Mad Like With Burton and Depp

Not just at them.

Wow, so people in private have been comparing me to people like Bella Thorne as ***?

Why do others matter so much and my entrance to the world a hurl of crap?

I feel like people are jumping from toe to toe around me taunting me that they're someone else.  What I said was I don't think I should be in trouble for if a curse word comes to mind by accident.  That's rather insulting after I've been insulted.  I guess I could try and not recognize them.  That's not what I was aiming for.  I should just go on and ignore this stuff.

cont.

I mean sometimes it's appropriate, nothing to linger on.  I ain't listening to the people bothering attacking me during the day.  It's not like I had to write it down.

I don't give a bats*** about the language I chose to use.

I'm not putting up with shit on IMDb.

It's true.

Ellen is racist and thinks she can label me racially if I'm not perfect physically.

Ellen keeps dishing out bad things to me.  What the hell does that mean?  That makes no sense.  It's all mundane..

I'm sorry ..Ellen..

I'm simply robotically stating a fact and asking a worthy question.

Wow

You all are *beep* thinking anything big I say is tacky.

Problem

I got a little upset at this 1 guy and he started talking to me more..  He doesn't get that he's off.  I told him to post whatever the hell he wants on my forum or join IMDb but quit tailing me like he likes me.  Sounds dangerous.  Sometimes, I get dark outcasts who are trying to like "play" with me and what I feel about other people.  People think there are castes, or levels, of people, and I used to be considered more top.  I'm like an old has-been, like an old Spanish or Italian lady who is faintly attractive but older than they were before.  You know, once attractive, but more in high school than junior high like me.  Before I was as "attractive" I was considered differently, not as shit for someone like him.  People made my life hard, and I have no wish to be in their crowd like on a leash.  I'm worried I'm being made fun of like that's really me!  They won't leave me the hell alone!

What about all those other people who get it all?  Is this some racial joke for me?  All these dark male outcasts?  But no one else??

Devastated

I wanted Wendy's tonight.  I feel disappointed.  Grilled cheese tuna, maybe a meal.  I thought of 2 curse words by accident.  Apologize if I do so tonight, again.  They just came, unhealthy, may break my hold.

Topic

I don't want a parental connection with my dad, insofar as he is rather sick and gross about some feelings behind my back.  It doesn't mean I don't want any relationship.  He thinks he knows what I need and supposedly he got me even kicked outta college.  Then, he took advantage and made it seem gross.  It feels like being m*****ed.  I don't f***in' need him.  I don't need that much affection from him like that..

What are your parents like?  Isn't that what you get from your mom?  It's already been established I'm more white than him, like as a person.  I don't want to be his situation like that.  He can't *** control me.

If you're too immature to talk, you might end up m********ing.

Are you people insane?

Why are you at me at all?  You should have never bothered me or hurt me massively.  What is this shit?

I'm sick of these nasty people

bringing up shit about me.

Wah!

I have been feeling threatened by my life.

Stop!!  Stop bothering me!  Stop lying.  They said "only Johnny Depp can ^do it^."  Get your own blog to post *shit* on!

So, that's why I'm cracking down and making sure no one can all go crazy and attack me.  Ellen has been sponsoring this to me, no work on her part.  I don't know why she always looks like she's talking to me sometimes, but I did want to catch her attention just don't know why she did it so much it seemed sometimes.  Sometimes, people do seem like they do that when they aren't, I know, too.

Anyway, what is with Ellen and how she smirks in the shadows?  Does she seem to do that to everyone like she's the best and using other people against others?  She does what's popular ^reluctantly^ and this is ^popular^.  She really makes a scene saying other people aren't all that, like maybe just cuz they aren't famous or they expect to talk to famous people but not themselves ALSO BE famous, which is another way to save space in the world by some people's worried standards.

So, sorry, @ it, I don't really want to do it.  I don't know hot to react when I feel hurt or threatened.  I have a book on how to control yourself and one on goals, cost a bit.  Maybe, I'll look into that some more again.  Yes, I am still me, upset @ some things where I felt uncomfortable.  I do need to defend myself, but Ellen uses it as an opportunity to feel better than me.  I mean, it's not illegal to get mad on the inside.  Tim Burton was upset I could do that.  See, he did something wrong and can't take it.

Something Funny

Did Ellen coordinate the Golden Globes?  Might I ask why she labels her orders as condemnations?  That means she should get a turn, unless she is already having one.  I just got upset because the entire Golden Globes was for no reason made entirely against me, after Red Carpet.  That's not a funny joke.  You don't need to use me.  It seems that Ellen wanted to take away my popularity and pretend I was a bad person.  The other only problem is she will probably try to get back at me for this.  Does anyone know what's going on?  What do you think I am?  1 wrong move and you get it!

..What?  I didn't do anything!  You think that's fun?  You don't seem to like it when there is even a real problem that's being talked at.  I didn't say I was gonna give up and go crazy or something.

Also, who cares about people just because they have old parents?  I kinda don't wanna watch this, think I'm gonna go for a jog and come back and record Johnny Depp.  Guess I might miss Amber Herd (sp?)

Do you know what Ellen really does, though?  She was mad at me for even thinking of a curse word and I decided to curse.  I can make that decision.  It wasn't hurting anyone, like her.

I do see Ellen on her show and don't mean to make up some complaint on that front.  She keeps on going behind the scenes and doing things.  I also am upset it seems to be about an aunt I have from Florida wanting me to get upset every time I get a new blog.  Key word upset.  What is this all about: I forget (TV awards.)

They just played some suggestive music on the Golden Globes to a winner.  Something else I forget.  I'm going senile.  Oh yes, why is Ellen showing off.  I said I really don't feel like watching her sometimes.  It's like every day.  She thinks she can be mean to me for that!

Then, Miss Ellen flits it off like what she did that seemed wrong was right and then follows it with a suggestive, inappropriately arousing drumline.  It seems that if I thought she was the 1 who felt it that maybe I won't feel it.  Of course, you're not supposed to do that to people.  I feel like I'm being strapped down, though, and something isn't right.  My reaction is that I get aroused in a bad way.  I don't know how to escape.  I don't -want- to curse but would if I did.  By cursing, I don't mean I'd hurt anyone.  I didn't -say- that.

I'm just rattling on about my norm that I don't like.  Why am I being picked at on the inside in an insulting way?  Stop telling me I'm like this person or that person, my parents, in ways that are unappealing it appears and that do not really reflect them respectfully.  Maybe, you just went home and drank your coffee, but I'm still busy online learning to fix my own life, not meaning it in a sarcastic way because I didn't indicate I was, actually..  Why do I feel I need to put in these ^special^ instructions for Ellen or for her interest?  It's all Ellen's fault for her being stimulated that we all have to feel the same way.  Ellen, I don't have to watch your show if I don't feel like it because of this.  I do want to, but I feel you're just there for younger people.  I just like to watch you cuz you have a popular and appealing show.  I am wondering about online and like answering fans.  I guess you don't want to give us that sort of ^satisfaction^ LOL.

What it is right now is I see you are laughing at me when you are mean.  You think I can be punished.  So could you!

It'd be hard to get that to happen, though.  I don't want you to be ^punished^.  What you did was you made me upset.  You looked down on me.  You came into my life and made it public.  You made it a part of having a relationship with you and also happens with others..

You know, people think of Johnny Depp a lot and never though bad on him.  I just don't see how it's okay essentially to trash the Golden Globes.  You know they are interested in my life.

You all can't go in my past private life and say it does not reflect how I relate to you!  WTF are you from!

I said I don't wanna sit here and juggle shit.

STOP IT

I NEED TO HAVE A GOOD DAY

STOP ACTING LIKE YOU CAN PUNISH ME

YOU MADE ME MAD

WTF CAN I DO YOU WON'T STOP AND ELLEN DOESN'T CARE

What if I came up to you and just basically said..

..my parents changed to be shit like your parents?  That's the kinda thing I wanna discuss.  How to actually put it..  like, my parents were just nice people, and now they're just mean.  They act like it's funny to be in trouble and I didn't do anything.  They don't say oh go to school or work or whatever or move outta the garage.  They just have a certain attitude.  Like, they don't keep their distance, never smile much in my presence unless it's @ something weird.

Isn't it funny, though, the thing @ shit??  I don't mean to apply it to everyone.. nor anyone in particular maybe.  I don't know how families go off, but it's best not to make it any harder.  Accept their kids for 1 and put them in the right track in life.

STOP

I don't wanna sit here and deal with injuries to my FUTURE KIDS - WTF R U - YOU COULD DO IT TO YOURSELF.  I'M TIRED OF THIS.  STOP TELLING ME I AM YOUR SHIT.

I feel..

..people are feeding me unwanted spam crap

Problem

My dad also acted like something similar was okay just because I wanted to be my lesser favorite princess at Disney.  WHY WON'T HE STOP IS MY DAD SHIT I WANTED A RELATIONSHIP

I can already see your nigger nose in my face wondering if I need to be disciplined but thinking my dad lets me curse cuz he does or would.