I know what it's all about, not success nor fame, but the teenager who signs onto the WorldWideWeb.

IMDb

It's so much safer.  People tend not to private message.  Facebook, you get the wrong people messaging you.

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Facebook

She's the girl I talked to after class, the other partner I acted with, a ½ Puerto Rican maternally and then part black part mostly Italian I got, just realized it might be more, had to ask what kind of Caucasian .. and she wanted to go by ethnicity as I emitted excursions of my own "race.."  I know she does voices and can document more via Facebook had I the time.. see I am just enjoying myself for 8 years in a way, and I have to clean my room-  Also, I mean, like eat and stuff.  I mean, I just don't do that stuff, now..  I don't know, maybe I shouldn't go anywhere, but I can't stand just seeing my dad and mom.. 

Back

I can see Ginny's Facebook from my new Facebook.

Problem

Look, what did I do?  I did nothing.  I didn't attack her on her Facebook.  What should I do now?  Put talk to me if you're mad?  Why would she block me?  She has no point.  She's not even a person|human.  She would then go forward and claim it's something about for my own good, I mean, like .. why can't I see her Facebook!  For my own good I thought of some new thing, I meant like there seemed to be a reason, and you know there is no reason.  She also thinks it's to protect me from her friends.  How insulting.  They didn't talk to me.  You know, see if you can get someone to have a good time like me and not be killed.  I gotchu now.  Look, why would there be all these points?  Stop telling me I didn't work in class or some shit.

Problem

So, what do you think about being blocked by someone?  I mean, it seems like this kind of thing happens.  I sometimes think like with family I have too many advantages.  Sometimes, I worry they will be friends with someone else, instead, and I guess that they aren't real people.  Then, I don't really believe anyone "is real."  The problem is that we are expected to read certain things, and anyone can get in.  I will be held at stake.  I think people will just feel sorry for me and know I'm open.  They won't trust her.  You can't read her posts anywhere, though.  Um, I never said, yea it's cool Facebook should do that.  I just mean, like, say, what if Tim Burton just didn't like you, or Ellen DeGeneres?  What if both of them didn't?  Wouldn't you hve like a combined problem?  I don't know, I mean admit it don't you like play a game?  I mean, I guess you'll have to just say like everyone is going for something, and if they know someone let you down, they won't do what they did instead.  You know, you feel sad.  So, they won't say, yes this person is talking to you.  It'll say, no, this person is putting you off.  I like reading her Facebook and want to in the summer.  What will I do?  She doesn't talk to me.  Wah.  WTF is this?  I'm gonna talk about it to the people in my class, probably.  I said I'd e-mail and see who all wants to talk I guess after Acting I or Improv.  I mean, why can't I see her Facebook like everyone else?  I mean, not everyone in the world will friend her.  I mean, WTF is everyone's problem!  She really is being mean.  I mean why did she do it?  Just to send a message?  Isn't that like shitty?  I mean, come one, what do you think?  It's like she's afraid of me.  She doesn't understand my frustrations.  Why?  What is wrong with her?  I mean, maybe she's not really Californian or maybe it's just L.A. now because I'm from the South.

Problem-Solver

I can solve my problems how to feel good, I guess, but I mean I don't do it by hurting people.  So, what, I can't see Ginny's Facebook?  She did it for a bad reason, though.  LOOK I AM A PERSON DON'T TAKE AWAY WHAT I HAVE.

Problem

So, what make Ginny talk to like every person in the world, because she won't go on Facebook?

Problem

YOU KNOW, I REALLY DON'T DO WEIRD THINGS LIKE UNFRIEND PEOPLE FOR NO REASON I CAN REMEMBER BUT BEING WEIRD I THINK.. DON'T KNOW WHAT.

I was having what seemed the proportion of a screaming match about why Ginny didn't e-mail me with the 2 girls I used to work with.  We're not doing it anymore.  She said maybe the e-mail didn't work.. Um.  You know about the assignment that my partner had to give and remind me, too?  My e-mail didn't work.  I don't think I even knew what she said.  I guess I didn't catch that it was something, as I do, since people won't talk to me about anything since Tim Burton with Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  Why doesn't he talk to people?  He could perform and it would show that you are ***y.

Good Night

Lying down.  Thinking of a new block for my Blogger.  Might go check Facebook, Twitter, etc.

Got Back

Loading videos of me practicing..

Anyway, why are you telling me that you are better because you did something that seems like it's for me?  Like, why do you get slotted in some category you can sorta you know revel in?  Tim Burton does that kind of stuff.  He doesn't mean it.  Why waste time on that?  I'm not saying I'm really mad.  I just noticed that it's an issue.  I mean, why would you bring up something of that nature?  I mean, it isn't even true.

Stop telling me all this bad stuff, you're treating me like I'm not a person, like I'm not Aryan.

What's your point?  I can just be a normal person and enjoy things that others do and not have them bark at me for doing something.

Wow, you people really don't have anything to say.  Also, I don't need to hear what you have to say about nothing.  Leave me alone.  I didn't ask to talk to you.  I don't want to find out your kidding ways, I'll just "total you."

I have to go to bed soon, downloading videos, then probably will sleep..  :|  Maybe check out Twitter.  Have to wake up and pack..

Fooling With Problems

Did you think that Ellen DeGeneres fools with you just because of something she has a problem with?  Also, I don't wanna be bugged about catching up on episodes.  I'm gonna go to bed, just relaxing.  I figured I'd watch it after I pack when I wake up or while I wait for the van-  Um, can't watch it on my phone, so, guess I'll catch you later?  I mean, I am worried about the therapist appointment and coming home unwinding singing or possibly walking but probably not since I will jog at school..  :(  I have to watch her show!  *D;  I mean, I assume I will wake up soon enough.. pack.  Watch the show, go.  Get home @ 5.  :(  Go to bed and.. go.  Wednesday, I guess I will wake up, maybe watch her Tuesday night, too.  Then, I can go online and post @ it.  I will probably go back and watch Wednesday, next.

Teachers

What do you think about people from the South enjoying Ginny?  I do question maybe some families from the South, wonder about it, I guess, not sure why..I mean my mom -is- from a hotter climate, but you could argue like the sea or something.  Well, no, she is not Filipino|Vietnamese, so..  I mean, I guess in the U.S., you didn't have people from up north ruling.  I have a problem, it seems that I'm a very physical person, and I bet that some people just aren't that physical|accepting.  Maybe, we should find some??  Maybe, I'm not like that.  I guess, I probably learned to not be selfish from my dad.  I mean, people from the South seem rather radical.  I mean, my lips aren't weak, I'm a singer, too.  It seems that people from the South have a more white culture because maybe Canada is dry.  Well, I moved to the New Orleans area, across the lake from the island, and I mean all of a sudden things surrounded me so physically, not to mention the stresses of being more in the middle of the country..seemed more Western to me, but you know it's the middle so it's not like on an edge, but it seems like it gets rockier as you travel more that way, not sure what else, just seems like strong people are there.  They must have been good on the ranches.  So, I had never had that kind of an experience before.  Before, I felt more mobile, I guess, but I had more of this like greasy pore stress, though I didn't seem to have as greasy of pores.  At least, now, I don't have to go to school.  When I moved, I guess in high school, the stress of homework wasn't as bad, though I stayed up later as I got older with homework and not really hanging out other than the needing like 1½-2 hours online e-mailing..then there's homework until like 1:30 A.M.?  Did nothing in school?  Um..at school from 8-3?  Not really okay, at all, not supposed to have much homework.  I went to college, and the non-honors courses were harder.  I guess at Valencia, it's a bit different but still the subjects are pretty annoying, I think..takes its toll from the wasted years.  So, kids are happy to leave and work I guess so they won't fall in any traps of having to do harder work.  They know away from parents they have the opportunity to move up as an adult.  Why not?  I mean, we need rest, some people enjoy their food and exercise, do things like singing classical music possibly and now can post on a blog online, which I don't see much action in.

Something Funny..

I was talking to my brother from the bayou, and I told him all the 3 sorta interesting yet urban people I invited on Facebook were retarded..like Ellen DeGeneres because she's from there, too..

Problem

Stop telling me what I do doesn't matter.  I'm not Chinese.

Tim Burton thinks I made a statement by posting online.  What a piece of crap.  You wanna just yourself?

Urgent

Ginny will e-mail other people.  There is a reason she won't send me a proper e-mail, nor did people in other places.

Also, no one gives a shit about the attractive, romantic, exciting people from California born to the fLower age.  They just tell us they're so inviting, claim that to hypnotize the environment, literally speaking, and then they hold out on people trying to live their lives..

It feels like it wasn't even worth being born...for my brother's safety I said pretty much after I'd see the fat(ter), blonde lady from Coral Springs, where he (and my little girl cousin a year younger, my mom's sister's daughter born the year after with younger sons, 1 born more recently but not too close to her age maybe..,) and the guy who thinks Orlando boys are shit in Student Services @ 6 P.M. also gonna call the police.  Because of the reasoning behind how she will not answer me when I talk to her.  I did think she should be locked up for getting too much attention.  I won't take her sarcasm and the way her head is in the clouds.  She thinks you have to give up things for attention..now I have to figure out what she already knows?  I mean, what I said isn't crap.  She keeps telling me I can't have an interesting life.  Just shut up, stop talking to me in my room.

So

I did another video of me acting.  I might watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," I missed again, maybe find good episodes and go through clips.  I mean, I won't catch all of her.  You know, I'm getting very uncomfortable.  I've always said this.  I made a category in my blog somewhere of her show.  So, I'm trying to talk about it, now, wow, must have gotten smart, I mean I -am- busier.  It doesn't seem successful, might ... oh, yes, the "Discussion" category.  Are you wondering why 1st is Emergency, then Issues, then Tags, the point of the blog?  I think Discussion is next here.  Tags is most important.  I don't know about Emergency, sorta psychiatric threat crisises.  Issues is for people who don't want to read my whole blog and don't visit it every day..  :|

Time

So, I can go, maybe in an hour or less.  I guess I'll watch the movies Sunday.  So, I'll have 2+ hours out and have de-licious food.  Find some sort of dessert.  Ah!  I forgot what I was thinking of saying..  Then, I leave tomorrow around 6, no, 5, P.M.  Back by around 9 P.M.  So, I'll come home tonight and probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  The other thing is I need to find game shows.  Also, my TV has static at the top that covers mayb 3 inches.  I want to see if I can understand how they play.  I used to figure out a good way to play checkers, online.  I just have to wake up by around 4 P.M. and that means just go to bed by like 3 A.M., which isn't really so fun.  I may be tired, though, then it's off, might practice theater some, don't need to be in a rush, will get to the homework.  Mabye do it tomorrow night.  So, I'll have to go to bed again by like 3 A.M. so I can go to the movies.  Then, I practice on Monday, leave in the late morning.  Come home, need to be packed and then wake up at like 5 A.M.  I don't really need to stay up until 6 A.M.  Hopefully watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" will go well.  I do have a want to fall asleep, my blog is all set up, have a new Facebook, doing well on Twitter.  So, yes, looking forward to the healthy outing of the week alone I guess..

I figured it out.

I should have gone to a public junior high, though I don't remember why.  I think - oh, yes, it was so that I wouldn't have too much homework and would get enough sleep.  That always boosts test scores.  I also realized I should only have considered ballet.  I don't know, guess the only place to go would be that 1 big ballet studio.  That would mean no choir, so I don't know how fun that would be.  They said I could go just 1 day or up to 6 days, though later I found there was a pointe class on Wednesday afternoons|evenings, I think.  I guess I would do ballet and choir.  I guess my high school schedule would be:

Year 1
1. English I (G)
2. Geometry (G)
3. Physical Science (H)
4. World Geography
5. Career Orientation | Civics
6. PE I
7. Talented Theater

Year 2
1. English II (G)
2. Algebra II (G)
3. Biology I (H)
4. World History (H?)
5. PE II | Health
6. Spanish I (?)
7. Talented Theater

Year 3
1. English III (G)
2. Advanced Math (APG)
3. Chemistry I (H)
4. American History (APG!?)
5. Spanish II
6. Talented Theater
7. Free Enterprise | (PE II)

Year 4
1. English IV (G)
2. Calcluls (APG)
3. Physics (H)
4. Modern (American?) History (APG?)
5. Talented Theater
6.
7.

After School: Adult Choir at Church, Gymnastics, Ballet, Organ..

My focus intent is to be on not really spending that much time on anything but blogging online and I guess also practicing my singing, doing floor exercises regularly as well of course.  Um, yea, high school art was cool.  I did it for 2 years almost 3..not sure what to say about that.

Problem

So, really, Ginny is not talking to me.  I post on her Facebook, and I believe she has responded once, but that is so gay.  She should never fuckin have gotten married, but she'll just say she's divorced but still cares.  It probably just says I'm not her kid.  I'm kinda not like a perv.  She really is being defiant or really has some reason that she doesn't want to talk, and it better not have to do with Tim Burton..  I have a feeling even if Charlie and the Chocolate Factory didn't come out it'd still have to do with him.  Why would you care who made The Nightmare Before Christmas?  I didn't even happen to see that.  I thought that it was like sorta an attempt at showing off.  It looked kinda crappy or crapped about, I guess.  I kinda wanted to see it for the education, but my parents didn't take me ... why would I ask to see something like that, to try to say that his art is better?  Well, he didn't draw all the glowing lights.  He seems kinda messed up, like makes himself feel good in ways other people would find undignifying and pushy, trying to say he's human and won't like talk to you unless in person, like he's allergic to the phone and thinks everyone should be able to afford a computer in 1993.  ;D  Well, you know, he might get confused.

You know, even if she writes back, I still feel that she has some issue with me, though I believe she will not write back and if she does I feel it is possible she may not.  I don't want to feel funny about it.  I've e-mailed quite a lot to anyone I possibly could..  }:D  I e-mailed about me teaching German for an art song.  I was specific about it and added my plethora of crap I had to offer.  I even said how much do you want me to pay you.  I wonder what she has to offer from Orlando.  I just feel she thinks it's cool not to answer.  If she does, I will feel like she gave up some of her life for me and that she wishes she were me because I were younger.  I am very willing and defiant to talk about that topic.  I have forums up.  Well, I mean, yea, I have a message board.  So, what should I do?  She is like doing all these improper things.  It's like I shouldn't even go to her classes.  Those were who she posted to.  No one else is talking.  Well, that's too bad.  I can still talk, even if you "forgot."  So, she is fishing like Tim Burton from California for attention she won't give.  I really hate that.  Especially if you really said you would.  I just know there is some issue.  What was Tim Burton's issue?  I know Johnny Depp was being like mimicy about not watching them online.  I thought most people did.  I didn't because I guess I knew they didn't have anything to offer, and I just wanted to post for myself.  You know, I went online other than Facebook to get info. about Pirates casting, demanded it, obviously no response.  I was hoping to be an extra.  Maybe, I will try that, now.  I mean, it's not happening.  I want the attention and the networking.  That's what you're supposed to figure out how to do.  I just am not getting accepted.  I don't want to make myself skinny just to wait for your well-fed, well-nourished, supple, elastic brat born in 1998.  Also, why wait for people like Bella Thorne to talk to me?  And Maggie Elizabeth Jones.  What about that?  Don't tell me I'm shit like younger people who shit.  Don't go looking for some older star.  Okay, Ellen DeGeneres, because that sounds like something you do, not suggesting anything about her, though..  Did you notice no one likes my old friends?  They don't believe it, really.  So, why did you waste your time on that?  I mean, what happened to your life?  Weren't you gonna use it on me?  }:D  See, how stupid that Tim Burton is?  Wow, what am I supposed to think?  Other people can talk to Ginny, and it's not about age, so suck on that.