Nite Again

I went to the 2 morning masses today.  We have a busy schedule for church in the coming 2 weeks.  I plan to attend.

After I exercised and stuff, I found I was 5'1" at the end of the day.  At the beginning with a good night's rest, I was over 5'3".

I'm feeling better after the masses.  I am watching people around me to see how they feel for a thermometer, to gauge how I feel about things, rather than waiting for someone to help.

I have a lotta laundry tomorrow.

I was a bit tired some of today.  I have to remember to ignore people when I don't know how to react and they make distracting noises that probably channel the bad words in my mind.  I know alone it generally doesn't go that way.  I don't have time to think and don't decide.  I am getting better.  I just go in with a happy face and nothing bad happens.  If someone hurts you, you just keep going and tell yourself it's alright.  I need to learn to ignore some things that hurt, tho, cuz I dunno how to react.

Sometimes, I feel people are just out to get me.

I'm too tired to do much more.  I don't have many more thoughts, with the energy to recollect and disperse.

So, bed, breakfast, maybe a jog for my exercise, more breakfast, a shower, fold towels and clothes, watch and hang clothes.  I think I got it.

~ * ~

I'm back!

from my walk!

Off!

for a walk!

Funny

People keep telling me what I do.

Twitter

Ich jetzt #Philharmonie @RIAS_Kammerchor & René Jacobs Mozart #Requiem

— Tutatull (@utafroeh) November 27, 2016

What about Andrew Lloyd Webber's Pie Jesu?

I have a new motto.

Don't be mad at anyone if they can do anything for you.

I guess..

..relationships are important in how you behave and care for yourself and it really changes "who you are."

I wonder..

Why if I can't talk to someone are they the ones who're in dire straights in a diverse set of people in a relationship?  They matter, but maybe they like different people.  I just got thru trying to assimilate with them and ended up in a rut.  I think I did it again more successfully.  However, the people spying on me are mad at me even tho I was nice.

Certain Words

When people trash me and make a lot of commotion so I can't think, bad words come to mind, like "trash" and "nigger."  "Nigger" also comes up when I'm treated like one 1st.  I like the word "bitch" and "fuck," tho.  At 1st, I didn't, but I saw a 15-year-old English girl on the Pirates of the Caribbean 3 MySpace forum called "It's [Hayley] Bitch."

I have a plan!

I can see when they punish me if they say someone who we look up to is hurt from too much stimulation attention that might not be all that good from what I've seen.  You know, I have something insulting to the people to say, that I don't really believe in what they're doing, in a way.  You know, it might not have happened if I didn't look at Ellen DeGeneres's Twitter.

Funny

People who have people who like them are being told to come inside so people like me who are younger can't have them.

So, that's where all the people went.  You thought there wasn't anyone.  Just some slimeballs.  ..and I'm having a great time!

There's this big thing for me, too, racially

being Eurasian is held above being European.

Quit blaming me

for Hillary not being elected as President.  I obviously was very fond of her.

Plus

Who wants to be singled out?

Ah'v Joined Up (I've joined up.)

I am not accepting arguments from other races and ethnicities because they are just trying to hurt me.

"I'm telling!"

People don't want me to be stimulated by someone.