It's hard to remember. I know I had 2 French bread pizzas and lots of asparagus's. I had 2 more little round brownies earlier heated up for 10 seconds. I finished the rest of my pizza just now, seemed like a meatwad left. I think I had more sushi but have to leave some for my mom, have an e-mail due to my dad and to call about transportation for tomorrow and Tuesday.
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Ate
California roles sushi my mom got
2 + some of an Oscar Meyer bun length hot dog my dad got beef franks for me with wheat buns and Heinz ketchup
Sea Salt potato chips like at Starbucks at Barnes & Noble I got
Tomato Soup, some sort of Campbell's, Tyson's frozen Buffalo chicken strips with jalapeño Monetary Jack cheese, Dill & Olive Oil Triscuits
2 little round brownies microwaved for 15 seconds, too long, piled on top of each other
I'm tired still, probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and later shower.. xp
2 + some of an Oscar Meyer bun length hot dog my dad got beef franks for me with wheat buns and Heinz ketchup
Sea Salt potato chips like at Starbucks at Barnes & Noble I got
Tomato Soup, some sort of Campbell's, Tyson's frozen Buffalo chicken strips with jalapeño Monetary Jack cheese, Dill & Olive Oil Triscuits
2 little round brownies microwaved for 15 seconds, too long, piled on top of each other
I'm tired still, probably watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and later shower.. xp
Problem
My dad acted tacky about just not giving me money and not answering. My mom probably could use that potion. Why do they want me to use my own money and then run out? I didn't ask for much. ':| I believe that's why these things are there. Also, if you didn't know, my financial aid didn't work because of my Withdrawals + my G.P.A., not sure if it's just at this school, though it shouldn't matter, because it was 1 semester here. I had excuses before and wrote them down. Have a feeling this is like before, just won't listen to me. My mom was acting like she was better than me, and I have no idea why because I don't want to be considered lumpy. I kinda think she's definitely a midget, even.
Money
So, these nigger people are thinking I shouldn't have spent $50 at Bath & Body Works. Well, I mean I just got a selection of hand sanitizers. I got like 3 cute things and 2 perfumey things, when most people get more, somehow. My dad even wanted me to buy my own food. Maybe, next month, I'd ask him. I just really wanted it, and my cell phone wouldn't work and I dunno just didn't think of it, mean it was late and he was going back home. I'm hoping he'll buy me something else, but we'll see. It probably won't all run out, so I can get it next weekend, though I don't know if he's paid this weekend. I can get a dress and sweater for like $50 or a fancy dress for $85. I got a lot the beginning of last month, want to get 2 big trash cans this month. Also want toilet drops. I know last month I got things like hampers or whatnot. Maybe, tomorrow, I'll at least get hand sanitizers at Wal-Mart, have him buy them, like before, so I can save the others for school and supplied and not be so addicted to getting them the beginning of next month unless my dad wants me to buy them next time because it's the beginning of the month. Thing is now they have sanitizer in a dispenser and I wanted the shimmer gel, reminds me to find a wallet. Also, the van came late last week, and my dad didn't e-mail about the cell phone just yet, doesn't mean anything. :|
Verdict
A friend didn't talk to me, seemed to think either I was shit because she had ethnic issues or I deserved more and better, like another friend suggested. Now, my life is like ... in front of Tim Burton all the time or Ellen DeGeneres rather in sorta saving graces it's "about" her, when I tracked her thru e-mail and she just maybe doesn't type. She used to slide away from me and say not to talk to her but seemed like she could be kidding and there was no reason, probably just found out something about me I wasn't really, accepting. When the classes split in junior high, another girl would just look away from me as we waited for our mom's cars. I got mad at her. Like each time. I'm not saying oh there is no more Tim Burton, no more Ellen DeGeneres right now. So, I met a nice person, probably have been in similar situations, and in Florida, and they are here immune to this disease, for some reason. Same up north. Well, not around my relatives, which I haven't been since ' 15 '
Dream
I remember lots of things. At 1 point, I was asleep sorta and listening to the phone of kids supposedly in a theater class, wondering about Martin Luther King, Jr., Day, since it was Groundhog Day. I picked up some machine and played with it and put it back. I found Ginny was sitting on a couch in the room rather fresh, looked like my old apartment in Altamonte Springs. Supposedly, I slept through the alarm. It was dark like night but supposedly 9:30 A.M. or almost. So, anyway, I didn't know if she was still there, was on a couch ... oh, I ventured to answer a 2nd knock. 1st, the person looked Asian, again, dark and with like an angled face, then it was a black lady like come to take me home. I didn't see through the peephole. Anyway, on the sofa, I noticed 2 TV shows, 1st was Sampson & Sally based and 2nd was like a cute version with like a huge elephant with a small trunk, rather sketchy, from The Jungle Book, and I said I liked the snakes as I left. Before, I noticed it looked kinda, not su - explicit like me. So, on the sofa, my legs felt kinda like pins and needles like someone was gonna take me to my room.
Saturday, February 2, 2013
Forget
I was gonna say something interesting, but I forgot what it was. I was mad at Ellen DeGeneres for being mad when she's a mean person. Why does she allude to our parents in ways we hate? I don't. That means I'm better than her, cooler, more popular.
Something That Doesn't Matter
The bare truth is, when you refer to Asians mattering you want it to be real Asian shit you've known. Also, you can't hope for everything just because you're all white. Gotta make the statement at some point, or nothing will happen.
Substantiality
Why do people with fair features act like nothing matters but seem kinda like not very substantial?
Ate
I had liverwurst, 2 packs of cracker sticks you dunk in cheese, and 2 more of the cream cheese and crives crackers with spread. I'm not sure what I'll have later, maybe a hot dog? Probably cook some veggies, greens..need to leave a note for groceries and a trip to school to rehearse tomorrow. Too bad my cell doesn't work, didn't receive an e-mail..were supposed to Skype possibly, not sure how, don't have a mic.
Facebook Post
Orla, I just gave my friend who's expecting, your CD tonight. She was so happy to get it, and when we listened for a little while, she started to cry. Thanks for all you do.
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Ate
I had dipping cracker sticks in cheese and some of the Cream Cheese & Chives crackers with spread, pretty good stuff. You know they're sold in vending machines, I know at my community college. I made canned Chef Boyardee Macaroni & Cheese. It's pretty hot, for some reason. Maybe, I should leave an order for Panera Bread. I also want to get the $85 dress at Sears or 1 dress and sweater that's funky at JCPenney. So, I'm not going tonight, slept all day. Probably will go back to bed or watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" on my computer, practice for theater, possibly shower possibly not.. maybe go on IMDb. I feel kinda worked out, like even when I did ballet. I'm 5'2", though. Gymnastics has a similar effect if you're new. I don't understand why everyone seems so much taller than me if I'm like now 5'2". I hope to get 5'3", next. I thought I was 5' before. I'm trying to get my spine more condense, which seemed dirty but happened from the side flops. I'm not lifting my throat. My head could be bigger. You know, it seems that I just have to think of leaving after being stuck in Orlando pretty much, though I do like to appreciate it comfortably.
No Care
Why can't some people be hurt? Next time I see a presumptuous teen or rather adult on Ellen why can't we like **** them? No one cares about their "ad-vice."
My parents didn't leave me $20. My credit card didn't work at a gas station! And the guy was being a nigger. Also, their "ATM" stopped.
My parents didn't leave me $20. My credit card didn't work at a gas station! And the guy was being a nigger. Also, their "ATM" stopped.
Dream
It's hard to remember the 2nd clearly, but the 1st I was like forlorn and wanted to meet someone, like it was Ginny. So, I guess I wanted affection or something, so the person picked me up for a long, long time, and I didn't feel too big, for some reason. I felt pretty good but not totally, a bit like Kate Bush and Helena Bonham Carter. So, she was sitting on a stool in the front corner away from the door, and it was kinda faded and orangy, and like every once in awhile or every like other second or moment it felt she'd jerk me like she always was aware of how I was feeling. Anyway, I awoke feeling good and cozy, like in the dream.
The 2nd dream was kinda creepy. I know I was looking for a bathroom but couldn't go, even was sitting there where others could see me and it was normal for us. There were like fancy, dainty sorta elongated covers plastered in rectangles that were like dark gray in a big dark grey sorta cozy room that seemed kinda wet and not like smelly. It was kinda a dangerous dream I don't remember. :{ I keep waking up to bossy-sounding clicks that erase more insignificant dreams. Oh, put a sock in it. WTF you think you are? Hey, what was that? Look, I want my life, you.
The 2nd dream was kinda creepy. I know I was looking for a bathroom but couldn't go, even was sitting there where others could see me and it was normal for us. There were like fancy, dainty sorta elongated covers plastered in rectangles that were like dark gray in a big dark grey sorta cozy room that seemed kinda wet and not like smelly. It was kinda a dangerous dream I don't remember. :{ I keep waking up to bossy-sounding clicks that erase more insignificant dreams. Oh, put a sock in it. WTF you think you are? Hey, what was that? Look, I want my life, you.
Facebook Post
http://www.facebook.com/ginny.kopf
>:o Good, so you know about learning singing and having a good base athletically to put on a dance, though I'm not sure what happens in dance technique? Make it attractive, rigid, evocative?
(cont.)
I don't remember if my parents went to open house alone in high school but probably. We went, too, at my schools when I was younger, in Florida, and it was definitely and excellent experience, which I didn't think too much on. I did do ballet and choir, but it wasn't quite the same show. I never heard of private voice but found out my mom did. I think we couldn't afford it, and I did gymnastics + ballet.. I kinda regret gymnastics, but I regretted not taking ballet since we couldn't find a good school and when we moved couldn't find any school, at all. (The nearest was on the highway for maybe an hour, or 45 min.) The thing with gymnastics is you take it when you're a toddler and then you do ballet or you quit when you are like 5 possibly and learn to dance. All I can say was I was young. It was hard because all the other girls did ballet before.. I could not remember a sequence of moves.. never thought it was ordinary, since I'd never heard of it being okay and I knew I was okay. I did want my dad to meet you because ... I thought you were from San Fransisco. My mom wants to take class from her, and she gave me a USB to put your 22 minute critique on. She was nagging at me years ago on taking..accent reduction. She kept saying, "accent reduction.." She also went to Jillian Michaels's workshop @ RDV for vets, for some reason, 2 weeks ago. I went to a debate with her at Valencia on Wednesday. I might have gone if I knew, but I probably wouldn't want to since I mean I don't always go to that kind of thing and I mean would hope to 1 day encounter her in some other fashion. The funny thing is lots of people start dance older than I did. They are not as athletic. I just always felt insulted for having a dad born in 1950, as opposed to having a dad maybe 30 years older or having a family based with an attractive woman born in 1920. The girl in the picture below looks really sporty, thought maybe Jillian Michaels would like her athletically.. I don't know why I wasn't athletic unless I was in gymnastics, knew I could do lots of pullups and made it in the 1 mile run. I mean, I thought Britney Spears is an athlete. She looked skinny when she was busy and energized. I know ballet programs where you don't dance much aren't great. I'd rather go to your class than ballet. I don't want to do modern dance, as of right now. I heard it was better than jazz. I heard ballet was safe and a base dance. All I know is someone who doesn't do gymnastics as their sport and ballet as a dance would be fun in theater. Their voice would be athletic, maybe untoned.. maybe not very resonant. I just am worried, am lucky I couldn't do ballet as a kid because I lived in an interesting place. What would happen if I was pumped up as a ballerina? My mom is better off having done ballet and gymnastics. I think my parents had more time. I liked having a break from choir, too, which meant no music class. I just wish I had time to practice piano, kinda wanted to dance instead but kinda am glad I didn't, had fun at the modern dance studio but told my mom if I knew I wouldn't get in the class with my age wouldn't have. I was there 2½ years. How was I supposed to know to leave, was too late? I really wanted to get in that class.. Left because my mom wouldn't let me take it at 2 schools.. I had this nice friend in it with at least 2 other girls from my class. D': I did take a break and did adult ballet but went back and added adult gymnastics at arts school in New Orleans. It was a big thing to learn things outside of your main thing, like I know girls in dance would do piano. I had a friend who did voice and tennis young who I played with. She didn't do much voice and didn't seem to "like theater." I think people who are more interested in in the performing voice are shy about their body, unless they are athletic or healthy.. Not really sure where I'm going, I think, just kinda upset at things, my relationships, my unpredictable life, my whole past, some thing or another, like some really stringent school even in my age of glory.. I guess I was sometimes cranky when I did gymnastics, just wanted it as a side activity but could only afford 1 activity. Never even heard of theater for kids but know about being a prodigy or young success|avid recipient. I was constantly told that it was bad to want to do what you're supposed to in school and that you need to not live your life possibly if you want to go to college, unless you go as an athlete. I wanted to do soccer, when I was 17 and did a camp at 18. I did organ then, too. There were some sucky youth groups in Slidell, La., where it was based on, mostly, volleyball and had changing directors- I'm not sure why..but I don't know what my point is! D'; I was so busy, had gotten a bad grade in a sudden history lecture + heavy reading course where I retained nothing important.. at the time, I had opened my schedule and lived such a holistic life, ate a big breakfast of lots of healthy, very good-tasting cereal, with a big smörgåsbord of things. Anyway, so, now, I jog with weights and do floor exercises. The ballet training affected me greatest, and gymnastics gave me muscular strength, though I'm not great at pushups. Cross country, which I regretted, actually put me in shape, in the long run. I did it from the very beginning, at a public high school. I dropped a weight training flex start course, thought it started in January. It just seems like the gymnastics helped, doing it a lot, and then when I quit it was okay. However, I had this friend who did ballet, swimming, then quit. I'm sure the gymnastics helped, and doing it at 7 and more at 8 gave me the professional experience, though it became too complex, the flipping in the air off the slippery vault the catapulting into the foam pit around nervous children. I had this other friend in choir when I was there, too. Anyway, why do the college students seem so immature and young, like junior high or even elementary kids? You should advertise for gifted young high schoolers and 8th graders to come to your classes at night.. Orlando should start an arts center, but I really don't know how exactly it would work, guess that they would need a base public high school, definitely not at the arts school! I went to a play at my brother's high school..Bishop Mooore. I would go to the public, sportiest, grittiest high school or wherever I'm allowed. :) Anyway, I think there was a short, dorky girl, the whole play was 50's based on something I knew or heard of or liked even, probably had music inserts but probably not singing. I learned that there is no thing because when I was in Talented Music and Theater in my 3rd year I got credited for vocals because I was in those 2 programs. I wanted to sing in Talented Music but got in for piano. Some people joined my class, and I moved schools and changed hours (just realized about that) and didn't want to do it anymore. 1st was an older Korean girl. I still remember the song..normal? Filomel with meloday, sing in our sweet lullaby-y, never harm nor *ell nor charm, come our lovely lady nigh, so good-night, with lullaby. Funny they did it at Orlando Ballet twice. Why do you hear these singers have such angelic operatic voices like for a cinematic show? I know you have to seek out these things. I went to probably the best music college in the world, but the theory was uncomplicated and same with any course at all here.. It was so simple, but the singing was awful. It was just exciting. It or ballet, guess I needed both, was kicked out.. Orlando Ballet is strict and uncomfortable and didn't let me take classes with the kids|teens.. I went to ballet schools in the New Orleans area, guess they were slutty. Did a Nia class, which I don't regret, though. I mean, you have a college degree, but you don't seem to work with smart kids. So, I wonder like though they'd probably prefer you over Valencia professors to teach high schoolers. I mean, it makes sense that you'd work with talent at a community college. It's still a college, but I mean that's where older young adults go, I mean.. I know, though, I mean as a kid I didn't have a very long nor short nose, but people treated me like I wasn't white and threatened me for maybe not being that girl the Ramsy case. They thought my dad wasn't cool and my mom wasn't like stimulating|e********. Well, when I was 7, there was a popular girl from NYC and kinda a subtle group. Then, there was a girl from like the top of the southern jut of Louisiana or around there. I guess I'm having a hard time because like it seems that people think maybe my mom could have found a sweet man. My dad is cool but not very compact since he is born in 1950. Too bad because I need a place to live where food is brought to me and I don't have to work since I'm young and feeble from school still and prefer to see my parents.. I really don't know why you don't just go out and advertise to have high schoolers from the area come to your classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. I mean, you could have like 10-15 different high schoolers each night who pass an audition or make it in time. It sounds like a Protestant Youth Group. You could just go there, too. Except, I don't think singing is very involved in that. You should also definitely had advertised to certain people in Disney College, like maybe 1s..dunno, maybe all of them, some have more time. Like, I dunno, the janitors would be more funny. They told me we couldn't perform, so you could have advertised to young dancers and singers and actors. You know, if you taught young kids who are like age 6 in a separate class your pride would go there. It feels like you're teaching people who are very fresh and who need lots of attention and some more receptive than others and simply supported by the world to the best of their will. Guess you need a class where only people who are a grown age can attend, imagine the kids would be startled. If you did a play, though, you should use real kids.. Solves that! :-D You should hang out with the community, at large. I sure like your classes that go into 10 P.M. You know, I leave around 11 P.M. on Thursdays. I don't know about other people, but my dad gets home at exactly 5 P.M. I imagine most people in Orlando who drive would get home at 6 P.M. I used to go to choir at 7 P.M., once a week. Saturdays are a good day for class. That's when ballerinas practice, not sure about competition team. You could offer classes at 6:30 P.M. or 8:00 P.M. You know, some organists for some reason are rich or something. I know when I was little I was allowed to be sorta a lose goose since my dad was born in 1950, don't know girls with dads who are less than 30 years older with a mom my mom's age. My aunts just like the reek of my dad. I could direct a community performance featuring kids. That way, there would be someone younger than you as a sub hub for youth. You know, I'm an experienced accompanist. I feel I was directing the older kids in your acting class. You might consider going back to where you came from, just it might not be as snappy nor snazzy as Orlando. It's very lonely to move. I needed a NiQuil, hungry and tired, had 2 sandwiches and dessert out today. I'll think about what I wrote to you this week|end. Have a good rest of the weekend, plan to wear my new dress outfit to both classes this week. Have some exciting things but spent $50 at Bath & Body Works, don't see why I wouldn't again later. Asked my parents for $20 since my credit card didn't work at a store.
>:o Good, so you know about learning singing and having a good base athletically to put on a dance, though I'm not sure what happens in dance technique? Make it attractive, rigid, evocative?
(cont.)
I don't remember if my parents went to open house alone in high school but probably. We went, too, at my schools when I was younger, in Florida, and it was definitely and excellent experience, which I didn't think too much on. I did do ballet and choir, but it wasn't quite the same show. I never heard of private voice but found out my mom did. I think we couldn't afford it, and I did gymnastics + ballet.. I kinda regret gymnastics, but I regretted not taking ballet since we couldn't find a good school and when we moved couldn't find any school, at all. (The nearest was on the highway for maybe an hour, or 45 min.) The thing with gymnastics is you take it when you're a toddler and then you do ballet or you quit when you are like 5 possibly and learn to dance. All I can say was I was young. It was hard because all the other girls did ballet before.. I could not remember a sequence of moves.. never thought it was ordinary, since I'd never heard of it being okay and I knew I was okay. I did want my dad to meet you because ... I thought you were from San Fransisco. My mom wants to take class from her, and she gave me a USB to put your 22 minute critique on. She was nagging at me years ago on taking..accent reduction. She kept saying, "accent reduction.." She also went to Jillian Michaels's workshop @ RDV for vets, for some reason, 2 weeks ago. I went to a debate with her at Valencia on Wednesday. I might have gone if I knew, but I probably wouldn't want to since I mean I don't always go to that kind of thing and I mean would hope to 1 day encounter her in some other fashion. The funny thing is lots of people start dance older than I did. They are not as athletic. I just always felt insulted for having a dad born in 1950, as opposed to having a dad maybe 30 years older or having a family based with an attractive woman born in 1920. The girl in the picture below looks really sporty, thought maybe Jillian Michaels would like her athletically.. I don't know why I wasn't athletic unless I was in gymnastics, knew I could do lots of pullups and made it in the 1 mile run. I mean, I thought Britney Spears is an athlete. She looked skinny when she was busy and energized. I know ballet programs where you don't dance much aren't great. I'd rather go to your class than ballet. I don't want to do modern dance, as of right now. I heard it was better than jazz. I heard ballet was safe and a base dance. All I know is someone who doesn't do gymnastics as their sport and ballet as a dance would be fun in theater. Their voice would be athletic, maybe untoned.. maybe not very resonant. I just am worried, am lucky I couldn't do ballet as a kid because I lived in an interesting place. What would happen if I was pumped up as a ballerina? My mom is better off having done ballet and gymnastics. I think my parents had more time. I liked having a break from choir, too, which meant no music class. I just wish I had time to practice piano, kinda wanted to dance instead but kinda am glad I didn't, had fun at the modern dance studio but told my mom if I knew I wouldn't get in the class with my age wouldn't have. I was there 2½ years. How was I supposed to know to leave, was too late? I really wanted to get in that class.. Left because my mom wouldn't let me take it at 2 schools.. I had this nice friend in it with at least 2 other girls from my class. D': I did take a break and did adult ballet but went back and added adult gymnastics at arts school in New Orleans. It was a big thing to learn things outside of your main thing, like I know girls in dance would do piano. I had a friend who did voice and tennis young who I played with. She didn't do much voice and didn't seem to "like theater." I think people who are more interested in in the performing voice are shy about their body, unless they are athletic or healthy.. Not really sure where I'm going, I think, just kinda upset at things, my relationships, my unpredictable life, my whole past, some thing or another, like some really stringent school even in my age of glory.. I guess I was sometimes cranky when I did gymnastics, just wanted it as a side activity but could only afford 1 activity. Never even heard of theater for kids but know about being a prodigy or young success|avid recipient. I was constantly told that it was bad to want to do what you're supposed to in school and that you need to not live your life possibly if you want to go to college, unless you go as an athlete. I wanted to do soccer, when I was 17 and did a camp at 18. I did organ then, too. There were some sucky youth groups in Slidell, La., where it was based on, mostly, volleyball and had changing directors- I'm not sure why..but I don't know what my point is! D'; I was so busy, had gotten a bad grade in a sudden history lecture + heavy reading course where I retained nothing important.. at the time, I had opened my schedule and lived such a holistic life, ate a big breakfast of lots of healthy, very good-tasting cereal, with a big smörgåsbord of things. Anyway, so, now, I jog with weights and do floor exercises. The ballet training affected me greatest, and gymnastics gave me muscular strength, though I'm not great at pushups. Cross country, which I regretted, actually put me in shape, in the long run. I did it from the very beginning, at a public high school. I dropped a weight training flex start course, thought it started in January. It just seems like the gymnastics helped, doing it a lot, and then when I quit it was okay. However, I had this friend who did ballet, swimming, then quit. I'm sure the gymnastics helped, and doing it at 7 and more at 8 gave me the professional experience, though it became too complex, the flipping in the air off the slippery vault the catapulting into the foam pit around nervous children. I had this other friend in choir when I was there, too. Anyway, why do the college students seem so immature and young, like junior high or even elementary kids? You should advertise for gifted young high schoolers and 8th graders to come to your classes at night.. Orlando should start an arts center, but I really don't know how exactly it would work, guess that they would need a base public high school, definitely not at the arts school! I went to a play at my brother's high school..Bishop Mooore. I would go to the public, sportiest, grittiest high school or wherever I'm allowed. :) Anyway, I think there was a short, dorky girl, the whole play was 50's based on something I knew or heard of or liked even, probably had music inserts but probably not singing. I learned that there is no thing because when I was in Talented Music and Theater in my 3rd year I got credited for vocals because I was in those 2 programs. I wanted to sing in Talented Music but got in for piano. Some people joined my class, and I moved schools and changed hours (just realized about that) and didn't want to do it anymore. 1st was an older Korean girl. I still remember the song..normal? Filomel with meloday, sing in our sweet lullaby-y, never harm nor *ell nor charm, come our lovely lady nigh, so good-night, with lullaby. Funny they did it at Orlando Ballet twice. Why do you hear these singers have such angelic operatic voices like for a cinematic show? I know you have to seek out these things. I went to probably the best music college in the world, but the theory was uncomplicated and same with any course at all here.. It was so simple, but the singing was awful. It was just exciting. It or ballet, guess I needed both, was kicked out.. Orlando Ballet is strict and uncomfortable and didn't let me take classes with the kids|teens.. I went to ballet schools in the New Orleans area, guess they were slutty. Did a Nia class, which I don't regret, though. I mean, you have a college degree, but you don't seem to work with smart kids. So, I wonder like though they'd probably prefer you over Valencia professors to teach high schoolers. I mean, it makes sense that you'd work with talent at a community college. It's still a college, but I mean that's where older young adults go, I mean.. I know, though, I mean as a kid I didn't have a very long nor short nose, but people treated me like I wasn't white and threatened me for maybe not being that girl the Ramsy case. They thought my dad wasn't cool and my mom wasn't like stimulating|e********. Well, when I was 7, there was a popular girl from NYC and kinda a subtle group. Then, there was a girl from like the top of the southern jut of Louisiana or around there. I guess I'm having a hard time because like it seems that people think maybe my mom could have found a sweet man. My dad is cool but not very compact since he is born in 1950. Too bad because I need a place to live where food is brought to me and I don't have to work since I'm young and feeble from school still and prefer to see my parents.. I really don't know why you don't just go out and advertise to have high schoolers from the area come to your classes on Tuesday and Thursday nights. I mean, you could have like 10-15 different high schoolers each night who pass an audition or make it in time. It sounds like a Protestant Youth Group. You could just go there, too. Except, I don't think singing is very involved in that. You should also definitely had advertised to certain people in Disney College, like maybe 1s..dunno, maybe all of them, some have more time. Like, I dunno, the janitors would be more funny. They told me we couldn't perform, so you could have advertised to young dancers and singers and actors. You know, if you taught young kids who are like age 6 in a separate class your pride would go there. It feels like you're teaching people who are very fresh and who need lots of attention and some more receptive than others and simply supported by the world to the best of their will. Guess you need a class where only people who are a grown age can attend, imagine the kids would be startled. If you did a play, though, you should use real kids.. Solves that! :-D You should hang out with the community, at large. I sure like your classes that go into 10 P.M. You know, I leave around 11 P.M. on Thursdays. I don't know about other people, but my dad gets home at exactly 5 P.M. I imagine most people in Orlando who drive would get home at 6 P.M. I used to go to choir at 7 P.M., once a week. Saturdays are a good day for class. That's when ballerinas practice, not sure about competition team. You could offer classes at 6:30 P.M. or 8:00 P.M. You know, some organists for some reason are rich or something. I know when I was little I was allowed to be sorta a lose goose since my dad was born in 1950, don't know girls with dads who are less than 30 years older with a mom my mom's age. My aunts just like the reek of my dad. I could direct a community performance featuring kids. That way, there would be someone younger than you as a sub hub for youth. You know, I'm an experienced accompanist. I feel I was directing the older kids in your acting class. You might consider going back to where you came from, just it might not be as snappy nor snazzy as Orlando. It's very lonely to move. I needed a NiQuil, hungry and tired, had 2 sandwiches and dessert out today. I'll think about what I wrote to you this week|end. Have a good rest of the weekend, plan to wear my new dress outfit to both classes this week. Have some exciting things but spent $50 at Bath & Body Works, don't see why I wouldn't again later. Asked my parents for $20 since my credit card didn't work at a store.
Friday, February 1, 2013
Stuff
Yesterday, a Middle Eastern Latino and Canadian professor hit me when I did something from the back at the debate.
So, in the YouTube video of Britney Spears in the Mickey Mouse Club singing "You Know You're Gonna Be Mine," where she dances and sings really powerfully and sweetly, it's unbelievably coordinated and I connected it to the crapo infested in the Nu Orlns area. It was like a switch, you know in French, kept flipping with pow'r, not necessarily like Ellen DeGeneres but you know yea. I was very strong and active there, so I mean, I'm not like from up north myself but I mean I'm pretty pow'rful. So, she is more like Ellen DeGeneres than me, and I liked watching and hope to see more.
So, in the YouTube video of Britney Spears in the Mickey Mouse Club singing "You Know You're Gonna Be Mine," where she dances and sings really powerfully and sweetly, it's unbelievably coordinated and I connected it to the crapo infested in the Nu Orlns area. It was like a switch, you know in French, kept flipping with pow'r, not necessarily like Ellen DeGeneres but you know yea. I was very strong and active there, so I mean, I'm not like from up north myself but I mean I'm pretty pow'rful. So, she is more like Ellen DeGeneres than me, and I liked watching and hope to see more.
Stuff
In class, I got up on the 2nd highest table, and the teacher said it was unstable or like fell apart last year, the other 1. So, anyway.. I guess it was about 4' and I looked down about 3 seconds and leaned onto my hands with pow'r and class and like unseeable slam..
Farming Families
I think Ellen DeGeneres thinks I'm bad because I'm from a farming family, but my family is not all farming family and my mom is not farming family and I like farming families..
Me
So, I got my brain from my dad and my body and ********* physically from my mom. That's how it goes being mixed with parents. I forgot that some time ago, but it seemed very apparent. I seem to have the ****** punch of my mom.. That's the sorta retarded side, though.. So, it's what I chose as opposed to my dad, and no it's not white.. I mean, yea it's European..
Back.
Gonna go out. Cell died. Took off my outfit. Tried on the new 1 from Macy's, plan to wear it this weekend, washing the dress. Loading pix and vid. Forgot something in homework and rehearsing speaking words, so gotta put a calender in my binder.. :? I have a Valencia binder, and they're even selling a sweatshirt with hearts and the school name on it. It sounds cute, see how I feel. xp
Thursday, January 31, 2013
:)
So, Britney Spears is a good singer. The only thing I would have is maybe more gymnastics because it sounds like she started possibly at 3 but maybe didn't get on the team until later? I don't know about that.. She was very active, like me, as a kid, though, just probably used her voice more.
Relations
So, why do girls have ****** relations with their dads? Like gaping over their slanted nails?
Shower-Bath
Then, I have to iron, pack my cucumber and lettuce, nuts, ... cracker-bread, the sausage.. water.. hm, supplies, come dressed and ready, do homework, go print it out, paint my nails, iron my pants and shirt... go to bed. So, I'll be in bed and sleep for what 2 hours and then get to school and go to class, probably come home and go for a jog and maybe probably get something at a gas station. Oh yea, my mom is thinking I'll use my money for classes but no it's for food and my dad will help me get clothes and the monthly supplies ... shampoo, soap, toilet drops... makeup.?
Helping the U.S.[A.]
What if Ellen DeGeneres forgot about helping the world? You know, not L.A., not "native Floridians?"
So Uncool So Uncool So Uncool
Why would Ellen DeGeneres get a queasy feeling for feeling cooler than me because she's an adult?
Gay Jew
Is Ellen DeGeneres a gay Jew who thinks morals follow you around? I'm not gonna be told I did all this shit knowingly. That's not some thing.
Confident Classical Techy Stuff
A Clockwork Orange is nice, sounds really confident, the classical stuff, like new techy stuff.
Funky Monkey
Why did the Southeast of the U.S., Georgia and Florida, get so funky? ':S What was I? Hm..
What People Do and Don't Do
My old organ teacher didn't act important but is old-fashioned European in church music. Do you know anything about "what" I don't do?
Hey, what's so good about ************? Doesn't that just ruin you? You don't need it to look up to people for saying they love you for rules. You know, you can't sit there and fuss f*** about shit. That's bullshit. I'm allowed to say this because I'm good. Bad people don't need special rules. I don't give a f*** about people from the country in Pennsylvania, they're niggers.
What the fuck? Why should we let all these people born in 1958 be famous and giving if they just want to f*** in the end? No one has to kill themselves. You can't say that the f*** you did was right before and that you have to follow it. I don't play around with things like this. It's some thing that you're not supposed to want to do.
Hey, what's so good about ************? Doesn't that just ruin you? You don't need it to look up to people for saying they love you for rules. You know, you can't sit there and fuss f*** about shit. That's bullshit. I'm allowed to say this because I'm good. Bad people don't need special rules. I don't give a f*** about people from the country in Pennsylvania, they're niggers.
What the fuck? Why should we let all these people born in 1958 be famous and giving if they just want to f*** in the end? No one has to kill themselves. You can't say that the f*** you did was right before and that you have to follow it. I don't play around with things like this. It's some thing that you're not supposed to want to do.
What's Up
I guess I should go take my shower-bath, but it's making me drowsy at the core but sorta awake on the outside.
I don't know if I should do gymnastics, ballet. I just wanted to take classes from this teacher, want something to do in the summer, maybe serve some tennis balls or join a club and take lessons? How do you practice? I never knew of getting a machine to serve balls. Hm, don't you need an opponent to serve it in tricky spaces? You can get a bucket of balls, drop a ball, and hit it, or there's the serve that you throw up in the air and the teacher when you take class positions you to hit the ball. I wish I practiced, did tennis with my brother, a friend, and my mom. Usually, just my brother, but at 1st not. I started in a group class for kids, and I think my brother was 1 of the youngest if not the youngest but really unsure. I wanted to do that in the summer.
I just watched me singing "Table of Plenty." If you take away the hub of ****** gravitation, you remove the focal point, some thing that said some thing that wasn't there. If I went back to Saint Augustine, what would be there? The organ, the audience, the priest, the church and environment, the visitors.. :S I mean, I think things there are just different. Maybe, nothing was there to be offered, it's a world interest. It's like Mardi Gras and Disney, the whole wo'ld comes. Except, France literally has their own?
Hm, Saint Augustine is lots like New Orleans, so I'm like family, just worried what my close friends don't have.
I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," and my friend did tennis before I did and was all in the program. I was saving myself for other things but followed my brother. I wanted to think about softball, though, so. I don't even know about tennis, I just ended up there. My family did it with me and my brother, but I was tired, and then he took lessons. She did it with another friend, and they were making a big whoop about hitting the ball over the wire, and my tennis teacher in Slidell made us do it to duds or something. I don't know what I did in the lessons, but I do believe I ended up flipping my racket since I did baton. I think it was a big fetish. That's supposedly my greatest achievement, if not art.. or starting gymnastics at 1¾ because at the time I mean I ended up being so enthusiastic. I don't know why kids like to look like when they were 2. I mean, after that, I pretty much grew up? I don't know what is so funny about tennis, but I mean it always was funny to me, too. I'm sure my friend helped. She has white hair and was very short and she had to sit in the shade, is from the Northeast. That's the hottest I've ever been miserably other than racially. The funny thing was when I mused on the angle of the racket and the motion, the muscle, the pow'r, hitting the ball. It was just some thing, like about practicing. In the Catholic school, when I was allowed to attend soccer practice as a new student, I don't know if I was made fun of, but I did soccer camp and basketball at a Baptist school. I was always a good runner. I did cross country, had it in high school, heard it and went, thought it was trekking through the woods like a lot of people would wonder. I did badminton up north but grew to dislike it but had some fun at home, did a lot of ping pong at 1 point with the boys and a friend at home, the 1 from tennis. I think I was good at tennis, usually the best, taught some people and got a really big girl on the team but didn't go, myself, taught older people. I took lessons with the friend when I went back, but I don't remember how it was. I just know it's the 1st time my nose bled. It wasn't shooting out, but I mean it wasn't like lite lite. It might have even been a private lesson with an attractive lady who really liked my prowess.. The tennis teacher in Slidell's wife I did modeling with and he said I had such good legs like everyone there did.
You know, maybe it's good to connect with where your ancestors are from, but mine are scattered around Pennsylvania and 1 in NY state, not really sure where, could have looked it up. I have an ancestor from Ireland in the very late 1800s, I think, on my dad's dad's side, not sure his mom nor dad, probably mom. It must be hard to connect with the more American side. It's sweet seeing the girls loving their moms here. They just gravitate away from me, but they like others, people in Germany.
Oh, yes, I must have bounced the tennis racket on the court. No one has ever said they did private tennis lessons, like me, done tennis somewhat regularly since a preteen. So, this was before Titanic. Hm. The end of the world. I've probably thrown it on the ground but wouldn't want to ruin the court. I'm sure I've dropped it, and it's not good. I've never worn a tennis skirt, not really sure what I wore. Maybe, my worst thing was the backhand.. Not a very filled in person. Volleys are easy for some odd reason. Maybe, volleyball is associated with sand. My 2 music teachers from Saint Augustine, well just had 1, do tennis, not sure if the pianist or singer|guitarist is better.. The pianist is a teacher of piano all afternoon.. Speaking of things like, r, keychains, what happened to all the goods from Titanic? I think it's because I moved. It was like what was there for me. Maybe, I didn't feel like going online, anymore. I wonder if I should have gone online and posted that boy. He wouldn't post himself. Where would I go post it? Isn't it private, so the world would find out? Also, what about me? In Slidell, I did not look cool since as I left I guess the tennis made me gain weight. We stopped walking around. I was allowed to walk on my own, but I didn't go far, just around the corner to the old bookstore.. I remember this book with my mom of a mama cat carrying a baby. It wasn't there, later. I wanted to look at it.. There was a 3D theater by our house new. It was like going through time with like bookcases and fancy, complicated stuff, maybe reminicsent of video games of the time on the computer.. The games that came with the computer partly were landing a ship, but I could not figure it out, also could never figure out instructions on knitting nor crocheting. I tried.. So, then the other was this really gooey blood that stuck out and went like *squish*. It was so nostalgic online, well not online, a game. I was horrified, though, just liked the blood, but it was -so- sad? I know, though, that things ended. I think it's supposed to happen, but it already did. Since the girl from Hollywood moved there, people started taking to the beach background, which entails the modern culture in a kit for those deserving. So, things became so nostalgic. She was young, born in September. Her hair was all white, and she was physical. How is she not like Ellen DeGeneres? Um, well, she's not really an adult. I guess I'm not someone who is gonna say I'm gonna do shit for young people. I also get a feeling of the U.K., England etc., when I think of that. About like the pale blue wallets, the greenish blue bedding {;. I got lilac, and I regretted it my whole life. Some ways, no. I just didn't want to be the brand. It warbled. I grew tired of that bedding. I didn't have it when I moved maybe but think I did yea. I've never seen that color again later.
I don't know if I should do gymnastics, ballet. I just wanted to take classes from this teacher, want something to do in the summer, maybe serve some tennis balls or join a club and take lessons? How do you practice? I never knew of getting a machine to serve balls. Hm, don't you need an opponent to serve it in tricky spaces? You can get a bucket of balls, drop a ball, and hit it, or there's the serve that you throw up in the air and the teacher when you take class positions you to hit the ball. I wish I practiced, did tennis with my brother, a friend, and my mom. Usually, just my brother, but at 1st not. I started in a group class for kids, and I think my brother was 1 of the youngest if not the youngest but really unsure. I wanted to do that in the summer.
I just watched me singing "Table of Plenty." If you take away the hub of ****** gravitation, you remove the focal point, some thing that said some thing that wasn't there. If I went back to Saint Augustine, what would be there? The organ, the audience, the priest, the church and environment, the visitors.. :S I mean, I think things there are just different. Maybe, nothing was there to be offered, it's a world interest. It's like Mardi Gras and Disney, the whole wo'ld comes. Except, France literally has their own?
Hm, Saint Augustine is lots like New Orleans, so I'm like family, just worried what my close friends don't have.
I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," and my friend did tennis before I did and was all in the program. I was saving myself for other things but followed my brother. I wanted to think about softball, though, so. I don't even know about tennis, I just ended up there. My family did it with me and my brother, but I was tired, and then he took lessons. She did it with another friend, and they were making a big whoop about hitting the ball over the wire, and my tennis teacher in Slidell made us do it to duds or something. I don't know what I did in the lessons, but I do believe I ended up flipping my racket since I did baton. I think it was a big fetish. That's supposedly my greatest achievement, if not art.. or starting gymnastics at 1¾ because at the time I mean I ended up being so enthusiastic. I don't know why kids like to look like when they were 2. I mean, after that, I pretty much grew up? I don't know what is so funny about tennis, but I mean it always was funny to me, too. I'm sure my friend helped. She has white hair and was very short and she had to sit in the shade, is from the Northeast. That's the hottest I've ever been miserably other than racially. The funny thing was when I mused on the angle of the racket and the motion, the muscle, the pow'r, hitting the ball. It was just some thing, like about practicing. In the Catholic school, when I was allowed to attend soccer practice as a new student, I don't know if I was made fun of, but I did soccer camp and basketball at a Baptist school. I was always a good runner. I did cross country, had it in high school, heard it and went, thought it was trekking through the woods like a lot of people would wonder. I did badminton up north but grew to dislike it but had some fun at home, did a lot of ping pong at 1 point with the boys and a friend at home, the 1 from tennis. I think I was good at tennis, usually the best, taught some people and got a really big girl on the team but didn't go, myself, taught older people. I took lessons with the friend when I went back, but I don't remember how it was. I just know it's the 1st time my nose bled. It wasn't shooting out, but I mean it wasn't like lite lite. It might have even been a private lesson with an attractive lady who really liked my prowess.. The tennis teacher in Slidell's wife I did modeling with and he said I had such good legs like everyone there did.
You know, maybe it's good to connect with where your ancestors are from, but mine are scattered around Pennsylvania and 1 in NY state, not really sure where, could have looked it up. I have an ancestor from Ireland in the very late 1800s, I think, on my dad's dad's side, not sure his mom nor dad, probably mom. It must be hard to connect with the more American side. It's sweet seeing the girls loving their moms here. They just gravitate away from me, but they like others, people in Germany.
Oh, yes, I must have bounced the tennis racket on the court. No one has ever said they did private tennis lessons, like me, done tennis somewhat regularly since a preteen. So, this was before Titanic. Hm. The end of the world. I've probably thrown it on the ground but wouldn't want to ruin the court. I'm sure I've dropped it, and it's not good. I've never worn a tennis skirt, not really sure what I wore. Maybe, my worst thing was the backhand.. Not a very filled in person. Volleys are easy for some odd reason. Maybe, volleyball is associated with sand. My 2 music teachers from Saint Augustine, well just had 1, do tennis, not sure if the pianist or singer|guitarist is better.. The pianist is a teacher of piano all afternoon.. Speaking of things like, r, keychains, what happened to all the goods from Titanic? I think it's because I moved. It was like what was there for me. Maybe, I didn't feel like going online, anymore. I wonder if I should have gone online and posted that boy. He wouldn't post himself. Where would I go post it? Isn't it private, so the world would find out? Also, what about me? In Slidell, I did not look cool since as I left I guess the tennis made me gain weight. We stopped walking around. I was allowed to walk on my own, but I didn't go far, just around the corner to the old bookstore.. I remember this book with my mom of a mama cat carrying a baby. It wasn't there, later. I wanted to look at it.. There was a 3D theater by our house new. It was like going through time with like bookcases and fancy, complicated stuff, maybe reminicsent of video games of the time on the computer.. The games that came with the computer partly were landing a ship, but I could not figure it out, also could never figure out instructions on knitting nor crocheting. I tried.. So, then the other was this really gooey blood that stuck out and went like *squish*. It was so nostalgic online, well not online, a game. I was horrified, though, just liked the blood, but it was -so- sad? I know, though, that things ended. I think it's supposed to happen, but it already did. Since the girl from Hollywood moved there, people started taking to the beach background, which entails the modern culture in a kit for those deserving. So, things became so nostalgic. She was young, born in September. Her hair was all white, and she was physical. How is she not like Ellen DeGeneres? Um, well, she's not really an adult. I guess I'm not someone who is gonna say I'm gonna do shit for young people. I also get a feeling of the U.K., England etc., when I think of that. About like the pale blue wallets, the greenish blue bedding {;. I got lilac, and I regretted it my whole life. Some ways, no. I just didn't want to be the brand. It warbled. I grew tired of that bedding. I didn't have it when I moved maybe but think I did yea. I've never seen that color again later.
Jogged
I jogged with my weights for 1 hour and 40 minutes. I got an ice cream bar and candy at a gas station. They're the same 1s I use to work out. I want to take Body Pump possibly on Fridays now while I let my dad walk around at a mall nearby. When I'm done again, I can go to the mall on Fridays, but often I'm asleep and I sleep until the next class Tuesday.. I mean, it's important, and I like the mall Fridays. I dunno, I have to see, Gold's Gym.. not Crossgates like in Slidell.
What I'm Going to Do
I'm going to watch my videos and then "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," get ready for school, have a hot dog and liverwurst 1st, cooked. 3I in water zucchini, settle in bed, wake up and leave at 1:30 P.M., shower and probably take a bath. :|
Wednesday, January 30, 2013
-Like a Glove-
Ginny Kopf causes adverse reactions. It just seems like the time isn't right for a total meltdown. }:] She takes things as a joke, too, a machine, and she looks like a machine, sometimes, because she works for Disney. People from San Fransisco seem like machines.
R.I.P. <*>
More capitol punishment. Now, my future son is a questionable phenomenon in store. This is bullshit.t What is this crap fo
Problem
I was in the bathtub and laughed so much but kept stopping. Finally, I didn't laugh, anymore. 3(
Shower-Bath
My mom is practicing.. I gave her a coo hug, like we're still in Louisiana, the New Orleans area..
Cont.
I've lost track of what I was speaking of. So, I should have come home from college to where we moved in the Orlando area. I had fun playing around up until now. My goal is so I'd take Ginny's 3 classes before I'm ½ her age. I'm sorta stuck here.. So, that means I should have taken her courses by last summer. That's when I auditioned and then found I should take acting classes. I started watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" in Fall 2012, though, and that was Summer 2012. The n word thing happened in 2009, and I talked to my grandma a year until that summer, coping with my age in relation to my mom's. So, Summer 2012. We read from the Bible and a reading, but she got mad at me and made me suffer even after if I just felt mad from her treating me racistly now. It's since the n word thing. You know, I don't know who started it, my dad or the community or Tim Burton. So, my dad's youngest sister came for my birthday in 2011 I think yes. I realized in 2 years my age would be ½ my mom's, but I finally counted since I was created. For some reason, things didn't work out. I think my aunt did it for the n word thing, and I just didn't get it. I didn't have my biRTHDAY! ';0 I don't give a fuck about you goddamn Pennsylvanians you wanna go rot some in a shit hell hole or somesuch? What's my life, anyway, a piece of trash under your control? Oh, no one can control anything in the world. You know I just got more pricy nail polish for a shirt my aunt got me on my birthday. It might not be the big problem. So, what, I was supposed to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" earlier? It was impossible because my grandma had me call starting maybe 2nd ½ 2011. It just seems like I should have taken these classes when I moved here. I've been here so long not accomplishing anything, not looking forward to anything, not in place online. I can't get over how funny it was posting just on Facebook, playing with all the stuff, and then IMDb, and later getting a blog and thinking I was talking to Tim Burton. Speaking of Tim Burton and Ellen DeGeneres, I don't want to play with you just saying I did something wrong because you're shit. We can't make any jokes because of Burton. He's not even cool with what's right. This is my blog. I think Tim Burton just likes generation z tweens. Time tuueet.
Struggles
I think my friend is struggling with her decision to quit ballet and later on swimming. 8o My dad seems to have cared about that, her not doing ballet. She blamed me for not doing it, too. Her dad is obese, but her mom is very analytical. Hey, that's like the other friend being from Boston.
Jist a Yungun
I just found out I've been judged as though I had parents both 45 years older, but my dad was 35 when I was born and is considered serious and quiet. However, around me, he's racist and slow. I have this other friend with 2 parents born in the early-mid 50s. They must be very nice and cool.. Hey, why do adults spend so much time playing around with how much attention I deserve? I mean, it's a process. I had fun hanging out. I'm considered "the thing." It's funny, though, I need something different, to experience the world freely to my advantages, like everyone else does.. 3{
I'm Wishing ... I'm Wishing
So, I wish that the 1st teacher I had was Ginny Kopf, but I had my ballet teacher|s and the doctors and therapist who was more forward since she is from Miami. I don't think it really matters, but the ballet teacher sorta put a stamp on me, ½ Latino.
I'm off-
I guess I'll go watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." Maybe, I'll eat some beef and zucchini cooked. 3I on water.
Alternative
I wonder if I could replan my life. I don't know if I should have watched Ellen DeGeneres because I have a young mom. From there, I guess when I came home, I'm wondering what I should have done at the school in New Orleans because it was worth it. We are allowed to take a minimum of 12 credits. I got fat doing the prep and college ballet for 3 credit hours. I was supposed to go back to Ballet I or II. I came and did the prep and college ballet and I don't know if I should have quit the ballet prep, which had a friendly recital. I was suggested to take a break from music. I was told to branch out into some new major.
2nd Year - Semester 2 - After Hurricane
Ballet - 3 + Ballet Prep
Philosophy I|Intro - 3
Music History - 3
Intro to Psychology - 3
Summer Make-Up Semester
Ballet - 3 (no Performance :{ )
Abnormal Psychology - 3
Music History - 3
Sociology of Mardi Gras? - 3
3rd Year
Ballet - 3
Psyc - Intro to Research - 3
Math - 3
Intro to Mass Communications - 3
Come home @ 20.
How can you say where you come from if you have 2 parents? Even me being born in SE Florida is a detriment to people from Pennsylvania and lower NY. Lots of girls side with their dad and aren't comfortable with their touchy-feely moms. Their moms are comfortable with them but not with others, like their students or anyone at all they may be able to get to know. Well, maybe. Not everyone like that. I can say I was a kid in Florida, and there was no culture set forth by my parents from somewhere else. I know it's hard to recreate. You're concerned about where you are. I was a teenager in the New Orleans area. I was an adult in the Orlando area and Orlando. My dad's heritage is mainly in Pennsylvania and lower NY state. My mom is Chinese Indonesian. What's my main heritage? I don't know what you're thinking about Pennsylvania, but I found my ancestors come from different places in the area. I thought they all came from NW PA and SW NY. If I had a race, it'd probably be centered on a little Native American from up north. So, Ellen DeGeneres wanted to be a vet, too, and I'm interested only in the parts of Psyc other than Personality (sorting, like magazines or booklets I read on planes and with relatives and even friends) and animal testing, like there's a cognition lab, too. I lived in NO with this girl from SF mainly or doing my things at home when I could other than high school clubs like jamming musical theater, the good stuff, the popular stuff every artist knows. If I took 1 thing from Florida wouldn't actually be something about details, though I thought that was like the meaning in life. I thought up north they had something else.. I would take away the modern culture! Whoops, Ellen DeGeneres has nothing in it in that. That's Tim Burton, the chicken. New Orleans has nice celebrations, though, which is taken for granted in other places, like Florida. Well, it can be overly smothered in. I don't know what you'd equate what I'm thinking about to, but I'm just feeling good. I have a split dad, and I don't know what race his parents are! D3 They said they knew, but they changed it. I don't know if my grandma has anything like Dutch but has mixed Swiss, according to the names. Also, I don't know ... ah, yes, the point of me digging back into my life to see if I'd watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and still make it to Ginny Kopf's class and what the result of that would be..dunno.. I wasn't all that intersted and just was mad I might have to pay for the bus. The movement class seemed abusive. I didn't realize she was like a magical Disney person. I was tortured the whole time watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with my parents and clicks in my room and the people I know online who are more prominent so I'm pretty much totally just out. So, the reason I wish I did just this was because it was a good experience, but I know I came home then. I know I was feeling old and knew I could not succeed. My family moved, and I wanted to live with them, in Florida. Times were so hopeful, and Orlando is kinda interesting. I had a good time, when I came back. The 1st semester after the hurricane, I think they did the dance recitals on campus and I was eating food @ Tulane.. Summer was a free semester. I used to go to the park. The 3rd year was actually very magical, but I came home after like a month or even less. I was going to the zoo. I think I was eating at Tulane and walking around campus, even took yoga or Pilates, was quite an experience, used the gym. That's why, they kicked me out of music. Well, I could do organ. I mean, yea, I was soaking it in, miserably, struggling in classes, trying to get back in voice, or Music Education. I mean, I remember the trip to Wal-Mart and going back to my dorm where the brothers used to stay. I colored some glass animals, and I felt good there. Yes, the magic died there, for me. Going back home to Slidell wakes me up. There's nothing to do in New Orleans but enjoy the family stuff or walk down the alleys.
2nd Year - Semester 2 - After Hurricane
Ballet - 3 + Ballet Prep
Philosophy I|Intro - 3
Music History - 3
Intro to Psychology - 3
Summer Make-Up Semester
Ballet - 3 (no Performance :{ )
Abnormal Psychology - 3
Music History - 3
Sociology of Mardi Gras? - 3
3rd Year
Ballet - 3
Psyc - Intro to Research - 3
Math - 3
Intro to Mass Communications - 3
Come home @ 20.
How can you say where you come from if you have 2 parents? Even me being born in SE Florida is a detriment to people from Pennsylvania and lower NY. Lots of girls side with their dad and aren't comfortable with their touchy-feely moms. Their moms are comfortable with them but not with others, like their students or anyone at all they may be able to get to know. Well, maybe. Not everyone like that. I can say I was a kid in Florida, and there was no culture set forth by my parents from somewhere else. I know it's hard to recreate. You're concerned about where you are. I was a teenager in the New Orleans area. I was an adult in the Orlando area and Orlando. My dad's heritage is mainly in Pennsylvania and lower NY state. My mom is Chinese Indonesian. What's my main heritage? I don't know what you're thinking about Pennsylvania, but I found my ancestors come from different places in the area. I thought they all came from NW PA and SW NY. If I had a race, it'd probably be centered on a little Native American from up north. So, Ellen DeGeneres wanted to be a vet, too, and I'm interested only in the parts of Psyc other than Personality (sorting, like magazines or booklets I read on planes and with relatives and even friends) and animal testing, like there's a cognition lab, too. I lived in NO with this girl from SF mainly or doing my things at home when I could other than high school clubs like jamming musical theater, the good stuff, the popular stuff every artist knows. If I took 1 thing from Florida wouldn't actually be something about details, though I thought that was like the meaning in life. I thought up north they had something else.. I would take away the modern culture! Whoops, Ellen DeGeneres has nothing in it in that. That's Tim Burton, the chicken. New Orleans has nice celebrations, though, which is taken for granted in other places, like Florida. Well, it can be overly smothered in. I don't know what you'd equate what I'm thinking about to, but I'm just feeling good. I have a split dad, and I don't know what race his parents are! D3 They said they knew, but they changed it. I don't know if my grandma has anything like Dutch but has mixed Swiss, according to the names. Also, I don't know ... ah, yes, the point of me digging back into my life to see if I'd watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and still make it to Ginny Kopf's class and what the result of that would be..dunno.. I wasn't all that intersted and just was mad I might have to pay for the bus. The movement class seemed abusive. I didn't realize she was like a magical Disney person. I was tortured the whole time watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" with my parents and clicks in my room and the people I know online who are more prominent so I'm pretty much totally just out. So, the reason I wish I did just this was because it was a good experience, but I know I came home then. I know I was feeling old and knew I could not succeed. My family moved, and I wanted to live with them, in Florida. Times were so hopeful, and Orlando is kinda interesting. I had a good time, when I came back. The 1st semester after the hurricane, I think they did the dance recitals on campus and I was eating food @ Tulane.. Summer was a free semester. I used to go to the park. The 3rd year was actually very magical, but I came home after like a month or even less. I was going to the zoo. I think I was eating at Tulane and walking around campus, even took yoga or Pilates, was quite an experience, used the gym. That's why, they kicked me out of music. Well, I could do organ. I mean, yea, I was soaking it in, miserably, struggling in classes, trying to get back in voice, or Music Education. I mean, I remember the trip to Wal-Mart and going back to my dorm where the brothers used to stay. I colored some glass animals, and I felt good there. Yes, the magic died there, for me. Going back home to Slidell wakes me up. There's nothing to do in New Orleans but enjoy the family stuff or walk down the alleys.
Series of Events
So, the n word thing happened, and it was 2009, so I was still 23½. The reason I didn't look around Orlando for any teachers was because I didn't think there were any. I didn't know of any good classes. So, now I'm going to be 27 in like ½ year. I came home from college in 2005 and again in 2007 and finally started posting online and quit school.. I was 19 and 21.. I feel an old friend convinced me to quit college and charge onto the internet without being able to prepare. I thought my other friend encouraged me to have an interest in Nick at Nite. I moved to the area Ellen DeGeneres is from when I turned 12, was already pretty developed, seemed to need some exercise, like "what I did" wouldn't last. I think what pushed me not to do gymnastics team was to leave time open for ballet, etc., and so I wouldn't be just a gymnast and not be able to relate as a person, so it was dangerous. I'm not sure what happened to Britney Spears after she left the Mickey Mouse Club... My mom probably wanted me to do other things, like ride my bike on training wheels or even do yoga, and I only took ballet once a week and didn't want to look somewhere else. I left and my mom said it was too expensive and then I had to pay, seemed like it was too late, was 15.. Quit and did adult classes at 16.. Came back but did adult gymnastics and music school in the city so only did ballet once a week. I had started to eat more after a period of fasting and dieting and experimental ways of living. I'm not sure what really bothers me, maybe the fact I'm almost ½ the age of Ellen DeGeneres. I've been onto Tim Burton. I found someone in the community that age, and so it kinda opened me up to the possibilities. I don't believe in fate, so much, so I don't know what to say of lost opportunities of this nature. I made a decision to be a church musician. Mac and cheese burned. Anyway, so I am mad at this friend from Boston who just is so allergic to happening to meet smart people. Tim Burton thinking you can only meet famous people. He's just saying that, too. People keep getting mad at me. I really do believe this was an opportunity for me, but I don't know why I'm here, still. I just assume it's 1 more city with a job open still for my dad. Also, my dad keeps getting mad, like because I wanted a dress, like in a hurry, but I mean it was on sale so I asked didn't like steal from him somehow. All I can say is that I am in Orlando, and that everything seems to happen by chance but with reasons. That's 1 reason I am interested in her, I guess, I mean guess I would be, anyway, am in good standing. You can't have everything in L.A., the same way we only said NYC was worth it. So, me in Orlando is an open thing, because it's the hub of Florida for having Disney. The other areas are populated with immigrants and have no professional authority racially. They're all Latino, and they are so racist and annoying and disrupt stuff. I don't really know where I want to live because I'm still young and live with my parents, like old Irish farmers. Cooking more mac and cheese, in hopes someone will someday learn to comment sooner, like a chat response, dunno, don't want it to become like a book.. :/
Changed My Mind
I changed my mind about taking ballet. I'm not sure why I bothered stepping foot into a classroom. I should have looked elsewhere for something to do, like at the acting classes, the theater teachers, heard it was important, also heard it was important to see if you can find someone who is born around 1958..
Tuesday, January 29, 2013
Where I'd Live
If I had to move from Pennsylvania and New York, I'd move to Kentucky, for the food, but stale bread.
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Class Today
So, I thought we were supposed to stay after class and practice, but I guess we didn’t get the assignment. They were rude, and I snapped the door shut. Someone I came across was mean to me, and I stomped the floor. I forgot about it.
I forget what else happened. I don’t really like the kids. Something did. Hm.
I know I was laughing, a lot, couldn’t help it, thinking of how San Fransisco was better than stubborn people from L.A.
I don’t know if I’ll get thinner. I need to sleep, sometime. I want to fit in junior dresses, or, otherwise, I will get women’s dresses.
Today, in class, Ginny did some Disney moves. I guess that she became accomplished by being there more. She is good at voices but not very childlike, you know?
I realized her dad’s from Pittsburgh and that people with ancestry there are stuck up. There are other bigger cities in Pennsylvania that are more European, and the Amish are more European, too. I mean, you might like Jackie Evancho better than the other Pennsylvanians. I guess being from the city, I connect with her, but I don’t know where her family all is from. I found Maggie Elizabeth Jones, age 10 born 2002, from We Bought a Zoo, is from Atlanta, and I don’t believe Dakota Fanning and Chloë Grace Moretz are from Atlanta, really. All I can say, is I was born in Fort Lauderdale. My mom isn’t from the U.S., and I was not raised by my dad. My mom doesn’t let my dad get too close ********. I think with my dad it was about how he looked. My mom is very attractive.. Chloë Grace Moretz’s mom definitely looks from Georgia. It seems more like comfortably proper than the New Orleans area. The thing with me is I never lived in Fort Lauderdale, but, because I lived in several cities in the area, when I was there, I can say I’m basically from there, just not from the city just because it was expensive or maybe something to do with the area. People from there look pretty worn but astute. It seems Miami might be astute, but I’m not sure. Maybe, Orlando is 2ndto Miami. Fort Lauderdale is like NY state. When I was there, it was more like Miami, and I heard of Miami, when I was a toddler or very young child. The thing is when my brother was born, I eventually looked more like a boy as he grew older. There was nothing to do. When I went to Georgia, it seemed like a place that preserved war history. I remember looking at Cabbage Patch Land as a kid, so I went there. I always lived in major hubs of Florida, except in Southeastern Florida we couldn’t afford to live in Fort Lauderdale, Miami, not Key West. You know, there used to be a bridge that went to Key West. Above Fort Lauderdale is where old people retire, West Palm Beach. Jacksonville is a really big city and is above the nation’s oldest continuing city. My mom wanted me to go to high school in the nation’s oldest continuing city, like we planned to go to the Catholic school in New Orleans. My mom even wanted me at an all girls and arts school. Other people were like leaving home. I think I had a good high school because it was the sports high school.. {3 I wonder if there are any people with heritage in Miami or Key West who are attractive. I’m not saying I’d get with them.. I think, I mean, it would be better to live in Miami than New York City, not that I need to go there but liked when the plane stopped there.. See, it’s 1 of the escapes, the escape, from the states, NY, Pennsylvania, NJ, and New England. Oh yea, and Dakota Fanning’s family is I think from somewhere in the Carolinas. I think it made them more white. Florida is considered kinda white, like the dream place, like Indonesia. In class, the teacher talked about Filipinos, which is a part of Asia.. I saw a boy I like dressed up in Burma, and a famous actress Kate Beckingsale is like ⅛ Burmese and from Britain. The Nepalese (sp?) in the area look more Asian. 3| So, a big thing was maybe in Pennsylvania that not people from the city are important. There are even the PA Dutch. I’m guessing that the Amish, not sure if PA Dutch, which seems more related to my country or rather farm family, are the most European. I did go there, more than once, but I didn’t get to do much. I guess maybe it didn’t have so much wildgrowth. So, my family are countryfolk. It’s just that they’re from up north. However, I think we have Jewish genes from the more German side. We are probably Native American indian, though. So, if we weren’t Jewish nor Native American, I’d probably come from a good family.. guess the Native American indian kinda counts me out, in my humble opinion. It just is a benefit, maybe the Jews aren’t Asian and they’re just like related to like the Egyptians. The Egyptians look Middle Eastern. I think I’ve seen other tribes in Northern Africa who look kinda like tribes in Turkey, like wild white people. Maybe, the Jews moved in the Middle Ages because of borrowing their religion? Oh, I noticed the southern Native Americans are more interesting but darker, like “not white.” I don’t know that people in Pennsylvania in public care that I’m Native American indian, and it’s not from a mom.. Even still, it seems to really matter, like if your dad thinks you’re white. Oh yes, and the people from Florida look white. So, I mean, maybe for some reason people in the South are European but not like in a white American way.
Bathroom Break
Think I'm White?
Why don't you just think I'm white? That means European. :/ Latino?
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