feel good^ ?

Problem

The Josh Groban fans are bothering me on Twitter, along with someone else..the things people do for Ellen when I'm trying to have fun on my own.

Well, the ones I see the faces of a lot.

I did

stomp my feet some after when I walked around and to another store.  I was sitting down.

Last Night

Slept with TV on then turned it off 1/2 way.

Started with Stonehenge and battles in England.

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A Short Clip of Me Singing a Couple Days Ago

I just wish

in the end I was still in control.

Very Bright

My dad definitely caused it.

Upset

I had some good things going.  I really don't know what to do when people think they can walk over me like that.  I feel bad about myself.  Maybe, I just won't care but walk away and hope someone doesn't get upset about walking away and each person starting to get at me.

Lots of Problems

I went with my dad to the store, and he put me in a bad mood.  All the people were looking at me like there was something wrong with me for gritting my teeth.  They acted like older parents were my parents.  It was in a suggestive manner.  I gritted my way through the trip alone.

I was gritting in the car, and my dad noticed.  I was squeezing my cell and put it somewhere finally.

I wasn't too weird, only asked a few questions.  I asked about making me feel something in a place.  All I did was grit my teeth and squeel stop it.  Why would I be in trouble?  People were afraid to admit it was for anything other than my stomping.  I did stomp some but only when I was out of control.  I'm not submitting to anyone that I'm like a dead chicken.

What's up with people telling me I have to think badly of myself?

My dad was a bit sad more mad.  Someone told him or he told himself that I was no fun to go with, but I learned something about shopping there.  No reason not to go.  Next time, I don't think I will.

So

I am ready to act.

Maybe I need more sleep.  At home, I am relaxed on the computer.

Think and don't act.

Wanna

Come to Orlando and become some form of walking dead?

I know for a fact

Everyone thinks they can do whatever they want to me.

Help

I feel like something would be triumphant.

I've been squirming and squeeling to stop.

Problem

My parents won't stop bothering me.  I cut my fingers.  People in public are randomly popping up overcoming me.  My dad is like bemusing those who did things for him like he is always good.  I was helping with the dishes and my dad started acting out as he handed them to me.  I felt uncontrollably upset.  I don't submit to anyone.  He has entered my life cuza Tim Burton and gotten involved in and chased people from me.

What about this?

His hair?