Problem

My problem I wanted to address my dad was I'm in a constant fit of stimulation, battling it from him, he who should not be in my life in this way.  He keeps trying to say suggestive things @ just anything.  He started yelling in the car at me or things I said and made up weird things.  It's just because he stimulated my brother as a baby.  My parents are selfish and that's stupid.

Problem

My dad is trying to stimulate me just because my mom was thinking @ stimulating my little brother.  Like, he keeps saying stimulating things, suggestive things.  I think it has something to do with Ellen DeGeneres, unfortunately-

May I break another ice cube?

My mom may be Chinese, but she's a good mom as in a good person.  There are things she has and then again things she doesn't- (me)  I mean, do you wanna meet her?  What did I get from her?  Isn't it obvious?  Also, I'm related to my dad's relatives.

The unspoken: some people don't even wanna be good, but my mom is not disagreeable.  I like you all a lot for what you've offered, too, honestly-  My mom isn't too annoying about silly things.  I think she changed after my brother was born-  Why is he a key figure in our family?  Isn't he the side dish- whoops why'd I say that?  It's just that it's using food as an example for us.  My brother is just my worst fears.  Should we dispose of them - no.  What's wrong?  Don't I appear put together in some way?  Some way that isn't attached to my family.  I'm not a baby.  I'm either like a toddler or a tweenager.

I saw my brother..

..and it ruined my morning in the end.

Something Funny..

I was talking to my brother from the bayou, and I told him all the 3 sorta interesting yet urban people I invited on Facebook were retarded..like Ellen DeGeneres because she's from there, too..

Urgent

Ginny will e-mail other people.  There is a reason she won't send me a proper e-mail, nor did people in other places.

Also, no one gives a shit about the attractive, romantic, exciting people from California born to the fLower age.  They just tell us they're so inviting, claim that to hypnotize the environment, literally speaking, and then they hold out on people trying to live their lives..

It feels like it wasn't even worth being born...for my brother's safety I said pretty much after I'd see the fat(ter), blonde lady from Coral Springs, where he (and my little girl cousin a year younger, my mom's sister's daughter born the year after with younger sons, 1 born more recently but not too close to her age maybe..,) and the guy who thinks Orlando boys are shit in Student Services @ 6 P.M. also gonna call the police.  Because of the reasoning behind how she will not answer me when I talk to her.  I did think she should be locked up for getting too much attention.  I won't take her sarcasm and the way her head is in the clouds.  She thinks you have to give up things for attention..now I have to figure out what she already knows?  I mean, what I said isn't crap.  She keeps telling me I can't have an interesting life.  Just shut up, stop talking to me in my room.

So

My brother's here, and I found my parents might use my monthly money for transportation and food at school, whereas before they were gonna give me money.  Also, my dad wouldn't buy me the type of clothes I picked and didn't contribute any money for it.  I just picked 1 outfit.  It was $100, though, but I was gonna pay for some of it.  It includes pink boots, tights, socks ... gloves, think that's all, though, oh yes, and an undershirt??  He just thinks it's not important, but I don't think he knows.  My brother just got back from visiting his new college, graduates actually.. not something I would do.. and he seems all mad about something, like not watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" when my life was hard.  I didn't know I wouldn't, and I was gonna go back, doesn't look like I will necessarily be going out this weekend, just to practice..  ':|  I dunno though what's that to you really?  My brother is not more related to me than my parents nor anyone.

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To: Kalilyfornia

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I started out in art, obviously, and took gymnastics for all my physical activity--with my mom to guide me in the aesthetics of the anatomical arts.

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I remember beautiful toddler music.

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At 5, I had a little baby boy in the fam and started ballet.

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In school, I watched and learned, in different places in Eastern Florida and as an adult moved to Orlando with my family.

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So, I moved to the New Orleans area, where you have to be French, whereas in Florida generally Spanish is offered, ... so, I was able to do ballet but not in a company and was also able to take theater in school along with like the gifted English, moved schools. I did community theater all through the years but never got in a major play, like when they did "The Wizard of Oz." They had a good girl from out-of-town I'd met a year younger. I think "Annie" really blowed over. A girl I knew from the Talented Theater program was actually one of the Annies.

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Drama courses, the reading is actually hard. The acting, like in college, the memorizing is new.

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Piano, when you get advanced and have other experiences in music (like you know singing-choir, a keyboard part in band,)

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I don't feel like reading but liked fiction and fantasy stories about animals and science fiction like 1 about poisonous plants, "Rappaccini's Daughter" by Nahtaniel Hawthorne, found it in a huge sci-fi encyclopedia, which was divided into 2 books, which is even Italian, so it's good infor. I just forgot what I was saying. I hope you've seen good old movies like "Logan's Run." Our TV hasn't been working there. Left my dad lots of notes. I also liked synesthesia, about things like matching colors and music notes ... mechanical hypnosis and mental disorders like schizophrenia in infants. Synesthesia is a big, broad topic, like psychology, based on matching colors with things, I think. I think it's about combining art and music or art and psychological things, like focusing on art at its base. Hey, I just realized that, cool eh? I'm not sure what I think I've been "reading." It seems like I'm into psychology. Maybe like if you made history of psychology.. ;D