Let's close this up for the day..

I already said I don't mind if Ellen DeGeneres wants to feel something cuz she was so giving I thought of when I said this.  Now, it's like it's suggested people my age are too old to be the age of what age her kids would be, but she kinda thinks people who seem like her kids are cool.

If I don't even care if she feels whatever she feels for herself, why would I be presented as a problem?

I feel like people are telling me I'm doing all these things I'm not/didn't in certain ways.  I might just be out with people.  They forget how hard it is for me with some people.

I can tell older adults are just mean cuz I know a lot of them are wrong cuz they seem mean to hide insecurities.  Like, when I do something I don't know is wrong and someone else does, then they do something wrong back they know.  I think we were raised to think whatever, the world raised us that way.

People reserve themselves for certain kinds of people, and I feel they don't see the clock of life ticking for other things to happen to other people.

I notice Tim Burton is more casual than Ellen DeGeneres.  I'm more like Ellen DeGeneres in that way but give it to the people, tho I don't say Tim Burton being casual is "better" than Ellen.  That sounds dyslexic.

Seems I'm just going thru things and have wrote what I could.  I could just sit here and say sorry in different ways, too.  I wonder if people like me cuz there's something to criticize.

About Ellen's feelings, I said whatever she wants.  I just feel that other people were involved telling me I'm in trouble.  I think it was more than Ellen's feelings and doings.  She could have been influenced.  I mean, she can do whatever she wants, not what I nor others tell her necessarily.

Am I sad?  I'm devastated about being cursed.  I don't "need" certain things.  I don't "deserve" certain things now.  I might deserve a shot at life like others procrastinate about.  Sad.. just like my record of flawlessness is gone.  I used to deserve what I finally don't get.

Did you know they are starting to take away something big from me every time they want to play easy street and say I messed up just to have something to make them look powerful?  I don't know if they're mad at something I did in this case.  It seems due its cause.

I 1st kinda went crazy when they kicked me out of my college major for being shy or secretly doing bad at something.. or maybe cuz I was in the gym for 1/2 hour, tho I don't know how cuz I didn't see them there.  I just felt suggestively hurt.  I failed to function in my given environment.  They were failures to me.  I ended up like this in the end, too, more obese.  I can't be young at all in college.  I am having a hard time feeling I deserve to be an actress and can't seem to host a show.

I do feel framed and set up for failure.  Even what I said yesterday in an emotional crisis was purposely taken the wrong way.  Maybe, they don't want me to win and they just go from there but like that just for me.  Well, it's over, but life isn't.  Sure, I went thru something and could have been nicer.  I did freak, like I did when I was dysfunctional over being kicked outta my college major.

It's like I didn't belong anywhere, neither down lo nor up high, suggestive about my intelligence and how I wished to use it.  They'd see me a janitor before my college major, no offense to that wonderful position.  People here in the end, no offense, see me as okay driving a dump truck.  They're delusional.  I realize it's okay, but there is a reason that won't happen, probably.

I'm just really sorry if I'm inadequate, but I feel some people are overly picky.  Why am I set to say yes I accept that compliment if it's, "Christina you're in trouble."  Aren't I supposed to be or possibly later/now get out of thinking about when I was in trouble?  Other people are not followed like this to be Mr. or Ms. Perfect.  I am taking pills to not feel cute and dainty.  They want me not to be "paranoid."  The world sure has lost a lot of concerned individuals.  I'm not sure what the problem is in a more sane explanation.  Don't take this in a bad way cuz that's not what I was thinking.  I dunno if I can get any help.  I just saw my therapist today.  We talked about Disney World for, like, 1/2 hour.  She won't talk about these things, I think.  She won't believe it.

Why isn't there some thing for me to work on to be a good citizen?  I don't belong in prison, literally.  I'm staying off the streets.

Well, you must be sick of sorry, I said it once here.

Well.. I do need to figure myself out myself.  Hm.. I should think.  I cannot change the past but can be sorry for what I did by accident and change the future.  Basic things like not cursing in my head are good.  Not being mean, etc.  I feel I know this stuff, yes.  I just forget upset.  I feel I'm on overload with this that I need to stop talking about it.  Strange.  I should do something good for my blog.

Well, okay at that for now as it's time to hit the hay or fall into sleep.

When I say..

Johnny + Depp
Ellen + DeGeneres
Tim + Burton

I feel like I'm saying, "No, that's Captain Jack Sparrow."

Popularity

If people post-Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) because of the great popularity of Johnny Depp and Tim Burton are considered bad to make a move if not already established as popular like that.. I'd say the problem was none other than unfortunately like maybe something to do with not everyone else but wondering that Tim Burton and Johnny Depp made the change, not others.  No one should be hurt.

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I can connect about Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.. Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Pirates of the Caribbean, which people like for it's old-fashioned nostalgic quality.

It's that again.

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp made the world racist and it's affected me a lot.  I also moved to a racist place.

I used to just be a normal person.  I was literally pulled from my world and unhelped.

Dr. Phil

Dr. Phil thought Tim Burton was below him, and I was shocked he was allowed to be ecstatically mad.  Now, I know he's trying to be like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, which seems weird in a way..

OK OK

So, Bella Thorne is more successful than me in looking good in many important ways.  We both are worthy human beings, tho.  Things she's particularly good at is her fair red hair/highlights.

Her face seems very strong.  She's a beautiful kind of girl with a nice figure.

You know, she really seems to have turned on later in her life.  A lotta people are like that these days.  Why act overly excited while feeling tacky concerning the type of hype there is for Burton, tho?  You need to gain his collective respect, not serve him.

Age

MySpace and Facebook.  It's still there, but I changed accounts.  People act like it's a 1 shot deal.  Nothing happens now.  Like, it's not really an appropriate service, tho quite complex and neat.

Also, why am I dumped over to semi-old ladies because I am more studious.  I feel ambushed by Tim Burton about my wanting to do a makeover.  I did since before I knew about him.

"Greedy Eyes"

So, I just hear l some kind of little giggle of greed when I like something and "it goes to" someone else.  You're supposed to share!  Isn't that hilarious, tho?  I work hard for something that means a lot to me.  People worship people who are like me except they know they are all Caucasian: Ellen DeGeneres, Bella Thorne, Tim Burton, to name a few..

If you all support..

..this other person in the colors you wear tho you serve people in a minimum wage career, I really don't see anything to support-it's the same as Chloe Grace Moretz in Dark Shadows with Tim Burton and Johnny Depp.  She can be upset and say one thing on screen and be called so smart and right about it.

What's It Worth?

I had like 2 birthday wishes.  1 specifically was for Tim Burton's new movie, Dumbo.  I am proud I am still in on what's good.

Racism

Tim Burton only likes Helena Bonham Carter and Bella Thorne cuz they're not Chinese.

It's racist to them.  I wish I knew more about them racially.  So what if it's hot?  Middle Easterners are hot.  No problems, but still, I noticed..

Showing Off

I see Bella Thorne thinks she's better than everyone else in a way she's not because see everyone thinks they're too good for Burton.

Well

I'm happy for you but think that Burton is being nit-picky and doing some wrong stuff.  Like I said, Chloe Moretz has an opinion, it goes without any work.  Chloe Moretz and Bella Thorne born in 1997.  Computers were on the verge becoming popular.  Time seemed to stand still.

Why am I saying things about Burton?  It was mostly about his evil fans.  I say this about a lotta people.  He is trying to do I guess what Dr. Phil did but to violate me.

Decided

My decision is not to be mad but to let Burton play, not that I can stop him.  You don't write people to perfection, you do what you do to do what you do.

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What's his problem?

So, if we think we're as good as Bella Thorne we're dumb? What has gotten into him? I'm serious. I don't care if he looks like a joke. 

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Re: i just read he will do a live action dumbo remake

Makes sense.

However, I think he's making the mistake to put down other people. I noticed that he named "Pereguine and the Peculiars" and it reminds me of Bella Thorne, the B in Bella. I find him insulting to my dignity. He honors people like Chloe Moretz and Bella Thorne just for being born when computers became popular and "the world was right." I don't like how he thinks he can say who's got it and who doesn't. That's just mean. He can like her if he wants. He can pray to work with her since she happened to come along. I thought she was a sweet girl. (No offense with the catch term "happened.") Did you notice he did not work with Dakota Fanning ever? She seems to have stopped acting. Why would she care that much, herself, tho? I think this is something that is going on that needs to be addressed. You know, they both seem to have the same dispositions in some essential ways that worries me, Tim Burton and Bella Thorne.

http://www.imdb.com/title/tt1661326/?ref_=nv_sr_1 

"Times Change, People Don't"

Some people think I didn't care about popularity wishes in people.  People want to all count me out.  They pick people who have some thing in common and then only condone me on the category of that point.  I don't think it's right to be an animal about who gets to be touched.  I don't like how things are fabricated these days.  I have a disposition about where things are more affable.  It seems to have changed after the popularity of wishing you knew Tim Burton.  It's funny to see Helena Bonham Carter defend him but supposedly from 1 person, using that 1 person, and that 1 person is me, to get away with getting to be with and study him.  Yes, she does have 2 kids with him, 1 before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory (2005) and 1 after even Sweeney Todd (2007,) a boy and a girl.  I don't think because you live/d in California that you have to be piecey.  It must be something they've done.  It's about big guys who eat and go out and compliment pretty beach babes, feeding the kids and having a "real" life, whatever that means to them.

Mad Like With Burton and Depp

Not just at them.

Wow, so people in private have been comparing me to people like Bella Thorne as ***?

Why do others matter so much and my entrance to the world a hurl of crap?

In the game of life, I know that a lotta people are ripping me off against others.  Say, someone wound up with someone prestigious like Johnny Depp.  This person would be looking at someone else thinking Johnny Depp should be easy to get, anyway.  Does that sound a bit weird of thinking?

Supposedly, I'm happy to be me.  There are other more white people.  They get accepted by like Tim Burton in a snap.  Me, my life gets totaled.  What do you have to say about that?