Problem

GET ELLEN DEGENERES TO STOP THESE MESSAGES IN PRIVATE BECAUSE OF THE N WORD THING AND OTHER LITTLE THINGS.

STOP!  I DON'T WANT TO BE STUPID.  I'm not going to live in a world of bullshit.  Stop saying the world is really bad and my fantasies are false.  SOMEONE GET HER.  SHE'S LYING.

Hey stop loading the page funny all the time.  Stop taking out your anger you piece of shit.

Problem

So why did you make me feel like I don't want kids?  Answer.  Maybe, I should like figure you're just stupid.

Problem

Hey, stop!  SHUT UP.  My right girl sack.  You're nothing, absolutely nothing.  Why should I not care about that?  Come up with a real reason.  Something that's not like because you're in trouble or because actually I do favor other people over you and if you have kids hm something I don't want to know.

Problem

Hey, why did Ellen DeGeneres bother me with noises in my room and the way things load for ½ year?  What about this boy I met?  What, did you "find him, too?"

Problem

I SAID STOP.  IS THIS ANOTHER "MESSAGE FROM ELLEN?"  JUST SHUT UP.  You don't deserve her to approve of you.  Stop saying I can't like her.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres is a *beep* because she thinks I should die someday anyway.  She also thinks I really mean what I say to certain people.  SHUT UP.  STOP.  I SAID STOP.  LEAVE ME ALONE.  I heard an annoying noise.  Hm, you want me to just say I hope that she doesn't give me any attention, but you think you posted something for her to relate to or are nice to keep to not directing it toward the likings of her..  Stop, I'm not dealing with your making fun of what I say for no apparent reason you will not explain.

Problem

Why is Ellen DeGeneres bringing up things and then like not caring that she was wrong?  She keeps doing this.  I'm getting these messages in private, afterthoughts.  She's just a wild hose from the New Orleans area.

Look, I told you to stop.  Go c** yourself in the f***, you piece of crap.

Problem

GO AWAY YOU PIECE OF SHIT

You're just being a nigger and treating me like a nigger.  You're a piece of shit you can't hold in your shit.  You're just a piece of shit.  Go b*** your b**** and ***.

And leave me alone for "what came up."

WHO GAVE MY MOM GLASSES?  What's so cool about it?  It looks suspicious to me.  I don't have to be hurt by my dad.  He was threatened to be arrested, and I'm trying to have a successful relationship but am getting that Ellen DeGeneres is antsy.  I am not sure of the truth in her actually doing it just like this.

Problem

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE.  YOU'RE SUCH A NIGGER.  STOP PICKING ON ME FOR SAYING THAT.  YOU'RE ALL JUST CRAP.  YOU'RE RUINING MY LIFE.  WHY SHOULD I CARE ABOUT YOU?  YOU'RE JUST A PIECE OF CRAP.  YOU WON'T LEAVE ME ALONE.  YOU'RE JUST A SPITEFUL NIGGER.

Someone stop them, they're gonna hurt me.  They just annoyed me.  They keep picking on me for when I get mad at something important and then ruin it.  This is gonna bother me.  This wasn't supposed to happen, neither.  Who cares "what" Ellen DeGeneres thinks of this?  WHAT'S WRONG WITH IT?  COME ON, ANSWER DUMMY...

Problem

SHUT UP ABOUT THE N WORD THING.

I'm trying to watch Ellen DeGeneres.

Problem

Just stop.  Ellen DeGeneres needs to stop getting things out when something doesn't go her way.

Problem

I'm sick of the image of Ellen DeGeneres as a nigger.

Problem

I told you to stop.

You're making up weird fantasies about people related to people I care about.

I don't care what you say.  Stop acting like a piece of shit to my dad sucked up to him.

Problem

I think Ellen DeGeneres is trying to ruin my brain so I can't do certain things but doesn't want to say anything.  Stop slobbering all over my blog and getting in my private life, you *beep* devil.

Problem

STOP GETTING MAD AT PEOPLE LIKE ELLEN DEGENERES AS BAIT FOR ME BECAUSE SHE'S MEAN TO ME AND BETTER THAN YOU.

Problem

No one cares about Ellen DeGeneres having a mom with a Jewish last name.  I mean, like, she shouldn't be treated well for her antics at being special in the way she is, which is in private her sending messages via wire that she can only be annoying.

Problem

SINCE WHEN DID ELLEN DEGENERES SAY THAT SOME FANTASY IS A DIM REALITY?

Problem

Stop hurting me after I post online.  I can make a point.  I didn't do anything wrong.  Look, prove it.  I SAID STOP.  TALK.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres keeps saying stuff that's not right and seems to be happy like before she's hurting me in private.  Hey, stop.  You're wrong.  I'd h*** you.  You have a problem with being nice to people.

Problem

STOP GETTING MAD AT ME FOR CURSING AND STOP SAYING I'M A NIGGER AND SUGGESTING MY KIDS WILL BE.  What are you a freak?  You are just like everyone else.  What did you send me now, wasting your time?  You're so mean.  I do want to talk to people, and I don't think other people are better than you.

I got a message from Ellen DeGeneres.  STOP.  Just because someone insulted you you're playing cool and insulting other people.  Why don't you accept it?

HEY LEAVE ME ALONE I DON'T WANT TO RUIN MY RELATIONSHIP TO HER.  GO TEACH YOURSELF A LESSON.  LISTEN.  I'M NOT WASTING MY TIME ON YOU.  Ooh, so, that means you won't talk to me, because you're ruining the other people I know.  What do you think I sound like now?  Stop it you annoying people.  You also sound like Chloë Grace Moretz.  Stop.  Leave me alone.  I'm not doing anything wrong.  You did it.  Some stranger didn't do it.  Hey, quit it, stop saying I'm mimicking people.  You're wrong.

Hey, now, I'm getting annoying noises invading me.  Look, I don't care about you.  I told you to leave me alone.  You're wasting my time.  Stop saying stuff that's not true.  Like that it's cool to make up mean stuff.

Problem

I guess we'll stop feeding Ellen DeGeneres.  She's from the New Orleans area and went crazy moving to L.A. like everyone from there.  Why can't she just stop sending these messages?  Or whatever whoever is doing it.  It's a part of culture, and everyone knows now she's just like getting mad at all this stuff and is uncomfortable and making other people hurt me, like I know in my room alone.  Also, it's throughout the day.  Sometimes, it seems like most of my day online.  It happened for ½ year.  LOOK I'M RIGHT.  I guess she doesn't care about people like me.  I thought maybe she wouldn't but that she'd warm up to me.  I mean, do you really like her?

Problem

STOP.  You're hurting me.  Stop barking at me.  I SAID STOP.  YOU MAKE NO SENSE.  I DON'T CARE ABOUT YOU.  I don't feel guilty.  What now?  Why do you think I'll believe this?  I don't want to do this.  What's your problem?  I don't believe you.  No one does.  I TOLD YOU TO STOP.  Stop saying it's my fault.  You should be unaffected.  See, I figured it out.

Problem

Ellen DeGeneres doesn't realize that being bad also will get her in trouble and not keep her safe.  LOOK STOP THREATENING TO HURT PEOPLE.  Let's make sure it's not a precaution in the world.  Let's see if we can ease out of it.  Why not work on it?  I don't believe in not working on fixing it.

Problem

Leave me alone.  I can blog whatever I want.  I don't need someone hurting me, all the time.  What's wrong with my blog now?  No curse words.  No threats.  Don't you get mad sometimes?  You do as much as you can, but you can't hurt anyone.  You try to be nice, but then people think everything is trying to hurt them.  The funniest thing happened at the mall, and I know you've probably sauced over it, in some way, in your own way.  So, you think I'm a nigger if I don't hurt you?!  HA!

Problem

Why should I care about you?  You keep saying things are true that aren't.

Also, why do you keep bringing up tight situations?  Are you a dodo?

Problem

You don't have to bring up things and associate bad things with good things to me.  What do you think I am?  Explain, dummy.  Why are you saying this is Ellen DeGeneres?  Why doesn't she seem to deny it?  How's that gonna help?  Gotta problem?  Or is it something complicated?  You can't just figure out some way to avoid this.  You're still wrong.  I know where you come from, both places.

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Respecting the Past

Ellen DeGeneres doesn't seem to respect the idea of negros looking back at their past, like a southern NYC feel.  My idea of New Orleans negros, not the black ladies wading in the streets (which is with atail of kids, seen most times in the city it seems ... some of you may never know) was being like attractive sorta in the Communications fie'ld.

I know I understand this and don't live it and other people kinda reject it.

What about things they preach in English and History, the "Harlem Renaissance."  '8I

What was your childhood like?

I wasn't allowed to play in some endless field or through a backyard.  So, I ate my ration and like I mean I could eat lots of sweets, but after I quit exercise for awhile and moved like I pretty much would bloat after any meal.  I don't know how I managed before martial arts once a week.  It had grappling.

Problem

Why do you want every experience to be like literal and not like interesting with things made up and feelings?

Problem

Why would you desire someone to be sorry for someone for being tacky?

Generation Weaknesses

What if what made you feel more like weak was "what" the generation below you did?  Did you think about people feeling weak about "what" their own generation "is allowed to do" in relation to Late Boom?  Because of the mean age of parents of peers?

Wrong Racial Decisions

People realize they were racist but don't realize it was wrong and that that can't be the reason.  How can you be philosophically ruled out with no explanation farted out?

Overcoming Obstacles

So, if you've had a problem a long time and everyone has the same problem, you meet Ellen DeGeneres and she tells you to just jump in the pool and change this fixture you have you can't overcome and that dictates the peak of your very life?

Problem

If I lived all over the U.S., why can you tell me otherwise?  Are you certified to do it?  Just a question.  It's not something you're allowed to do to just me..

Problem

I do not agree with my life ***ually following in the mistakes of my dad, like I had to decide to be like him, like fate.  Like, maybe he doesn't jump in.  I don't think he was the 1 who doesn't jump in because he's white but maybe part Jewish and "supposedly" a little part Native American indian.

Being "European"

So, my mom thinks I should do what I'm supposed to but doesn't seem to know why I seem like sickly but not like in a precious way but precious in a tacky way.  Why is my dad kinda fat but not like gruff?  Is that such a problem?  Why was he like that?

Hm.. Maybe, Americans are just exaggerated.

Problem

If other kids are so bad and have to be so submissive, why must I be pushed to be their comrade in crime?  I don't want to be submissive.  I don't think anyone cares if I'm good and makes my life impossible.  So, my conscience isn't guilty.  Wait, why do people think that's okay to believe that?  I mean, so maybe you do have that problem.  So, what, do I just get to talk to no one?  Or, like I noticed that nice people still like me.  I don't expect them to, but I don't want to get in a disagreement because of other people being jealous.

Problem

Why do you think I sit here and want people to know everything I do all the time via video camera?  That's just a fun thing.  If you're mad, you're not supposed to be with me.

Also, I don't want rubbed in the fact that it happens and maybe like it should mean nothing, in general.  HA!

Problem

I think Ellen DeGeneres has a problem with me when I moved to the New Orleans area.

Asia

I would know about Asians mixing in the world but am not from Texas, Australia, nor L.A.

So, there is a place in Asia I think called Indonchina, but I'm not sure, and there are countries there by China that loom Middle Eastern, like Nepal.  I met an attractive guy from another, let me see...Burma.  I know he was nice to me but didn't talk to me, I think.

So, Oriental Asia would include these countries with India as sorta the borderline:
(1) China
(2) Japan
(3) Thailand
(4) Vietnam
(5) Korea

Don't forget about the Filipins.

I bet most Asians would know like so much about this, like the kids would say, at least some in some areas or maybe most in some areas or most areas.  I'm not sure over in Asia.  I think they'd understand.  I think you're getting a lot of people like from Nepal getting popular online.  They look kinda like Filipinos but are from inland by China and India, so it's like Vietnam and I think seems to me like it was next to it.

Something Weird

Do you know know about people who fall asleep in logic, like say someone would say oh I think you did something for me but you're just worse than a piece of dirt trash, worse than nothing, because of your race, but some people like they are aware that they don't like their race, you know, what can you do, just stick your head in a hole of vacuum?

I do find it weird when some people think they are like more like Tim Burton than me.  I guess I don't really find it funny to be interested in Tim Burton.

Problem

Also, trying to help me from complaining at home is not gonna help because I don't think I complained a much as the year got on and I started ballet.  It seems like I may have complained until I went to a public high school.  So, I went all these years with nothing and now I try to do something and I get sorta this fartsy attitude from people like Tim Burton I feel, when I'm so nice and perfect, he like digs into your past like you're a wart.

Problems

I noticed a few things concerning the messages I'm getting about Ellen DeGeneres.

Maybe, she's a bit like has a horny shell from being Jewish, thinking she's special her mom's last name is Jewish.  I met someone here with a Jewish last name.  She's her age, Ginny Kopf, on my Facebook.  What I mean is I'm getting the message like there's some rough thing I didn't do.  You know?

Also, she seems to excuse everyone but me because of my race and won't admit in the end it will be wrong to just be racist to me and not admit it.  If I ever have an attitude, I'm not okay.  I didn't grow up saying, "Mom, I hate you," but other kids did, and she accepts those kids.

Back

I showered and seem to have cleaned up a bunch of stuff.  I'm doing my laundry and painted my nails.  I cut them today, too, do often.  Need to use my new clippers I got in a pack.  I cut my right middle fingernail at an angle I think on the right but evened it out to a good degree.

I also got 2 subs, a drink, and a dessert, at a gas station.

Bothered

I was bothered and crossed the road with a car on a green light.

I realized people are unaccepting about new people online because other people will dis the internet.

Also, why does Tim Burton think you need to know everything, in advance?

Why am I getting annoying messages from people I know when I make a statement or figure something out?

Why is Tim Burton being mean subconsciously the reason for every conversation?

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Eurasian

Anyone with any technical non-European has to make "the" Eurasian decision.

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A Message From the Opera Ghost

If they do local region musicals like "Starlight Express," they should bus over the artists who live there.

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Resting, Slowing Down

I've stopped trotting.

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History and High School and University

So, if I didn't do ballet would be to relax, blog, I guess be ready for college lectures and history, "historical," reading.

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My "Hairstyle" -3)

I am wearing a ponytail.

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Dreams

So, 1st, I was at a college, which was like my music school.  There was this thin diction brunette teacher.  We all huddled to class from her.  I was attracted to her.  I came back.  For some reason, I imagined her carrying me.  1st, she like touched me, like put her arm around my body.  I was wearing a casual dress and she was like massaging my crotch but not like ***********.  After awhile, it felt perverted and I stopped when that happened.  I liked the 1st time I saw her and she felt sorry for me losing my female thing and it felt kinda like more subtle but strong and then something else.  I was unable to recreate the feeling and wanted to feel it all over a lot.  Then, I walked somewhere.  I was in this big like bathroom and finding a way to stimulate myself and it really worked but not like really good and my mom came in.  I was embarrassed, saw her leave, didn't see her come, and pretend I was doing something else.  I went to the front desk and it was about to close, whatever the place was.  I asked about how to be a member.  I followed a tall girl into the bathroom and found a stall, peed, while she showered and saw me go forward, another girl in there showering.  I thought 1 was using the toilet.  I said oh I peed on the floor and muttered some other things.  I found after awhile there was no toilet and that there were maybe 3 toilets arranged in the enclosure.  It was clean.  So, then, I found another little room there and wanted to stimulate myself.  I guess I came out and went to the front desk and found they took a photo ID of me with more of a triangular front to my face and a round head, my hair substantially covering the side of my face, a little curly-looking, like wavy ringlets.  I walked away, looking at my picture.

I don't remember what was most interesting, but I woke up to a good feeling, a strange idea I was in a, like, totally fuzzy short dress and had, some shaded white.

I don't remember what was best, I think it was anticipating the diction teacher.  I think I was skipping speech.  It was like a series of a few days.

The stimulating house was a nice place, don't know what the places other than the bathrooms were for.  I was talking to a little black dude who worked there, maybe 1 other black dude, 2 desks across the area facing each other on either side.

I know I had some dream where it was lite interacting with Ellen DeGeneres at a school.

Tired

Going back to bed.

I guess the walking made me tired.

I feel weighted down and kinda compressed with air sticking toward the top of me like a dropping or cover of snow.

Dreams

This 1 was neat.  I woke up and it felt like the position I thought it was like Ellen DeGeneres would be in.  I felt a made up person's boobs, kinda solid and strong and kinda like warm behind my shoulder blade.  In my dream, I was on the floor with my hands propped behind me.  I saw her finally come near me and smile, didn't look exactly like her, indented eyes and she said something with excitement and looked straight and me and was like gonna scoot over.  Then, she looked thin and kinda like a nurse.  I think something scary or annoying happened, for awhile, and I woke up.

I forget the next, but I think it was something to do with her like that.  Anyway, that was really neat, for some reason.

I think the 2nd 1, ah yes, I was walking around like a huge warehouse with a seemingly endless dome to do with class, with my cell phone I think.  The memory keeps waving in.  I just can't remember, though.  I think I was seeing a like supposed new version of Ellen DeGeneres.  Supposedly, yes, I was in Orlando and she was recording|filming there.  Maybe, that was another part.  She was like really like a stampede supposed to see me because I was there, not sure what else.  Maybe, like an hour on the weekend or what seemed like 20 minutes of her being frantic.  I was like part of something.  She taught a class, maybe a college, not like it was expected.  I, like anyone. was wondering who would go.  In the end, I thought it was L.A.  Something else happened.  It wasn't like she was clear in this dream, neither.

Going to Bed Soon

Why am I tired so much?  Hope I'm not on secret pills.  I did walk too much, lately.

Problem

So, people were being nice to me watching me in my room, and they seemed to promise not to hurt me.  I could record the sounds.  I want relationships, though.

Animalistic Humans

Why is it only people from Florida are human and people in Europe are like supple humans?  I feel that others are barking animals reacting to feelings of psychiatric jealousy.  L.A. just has the modern support, Hollywood, but lots of people live there.  Florida I guess is more home to Floridians, too, but not just mainly the Spanish.  I don't know many people probably because of my parents.  Also, we moved.

I mean, someone just sees a point and pretends you're in trouble and keeps finding out they're wrong and just racist.  I am not more mean that Tim Burton, and an orchestra will bow over and their hat will fall off for him.  Someone like Ellen DeGeneres would think well I'm not white, so what?  Well, um, it's like being Middle Eastern.  The Chinese are considered whiter than like some other culture to them and just need to act European and they are accepted.  Everyone knows that.  I think they just get that feel, and now I remember I think something like that has been talked about.

Problem

JUST STOP.  I HEARD YOU.  STOP TELLING ME I'M SAYING OTHER STUFF AND THEN DENYING IT.  STOP TELLING ME I'M MENIAL AND TACKY.  STOP MAKING FUN OF HOW I TALK LIKE YOU DIDN'T UNDERSTAND.

Problem

I WANT MY ONLINE LIFE.  STOP BOTHERING ME!  I SAID STOP.  STOP.

STOP IT.  YOU CALLED ME A NIGGER.

Just stop.

Stop saying stuff that's not true all the time.  Ellen DeGeneres is minioning these messages all day all year.  Hello, did you hear me?  Why should I care about you?

Look, now, it's just gonna say no.  Why is nothing happening?

Problem

I SAID STOP.

Problem

Let's see Ellen DeGeneres be as mean as she is when she talks to people on her show.  She is telling me things are crap all the time in private or the minions are and then is like oh no I didn't I didn't torture you for ½ year.

Problem

Go away, I didn't ask anyone to do anything for me, and if someone sometimes hacks my computer for fun so what, as long as it's not illegal and they don't hurt me.  Wait, why didn't I type, "once in awhile" or even "sometimes?"  It's none of your business.  May you never get married and never have any secret relationships or believe in the afterlife.  If you are busy making fun of me for saying afterlife and not saying what to say instead, I guess you're a phony.

Problem

QUIT!  LEAVE ME ALONE!  I'm getting made fun of after someone says they're nice, and then they want me to know that they're kidding.  Also, when I try to feel, like on the computer, I get made fun of.

TALK.  STOP HURTING ME.  You can't just keep controlling all the machines around me.

Problem

LEAVE ME ALONE.  QUIT TELLING ME EVERYTHING I FEEL IS TRUE.

Problem

So, what, Ellen DeGeneres has been having fun making up things?

Also, why don't I get exposed to more people than crap?

Problem

Why do I keep getting the message that Ellen DeGeneres thinks that me feeling like I'm submissive means I really am?  I'm sure we could submiss her into something.  Wait, but I don't mean to say that something untrue would exist.

Problems

People are picking at me and making me think of curse words and stuff and doing it to prove that I should not be picked up when something happens.

Also, do you think people don't really mean like sorta the diamond effect of saying wow they're something, capable of eliciting emotion in others?

Worked Out

So, I worked out for about 2 minutes.

Exercise

I bought another workout: link.

Cleaned

I put all the trash away, forgot some tissues on my table, put the stuff on the towel on the floor away, tonight or tomorrow or Monday will do my laundry

Ate

Wheat bread we had with a slice left of honey ham, cold cut
My lemon dressing, which is tan
A piece of dark lettuce leaf

Salad of dark thicker long leaves
My lemon dressing
Texas croutons

Mixed nuts

Thick Reese's

Thawing my Philly Swirl Italian Ice, cotton candy

Exercise

I had to FF through an Amazon instant video of extreme|intense cardio workout.  I got tired after about 2 or 3 minutes of workout.  I did a bridge and now I'm done.  xp  I was doing it in time to music.

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Problem

So, Ellen DeGeneres would be jealous of another attractive lady could exist who wouldn't mind giving children attention.

Also, I went to college and never had time to watch her show.  I guess I watched Nick and Nite.  I also watched Cats.  I e-mailed each day, in disappointment, for an hour or some more each day.  I took little classes, as well.  I wish I just went out and figured I was old enough for exercise videos and bought some online.  The thing is I guess I didn't feel ready nor the need to start a blog.  I mean, no one thinks I have to have a computer.  I got a piano, instead, and it helps me type.

Problem

Why do you have certain beliefs of what's right to believe about the Jews?  Did you even think before you spoke?  You know it's wrong.  I don't believe you, but you bothered me.  I can't just like let people do anything they want to me.  I need rest.

Racial Possibilities

So, apparently, the Asians can tick as Europeans and have that desire.  People just sorta deny them the opportunity to develop the possibilities and then think that the bad things caused good things and want to do more bad things.

I guess dark Europeans make Middle Easterners feel bad.  I think it's just a part of the lifestyle.  Same with Eskimos.

Problem

STOP TELLING ME EVERYTHING YOU SAY IS TRUE

I don't want to be the only 1 who knows this, but people are using up their life to hurt me.  They don't even know and already admitted at weak knees I was right.  I wonder when this will stop.  GOD STOP IT!

Okay, I just felt like I whipped a person across the face for chiming in that they agreed with hurting me in an annoying, show-off way.  WHAT A PIECE OF CRAP!

Problem

So, what's with the whole world saying things are set up but then saying all these things exist like you did this and you did that.

Why am I being attacked for making a point and getting mad.  STOP!

Problem

What's with my dad's secret attitude?  Look, I'm not a bad person.  Why are you getting racist at me for it?

Problem

So, people are trying to take my, er, attractive or something personality away because my mom isn't technically all Caucasian.  I'm pretty sure I'm in step and I shouldn't lose my good qualities altogether to gain ones that are not as attractive.

Problems

So, I could die..  Well, I already found a passage to the supernatural, if only I can make it.  I don't know about the millions of years of ancestors before us.

So, I figured some things but forgot a good point.  I just got up and went to the bathroom, and some crackers with spread.

So, I know like you watch Ellen DeGeneres.  She got ahead with the clicks in my room.  So, people react a certain way, too.  You go out, and for reasons I thought of, you find yourself in trouble.

So, how do I know that you're right if you won't explain?  I was thinking of something, some conclusion.  I know I realized whites grew up with hatred for the Chinese in their ideas as people and wished to hurt them but at the same time they tell them they don't.  I don't want people to hurt me for not being Asian in a bad way.

Also, I'm hearing gross clicks, and they do manage to technically come in and disturb me.  I think I am a human being more than other Asians, I mean I'm not just some like person who's like not in some category.  Like, I realized I can sit there and sorta suck in the idea that I have to fix some feeling.  I don't have to sit there and think I'm better by hurting myself.  I don't also agree with suddenly coming up and saying it's not okay to be comfortable.  I moved to Orlando, and I started to feel disturbed because I was letting out and people acted like the word nigger around me when I tried.  So, I got mad, and then people got mad back and that's what I'm talking about and it's been 7½ years.

Bath

YouTubes of Me Playing Folk Harp

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How I Feel

I'm warm and sticky.

How I Feel

I want a bath but am still tired.  I started doing the dishes more.  I clean up crumbs, wipe them, and put the plastic stuff to be recycled.  I've also done my side situps sometimes without posting, maybe once, though, or twice.  It's helped.  Oh, I also had my princess vitamin.

Ate

2 French Bread Pizzas
1 Can of New Chef Boyardee Macaroni and Cheese
the rest of the Italian Greens in a Plastic Container3]_ - Now, I have dark, long lettuce and more asparagus's.
Iced Water, which I still have more of

Singer

Amanda Seyfried seems to have started in high school, as did a lot of singers.  There's this 1 I don't know when she started, from California.  She was kinda more fun and got the head voice teacher.  Well, I noticed that there's a YouTube of a teacher at the arts school in New Orleans who states she sang opera "for a long time."  I don't know anyone who necessarily sang opera since they were a child, but most kids sing hymns, at church, and I also liked kids songs, switched between which I liked to sing, better.

Y O Y

Why are people who started to sing later so knocked out of good quality?

I also know of singers who started too soon.

Britney Spears did gymnastics, too.  Didn't she start singing around 10?

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Enjoying the Smaller Hardships..

Did you ever consider that if you don't do something that's a little uncomfortable that you'll get more uncomfortable later and that that's why you enjoy it?

Making 1 Point, at a Time

Do you know about people who make 1 point, at a time?

What I've Been Doing

I lay in bed, got stimulated, well was stimulated the whole time, then got up and went to the bathroom and lay on my couch.

I need to restart my computer, take a shower, cooking, ...

Dream

I remember I was trying on an outfit.  Finally, I looked in the mirror.  The pants hit the floor and dragged at the middle and I stepped on them.  They were a thin pink.  I think there was a jacket top.  It was a dark hot pink.  Maybe, it was like the shirt reminded me of pastel stripes.  I just had to walk dragging my pants partly off.  The mirror was like the 1 in my room, 1 that stands up on a frame.  I was like in a big warehouse of gray like filled with people, like with a Harry Potter feel.

Tired

Going back to bed.

Dream

All remember well now is the end.  I was in a room.  I followed a lady with thick but more detailed features, like a big pointing noise, and brunette hair into a room, like in a sorta college-business world.  We were with other students like that.  It was a big deal.  I got my hot dog and bun.  There were even burned buns I saw later.  The other buns were near the teachers.  There was like some stuff, like a big box kinda high in the middle I guess filled with ice water.  I had to pay I thought $1 and 30 cents but turns out 25 cents.  I put it in the box.  It was the wrong of 3 boxes, 2 similar, like white and rectangle, kinda tall, cardboard.  I asked where to put it and found it.  Instead of washing my hands by them, I washed them in a big sink in another part by some other kids, kinda in the middle of the 2 groups.  It had a big sprinkling thing and 2 kinds of soap dispensers.  I had to use the foam 1 that spit it out.  So, also, coming in, I saw they were injecting a tube of some kinda maybe light gelly stuff to their wrists, a shot, and I guess we were all getting shots.  It was kinda dreamy, like an apartment complex with trees.