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Can you use my SSI money to get the things on this shopping list, please?  I asked Dad, and he just said he didn't think it was worth it.  I wanted to get 2 dresses.  Instead, I picked just 1 outfit.  I told him to pick how much money he wants to spend.  This is my clothes, and I need new clothes or want new clothes.  Maybe, you can pitch in some.  I don't know why Dad is suddenly not paying at all for my clothes.  Maybe, we can ask him to contribute some.  I may need some money for food, music, etc.  I can't have it where Dad buys me no more clothes.  This is the clothes I want.  I even told him I'd pay for part of it.  Thanks.  

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Why won't you get me the dresses for $50?  That's not very expensive for a dress.  I'm using the money I get from SSI for food, and I only get $180 per month.  How am I supposed to get clothes if you never get me anything?  What, you just don't want to get me pink boots?  I already told you I need you to save to get me these things.  I already told you a long time ago.  I would have maybe changed how I used my money, if possible, or you should have already known I'd spend maybe $100 on clothes in 1 month..getting stuff online instead of a shirt at the store since I want dresses.  Why does Mom take my SSI money?  I only get $180.. if I spend it, then I won't have any at the end of the month.  I'm using it to make sure I have money for the food, and you can use your money for the clothes.  What, so then just get some of the stuff I asked for.  Get 1 dress at a time.

Pink Girl Child's Party Dress
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_1082HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Girl Child's Turtleneck
Size 14-16 XL - Color: Pink - $4.90
http://www.target.com/p/cherokee-girls-long-sleeve-turtleneck/-/A-14171125?ref=tgt_adv_XSG10001&AFID=Google_PLA_df&LNM=|14168611&CPNG=Women&kpid=14168611&LID=PA&ci_src=17588969&ci_sku=14168611

Pink Knee Socks
1 size fits all - $11.97
http://compare.ebay.com/like/360502156110?var=lv&ltyp=AllFixedPriceItemTypes&var=sbar

Pink Women's Leggings
Size M|L - $12http://www.dillards.com/product/Moa-Moa-Basic-Leggings_301_-1_301_501845724?df=02516444_zi_charcoal

Pink Gloves
$7.75http://www.bonanza.com/listings/WOMEN-S-FLEECE-GLOVES-IN-ROSE-PINK-NIP/98874703

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Without the boots, it's $81.81.

If you want, you can get cheaper boots:

Pink Boots
Size 9 - $16.99
http://www.discountwomensdressshoes.com/servlet/the-46998/Hot-dsh-Pink-dsh-Suede-Comfortable-Winter-Womens/Detail?gclid=CJvc5MHa5rUCFQeznQodCXQAbw

Total
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$103.60

So, maybe, I can use some of my money, but Mom probably won't want to help.  See what you can do, maybe buy the dress and accessories and I can get the boots or something, or I can get the dress and you can get everything else.  Just pick how much you are willing to spend and I can buy the rest.  Thanks.

8 Years

Ginny is fat, and most fat people are agreeable yet uninteresting.  I'm not sure if I ever had a successful relationship with any unhealthy person.  I don't just want a skinny, dorky friend.  She also thinks she has a more attractive background and that that's dirt.  Maybe, she's just a sorry case.  Her mom made her attractive so she would be hygienic.  I don't take for granted what my mom did for me.  You can't just assume it's the bastard cause that morale ain't so.  It was only about crazy, drunk fathers.  My dad is tacky because he ain't skinny, and he don't work out, no more.  Also, kids have to have traits from each parent.  I needed to work out, but it seemed like I'd done too much gymnastics, not much good in way of dance, I guess.  I mean, there's not necessarily like a certain option.  I was struggling between ballet and jazz/lyrical.  Now, it seems to not help, nothing I do.  I sit around at home, people just keep thinking my dad is gonna hurt them, send them a hurtful message.  Just think about how Tim Burton and Johnny Depp changed the world.  I remember it was the people, but Tim Burton is crass.  He was kind unrelenting to people who wanted to be actors rather than not be actors.  I wouldn't accept it.  Why should he have a daughter, at all?  No one gives a fuck, fuck fuck fuck like a duck.  You, like Ginny, is just waiting for the perfect person to come around and keep barking at me for seeming too atypical for having a mixed European father with typical family names and a Chinese mom who is typically attractive from her younger age..  That proves Tim Burton lied that he's not really holding out for a good reason but for selfish reasons.  I guess that's why I chose Johnny Depp and then found he depended on Tim Burton but that Tim Burton pretty much didn't feel good about his not being able to act.  I mean, my mom and I could get him in shape, but he's with "stupe-id" He~le~na Bonham Carter.  I was getting better.  He just needs people to talk to.  Sit at a computer and find someone to talk to on a message forum.  Start walking and jogging, do the core workouts and weights for the health of yur blessed arms.  It's your fault for not being a total person.  Lazy people from California.  Go suck a fish corpse.  Talk to people, or you'll get fat and die, like the old days.  Stop getting high on artificial attention.  I never get any attention.  It's all hidden traps.  You're just gonna say, hug your dad.  What about my mom?  I didn't say I wanted to hug Tim Burton.  I just kinda deal with it but can hug other people.  I mean, what would happen?  I would just sorta lose my tease, like I did with my dad.  I just wanted a nice relationship.  I guess it was special to him.  I'm not really gonna hug Ginny.  I just want to set her straight, to understand she's crap, she acts like she has some like nonexistent program in Orlando because it's Disney.  You have to go completely into something, you can't get too much good attention like of fate thinking coincidences are miracles.  You know, she doesn't use Facebook much.  I don't know how most people know her.  They might look up things in Orlando.  You know, people in Theater in places like New Orleans.  People wouldn't post to her much.  It's funny, I spent a lot of time bettering myself and kinda have a lot to spray.  I guess I'm not in a certain mood.  I mean, it just seems like things used to be different, like no matter what I did.  If there's something wrong, it's Orlando's fault, crappy Orlando.  It's not like, I'm just there and no one can do anything with me.  What the hell is that?  Am I losing memory?  Why aren't things getting better?  I'm still in the program.  If you're not good enough, then leave me alone.  People who are good are never supposed to turn anyone down and not hear what they have to say, like Gahndi.  You know, I don't care what you think about me having a dad from Pennsylvania.  I know you just care about the Pennsylvania Dutch.  Why not knock out other states while you're at it, like Delaware?  I mean, I had a fun friend family from there.  You know, Ginny, I don't give a shit what these so-called "Floridians" think.  Florida is a beach state.  It is not the only place you can be modern.  Say what you will, that's what they think.  Why do you even feed the birds?  Don't you like me?  I just want to find out what happened, why you are just being mean because of Tim Burton and why people are ignoring me online but later on people won't.  That's the only way to communicate, people live online.  Why not accept that I mean no ill will to anyone.  I just want to do my homework and have a good time.  Having a good time is not illegal.  Why is everyone like gawking over Ginny and feeling sorry for her teaching the children who believe in shit?  I mean, I am not that kind of person.  That's all you've thought of while I've been submitting myself to this.  I just want a good time.  I want to see people!  Is that so hard to ask?  I don't even know if I want to be famous.  I want to meet famous people, though.  I'm lonely, no one wants to approach me nor admit I seem, like, popular.  You all are denying me that for 8 years!

Disney World

Why is Ginny so sarcastic like Órla Karron Fallon and Ellen DeGeneres?  She acted like the kids here who are from Orlando since maybe around age 13 set themselves up to hypnotize themselves to submission that they had a fair shot at life compared to most people and that they did the right thing but that they were some *** object to Ginny just because she is like famous for doing the talking at Disney or something since the 80s.  The fact is it's just because she's attractive, too, and not like someone too skinny born like around the time of Céline Dion - and why do you find it tacky I mentioned her because it's not.  I haven't really heard anyone talk about it so don't know.  I want to talk about it, just mention it ... gotta problem, just trying to impress someone, trying to achieve some contrapted ideal?  I have a feeling it won't work ~ Just admit that she's ***y and has good ideals but gawp at the fact she's born in 1958 and has a mom from California, maybe appreciate her dad being from Pittsburgh-  I met up with people from another area, and their kids's mistake is that they are stuck up about working, like no one should help them in thinking about working, selling souveniers at Wicked, which is about the Wizard of Oz..  Bottom line don't sit there and shit with me about my parents's heritage, I'm not supposed to have to suffer because of it.  So, I mean, these kids are pressuring me not to succeed.  I want to find a place I can go, but I want to stay here so I can live easily.  They think you have to sit there and think you're nothing to encourage others to think they're nothing, have no goal they are striving for, think it's desirable, yet tacky, won't admit they have to go pleasure themselves themselves.  I know I used to be like that but not in that way.  I mean, I looked presentable, I didn't like role my eyes and buzz my lips at the teacher and show off my, like, nigger skin cells.  I didn't approve of thinking things were shit just to put off what I was supposed to do.  I wanted to be like you were supposed to, didn't think I was supposed to be like a beggar on the street, not sure how to elaborate on that nor shout it out.  Why is Ginny so inhibited.  Everyone I know who's moved here is outspoken.  Ginny just thinks I'm an adult, shoudln't know my age.  She doesn't respond appropriately, just doesn't really seem that accomplished.  It's bugging me, I don't want to have to respect like some thing she's saying I'm not good enough for when everyone before Tim Burton came around would like approach me, and no one will accept the new me.  No one even accepts I'm a kid to my mom, anymore.  My dad was already off.  He will cycle into the thought that he's not.  The kids here are totally the opposite and I can't get the pressure off to stop thinking about the pressure they have on me, that I need their attention or needed it, in some way.  They just won't get off.  I guess it's keeping me from thinking.  I want to feel attractive, not like Floridian scum.  I mean, Florida was supposed to be a good place, has a nice sea breeze and Disney World.

I 8D thought of something funny.

So, what it is if someone's ancestor is a problem that's when they're the problem, in the U.S.A.  People want to help them just to be nice.  Just to be nice.  :|

Problem

I will **** you - STOP looking at me with your sly, racist smile, like you're even on top of shit, you worthless, motherfucking, bastard niggers.

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2 New Dresses

I found 2 children's dresses I want plus 1 kind of pink blazer to go with them.  I also found children's shoes, a pack of knee high socks, some leggings, and some cheap costume gloves.

Pink Child's Party Dress 1
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_1082HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Child's Party Dress 2
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_209HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Tween's Blazers
Buy 2 of these - Size L - $6.99
http://www.sears.com/shc/s/p_10153_12605_002VA50670501P?sid=IDx01192011x000001&kispla=002VA50670501P&srccode=cii_17588969&cpncode=31-86850801-2

White Children's Thigh Socks
Size 9-11 - $7.50
http://www.sears.com/joe-boxer-girl-39-s-7-11-3-pair-white/p-029F2493000P

White Women's Tights
Buy 2 of these - Size XL - $10
http://www.jcpenney.com/dotcom/socks-hosiery/knit-leggings/prod.jump?ppId=pp5002301332&N=1405&searchTerm=leggings&topDim=Color&topDimvalue=whites&dimCombo=Color|&dimComboVal=whites|&currentDim=Color&currentDimVal=whites&catId=SearchResults

White Party Costume Gloves
Buy 2 of these - 1 size fits all - $5.99
http://www.partycity.com/product/white+gloves+teen.do

Children's Shoes
Size 5 - $16.99
http://www.cookieskids.com/Product.aspx?l=00190069026400000000&p=RAM01236

Total
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$170.43

So, I hope you can get me the 2 dresses, + the rest to go with them.  I mean, if you can't get it all, I'd say not to get 1 of the blazers, but they are only $6.99, so, I mean, it's all very cheap.  The shoes are only $16.99.  The tights from JCPenney are $10 so must be good.  The gloves are $5.99 per pair.  The total being $170.43 guess the tax will make my monthly shopping for extra things or a nice set of clothes $200.  Otherwise, I have clothes, but I wanted to dress up more, like a girl, I guess.  :|  I hope you can buy this.  You can ask Mom to help or to borrow some of my monthly money she kept.  I hope you can get it, though, because I mean the dresses, I only am getting 2 things and each is only $50 for a fancy party dress, pretty good.  The rest is all very cheap: cheap blazers for $6.99, socks, tights, party costume gloves, and children's shoes.  So, without tax, the total for the 2 outfits for school at least this month is only roughly $170..  I don't plan to take gymnastics classes but may go to open gym, at least maybe tomorrow night when there's no school.  As for other shopping, I just may need more blonde shampoo, not sure how I will do my hair.  So nothing else big, as far as I know, until I need a fan.  So, see, the dresses are each only $50.  I probably will not go looking for any more school outfits.  I saw some things I kinda liked but not that much really.  I mean, maybe next month I'll find something but dunno.  Okay, I hope we can get it.  Thanks.

Don't It

Doesn't it actually look like other kids my age actually hurt the world?

The Hunt--

So, I'm searching for dresses in the style for tween girls and without weird things jutting out.  Also, I will add long sleeves, stockings, and colorful socks, children's dress shoes or booties-  ;p

Generation X

Actually, they claim to be quite mature.

Doesn't Like

So, Ellen DeGeneres doesn't like New Orleans and therefore I don't care about her having *** with her mother..

Hey..

So, why is my post on Renée Fleming's wall gone?  ,:[  Why doesn't anyone take me seriously?  I know what they look for in singing.  She just knows I also know how to play the piano.  I put it up there just for people to comment on, didn't want anyone to report it, was just a link to my blog..  ,:[  Also, she seems worried about how she parents her own daughters.  ,:[  1 of them is in college, though..  :|

The Attractive 1

If you notice with the parent that is thinner, like people get annoyed at the kid but say they're whiter than you.

Baby at the Mall

It looked really melted with dark skin.  Why don't people like care about their babies being white.  The mom was attractive, obese, tall, small head.  The baby looked Spanish.. a boy.  There was nothing really to worry about because the worry was that the baby thought the mom's attractive availability was for some odd reason some puzzle it was working on, and that puzzle didn't involve my likings.  So, an older person would beat you down that there's some problem, and the problem is the fact there is a problem, they don't need to stretch you as responsible for a fact that the fact is what the fact is, does not "mean" anything.  Get it?  It just is struggling, it's not some thing you did!  :0

Heil, Hitler!

The fact I never took voice ... I moved to another place.  Well, anyway.  I was learning music via piano, was lucky to learn music notes in music class before moving to a really good choir.. just there wasn't any individual singing involved.  So, then, I went to high school and found I had to audition for Talented Music but was in Art I, instead.  So, then, I was 15 and wanted to take voice and was already in ballet once a week.  Then, I got singing lessons from a really large lady in Talented Music until a Korean girl came back, but I mean it was an interesting experience.  So, then, I went to the mental hospital and became bloated there in a week, was 16 my 3rd year of high school..  It was because I had my 1st lecture heavy reading course, should have ignored school and paid attention to gifted arts?  The rest of the classes were always okay, but Calculus was a challenge, as I went to 3 high schools.  So, then, I spent most of my time it seemed accompanying on instruments and in choir, was in a new band at a Catholic school..even said dance team girls should have been on it, this 1 attractive 1 who went to England before.  She would announce every morning.

So, what is it?  I know already at least about Renée Fleming, whose parents had her right after graduating as singing majors.  She did opera in the cradle, while people came in and took lessons, maybe because their house wasn't been enough and there was no nanny while she got lessons.  Maybe, they had to feed her or something.  I mean, what, maybe it's "not true?"  I mean, I don't know if she had to sing as much as other people, but she sang "Climb Every Mountain" as a kid, maybe around age 10 or 11.  Or maybe like 8th grade.

Then, there's also Órla Karron Fallon.  She has been singing as long as she can remember and went through college taking harp lessons and is a Religion major.

Jackie Evancho, who is from Pittsburgh, like Ginny's dad, obviously had a vibrating voice at 7, appears to have taken lessons, maybe not as gifted as I was, not sure why, I mean I've heard gifted kids and stunning kids and seen kids who are more physical and could probably become good artists.

SO, WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR PROBLEM?  I CAN SING.  I'M NOT A DORK.  I'M ATTRACTIVE.  I'M NOT AN OLD, GERMANY FOGY, AND I AM GERMAN.

Something Interesting to Note

So, people think that their happiness is based on my success.  Like, you could just say, it's only about child stars today.  Like the 1s in commercials, probably all with white hair???  White curly hair?  I saw the most attractive 1, today.  [|:]

Hi Ginny

Well, I hope she has a long break off, like a year.  :|

In the summer, I just wanna go to Disney, guess it'll cost money, was otherwise wondering if I could stand on a boat in the water in the Midwest.

Also, I think kids here should go on break over the break, bring their homework.  They should go somewhere else, Europe, a nonwhite nation, or the Midwest, or maybe somewhere else.  I wonder if there are special camps in L.A...

Facebook Post

I just called to ask you when it was, guess I will have to call you tomorrow if I don't ask on Thursday while I'm waiting for my Therapist appointment.  I don't really know anyone in Orlando, so I don't know who to ask to come with me.  Lots of people I know have been interested in singing and things..  :(

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To: ginny.kopf

"Join me for the next Voice workshop! The Professional Voice (which includes training for the world of Voiceovers) starts Sunday 2-5. Call and we'll talk all about how it can help you get the acting work you want, whether it's voiceover, commercials, narrations, infomercials, and for vocal improvement for any kind of business you are in. It'll give you CONFIDENCE and CONTROL in your auditions and communication. Ginny Kopf 407-381-5275"

I think the voice is a personality tool and today I croaked up an emotion. Most people have something like a slur. They think their voice is just a product of their health. They don't even think about how their nose affects their voice. They don't even use singing in their lives... They don't care about race and don't attune to the accents like New York state, Boston & NYC, South Carolina and Georgia, the New Orleans dialect, and then the country, sometimes thought to be "the west." Floridians and Californians are really annoying but open, but I can't do anything about it because I'm a Floridian and people aren't open to me since my mom they somehow know is tan I guess and my dad might have Native American indian and the seemingly common German Jewish, like a lot of people. They really won't help me if I'm Native American. I just realized that in the south, they are more comfortable, the Native Americans. So, yes, I do have and have been told by my peers all the time when I was cool that I have a pure Floridian accent or rather that I have no accent I'm from Florida my accent is no accent that is the way everyone should be!!! I heard in L.A. and I guess throughout California.. like San Fransisco and the area that they have the Valley Girls and I grew to like it when I was in the New Orleans region. I heard that was all there was and all there will ever be, that there will be no new generations. :| Yes.. They just have really ***y voices and aren't muddled up in northern culture, but I had this friend who I think has a dad or maybe also mom from Canada. xp So... :| They not only have the pure voice but are so ...ed up, you know? They won't even think straight. They're like a hiccup, a ditzy. They just want to know where your parents are from because people from up north want to .... me for being from Florida and then criticize me for having blood from Scranton, etc.. PA Dutch? Also somewhere in NY. Like, they want to hurt me for my culture but never my voice. See, my mom has a European accent. You know, Ginny, not everybody can sing. I had to learn. My parents love good music. I grew up close to my mom ***ually but didn't like feel that tingly feeling so much. With my dad, we had the proper English relationship, no ... with my dad. I don't know about my brother, he's not very European and mocks me under protection of my parents.. I al ways grew up being the most European and was whiter than everyone else I told the people in the racial crisis type forum, but I changed since then. 8| In Loo eez ee anna lazy louisiana, they thought I was a foreign exchange student because of my mom. I actually sang more alone, there, so my accent kinda was lost. Oh, I just called but see you must have already gone to bed after class, I would but decided to do more singing and am eating and had to get my stuff etc., loading some practice videos, too. In Orlando, I got a sorta s--- voice.. I picked up on the tacky things here, also had this ½ Spanish ballet teacher who was young who said things funny maybe like brruther. I also picked up on the really low things in the New Orleans area. I didn't really connect with the girl from San Fransisco's voice. :| Same with the girl from L.A. I just don't in that sorta bland, raspy way. I finally got rid of the accent of the girl from NYC I'm working with for a lot of the part.. So, I feed off of people from California. I see you feed off of people from certain places. I saw Pennsylvania, Wisconsin, and Washington (state,) 2 from Wisconsin. Ah I'm gonna go eat guess I'll catch you later.. :) I see we can't Share, anymore, is there a reason? I see that sometimes.

Hi, yes, I would like to come. I hope this is a big turnout. I guess I have to make sure I ask you where it is. If it's not in your home, I wonder if there will be a nice place to eat. :) My mom can't make it, and I'll probably just go without my dad. I see people I knew online in Northeastern Florida.. but they haven't spoken to me and are busy with their lives, would like to come some of them, though. Even my aunts are busy. 1 of them might not be. You'd know she's about your age.. but she doesn't e-mail me, now, I guess because I haven't e-mailed her lately.  I don't seem to know anyone in Orlando but know I've seen people thru my mom.

So

Why didn't anyone else like Ginny? She teaches privately.

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What?

Do you expect me to not know when you punish me or react in a way that doesn't make sense? Why are you so dramatically smashing? Why would you be sexy? I've tried, already. What do you think I am, shit for Tim Burton like his spoiled brat daughter, who is unworthless.

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Flirtateous

Those niggers want to sit there and flirt about us kids. SHUT UP, NIGGER.

The lighting on my phone went down.

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