Wednesday, December 17, 2014

Blog 2 (sometimes mobile..)

Problem

My dad should not be able to control me.  My nose is whistling.  He also made a big break like 10 seconds in talking and then stuttered, sounds like a curse to my kids.  No one believes this is okay.

Out of Its Shell

An attack, for this?  Just to preserve the mood??

Crazy

Who adamantly believes in all this convenience?

Like I Was Saying

I don't mean to hurt anyone.  I don't care if people are bad to me.  I hate it.  I don't accept it.  I guess I should just d**?  That's why.

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Christine from Phantom Tour

I wonder if Mixed means Mixed Race. I'm Mixed, but it doesn't matter. I used to be in choir a lot. Private voice is important, tho, it seems.

So

Why are individual people I meet so unsupportive of me?  Do you want me to reveal more again cuz I think you don't?  Why are people like all coming in so mean to me in secret message?  I didn't ask to talk to all of these people trying to put a halt to my life and ease like this.

Problems

They keep fitting in more.

Problem

They majorly threatened someone who was nice to me.  They are probably lying but need to back off wasting time and others's.  Why?  Because it was a big sounding threat.  Why are they in on this?  I don't accept any of your punishments and giving this person everything I earned and deserved.

Problem

They threatened someone who was a little confused and not that mean to me.  This person.  It's a bit perverted, and I don't care about your creepy insults.

More Problems

They are making someone else overshadow me to someone I liked.  It's not just a statement.  You all can't keep doing this and be nice just to the other person!!  I'm not starting anything, just saying.  It was a pretty big thing, on their part.  I know just who all to blame.  I will not listen to any of you, and you better not attack anyone for being against me for no reason.  I'm not about the moment.  I live now.  It's just my blog.  I didn't diss the action itself, tho most do with these things.  Got that, I didn't diss the action and it's a separate thing, a blog post?  You keep doing stuff for this person that I deserve or earned..  I don't accept your suggestions and punishments.  You're trying to scare me.

I didn't mean..

..to be brutal to anyone.  I just was talking out how I feel.  I never feel I deserve punishment from what is so lame..  :/  Nor at all.  I am good.  What do I get for it?  Not enough.

Problem

My mom is chiming in more insults.  She is fixed that I am bad.  I don't care what my parents think.  It's not.  They just want an excuse to be mean to me, anyway, and they don't know yet and wouldn't care.

Losers!

I have to worry about people bursting out about me on some other corner of the globe because of someone's "big mouth."  In a bad way!

Well

I can see the person does it, so I guess I'll let it go for that person but am upset about the one who caused it?? guess it doesn't matter.  I don't like this.  I'm not a piece of dead paper.  I mean, the way people know I did something, and it wasn't really bad.  Others caused it to be that way.  I guess it was not presentable, no matter how much I was suffering.. shoulda changed my act long, long ago.

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I found Sting is going on Broadway, like Chris Mann from The Voice..

Not Sure

How nice I could have been about what I said, but it was kinda a lot to relay.  I do this partly so I don't blow up, in the end.

I like seeing that person happy, of course.  I just get punished using her and when it upsets me and I merely report it, they get upset like I'm in trouble and that's when I don't like it.

I know who did it.

Who gave that person all that attention.  Let's just be nice to this person, right?  If not, then she'll take lots of pity.  Is it time for me to figure out how to just close up?  I was supportive, even if it's done in sin.

This is gone too far.

I see in the deep end of it all I make no friends.  It's all for that person after you dig into me for some reason.

No, it's not.

Every time you like that person, you hate on me.

It was okay, I guess..

..but some nasty thought were directed at me.

As for the cursing, it's not really okay to be mean to me, just k*** me cuza my dad?

I was just sad and explained it a lot.  Not trying to start anything.. but you wanna think I did to make me look bad/worse.

Nice

I'm nice to you.  You think that I hurt you by cursing, but I was just cursing about the noises, and I must remind you I don't think you should get back at anyone like that.

The Mes sage

It says I lost something and it says it's something important being mocked.  Both of those things aren't right.  Who cares if I cursed on my blog, arrest me!  How much are you gonna just keep getting back like I'm the one who started it?  Shouldn't you be in trouble?  Only you and whoever else does it?

Why It Bothers Me

It doesn't, in a way, just a little, so I reported it.  I'm sorta ignoring a lotta things, but this intervention was rad.

Vincero?

Don't hurt me in the end.

Problem

They are using that person to say they are more special to someone just because I like them by doing something to say something happened or saying it's so.

I have a right to say this.  It bothered me.  I'm not talking to everyone in this post.

It's fine, but it was said with an attitude, so maybe it's not fine in general.  Fine to happen to me?  But not to others?

I am not here to even curse them out and waste my time.

What do you think?  They keep following me around and acting like I deserve punishment.  I was just out in the living are, and Mom doesn't help.  She just acted like it had to be that way and that I deserved it.

(They made the mouse have the time waiter the first time at random lying still.)

If you think about it, it's not right.. or whatever I forget.

They're being mean to me with little noises now like they just wanna leave but won't like I need it there.

So, about it.  I know someone is punishing me be being nice to someone else when I meet someone I like.  That's like the bottom line of this I found, the reason it happened.  This is the lame life.  Maybe, they were just teasing, but I say they are pretty pathetic.  They want to say I am by being mean to me like this.  What if we bothered them like this?  It wouldn't be okay!

What a waste typing this out, but they are super irritating sometimes.  Everyone has turned on me.

They say that all these things are technically okay cuz they could happen anyway.  I still hear a squeal/honking of laughter or whatever term you'd use for that.  Everyone is laughing at me, like they want to think I did something cuz they feel bad about themselves.

Nite Soon

some TV maybe

he he he

Do you know people who
-know a lot
-know where they're going to be

Interesting

it's after you scroll down to the kid: link

The guy sounds like the Phantom, an opera singer.

Website Update

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What was that?

Vincero?  And you get upset?

Problem

Are you here for friends?  Why are you making me think about you?

Idea

The parents might still want to be kids?  Maybe, they were scooted out by their parents born in the 1940s.  Maybe, that's how it's more comfortable, away from home already with kids.  I just wanted to think about it, but I see my platter being taken from under my nose.

What can you hope for, what can you do?

It's time to get ready to go on Facebook more!

So, did anyone notice this, yet..

..something funny, that nothing we knew means anything and it's all for the kids?

I got a weird idea that I was being used as over the hill, like for kids, when I wanted to be a regular person AND lead them in song.

Story

There was a beautiful girl age 14 named Bianca Brown.  She was wearing a tan dress with red lacing, different.  She had a white bonnet.  She walked by the water and observed it dreamily.  A gentleman named Horace came and put his hand on her shoulder, which she naturally decided to kiss back, and he held Bianca to him.  He was 25.  Another boy who was 16 came bounding along with light brown hair to tell them where they were gonna go.  Horace was still carefully holding Bianca and they all left to wait by the dock.

Bianca had some friends named Bella 10, Chloe Grace 11.  They were prancing along in fun.  Bianca joined in.

There was a pirates cove nearby, a restaurant on the dock serving burgers and soda, fries, even jukebox!

Bianca went in herself and became a celebrated pirate.  She met a tall, thin blonde who was 12 and said hi.  She saw to the bartender and ordered a really good bacon burger with spicy fries!  She usually ate pretty healthily and was a little robust.

There was line dancing out on the floor.  Bianca had fun joining in.  There was a little hop in it.  There were some older ladies enjoying it.  They took down their long hair.

I know what's next.

To get me in big trouble because I was in trouble with other people before.  Erm, you can train someone not to do that if they learned it from birth.

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Andrew Lloyd Webber's Phantom of the Opera

*pebble skips across water*

Are all whites bad?  (White race.)  They all wanna agree with bad people or please bad people.  Like, Europeans trying to bait in bad, interesting white people who get ahead by cheating.. or pleasing bad people like "it matters what others think of you."

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"French maiden name (Karron)"

What a jackass way!! :D

Some things don't need to materialize in your head to have been solved.

What's In

Ugly Made Up Creatures

Honest Feelings

As far as I know, if I did not get attention no one would be awake to steal it.

There's more.  It's kinda the same thing maybe.

I forget!  Oh, yes, something different.  Um.. Yes, why am I the bad one around now?  Do things change just for me?  Why isn't it everyone is who they are and not saying I'm someone else, that I'm bad and they're good?  Am I just Slytherin and you're the other losers?  I can take that.  Really, I'm used to always "having it" like a normal person!

Why

My therapist was asking about my dad ***-wise.

I don't really want to be mean @ anyone.  We need to know about my dad being vulnerable.  He attacks people mentally and emotionally to me.  I forget he comes home in that mood.

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my Instagram profile, the spacing

Treating Me

My dad is influencing my life to be wasted and shit.

My diet I got off a bit too for calling someone fat I think.  What *** reasons.  I'm still kinda on the diet but needed a relief.  All I had for lunch was salad and breakfast was grain cereal.  Spaghetti reheat dinner.

Some people react like an animal.  I just put my head on my head via my hair, and I imagined someone telling me I was like disgusting and worthless.  Like right away for no reason but not admitting my skin is not as protected as I had wanted it even etc. and therefore I may be dark and dirty?  It doesn't make me bad.  I wanted to be more shaded from the light.  It wasn't my fault.  So, how would that make me bad?  I'm just not as nurtured to getting real attention.  So, you think that reason makes me bad.  That's not right.  Why, cuz it's not my fault.  I'm still a person.  No one, "like totally," gets that.  And yes, I know about saying things like "like totally."  It's the person's responsibility not to get carried away.  I care.  I'm just not listened to.  People say I must be quiet and shy.  They don't talk to me when I try sometimes.  Maybe superficially these days..  :(

Problem

Now, I'm superstitious they're molding my descendents off of some way I don't like.  And I mean what I mean.  In whatever way I don't like.  In that way.  Which is not the way it is supposed to be for anyone.  Which seems my brother's descendants.  You don't k*** a person for doing something just you don't like.  That's crazy.  I'm watching Cops Unloaded right now.  To become more understanding.  What do you think of what I said, anyone?  The way that basically extinguishing life is the answer to a mistake only some people make.  And in this case doing it to those related.  Isn't this a good topic?

Problem

They just cursed one of them.  What do you think you are doing and can do?  Don't you care about me?  You are just mean.  You don't care.

Problem

You ain't got nothing.

They are also loading the page all enticingly.

Problem

Why do you feel for his babies?  They are m*****ing them.  You're just bad.  You don't like cursing, but you're worse than that.

Lies

I can sense it.  I was good, I got nothing.  I got tired, I was unresponsive.

Also, they said something about my brother after my last post.

Different

I don't have outward problems all the time with everything, but if I'm supposed to talk something out then that's what I'd be asked to do.

I noticed my nose looks like someone else's "as a sacrifice."  I noticed I didn't talk about it, and supposedly it wasn't that bad.  I don't know what to make of this, didn't just happen on its own this time.  I'm not here to complain but sense I'm unwanted.. which is an interesting topic, as well.  I mean, it's my body and my face.  It's being sacrificed.  Is that what happens to everyone who does what I do, certain things?  Like honestly watching Ellen?  Is that the price?  I don't take things in stride and hide so bad people can be satisfied.

Problem

They are trying to be "special."  No one agrees.

MORE?

WHY DO I KEEP GETTING THIS.

I bet someone knew I had a pack of underwear in my room I didn't open for years and now men's underwear are tagless.  Nothing wrong with that.

Hurting me?

They knocked me outta my tight and strong sit.  That's so mean.  You are just so mean!  Don't you get it?  I thought you guys don't curse.

Ever since I missed a week of Ellen, I've been getting people hurting my body.

Lking Boys/Girls

If I were more alone, I'd be blonde, but since I'm into Hollywood I'm into my real hair color like for singing.

Wait

TV can be lame.  Weird kitchen classics with female has-beens.

*jaw drops*

Acting can be lame.

Singing is music..

So, no.

Don't mean what I thought.

So, yes.

Truly sorry for bad passing thoughts, did not and/or I do not mean them like that.  It didn't get personal.  I know I was upset at the time.. Mope!  Hate!  Whatever.  Don't hurt yourself.  :(

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b. 05/20/1986 - ½ Dutch Chinese-Indonesian ¼ Anglo/Irish ⅛ Dutch ⅛ French German German/French/Swiss/Austrian✡ Native American indian

Kind or Unkind or Just Unruly?

Isn't my therapist supposed to be like a 3rd parent?

What?

Why are you chiming in?  I don't wanna sit here and figure out bad things.

So

It sounds rather silly to think of it that way.

Problem

Fine, make fun of yourself for being on 2 sides of every issue.

Problem

Someone is establishing a TV show as a punishment to me and to spread someone else around to take over the world.  This person is just really grumpy and raging mean and won't ever admit it.

I'm tired

of being the 1 stuck in the dirt.  Literally.  What do you think it really is?

So, what?

In your mind I don't count?

I guess..

..Ellen DeGeneres won for the 1950s/1960s.  What happened to everyone else?  They didn't hit the ground running?  They just aren't Hollywood happy.

Glad

The 1970s generation is doing well.  They seem as attractive as the 1950s and 1960s.  Mostly.

My A'g'ment

My Argument

I am white and I am here to talk and deal and interact.  I'm not here to be told off sometimes.  This started since Tim Burton got famous I think with Sweeney Todd this time.  I got online and posted about it eventually.

YAY WESH 2

Seth Meyers

Is that how you..

..sing?  It's about what's important for her.

What a princess?

What am I now, chopped liver!  I see Lindsey Stirling is making it, too.  No one does shit for me, they just shit for me LOL.

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Still Trying for My Diet

Might need a moment..

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I just had 1 1/2 - 2 pieces of pizza.  3 chocolate chip cookies I just baked.

What do you think about this??

No one likes when anyone is mean.  I don't think this is an exception.  I see you can't stop, and I kinda wouldn't care if you did.

Problem

I see people teaming up again to rub in an insult.  I see someone is wearing something that shows something ***ual in a harmful way.  I already said this other person keeps being mean to me.  Lies.  Thinks they don't sometimes.  I don't wanna keep talking about this, but it's important.

So

They are rubbing it in by having someone do something more directly related..  I can just see the smirk of someone else.  This is all punishment.  The connection is not as it should be.

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I was only upset about being insulted.  You can make the world as happy as you fr***in' like!