Careers

Can you be trusted if you don't have a career?  This is an old one.  You need a career to keep yourself improving?  Well, I know how you have to sacrifice other careers for it.

Jobs

I never said I wanted to be stuck in the minimum wage/jobless sector!!

Weird Experience

Child Fund, pay for a child, I jotted that down.

I see all these Spanish kids and it's like they're better off than me.  8|

Brothers and Sisters

So, why would I be like my brother and my dad's youngest sister not have to be shit like her siblings?  *BEEP*  Or that's ridiculous!  I don't think people think that she's even okay how she is, like what she does and what she claims is right.

I don't know why you'd say that it's all cut off at a point like the 80s.  About people born at a time when they got what they needed because it's when media finally began to emerge.  Like artsy entertainment.  People became fullout quirky, but they weren't supposed to.  Now, I want to be refined but my dad bites and claws at me like a bear emotionally and will never talk it out nor stop when I have him drive me somewhere in Orlando or the area.  I mean, I deserve to get what I need, and I'd still see him, anyway.  I'd see stuff around the house.  Him driving me makes me forget things, but I tend to forget when I see other people, as well.  Simply put, it's also nice to have him drive me, and sometimes I'd want to see him.  It's just that I can't really drive everywhere.  He drives me to the mall, to the grocery and even does the groceries for me.  It's just that I deserve to be driven, and I mean why should he stop me?  I want to learn to drive, but my life has been too hard.  I still don't feel like that well, haven't practiced, don't always have the car, like to go to school.  Then, I don't have a car.  I've tried to get 2 temporary Christmas jobs over the past 5 years working in popular, fancy stuff.  1 was to be given to someone in need, and the other seemed to want experience.  I just am not lucky in Orlando but was accepted in Slidell with quite a guarantee...  I would drive if I had a car.  I often am asleep when my parents are home or probably don't feel relaxed.  So, it's $4 for a van, and I sleep on it.  That's a long way but I think maybe a set fare.  It seems like a lot now, could pay for other things.  My college is just a loan, now.  That's why I don't take other classes.  I used to do ballet, a long time ago.  I had to pay before with my working money even at 15.  So...

So, I was wondering why people are not ready to accept you for who your dad is.  People have been like to the world's end fortifying or glorifying the worth of their dads and moms racially.  I mean, I just don't want to be my dad, I don't want to be my brother, and with my mom I mean she's nicer and not as nasty, really, can't stand my dad and brother as much, just didn't know them as much early on.  You might want to consider me just another person who deserves something in life and who does what she does and shouldn't be told she doesn't do what she doesn't do.  I don't know why my dad's face is so big.  Maybe, he is just being silly for my mom, but that was not something I had to do.  With other men, I guess it's interesting.  They want to know about the age of my dad, the younger 1s..  I find that a bit obvious.  They don't talk about it.  I mean, it's not like the best, maybe, and if it is you should respect it.  Before my dad worked as much, I mean he seemed kinda aloof, and that is NOT something young girls do.

Work Stereotypes

Why was I never stereotyped as a nurse like people born a long time ago?  I don't feel awkward, at all, about work, but I don't work.

Reminiscing

Do you remember when you were 1?  What about 2?  What about 3 and 4?

I remember things were very like surreal and heavy-weighted.  I'm "from Fort Lauderdale" because I was born in a hospital there, and I lived in several cities around the area, including I remember now 2 beaches, don't remember which 1 was on top.  I was created at 1, and that's the 1 I like and my favorite place I've seen.  The only other thing I could say is the beaches between Fort Lauderdale and Miami or between Miami and Key West and possibly the Keys.  I think it was because of my mom being like open to things "not being white|'Caucasian.'"  Her strength was doing gymnastics in high school.  She did ballet as a kid.  She was #1 in the country.  However, I think the most advanced thing she did was probably something like a back handspring, which I've never done, though I was the most advanced for not being on a team, which was something I never saw, until I quit and then went back to get a workout, so-to-speak.  She's also very short and said she was about the thinnest, like very thin, though she wasn't as thin as a starving kid in Africa and wasn't shaped like too crookedly or some way hard to describe though she wasn't badly crooked..., and the fairest, "like a 'blonde.'"  My dad has black hair and blue and yellow eyes.  My mom's skin used to seem deeply gray, but she made it yellow brown tan.  It was dark sometimes, before, too.  It was even darker than me.  I got to be a fat baby, and then my skin was white, but I wish I wasn't so fat.  I don't know why I was so small, but I wasn't always so small to my mom.  She said my eyes were dark blue, but I saw in the light they looked gray blue.  They even looked colorful blue.  However, I was born with wood hair that looked dark like more light blackish and maybe dirty from far away, and my eyes got to be a nice wood brown all my life with sparklies in it.  I remember when I was 3 that they were like crystally and all put together, but I think I was upset about the color with my race.  My eyes teetered with green, so that's why it was sorta a more colorful brown.  I'm sure you could have deep brown or maybe a nice reddish black, though I've not looked into a black person's eyes.  My understanding was that Latin Americans also have dark eyes.  I guess Africans don't have maybe crystally eyes.  They're into milk and blood.  I guess Native Americans have sorta a more grayish brown.  By the way, are they like separate from Europeans?  That must be a big question.  I don't really want to think they're Asian, neither.  They're not Middle Eastern, but they would fit a clan life more.  However, they are the wild tribes of the world, and the Africans are the wild beasts who learned to speak and may have had a language, as well as written language.  Something about Native Americans seems primitive.  It's interesting when you meet mixed Native Americans and people with a little Jewish, which it seems so many people have in the U.S.  I don't have proof, but I noticed a trend that could be possible.  It seems like the darker Europeans, like the non-Russian Eastern European and Southern Europeans, have a more pure race in the U.S.  I'm not sure how many people have thought of this.  No one ever told me.

Ah, just got back from the restroom and said bye to my family.

So, anyway, like it was like a big boom, like all these balls, all this fuzz, all these dreams, you could so sense.  I just don't know why it was connected as I moved and don't know why I grew older and it wore away, like it was for toddlers.  Like, I'm thinking of when I was, like, 4.  The dreams, often, involved, like things of the water.  My eyes just lit up as though I were still in "Fort Lauderdale."  Like, I guess, like Titanic.  It was about civilized life among the existence of the "romance" or "nostalgia" of the water and, I guess, the beach.  So, I lived along coastal Florida at the bottom and top.  It did muddle life in connecting to others.  I don't really know modern people from other areas.  It was just a feeling.  I also felt the 80s and things kids should feel but not like the good outdoors.  We didn't walk along the beach.  We did sometimes but not often.  Like, there was no hillside to go to.  We didn't really walk around the dust.  We did walk around like every night and go home on a bus and have Chick-Fil-A and piña colada [without alcohol.]  I felt the racism creeping in, as I tried to enjoy what others rushed by.  I can't say that my mom was better off, but she did live in Pennsylvania, briefly.  I'm not sure if it was New York.  They lived in a huge building that could have been used for dance.  It was kinda like a big empty studio that was 2 stories high.  Maybe, there was like a balcony or something.  I think it was a ballroom.  My dad worked 3 jobs, including photography and, of course, like many men, truck driving.  I mean, he was also a paper boy, when he was little, guess he was lucky, too.  His mom somehow got milk to him all the time and worked when his littlest sister was born and had the older sister take care of her.  Both sisters were younger, and his mom had miscarriages, I think maybe of all boys, though the supposed story changes.  I don't believe that is common, and I don't know what happened.  I guess you should know my dad's youngest sister had her daughter cut open.  I was small.  My mom even took a class where she took care of babies before I was born.  Like, I think she changed your diapers!  Haha.  So, no, don't even think she's like bad like a black person.  The Chinese weren't treated like niggers, back in the day.  She is not Vietnamese|Japanese.  Funny, it seems the Chinese don't have to have squinty eyes.  I don't know that Southern Chinese are bad.  What my dad provided was the memory of like technology and modern culture and maybe the aura of the hippie|flower generation.  He is a hypnotist.  His sister is, now, too.  He also used to always talk about how he was in a band in his basement.  I don't know why he doesn't do that upbeat stuff, to this day, but it influenced my life and I find it interesting.  My mom was also in a gamalan at school, maybe played the angklung, which I mean is something to think about or listen to.  She also used to tell me about shadow puppets.  It wasn't "that I was better" but that I had to like respect it but that 1 I wasn't from there and 2 my dad wasn't of Indonesian heritage and I guess he was around.

So, the experience wasn't really so easy, and I wasn't really so comfortable with myself.  I got upset.  I guess kids used to get upset in that sorta way that needs to be nurtured, maybe by themselves, at least in my case.  My mom was a guide.  My dad was a comforter to me, maybe a guide to my brother.  My brother clung to my mom in a selfish way.  I did in a shy way until I got a little older and then my brother was born.  I wasn't like ************.  I was just shy.  It was because of my race, though, so that's kinda lame.  It's more of a memory, like I guess thinking of the possibilities living by New Orleans, thankful I lived right across the bridge.  It was a really big deal how close you were.  My roommate was a health nut and homeschooled.  My problem with Britney Spears is her being from Mississippi.  My understanding is that people like her grew up more gung ho.  I guess that fits the description of how Ellen DeGeneres turns out certain generations.  I guess I sorta find it that it's more nostalgic, like with the idea of like maybe you'd eat fish there.  I'm not from Mississippi.  It's so funny, I don't know anyone else important from there.  Chloë Grace Moretz is from Georgia, and that's really something totally different, very aggressive.  I happened to go to a campsite around Atlanta somewhere, by Cabbage Patch Land, with my aunt's inlaws.  I was left in the town for like 6 hours or maybe just 4½ hours.  Also, it was Christmastime.  So, I don't know anyone else just from there.  I connected more to Miley Cyrus.  She's from Nashville.  Well, the New Orleans area isn't modern.  It isn't preserved.  It's more preserved than most places, but I don't know how I'd know that.  I can't even feel modern culture.  I lost my tie.  I was only 12.  All the clothes were different.  There was really nothing worth it, nothing cool.  Nothing slick, sleek, sloped, nice materials, sorta that late 90s gung ho feel, you know?  I know, though, that I have problems, too, but I'm afraid I have the idea those people "will not make it in Hell."  I don't really know that I "have problems" like sorta big and concrete, but it seems like it and I was fuzzing it.  So, I'm not sure what that is.  I just hope I don't really get like a problem.  I'm not that fascinated with that I said that.  It's not my responsibility that things there are lazy.  It's the Big Easy.  I'm not sure what things would be like elsewhere, probably an adventure in L.A., though I'm glad I moved to the New Orleans area, instead.  It did seem far away, but I mean it was across the lake, and there's not much across the lake.  I guess I was fascinated with like the reptiles and stuff there, like in Florida, which is more fascinating here, though they don't all know it in every way there.  I guess they have a lot more fun, but I wasn't acclimated to the area and messed up too much.  I was more shriveled up.  I'm not sure why you can't learn from me what I picked up living in Florida.  I guess you have to understand 1st that I thought you understood that clothes were more ideal to be sorta simple and thick and sleek.  Having a curve or flare but not like a dandelion is the thing.  I hope you get the idea.  I guess that would elicit quite a lot of emotions considering before stuff like that wasn't known to me.  I don't really know what kind of dresses nor casual dress shirts they wore.  I know I had tacky dresses and that right after I was too old they made such cute things.  However, the adults made us feel that we were emitting hatred to younger generations because they would probably be more feeling than us.  I have a feeling they burned out.  I mean, people older than me have specific stereotypes in grades, the 2 grades older than me.  They're considered really young, and it's a big thing.  So many other people are like kinda ugly or they don't have a stereotype.

Unaccomplished

So, why are kids supposed to be fully formed at age 7?  What happens at *******?

The world has serious problems, and I can't feel accomplished at work!

Tired

Are homeless people too tired to work?

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Food and Board

What if there was a place with food, board, and a steady job? No debts.

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Nurses

Why do I never get a young and **** nurse?  Are they all baby deliverers?

What I Wish I Did

Year 1
1 Freshman Orientation | Civics
2 Biology I H
3 English II G
4 Geometry G
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing

Year 2
1 World History
2 Biology II
3 English III G
4 Algebra II G
5 Advanced Math APG
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing

Year 3
1 English II G
2 Calculus APG
3 PE II | Health
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Theater
6 Talented Music - Singing
7

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Film

Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.

What I Could Have Done

Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 World Geography
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 Biology I H
6 PE I
7 Spanish I

Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II G
3 Advanced Math APG
4 World History
5 Chemistry I H
6 Biology II
7 Spanish II

Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 Calculus APG
3 American History H
4 Physics H
5 Chemistry II
6 PE II | Health
7 Free Enterprise

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Reqiured Minor in Religion + Honors

Graduate + work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.

Work

My dad was a paper boy.  I don't know what he did, but I know he hiked as a kid.  I posted before that he went to school 1|2 day because it was so big and was drugged on hay fever.

I know my aunts worked at like ice cream shops.  My older aunt worked her way through college.  I know my dad had 3 jobs at once.

We Are Closed

I don't know what you think, but I need my weekend and, no, there aren't nice places to work that let you on just the weekend.

What I Could Have Done

Year 1
1 English I G
2 Geometry G
3 World Geography
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 Physical Science H
6 PE I
7 Spanish I

Year 2
1 English II G
2 Algebra II G
3 Advanced Math APG
4 World History
5 Biology I H
6 PE II | Health
7 Spanish II

Year 3
1 English III APG
2 Calculus APG
3 American History H
4 Chemistry I H
5 Biology II
6 Spanish III
7 PE III

Year 4
1 English IV APG
2 Physics H
3 Chemistry II
4 Spanish IV
5
6
7

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Spanish

Graduate + work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.  =I

I used my Wolf Bucks with maybe just $20 left.  However, I didn't buy breakfast.  My mom drove me to Whole Foods.  A hurricane came, and I started buying breakfast and got fat.  I even wanted 3 wraps.  I got a smoothie for lunch.

So, I fasted when I was turning 16.  It's something special because it's hard to have energy.  1st, I wasn't very unhealthy and started to eat more healthily.  Like, I had cereal.  I used to have pop tarts and then 2 white bagels with butter.  I didn't like cream cheese...  For lunch, I had sandwiches and sometimes pizza and leftovers.  For supper, I wanted more and more starchy, creamy food.  I was tired of Chinese Chicken.  We hardly ever ate out at fast food restaurants.

So, I understand that "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" shows every day.  It stops in the summer and starts at the end of August.  You can get clips online, today.

So, I don't want to work.  We have family up north, and we used to visit most every summer.  Things changed when my aunts came, too, when I was a preteen, but I had just moved, anyway.

So, we didn't have a breakfast buffet.  Lunch you have to pay for with Wolf Bucks, too, not a Meal Plan set.

I guess I would get money from my parents, at least, for breakfast.  Breakfast is probably $7, so that's $50 a week.

Stores

When I lived in the oldest continuing city in the U.S., there was a Heritage Walkway.  There was a bar that sold a cute, tasty mini pizza, no bubbles.  I got lemonade.  There are lots of little places like that.  This is Saint George Street.  I walked there on the way to school, but I wasn't allowed to go alone and my grandma gave us a car when I started piano.  Ours broke, so we had 1.  My mom started working at Albertson's, and once she came to the festival like 2 or 3 hours late or maybe just 1 or 2.  My dad was carrying my brother.  It reminds me when I built the playground, my mom was holding my brother like a poor person.  I don't know why he ended up sucking up to my parents, but I know I don't really want to.  My mom was a florist and worked for Bubba.  She had a friend who went into the Navy, a young lady with dark hair.  I think she knew someone who worked in meat, but I don't know who nor if it's Bubba.  My mom worked for a secretary I think when I was really small.  She knitted a clown doll for my brother.  I could never succeed in following the directions for knitting, crocheting, nor if there's something else, but I can cross stitch and sew and was known for my little toy loom as a kid, which they still sell today sometimes in certain stores.

Psychiatry

When I did Chemistry for Pre-Med to go into Psychiatry maybe, at Loyola, it was easier than the classes of reading.  The easiest part was the Physics lab and the Chemistry lab.  I audied Chemistry II when I changed high schools.  I tried to take it.  I don't know if I got any of the classes.  I think it went Physics, Chemistry, Biology.  I almost said Psychiatry, instead of Biology.  The body is made up of Chemicals.  :|  I guess me having the Emerald as my birthstone got to me.  Also, the Silly Bull is the animal, and for my year it's Tiger.  You'd think there'd be more signs.  Pharmacists are considered smart and probably major in Chemistry.  Maybe, I should have majored in Physics.  I was merely fascinated with Chemical reactions, but you don't need a major to take the MCAT, which I lost the password and didn't in fact know the answers.

Psychiatry

Pre-Med is only 8 courses, 1 year.  So, to be a Psychiatrist in all 3 ages is ... and Geriatric Psychiatry is 1 year ... 8 years total.  ;|

Personality Psychiatry

In Medicine, you notice that Personality is important in Psychiatry.  So, you go through Medicine, which I think is 4 years.

Look, Tulane in New Orleans has a hospital.  =D

Yes, Medicine is 4 years.  To get a further degree is 3-4 years.  So, I don't know if ... yes, I found a school with a program in Child, Adolescent, and Adult Psychiatry.  It's 5 years.  So, you'd graduate in up to 13 years and would be 31.

My psychiatrist in New Orleans, in a run down place, did Music at my school.  He just sent me home, like my Psychologist, who I sometimes saw at Breakfast.

So, yes, it's about the opportunity, and if you study more in Psychiatry it tells what all you can research and create methologically.  I mean, everyone can write.  English is about how you write, but Psychiatry is "about 'writing.'"

Pure Pleasure

Why are people mad at you experiencing pleasure in private or feeling accomplished?  RACE

Also, why do some crappy job for a lot of money, just to get a mere home?  Why not get famous for performing?  You know, singing musicals and classical songs and some pop, knowing how to dance and do classical dance|ballet, etc.?