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Sunday, March 10, 2013

Problem

Why do you think I am my parents? I am in some way, but I am not them. I am a new and improved version, but they are fun and old, old-fashioned or the like, er..

I feel my parents kinda make fun of me for like "what they fed me" in the fetus.. =S

Other People

Everyone used to say I wish all the kids (everyone) were like me.. :| (and my brother, in some way you know..) So, that was because I was nice. You can't just live your life, jump back in, and expect to mimic me.

The thing with Ginny's class is she really doesn't seem to understand Central Florida. All I can say is the other kids are bad. Ginny doesn't care. She shouldn't even teach there. I mean, I'm not saying it's bad but that I mean you have to like ~find~ your like pupils. Like, why not get kids from the high schools? What about the young adults? That's -my- -question-. I mean, I'm waiting, I don't want it to be nothing as the answer. What about just me? Why worry, about anyone else?

Issue

Ginny's friends are annoyed because she thinks being famous is of no avail but goes on to say she is somebody, true, forget how it worked out..

Problem

I just got another radical message, people surrounding me telling me "thing's are-n't." Blah blah blah blah blah did you just see me do it you fool?

The Chloë Grace Moretz fanclub just pinned a note-! *D;

Hey, stop killing me about being from Miami, you know the area.. Fact is I 1st existed above Fort Lauderdale and then I was born there and lived closer to Miami but not as close as Johnny Depp..

More Thoughts Hitting

My old organ teacher|choir director did not keep a, what, appropriate relationship, at all.

My cousins will not correct their thought processes, so forget it you p.o.s.'s.

Also, my friends are holding out thinking they want to look like Late Boom but no one else should..-HA! ;D That is so funny, you know you totally care.

Why I Was Really Mad

If I was not unaccepted about me thinking in the experiment to call Tim Burton's daughter the N word, then Ginny would be normal around me and I would eventually be a normal person..

It would interest some people remotely and eventually, I imagined I heard like a boy with a raspy sorta stimulated voice like in a green saber thing saying, "Hi, Mom," and then like, well, going, maybe about a year or a year and a ½ ago. He wasn't too gay but seemed really smart, you know like boys here and in England.. =| I just hit a certain point in my age.

Suffering Schedule

I keep hearing these strange creaking noises above behind me, sounds like a person partially dead from Florida like when I didn't live in Orlando, sorta like they were suffering like me in schedule and just died.

Problem

Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Ginny Kopf are all GAY or something wanna .. see they think that some magical thing seems to have had to have happened if you cared, well it's never too late, that's what I say, or it will be too late when I lock you up and extract your personality. See, they will like sorta twist your feelings to where it affects you, just because their precious children's Charlie and the Chocolate Factory came out. They think it says they're gay because they submit to bad people, like this girl Tim Burton and Ellen DeGenerous are shittily onto. It's true, I don't mean they're shit. I can't believe it, really, WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON. You're not nice like you said you might be, you're a schizo, really shit. D': No, I looked up to you, in a way.. but you don't work that hard. I had to take a break. Wait, why me looking up to you is bad? SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU PIECE OF SHIT. FIGURE IT OUT YOU -STUPID- PERSON.

Something Funny..

I was talking to my brother from the bayou, and I told him all the 3 sorta interesting yet urban people I invited on Facebook were retarded..like Ellen DeGeneres because she's from there, too..

Issue

Please don't give me any of your French shit or b.s. If I can't live my childlike existence with the presence of someone like Ginny, then what's your GODDAMNED FUCKIN ANSWER!?

Facebook Post

Post to Ginny: Picture

Thank you for sharing this. I will post it on my blog. You inspired me to try to search my feelings in some way..

http://cab1986orlfl21.blogspot.com/2013/03/20130310-1.html

I thought you may like this, may make you feel better about Ginny feeling too good about herself:

*snuff snuff* yea .. a littoo turtle }:) so nice of you to tag Ginny so I could post @ it. }:) }:) You know, I have not seen so many turtles.. I grew up with lizards. }:) Yea. Turtle trying to make some stupid claim in life. Oh, boo hoo. Tough turtle, too. ,: Hadn't concerned myself so much over it. Hey, does somebody think I need them?

You know, you older people, women, think you're all so cool, but I was cooler. So, go yourself. :p Keep up. Learn to be nice. Don't just tell me you're a schizo. See, I know what I'm talking about. You guys are too shy. I'm not. You're not talking to me. So go.

Wow, next time someone helps you out I may sit there and watch you s*ff**.

You should never be with someone older. I hate you. See, my mom is just an idiot. Stop wasting my time, Ginny, I am better than you. You have done mean things to me when I was nice and fun to you. Ginny just holds out. Stop holding out. Never listen to popular people. WTF you think you are, you think I'm a nigger? I'm gonna call the police, you'll get in trouble through the years, and your life will be worthless.

Ginny should not promise anything to any of your kids, too, right?? Hm, this is so stupid. I was having a good time growing up. ,:(

Don't get mad at me getting attention. Stop, stop! You're all so lifeless. Why don't you just. What's wrong, I can't just sit here and puppet you. Hey, wait you don't know if you can as a person get mad at me for saying something really cool, that you doing something yourself is an entity that is often debated.. :p Who cares about those worthless kids's thinking, go talk to them yourself, Ginny.. Get it over with, I want my life, stop you attractive adults p*******ing yourself to ugly kids.

Wow, you have nothing to say, huh. I can be sociable if I want, you just happen to be unsociable. I want to be your friend, if you find Ginny a criminal. Just post on my forum. Forum 1. :) ;*

Problem

What a waste of time, Ginny, that p.o.s. because I mean I act in her class and it's like Tim Burton on the surface, just tells you you did something wrong and that what you did now is like dead but that there is no reason, what a p.o.s. I am just mad, learned to curse, somehow. I thought the words were funny, but I really am mad. I mean, what else could I say? How annoying? What an annoying person? She deserves to be knocked out? What? She isn't really a good person? She isn't really comfortable, but her X's last name was Kopf? I mean, ever since my mom was pregnant, I didn't look so perfect in figure. Everyone since has thought I was just crap. There were times in the past where I had problems but none like this were I look like a gay boy.

Facebook Posts

To: Linda Barber Jordan

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Hey, that's a cool guy.

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Words can hurt.

From: Fred Martinez

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Oh, that is so cute.

Problem

Stop telling me what I do doesn't matter. I'm not Chinese.

Tim Burton thinks I made a statement by posting online. What a piece of crap. You wanna just yourself?

Urgent

Ginny will e-mail other people. There is a reason she won't send me a proper e-mail, nor did people in other places.

Also, no one gives a shit about the attractive, romantic, exciting people from California born to the fLower age. They just tell us they're so inviting, claim that to hypnotize the environment, literally speaking, and then they hold out on people trying to live their lives..

It feels like it wasn't even worth being born...for my brother's safety I said pretty much after I'd see the fat(ter), blonde lady from Coral Springs, where he (and my little girl cousin a year younger, my mom's sister's daughter born the year after with younger sons, 1 born more recently but not too close to her age maybe..,) and the guy who thinks Orlando boys are shit in Student Services @ 6 P.M. also gonna call the police. Because of the reasoning behind how she will not answer me when I talk to her. I did think she should be locked up for getting too much attention. I won't take her sarcasm and the way her head is in the clouds. She thinks you have to give up things for attention..now I have to figure out what she already knows? I mean, what I said isn't crap. She keeps telling me I can't have an interesting life. Just shut up, stop talking to me in my room.

Problems

Why do these attractive Anglo-looking boys or English-looking boys, definitely.. think it's about being stimulated in like these selfish ways?

Also, forgot what else I thought..something to do with Ellen DeGeneres..ah yes, why..stop acting all explosive when someone attractive comes up because you know you're badder than me. I forgot, I'm better than you, Ginny, and Tim Burton, see if you can take that nigger seething through your teeth breadcrap.

Thought of Something..

What if you told someone not to talk to me who liked me who I liked, I mean what is your problem, because I see the alternative as paying attention to the likes of you?

Problem

Look, what's going on? Every time I hear a click or there's a mistake, something happens like to a part of my body that seemed defiant about something I said that was true. Look, I don't have communication skills. Why are you acting like I'm Chinese?

News! x0

Ellen DeGeneres shooting Aus-tral-ia

***article***

Ate

I had my cheesy and PB crackers in the morn, well night, and 3 separate little sammiches of buffalo chicken tubes and blue cheese "crumbs" with Coca Cola from a littoo bottoo. I -am- baking my 1st White. Cake. with my 1st in recent times -2- cans of white|nilla frosting. '8|

New Video of Me

Practicing my Acting for School

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Saturday, March 9, 2013

So

I did another video of me acting. I might watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I missed again, maybe find good episodes and go through clips. I mean, I won't catch all of her. You know, I'm getting very uncomfortable. I've always said this. I made a category in my blog somewhere of her show. So, I'm trying to talk about it, now, wow, must have gotten smart, I mean I -am- busier. It doesn't seem successful, might ... oh, yes, the "Discussion" category. Are you wondering why 1st is Emergency, then Issues, then Tags, the point of the blog? I think Discussion is next here. Tags is most important. I don't know about Emergency, sorta psychiatric threat crisises. Issues is for people who don't want to read my whole blog and don't visit it every day.. :|

Problem

Are you trying to say I can only have 1 heritage?

Why don't you see if you can fix my life. I don't owe anyone shit! WTF is your problem? I mean, who needs me? I keep getting bothered, and when I talk about it something else happens..

Privacy

So, I've gotten a lot of weird messages, quite radical, against me.

I dunno ... maybe, you can stop fussing "with 'my attitude.'"

My Eyesight

I can't play piano until I get a spotlight lamp. My eyes are becoming farsighted, as well, 1st time.

New Video of Me

watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

YouTube

So

My brother's here, and I found my parents might use my monthly money for transportation and food at school, whereas before they were gonna give me money. Also, my dad wouldn't buy me the type of clothes I picked and didn't contribute any money for it. I just picked 1 outfit. It was $100, though, but I was gonna pay for some of it. It includes pink boots, tights, socks ... gloves, think that's all, though, oh yes, and an undershirt?? He just thinks it's not important, but I don't think he knows. My brother just got back from visiting his new college, graduates actually.. not something I would do.. and he seems all mad about something, like not watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" when my life was hard. I didn't know I wouldn't, and I was gonna go back, doesn't look like I will necessarily be going out this weekend, just to practice.. ':| I dunno though what's that to you really? My brother is not more related to me than my parents nor anyone.

What I Did

I woke up and looked around for a way to stimulate myself and did, was kinda lame kinda cool, not disappointed. I was in bed avoiding it, but it doesn't scare me, anymore. I mean, I am glad I was able to sleep so much, may not go anywhere tomorrow but need something for school for Tuesday. I might just think of something and ask my dad. Ah, gotta pee-

Dreams

I remember seeing my old psychiatrist, wondering why he was Spanish, forgot he was, shorter, bald top, more thin but sagging weight, knew he had an accent, seemed more Italian than other things I thought at random. I came up to a machine where I could slit in coins, or other things I don't remember, and a machine with candy, my dad put in 81¢. I wanted to get some seafood platter, but I couldn't. There was a little fat boy on the other side eating it. There was 1 with swirly seafood, like a pointy seashell. I ended up getting a candy bar, and I got like a quarter, a dime, and other things back. It was a specific thing, think it was peanuty but didn't seem full of nuts.The next dream, I kept wanting to **********. So, I remember being with my mom and brother, and there was some sorta holistic somewhat sadistic cartoon on a television perched up somewhere. I went into the little bathroom, without bringing my shower stuff, just waking up, and I turned on the baths, 1 of them stopped short after pouring a burst of water. The other would fill up and seemed almost like it was full of pee. I went to *********, but it ended like a sorta art|ballet image, nostalgic.. Then, I was in bed, and I wanted to be hugged like in a picture of a girl with nearly white hair on the lap of a lady with light brown hair.. It seemed so important. So, I was in bed like a feline or a rodent. I really did this in bed, too, but couldn't do it and refused to flip around. I imagined I was in a womb kinda, in my bed, and little sorta clinically off feeling would emit to the womb from me. So, I just sat there. I guess, oh yes, I was facing up like a cute crustateon. My mom I felt, with her broomstick hair.. came and hugged my like she was a rolly polly Olly. She did it twice. It gave me some sensation. She said my ideas were grotesque and stimulated my ******* but you know like I don't get stimulated there so much. 1 of the things there is purple and stretched out and doesn't seem to feel, and I remember it used to feel. Anyone else have this problem? She thought that was something. You know, I've never really felt like the way you'd imagine would blast in. I thought I had to suffer for being ½ Chinese, and people make fun of my nice dad. Just that he's not nicer than me, so, I mean doi.

Going to Bed

Leaving this evening, probably..

I lay down waiting for my video to load, and I felt I was in a room with a typewriter and it was like all quiet. I was thinking about working. I was thinking like trying to concentrate, relax, falling asleep maybe but had to stay awake and had a hard time concentrating.. wondering about my lifestyle and some things I thought.

Facebook Posts

To: Disney ABC Careers

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Yes, you are supposed to be able to achieve anywhere, to have a seamless relationship.

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Well, some people are more multicultural.. Adults tend to have fetishes and can't provide as people, as far as I can tell. They are consumed by reality and don't really have any gut to offer. ;/

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That looks like an internet meme. You know, a logo. Like a virtual chat world|arena. Like connected to Facebook, you know?? Just a place to go to when you're not busy on IMDb. :(

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You know, Orlando doesn't have much nor New Orleans in way of like tall skyscrapers. I mean, it wouldn't be as much of a threat. Classes tend to fill up. We shouldn't have like hard general studies courses. I mean, classroom math I know is good, but I mean English online is so easy, in my experience where I took. We just spend time looking up stuff in most classes, maybe not as much in classroom classes but really don't know. Speech seemed really prestigious. I saw the author of "Fast Food Nation" as an assignment in a place with tables all along the edges. He like tilted his shoulders at me and kept looking at me sometimes, acknowledging my prestige. This was 2007. I mean, we have to have like passes to classrooms, I guess. Then, I guess we'd have to have police monitor parking lots. Not sure where else to go from there. Too bad we don't have subways? How would we get to the neighborhood? I am not afraid to walk alone at night, know I could die. I just don't have any stake in life, don't want to just sit and home and people will know I am gone. I mean, I don't make it obvious where I go, somehow, though. You know, that classroom looks like an apartment.. 8p Guess like dorms you stack it up. I'm living at home. I was gonna go somewhere for summer, but I live at home so my parents can take care of home needs. :( Dunno. Yea, things should be fixed up, but I mean, like how? I mean, make a new campus? }:)

So

My parents will wake up soon, feel tired, want to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" from before. I watched some of yesterday, should look through and pick. Gonna load me watching it, though.. I was gonna watch it, and I'm trying to analyze it. I just was losing sleep. Not sure what happened, but things happened, actually.

Where I'd Like to Live

I was thinking maybe Oregon or Montana, but I mean I liked going to college in Cleveland.. You know, think about it, not San Fransisco, not Washington state.

Problem

Are you just gonna act like I'm Chinese for saying that you realize we don't have the freedom any longer to achieve, strangely, it seems every stranger I meet, since Tim Burton and me being in an experiment? I mean Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in 2005. Everyone else says, "It's Johnny Depp." What the Hell does that mean, that you get to have *** with Ellen DeGeneres like your mom? I mean, too bad you're just a piece of shit as a person. You sure don't care about anything that is cool. All you young people admit you're just crap, just gonna sit there and say you deserve people Ellen's age to be your mom and that you're better or whatever and that nothing I do meant anything.

On Top

So, I know that there was nothing wrong with me thinking I was supposed to call Tim Burton's daughter the N word in the experiment, that I was told to but didn't want to, though it was possible that I would for fun because it was considered cool, you know because people think I'm a nigger, though, otherwise would not matter because I mean it would mean someone cool said it, you know? I know everything you do is because you did not accept it was okay. I mean, is it okay you put people in jail for 30 years for drinking and driving?

Edit

I added a tag to my last post and added a new Page.

What I Did

I watched 1 episode of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." My head is so like tight like a hot air balloon. I want to watch another episode, but I feel like black people, from in the show and like that she sees, are watching me, so it hurt me. So, I am taking a break, have to wake up this evening. If I don't go out, bad things always happen, and I feel bad each time I just don't go out. I should practice more theater, see if I have theater homework, do my P.E. homework by Sunday or possibly Monday morning. I won't spend much time on it, she didn't say it was a big thing, 3 questions, might take some looking up, you know, who knows. I have to go to the bathroom, but my head is so cold. You know, it's still like freezing here. We had a slow start to the winter, barely needed any protection. Also, I didn't go to the bathroom at the mall, usually had been going every hour or like 2 times there when I go, walking around, sometimes like 3 times from like before 6 - 9. So, yea, I'll watch her show. I want to like process it and write about it on my blog. It's just I just use it to enjoy myself and acclimate myself to her. I don't feel like getting up for the bathroom, don't think I really have to go, my parents are sleeping. Anyway, I liked the girl my age. She is like a couple weeks older, from Eastern Canada. She had reddish hair, from up north. I guess you would have to accept my mom is from a hot climate, and my dad is from a climate that gets snow in the winter. Um, I guess it's not as cold as like, what Washington state, Wisconsin supposedly at least a long time ago without the technology, and maybe other places on earth. It does get cold I know in Northeastern Florida. It doesn't seem to last that long. I mean, it does, but like the more exciting, biting cold doesn't. You can imagine it, it's not like thin and watery, it's like bouncy and jittery. New Orleans is more about the wind and fog and humidity. I just remember that it was colder in New Orleans but not as biting, well the area. I don't really even know why now. I'm just kinda comfortable here in Disney, care about the people, don't seem to get them, but I mean when you see them you see that they take into account important things, like they know about people from here from 1900. I mean, Florida is nice, and Disney is like NYC. I just feel that people in places like the Miami area are reptitive. Maybe, they need to like network. It's just something that like stands in the way, I mean I just think it's something I already know, I'm from there so don't kill me. Anyway, I mean, yea I'm like a white person but not technically all related blood European. There's no problem. My family is from Indonesia, not China. So, think of me as like the best of both, really it. I just have no like prejudice like oh I'm from the South. I mean, Indonesia is probably the best, but I'm not telling you I'm not interested in you because I really really am so very interested. Don't tell me I don't know what I'm thinking all the time. Pennsylvania is 2 things, it's like smart and sorta moral about U.S. culture but don't know about how cold it is to anyone, I mean think about it, it isn't by the ocean. It really is just the postcard city, very real, but I mean you look at it and it seems to turn into like a wax paper of grease, unfortunately.

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My Walk

I had a sammich, a Slim Jim, a health drink, and a health bar.

New Videos of Me

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Mobile

New Sets

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New Photos of Me

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My Trip

I walked around the mal, got strawberry hand sanitizer, the other being tangerines. I had to use an old dispenser pump. I also got a new hand sanitizer holder with a little crab chain with a heart diamond and a Saint Patrick's Day sanitizer and 4 I <3 Bling 1s. I ate at Starbucks, the tomato sandwich, and the sugary littel expensive strawberry banana smoothie, also there is chocolate banana..wouldn't have it. ;[ I walked around more and got a little ham and cheese, er, panini, as well, hot, on a tray in a bag, with a little package like snuff of shortbreat, tasted like Asian food. I might go for a walk but am tired, need to do floor workouts, and get another sammich and protein bar. I might run through my theater now.

Friday, March 8, 2013

New Photos

Why do

Why am I getting bugged by people from up north about what I do, like they analyze me and tell me I'm like flipping my eyelids? I mean, like familial types..

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) L.A. (

Nothing small @ it. Wanna go to Miami, FL)))

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I was somebody.

In New Orleans, I was somebody in Disney.

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Time

So, I can go, maybe in an hour or less. I guess I'll watch the movies Sunday. So, I'll have 2+ hours out and have de-licious food. Find some sort of dessert. Ah! I forgot what I was thinking of saying.. Then, I leave tomorrow around 6, no, 5, P.M. Back by around 9 P.M. So, I'll come home tonight and probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." The other thing is I need to find game shows. Also, my TV has static at the top that covers mayb 3 inches. I want to see if I can understand how they play. I used to figure out a good way to play checkers, online. I just have to wake up by around 4 P.M. and that means just go to bed by like 3 A.M., which isn't really so fun. I may be tired, though, then it's off, might practice theater some, don't need to be in a rush, will get to the homework. Mabye do it tomorrow night. So, I'll have to go to bed again by like 3 A.M. so I can go to the movies. Then, I practice on Monday, leave in the late morning. Come home, need to be packed and then wake up at like 5 A.M. I don't really need to stay up until 6 A.M. Hopefully watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" will go well. I do have a want to fall asleep, my blog is all set up, have a new Facebook, doing well on Twitter. So, yes, looking forward to the healthy outing of the week alone I guess..

How I Feel

I'm tired, don't have too much trouble thinking. xp Maybe, I'll eat out later tonight. I also wanna see a movie this weekend, but I am so tired. I should go back to bed. Or watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I guess the 1 from today. You know, I have to practice on Monday, should pack for school. I also have to go shopping before Tuesday just for a little for something fun. Guess this will be an easy week, no class Thursday, probably not really doing anything Tuesday, I'm just all so tired..

Dream

I was in this place with like 2 arenas. I saw Tim Burton and went to hug him. He lifted me in the air curled up by his leg and it made me feel funny.

Before, I was at an old friend's house with her mom being rigid with me, sleeping with my friend, whow as equally ratted. I was supposed to be taking pills or something.

The dreams were rather long and slightly annoying.

Going to Bed

I am gonna have to rest soon. I might get up and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." 3| I have to do my nails and go to the bathroom. I feel so weighted down from the sleep loss coupled with weight training.

Facebook Posts

To: Linda Barber Jordan

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Harr Harr Harr. That was so funny. He's just like. "God, can I ask you a question?" I wonder how they got such a funny picture. I think of what I do in that way. It doesn't really come to me from up above.

To: Heather Evans

"Work and still had time to put forth a few more steps Into furthering/changing my career. Now this tired lady has to crash out for work early in the am. Didn't I tell you I love getting up before dawn?? Psssshhh...."

I'm still struggling learning how to live. I found out that weight exercise makes me very tired and that sleep loss lingers - harr .. harr .. harr. Speaking of hardy har har, hair would be a good way to get you hired, just find some way to make yourself look presentable. I have this theater teacher I found who teaches talking to business pros, as well as being the Disney instructor since 1988..been here since like 1982, though..She's not like a teenager to me, she's born in 1958. She mostly works with older students. I think there is 1 hardy har har teen in a class. She's very, what do you call it, flippant, but she won't admit it, as everyone here in Orlando seems to have been..though, honestly I would take it personally aback were it to have started when I moved here, 2005.. x

E-Mail

Can you use my SSI money to get the things on this shopping list, please? I asked Dad, and he just said he didn't think it was worth it. I wanted to get 2 dresses. Instead, I picked just 1 outfit. I told him to pick how much money he wants to spend. This is my clothes, and I need new clothes or want new clothes. Maybe, you can pitch in some. I don't know why Dad is suddenly not paying at all for my clothes. Maybe, we can ask him to contribute some. I may need some money for food, music, etc. I can't have it where Dad buys me no more clothes. This is the clothes I want. I even told him I'd pay for part of it. Thanks. *:puke! puke

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Why won't you get me the dresses for $50? That's not very expensive for a dress. I'm using the money I get from SSI for food, and I only get $180 per month. How am I supposed to get clothes if you never get me anything? What, you just don't want to get me pink boots? I already told you I need you to save to get me these things. I already told you a long time ago. I would have maybe changed how I used my money, if possible, or you should have already known I'd spend maybe $100 on clothes in 1 month..getting stuff online instead of a shirt at the store since I want dresses. Why does Mom take my SSI money? I only get $180.. if I spend it, then I won't have any at the end of the month. I'm using it to make sure I have money for the food, and you can use your money for the clothes. What, so then just get some of the stuff I asked for. Get 1 dress at a time.

Pink Girl Child's Party Dress
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_1082HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Girl Child's Turtleneck
Size 14-16 XL - Color: Pink - $4.90
http://www.target.com/p/cherokee-girls-long-sleeve-turtleneck/-/A-14171125?ref=tgt_adv_XSG10001&AFID=Google_PLA_df&LNM=|14168611&CPNG=Women&kpid=14168611&LID=PA&ci_src=17588969&ci_sku=14168611

Pink Knee Socks
1 size fits all - $11.97
http://compare.ebay.com/like/360502156110?var=lv&ltyp=AllFixedPriceItemTypes&var=sbar

Pink Women's Leggings
Size M|L - $12http://www.dillards.com/product/Moa-Moa-Basic-Leggings_301_-1_301_501845724?df=02516444_zi_charcoal

Pink Gloves
$7.75http://www.bonanza.com/listings/WOMEN-S-FLEECE-GLOVES-IN-ROSE-PINK-NIP/98874703

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Without the boots, it's $81.81.

If you want, you can get cheaper boots:

Pink Boots
Size 9 - $16.99
http://www.discountwomensdressshoes.com/servlet/the-46998/Hot-dsh-Pink-dsh-Suede-Comfortable-Winter-Womens/Detail?gclid=CJvc5MHa5rUCFQeznQodCXQAbw

Total
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$103.60

So, maybe, I can use some of my money, but Mom probably won't want to help. See what you can do, maybe buy the dress and accessories and I can get the boots or something, or I can get the dress and you can get everything else. Just pick how much you are willing to spend and I can buy the rest. Thanks.

E-Mail

Can you reserve a ride for me, Mom said...

I want to go to [gymnastics]

tomorrow, Saturday. I want to get there by 5:50 P.M. and leave at 8:30 P.M.

The # is 407-423-8747. Then press #4. Get the # I can call to check the ride that they give you and e-mail it to me. Thanks.

I'll e-mail you again if I feel like calling. I was about to go to sleep and thought you were taking me. Now, we are gonna pay $8, makes sense, you won't have to go on a Saturday night. I guess you're going to work, soon. I think it opens @ 8, and I was gonna just go to bed but might go out and get the phone and call. If I don't e-mail again, please reserve the ride. Thanks. Have a good day at work..

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I watched the 1st part of "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and like when watching Tim Burton turned it off. I'm gonna go for a jog. My stomach's been overflowing. Yesterday was ... Thursday, talked to my mom and went to bed. Wednesday I just remember waking up later and my parents being home late. Monday was gymnastics and loaded it, Tuesday was my night out, my parents went to see my grandma at my aunt's ½way to Gainesville. So, I plan to finish this episode and try to work on my theater, though I feel a bit loony not sure what from, maybe from being harassed from my perverted fantasies, which really aren't all that perverted. It's like the feelings that hit after and the sorta magnet that draws me to wondering about the feelings I wonder about about concrete things in life. I would stay and watch. I just feel I need to exercise. I just had some nice water. Also, at the gas station I got 2 sandwiches, a smoothie drink, and a chocolaty health bar. I couldn't stand anything else. At school, I eat like that. I guess that means not so many burgers and dogs but maybe liverwurst when I wake up.

I figured it out.

I should have gone to a public junior high, though I don't remember why. I think - oh, yes, it was so that I wouldn't have too much homework and would get enough sleep. That always boosts test scores. I also realized I should only have considered ballet. I don't know, guess the only place to go would be that 1 big ballet studio. That would mean no choir, so I don't know how fun that would be. They said I could go just 1 day or up to 6 days, though later I found there was a pointe class on Wednesday afternoons|evenings, I think. I guess I would do ballet and choir. I guess my high school schedule would be:

Year 1
1. English I (G)
2. Geometry (G)
3. Physical Science (H)
4. World Geography
5. Career Orientation | Civics
6. PE I
7. Talented Theater

Year 2
1. English II (G)
2. Algebra II (G)
3. Biology I (H)
4. World History (H?)
5. PE II | Health
6. Spanish I (?)
7. Talented Theater

Year 3
1. English III (G)
2. Advanced Math (APG)
3. Chemistry I (H)
4. American History (APG!?)
5. Spanish II
6. Talented Theater
7. Free Enterprise | (PE II)

Year 4
1. English IV (G)
2. Calcluls (APG)
3. Physics (H)
4. Modern (American?) History (APG?)
5. Talented Theater
6.
7.

After School: Adult Choir at Church, Gymnastics, Ballet, Organ..

My focus intent is to be on not really spending that much time on anything but blogging online and I guess also practicing my singing, doing floor exercises regularly as well of course. Um, yea, high school art was cool. I did it for 2 years almost 3..not sure what to say about that.

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I'm just sitting here feeling forlorn about Ginny. I like keeping up with Ellen DeGeneres, watching her show, look at her Twitter every day. I was just tired lying down. I guess I felt an aversion. I was kinda lonely. I have to figure out something for the summer, wanted trapeze. I dunno, I mean what about some water activity where you wear a bathing suit|bikini?

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If Ginny (and Tim Burton) -are- for 1 focus, then why are they reluctant?

How is that okay? I think I've been here, awhile.

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No Passing

So, Ginny can't talk to famous kids because she won't talk to me. Let's her.

Down in the Briar Patch

Did you ever consider that me fixing my life didn't work? It has to. It's a lot of work. I need to work out, might go for a walk and buy a sammich..

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So, Ginny married a guy with a Jewish last name who was a bit younger. Makes sense he's younger. He happens to be from Cleveland, the outerbrush. She's like fuckin Tim Burton, tells it like it is. I don't give a fuck about that. Maybe you can give a fuck about me! Learn to use your brain, you dumb dumbs, you niggers, you Jewish?

Problem

So, really, Ginny is not talking to me. I post on her Facebook, and I believe she has responded once, but that is so gay. She should never fuckin have gotten married, but she'll just say she's divorced but still cares. It probably just says I'm not her kid. I'm kinda not like a perv. She really is being defiant or really has some reason that she doesn't want to talk, and it better not have to do with Tim Burton.. I have a feeling even if Charlie and the Chocolate Factory didn't come out it'd still have to do with him. Why would you care who made The Nightmare Before Christmas? I didn't even happen to see that. I thought that it was like sorta an attempt at showing off. It looked kinda crappy or crapped about, I guess. I kinda wanted to see it for the education, but my parents didn't take me ... why would I ask to see something like that, to try to say that his art is better? Well, he didn't draw all the glowing lights. He seems kinda messed up, like makes himself feel good in ways other people would find undignifying and pushy, trying to say he's human and won't like talk to you unless in person, like he's allergic to the phone and thinks everyone should be able to afford a computer in 1993. ;D Well, you know, he might get confused.

You know, even if she writes back, I still feel that she has some issue with me, though I believe she will not write back and if she does I feel it is possible she may not. I don't want to feel funny about it. I've e-mailed quite a lot to anyone I possibly could.. }:D I e-mailed about me teaching German for an art song. I was specific about it and added my plethora of crap I had to offer. I even said how much do you want me to pay you. I wonder what she has to offer from Orlando. I just feel she thinks it's cool not to answer. If she does, I will feel like she gave up some of her life for me and that she wishes she were me because I were younger. I am very willing and defiant to talk about that topic. I have forums up. Well, I mean, yea, I have a message board. So, what should I do? She is like doing all these improper things. It's like I shouldn't even go to her classes. Those were who she posted to. No one else is talking. Well, that's too bad. I can still talk, even if you "forgot." So, she is fishing like Tim Burton from California for attention she won't give. I really hate that. Especially if you really said you would. I just know there is some issue. What was Tim Burton's issue? I know Johnny Depp was being like mimicy about not watching them online. I thought most people did. I didn't because I guess I knew they didn't have anything to offer, and I just wanted to post for myself. You know, I went online other than Facebook to get info. about Pirates casting, demanded it, obviously no response. I was hoping to be an extra. Maybe, I will try that, now. I mean, it's not happening. I want the attention and the networking. That's what you're supposed to figure out how to do. I just am not getting accepted. I don't want to make myself skinny just to wait for your well-fed, well-nourished, supple, elastic brat born in 1998. Also, why wait for people like Bella Thorne to talk to me? And Maggie Elizabeth Jones. What about that? Don't tell me I'm shit like younger people who shit. Don't go looking for some older star. Okay, Ellen DeGeneres, because that sounds like something you do, not suggesting anything about her, though.. Did you notice no one likes my old friends? They don't believe it, really. So, why did you waste your time on that? I mean, what happened to your life? Weren't you gonna use it on me? }:D See, how stupid that Tim Burton is? Wow, what am I supposed to think? Other people can talk to Ginny, and it's not about age, so suck on that.

Using Me

You know, people are reluctant to be agreeable. Ginny was using that my dad was mad to not talk to me. She claims all of Orlando hates me. Go somewhere else.

Online

My friends pushed me to make a statement. So, now Ginny doesn't like me. Hey, this is my blog, it's the place I put my soul, everything.

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Welcome to my Blogger!

I realzied why I was mad

She is being rebellious about social networking online. Also, she is doing it just to me. That is suggestive considering what I'm supposed to feel, if you know what I'm talking about.. It's just 1 more piece of bullcrap for me to have to think about. I kinda don't want to ask her to add me on a new Facebook.. hey I did get a new Facebook. She said she would. She was supposed to say why she wouldn't. She seems gay like Órla Karron Fallon. I just get a definiitive, stuck up message from her. Everyone else can tell she's crass. I am so sick of this bullshit of people telling me I'm gay to want organized attention, that's why, but I'm also mad at the fact all these people in the community turn on me. My old choir director and organ teacher has nothing to live for. She's a * * *. She teaches gay kids.

f.y.i.

So, Ginny posted on Facebook the day after I sent her the e-mail.. :|

I just had a revelation. 8|

Some people will never let you network among attractive people.

I don't know anyone who just doesn't answer - take my old choir director and my old theater teacher disappearing from Facebook ... my old friends.. I realize that I mean she lives here, but still..

Inappropriate

I mean I don't have family from the New Orleans area, and I am from Florida. I don't want to listen to her crass bullshit that I didn't respond right away. You know, I had this friend who seemed to theme that me wanting to talk to people was looking for ***. See, she is just being flirtatious. I see she likes me, but maybe she just isn't very active online. I won't take her crass bullshit that she won't respond the way Tim Burton holds out. I think it's because of him. She might not be normal, but she seemed like a good person. What happened to my fuckin choir director and organ teacher? She doesn't respond much. Haha, I know what you're thinking, too. There was this other teacher I was supposed to talk to, but she left Facebook.

Rude

I am rather upset. I feel Ginny is being rude. She didn't answer me. She didn't readd me on another Facebook. She's just being another popular Pennsylvanian or Californian who will not directly speak to me, is probably fucked up and looking for ***. What am I supposed to do? I mean, she said to e-mail her. What do you think that flippin' means?

Salad..

I should have had a salad. I feel heavy like an eraser. So, at school, I got this huge salad with extra oil and these little sprouts.

How I Feel

I feel full and weighted down. :{ I hope I get over it. I'm tired, too. I need sleeping pills, but my mom said it's dangerous.

Dream

I had this good feeling walking around. So, I was at this lot, like on a floor of a lot by an airport, like at a theater class, like Ellen DeGeneres was the teacher. I was thinking about my mom's age. I kept feeling good the whole time, like based with all over. I don't distinctly remember the instructor. I filed in early and found people in the class, 1 was like tall with light medium brown hair, bnags, glasses, straight smooth hair, another maybe black and kinda like the girl I'm working with a little plump a good height, another girl the same stature but white maybe like reddish darker hair, the other maybe some similar blend, maybe a little taller and slimmer. I kept walking around, but I kept feeling good. I think the instructor was like looking over shouting. She was like concerned and caring but supposedly strict academically. It's an interesting way to be, maybe was also looking for Ginny but not actually in this dream but probablya distant thought.

Warm Welcome

Why is everyone from Florida turning on me instead of welcoming me back..?

Winded

Good. Eating. Making another Buffalo chicken sub with blue cheese. Having Chef Boyardee canned macaroni and cheese leftovers at the mo, maybe some .. what's it? liverwurst.

Time's Up

I've been online a long time. You haven't figured out for me why your dad's from Penn?

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8 Years

Ginny is fat, and most fat people are agreeable yet uninteresting. I'm not sure if I ever had a successful relationship with any unhealthy person. I don't just want a skinny, dorky friend. She also thinks she has a more attractive background and that that's dirt. Maybe, she's just a sorry case. Her mom made her attractive so she would be hygienic. I don't take for granted what my mom did for me. You can't just assume it's the bastard cause that morale ain't so. It was only about crazy, drunk fathers. My dad is tacky because he ain't skinny, and he don't work out, no more. Also, kids have to have traits from each parent. I needed to work out, but it seemed like I'd done too much gymnastics, not much good in way of dance, I guess. I mean, there's not necessarily like a certain option. I was struggling between ballet and jazz/lyrical. Now, it seems to not help, nothing I do. I sit around at home, people just keep thinking my dad is gonna hurt them, send them a hurtful message. Just think about how Tim Burton and Johnny Depp changed the world. I remember it was the people, but Tim Burton is crass. He was kind unrelenting to people who wanted to be actors rather than not be actors. I wouldn't accept it. Why should he have a daughter, at all? No one gives a fuck, fuck fuck fuck like a duck. You, like Ginny, is just waiting for the perfect person to come around and keep barking at me for seeming too atypical for having a mixed European father with typical family names and a Chinese mom who is typically attractive from her younger age.. That proves Tim Burton lied that he's not really holding out for a good reason but for selfish reasons. I guess that's why I chose Johnny Depp and then found he depended on Tim Burton but that Tim Burton pretty much didn't feel good about his not being able to act. I mean, my mom and I could get him in shape, but he's with "stupe-id" He~le~na Bonham Carter. I was getting better. He just needs people to talk to. Sit at a computer and find someone to talk to on a message forum. Start walking and jogging, do the core workouts and weights for the health of yur blessed arms. It's your fault for not being a total person. Lazy people from California. Go suck a fish corpse. Talk to people, or you'll get fat and die, like the old days. Stop getting high on artificial attention. I never get any attention. It's all hidden traps. You're just gonna say, hug your dad. What about my mom? I didn't say I wanted to hug Tim Burton. I just kinda deal with it but can hug other people. I mean, what would happen? I would just sorta lose my tease, like I did with my dad. I just wanted a nice relationship. I guess it was special to him. I'm not really gonna hug Ginny. I just want to set her straight, to understand she's crap, she acts like she has some like nonexistent program in Orlando because it's Disney. You have to go completely into something, you can't get too much good attention like of fate thinking coincidences are miracles. You know, she doesn't use Facebook much. I don't know how most people know her. They might look up things in Orlando. You know, people in Theater in places like New Orleans. People wouldn't post to her much. It's funny, I spent a lot of time bettering myself and kinda have a lot to spray. I guess I'm not in a certain mood. I mean, it just seems like things used to be different, like no matter what I did. If there's something wrong, it's Orlando's fault, crappy Orlando. It's not like, I'm just there and no one can do anything with me. What the hell is that? Am I losing memory? Why aren't things getting better? I'm still in the program. If you're not good enough, then leave me alone. People who are good are never supposed to turn anyone down and not hear what they have to say, like Gahndi. You know, I don't care what you think about me having a dad from Pennsylvania. I know you just care about the Pennsylvania Dutch. Why not knock out other states while you're at it, like Delaware? I mean, I had a fun friend family from there. You know, Ginny, I don't give a shit what these so-called "Floridians" think. Florida is a beach state. It is not the only place you can be modern. Say what you will, that's what they think. Why do you even feed the birds? Don't you like me? I just want to find out what happened, why you are just being mean because of Tim Burton and why people are ignoring me online but later on people won't. That's the only way to communicate, people live online. Why not accept that I mean no ill will to anyone. I just want to do my homework and have a good time. Having a good time is not illegal. Why is everyone like gawking over Ginny and feeling sorry for her teaching the children who believe in shit? I mean, I am not that kind of person. That's all you've thought of while I've been submitting myself to this. I just want a good time. I want to see people! Is that so hard to ask? I don't even know if I want to be famous. I want to meet famous people, though. I'm lonely, no one wants to approach me nor admit I seem, like, popular. You all are denying me that for 8 years!

What I Did

I recorded 3 acting things. I'm posting it on YouTube. I did my workouts after the laundry, still have to iron. Washing the towels.. The acting was interesting, maybe valuable enough. I should do it more recording my face because it engaged me more. When I have it memorized, maybe I can do it standing, again. It's just that it was hard to remember. I guess I have to sit there and think of it remembering, maybe can try it without recording my face. It seems like not as fun that way, though..

Disney World

Why is Ginny so sarcastic like Órla Karron Fallon and Ellen DeGeneres? She acted like the kids here who are from Orlando since maybe around age 13 set themselves up to hypnotize themselves to submission that they had a fair shot at life compared to most people and that they did the right thing but that they were some *** object to Ginny just because she is like famous for doing the talking at Disney or something since the 80s. The fact is it's just because she's attractive, too, and not like someone too skinny born like around the time of Céline Dion - and why do you find it tacky I mentioned her because it's not. I haven't really heard anyone talk about it so don't know. I want to talk about it, just mention it ... gotta problem, just trying to impress someone, trying to achieve some contrapted ideal? I have a feeling it won't work ~ Just admit that she's ***y and has good ideals but gawp at the fact she's born in 1958 and has a mom from California, maybe appreciate her dad being from Pittsburgh- I met up with people from another area, and their kids's mistake is that they are stuck up about working, like no one should help them in thinking about working, selling souveniers at Wicked, which is about the Wizard of Oz.. Bottom line don't sit there and shit with me about my parents's heritage, I'm not supposed to have to suffer because of it. So, I mean, these kids are pressuring me not to succeed. I want to find a place I can go, but I want to stay here so I can live easily. They think you have to sit there and think you're nothing to encourage others to think they're nothing, have no goal they are striving for, think it's desirable, yet tacky, won't admit they have to go pleasure themselves themselves. I know I used to be like that but not in that way. I mean, I looked presentable, I didn't like role my eyes and buzz my lips at the teacher and show off my, like, nigger skin cells. I didn't approve of thinking things were shit just to put off what I was supposed to do. I wanted to be like you were supposed to, didn't think I was supposed to be like a beggar on the street, not sure how to elaborate on that nor shout it out. Why is Ginny so inhibited. Everyone I know who's moved here is outspoken. Ginny just thinks I'm an adult, shoudln't know my age. She doesn't respond appropriately, just doesn't really seem that accomplished. It's bugging me, I don't want to have to respect like some thing she's saying I'm not good enough for when everyone before Tim Burton came around would like approach me, and no one will accept the new me. No one even accepts I'm a kid to my mom, anymore. My dad was already off. He will cycle into the thought that he's not. The kids here are totally the opposite and I can't get the pressure off to stop thinking about the pressure they have on me, that I need their attention or needed it, in some way. They just won't get off. I guess it's keeping me from thinking. I want to feel attractive, not like Floridian scum. I mean, Florida was supposed to be a good place, has a nice sea breeze and Disney World.

No Chance

I don't know why people have been so mean to me lately. I mean, I know I was staying up late and depended on being kicked out but forgot I was, what's the word, disturbed that I was kicked out of Music Education and Singing as a class.

I heard a click in my bathroom. It seems that I have to wait for something to stop bothering me. I don't want to put up with this bull, at all. I mean, I'm not in the mood.

So

Does Ginny think I am gay? Who's gonna talk to me? I don't demand it, but I mean I just wanna talk about it. I mean, there are only so many of certain figures in Orlando, I assume. I am not sure where to go, but I did want to live at home for now. I mean, if there was a non-gay reason or something.