Thursday, November 22, 2012

What!

I'm not sure what you're talking about.  You're nasty and, well, stupid...  Ohmigosh, I'm trying to enjoy Thanksgiving or my day.

Look, I don't know much about getting attention.  I'm gonna *beep* you all for this happening.  I know people have talked to my dad and given him specific attention in public.  I just post online, but no one answers me.

Look, stop thinking you're whiter.  Maybe, we should strip you of your dignity.

See, how legal is it for people to always be at you socially like this, how okay?

Leave me alone!  I just want my life!  I can hope to be a celebrity one day and not submit to this perversion.  You didn't even give me a chance!  ':0

Oh, my life.  Well, I don't know.  I just don't know why I didn't slow down, on my own.  It was the school that got me to leave and the way people were, as well.

Look, you wanna talk, just talk, you beast.  Quit thinking you're whiter and smarter.  Quit getting perverted for people I know so worthlessly over getting attention you don't deserve but get patiently, nowaday.

Wow, this really perverted, tacky, and disgusting.

SHUT UP!  DID YOU JUST CALL ME A NIGGER?  SOMEONE *BEEP* THIS PERSON!  THIS STUPID PERSON, THIS GOOD FOR NOTHING.  GO CALL SOMEONE ELSE A NIGGER, oh but then they'd get too much attention.

Hey, stop suggesting things.  I can post online and type.

Quit being a ninny.  Leave ME ALONE!!!!!  ':0  QUIT LISTENING TO MY DAD, YOU NIGGERS!  YOU GOTTA PROBLEM?  I KNOW YOU'RE ALSO A BAD PERSON.  Stop getting mad at me for what I do and what I don't do.  You have ruined my life.  You don't let me organize my thoughts.

Wow, you sure blasted online and get lots of attention.

NOW WHAT!

STOP!  LEAVE ME ALONE!  WTF YOU THINK YOU ARE?

LOOK SHUT UP YOU PIECE OF CRAP, I'M GONNA LIKE TOTALLY "GET" *BEEP* YOU!  ':{  NIGGERS

LOOK SHUT UP

THIS IS SO GAY, WHAT IF YOU BOTHERED SOMEONE ELSE, OH YOU WOULDN'T....

HEY SHUT UP.  MAYBE YOU SHOULD SUFFER.  JUST STOP.

STOP PESTERING ME TO SAY EVERYTHING.

Haha, stop making fun of me for talking to other people.  Wow, everyone I talk to turns on me.  Is it because of my dad?  How dare you, you racist niggers!  ':{  Leave me family alone.  Shut up.  SHUT UP.  I can make fun of you for "listening to my dad."

LOOK SHUT UP CRAP - I CAN SAY WHATEVER I WANT - YOU'VE CROSSED A LINE

QUIT ATTACKING ME - NOW WHAT MORE CLICKS IN MY ROOM TO INSULT ME?  PROTECTING OTHERS FROM THEIR PRIVACY?  LOOK I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT YOUR PROBLEMS.  WHAT'S THE MATTER WITH YOU!

Quit tossing thoughts at me.  You never listen.  I don't care about your weaknesses and your suggestions, you good-for-nothing.  You don't even have a brain!

I'm not onto your roaring fancies.  Leave me alone, if you can't face it.  The facts and what others think, of course.  Answer your own questions!  Treat me with respect!  Stop living your fantasies on me.

Look, someone help.  They wanna fantasize more after hurting someone, something happening that didn't really happen.  It's their fault!  They won't leave me alone for using curse words.  I'm just trying to be funny, but everyone curses.  STOP!

STOP

LOOK I SAID SHUT UP YOU ABSOLUTE PIECE OF SHIT.  WTF WAS THAT.  GO M********* AND GET TORTURED IN JAIL!..

Upset

So, how did updates because of the n word thing happen all the time, like everyone knows about my dad, as well as my mom?  Maybe, we should do that to you.

Please leave me alone with the perversion.   I know you're just being sarcastic.  Maybe, we should bore this perversion on you.  You don't have anything.  You know, I don't care.  I'm trying to settle down, and I keep getting bothered.

Hey, shut up, I said I don't care.  Leave my life alone.  I'm gonna *beep* you for this happening, people.  '}:|  Stop telling me I'm perverted, now.

Stop loading the page funny until I feel bad.  Why did this start?

Look, come out in the open.  You're an idiot.  It's just Thanksgiving.  What did you do, set a trap, you piece of shit?

Look, shut up, no one cares the fuck about you.  Leave me the fuck alone, niggers.  Maybe, we should suggest some things to other people.  Except, they'll be taken care of.

Look, get out of my life, niggers!  '}:|

Dream

It's not fun to remember, but I was at school and it was about me like getting better at it.

Nitey Nap

Maybe, I'll turn on Macy's.  ♪

Private

Why are Generation X so crappy but Late Boomers not really the center of attention?

YouTube and Blogger

If you can perform and think, why not post yourself on YouTube and Blogger?

Pure Pleasure

Why are people mad at you experiencing pleasure in private or feeling accomplished?  RACE

Also, why do some crappy job for a lot of money, just to get a mere home?  Why not get famous for performing?  You know, singing musicals and classical songs and some pop, knowing how to dance and do classical dance|ballet, etc.?

Transit

In Orlando, feelings get transmitted weakly.

Bur

Cold

Edit

I added links to my last post on Education.

Edit

I tagged my last post.

Communications

I guess I'm all up for "communicating" what you have to say, your interactions and expressions that you transmit via energy.  8|

Weird

When I was 5, we had a black teacher, and we brought in ties one day.  I tried to make it look like I had a lot and put them on my head.

I had a pretty sensual teacher in 1st grade, and we watched TV and studied whales, dinosaurs, and Russia.  I liked the media I saw of dinosaurs when I was little.  I was an accurate reader, better than my brother.  Apparently, when we moved, they were good at it but didn't have much history.

Nasty

Tim Burton thinks that what's important is like what your dad thinks and I forget my point, but it's like that's the answer, his being nasty.

What I Wish I Did

Well, my mom took me to ballet at 5.  I think I should have said no and just taken gymnastics classes and quit and start working out on my own.  I would have never been on a team, but I may have.  I also liked to sing.  I didn't have to.  I had a black teacher in kindergarten who got me interested.  Then, Michael Jackson singing, "Caring, like you were my brother..." in Free Willy, which we studied whales that year, got me interested.  I didn't know about private voice, though.

So, I'd get to junior high and probably move to the New Orleans area.  They were supposed to build a fitness center, had a sign up.  A lot of people did sports.  There was this one girl who went into cheerleading.

I also liked art, a lot.  I still do it, for fun.  I wish I could do art in technology.  My pad didn't work after a few years I got when I opened it.

So, I guess I'd take gymnastics classes maybe and quit when I started high school.  I'd work out on my own, start jogging and doing strength training and cardiovascular workouts.

So, here's what I wish I did as a teenager and young adult:

Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 Freshman Orientation | Civics
4 Biology I H
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing

Year 2
1 English III G
2 Algebra II G
3 World History
4 Biology II
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing

Year 3
1 English IV G
2 American History H
3 Free Enterprise | PE II
4 Talented Theater
5 Talented Music - Singing
6
7

University of Phoenix - A.A. Communications + B.S. Communications

Graduate and work for Disney Junior at Burbank.

So, I looked at the Masters in Psychology

Violence

Why must I suffer the extremely or whatever ... violet rather, er, fantasies of my dad?

I was thinking of how I got 3 personality books on my Nook, don't have much to read on it.  Not sure where my money goes.  Didn't buy too much last month, just a Halloween costume.  I also finally got a noisemaker since my 2 fans broke.  I got one with money from a store card we never paid back and the other from my parents.  :|  Well, 2 of the books are by 1 author and they go by categories.  The other is prominent.  I have no further interest in anymore.  3I

I figured something else out!

Communications and such are to present yourself in public interaction and entertaining.  Psychology is for thinking and not about interacting.

Immorality

What do you think of people who think of some fact and go for the obvious conclusion yet don't know they aren't "really in it," no not morally.

Messing Up in Parenting

When Ellen DeGeneres messes up in parenting, she sidesaddles to an older person for comfits.

It's very obvious, like she acts fast.  She does something that was miscalculated.  Then, she revels in someone older, in a bad way, like not really bad, though.  Like, she is taken in and taken care of.  She is mean to you and claims she has social needs from older people in her mistake.

A Happy Thanksgiving ♪

I just took a shower.

Just got back and did my nails.

I cleaned up some.  I have more to clean.  I'm glad I did a sketch.  My desk is still messy, for some reason.

Rude

Why are people suddenly being inappropriate to me, well since the n word thing in December 2009?

Like, they worship the way my dad is mean to me and sorta amuses them.  However, they tell me from my dad I'm not that good at all, like I'm nothing.  They're playing on their errors, really.  I realize he doesn't look like some hot dude born in 1970 or something.  He's not supposed to.  I'm not going to be just like him.  You wouldn't like that.  Are you busy in your room figuring out some way I will suffer like that, concocting something all these years?

A Dreadful Pounding

Aren't the messages you get of Ellen DeGeneres rather pounding?

Maybe

Maybe, we should degrade you and your people from your station and rank, totally.  Maybe, we should single you out and rub your toenails.

Website Update

I keep being fed insulting messages every time I turn around and try to settle.

MAD

I just tried watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and it didn't work.

Changes

It seems that Florida has changed into the New Orleans area because of Ellen DeGeneres.

Why do people deny my station in life because I'm not a celebrity or, rather, actress?

Bitter

Is Ellen DeGeneres bitter and think people are trash?

Edit

1 of my tags was messed up.  I had to put Work on top of School.

What I Wish I Did

Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 Freshman Orientation | Civics
4 Biology I H
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater I
7 Talented Music I - Singing

Year 2
1 English III G
2 Algebra II G
3 World History
4 Biology II
5 PE II | Health
6 Talented Theater II
7 Talented Music II - Singing

Year 3
1 English IV G
2 American History H
3 Free Enterprise |
4 Talented Theater III
5 Talented Music III - Singing
6
7

Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Required Minor in Sociology

Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.

Dignity and Respect

So, I heard that Helena Bonham Carter took away my mom's dignity and such or respect.

What I Wish I Did

Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 Biology I H
4 World Geography
5 PE I
6 Freshman Orientation | Civics
7 Spanish I

Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II G
3 Biology II
4 World History
5 PE II | Health
6 Spanish II
7 Home Ec

Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 American History H
3 Free Enterprise | PE II
4 Spanish III
5
6
7

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Required Minor in Spanish

Graduate and work for Disney Junior at Burbank.

How I Feel

I feel like I'm from Southeastern Florida and having moved around the Eastern Coast.

I can feel a vein with people from the New Orleans area, like Ellen DeGeneres.

Florida

When I left Florida, I still felt the Florida style, but I didn't feel like Florida physically, ever again.

I never felt that modern because my parents are not from Florida.  As a person in school and in my environment, however, I was formulated in that manner.

nu art

art

Cute Picture

Music Education @ my old college, Loyola University New Orleans

link

What I Wish I Did

Year 1
1 English II G
2 Geometry G
3 Biology I H
4 Freshman Orientation | Civics
5 Talented Theater I
6 Talented Music I - Singing
7 Art I

Year 2
1 English III APG
2 Algebra II G
3 Biology II
4 World History
5 Talented Theater II
6 Talented Music II - Singing
7 Art II

Year 3
1 English IV APG
2 American History H
3 Talented Theater III
4 Talented Music III - Singing
5 Free Enterprise | Art III
6 PE I
7 PE II | Health

After School - Ballet & Company in the city (New Orleans)

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications-Theater Joint Major + Ballet Minor

Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.

I would hope to get a part as the Waltz of the Flowers and other chorus parts and maybe one day get a solo.

I didn't know about private voice lessons as a kid.  I ended up in choir.

Safety 1st

So, I noticed, in real life, kids are safe of their right to be cuter or like more easily because they have more of a chance, like to be a movie star, literally.

Cool Greenland Jackets

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Having a Point

Ellen DeGeneres is the only one with the point she has.

Website Update - Alternate Order of Races

Order of Races

Norway
Holland
France
Finland
Greenland
Russia
Sweden
Iceland
Denmark
England
Germany
Spain
Switzerland
Ireland
Scotland
Wales
Baltic Countries
Poland
Czech
Slovakia
Austria
Greece
Italy
Ukraine
Romania
Bulgaria
Belarus
Portugal
Turkey

Israel
Egypt
Pakistan
China
Indonesia

Native American indians
Africa

My Comments

Blogger

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Problem

So, I understand Ellen DeGeneres is uncomfortable about the n word thing.

What?

Oh My Fucking Gosh

Why are Italians and mixed people (Poles, etc.) so vicious about that you didn't get in a movie already that they should discredit your existence in your environment and oh so much more!  ,80

Website Update

Advice

I record Karaokes because there are online karaoke communities and karaokes are legal releases.

HELP

SOMEONE GET ELLEN DEGENERES - SHE'S SUCKING UP TO LOSERS & IS MADE OF NOTHING

STOP

I'M TIRED OF YOUR UTTER CRAP

GO FUCK YOURSELF

NO ONE CARES ABOUT YOU

STOP

SOMEONE HELP I'M GETTING MORE PERVERTED MESSAGES THAT GOOD PEOPLE ARE NOTHING - *BEEP* THESE PIECES OF SHIT

COME ON LEAVE ME ALONE LOSERS

STOP

I SAID STOP!

YOU PIECE OF SHIT - GO *BEEP*

STOP

SHUT UP!!!!

STOP

Leave me and my family alone!

Hey, Ellen DeGeneres, why do you suck up to my dad or people like my dad!

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

MAD

Wanna know something really gay?  I got involved in Ellen DeGeneres because of Tim Burton, but apparently she knows my dad.

STOP

I'm tired of being involved in your bullshit.  Why not just **** the whole world?

This is BS.

STOP

,:{

You can't set up life around me and then pounce at me and tell me I'm bad.  WTF do you think you are!  !@#$%&

My Creeds

my website

Categories of Races
✡ Norwegian, Dutch, French, & Swedish
✡ English & German
✡ Russian, Chinese, & Indonesian
✡ Latin, The Middle East, Romanesque, & Ethnic Minorities

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STOP

LEAVE ME ALONE!  TELL THE WORLD YOURSELF

THEY'RE TRYING TO MAKE ME OUT LIKE TIM BURTON AND HIS GOOFY OBSESSION WITH HIS FAME IN ART IN MY ART

Also, I'm not eating supper now, gonna go to bed maybe.  :I  I've been pretty good at eating.

GODDAMN YOU FOR RUINING MY BLOG!


Eating in My Room

I have elected to eat the family food in my room.



I'm gonna *beep* you

Anyone who sucks up to Tim Burton, and he can't suck up to anyone.  That's so stupid.  Maybe, the n word thing is bad and my fault.  You're all gonna ***, niggers!



So Stupid

Ellen DeGeneres doesn't think.  She just matches ideas that are similar.

She doesn't deserve any pity.


Why are some people so uptight around others.  Knock it off.  You know you're not gonna succeed.

IT'S NOT MY DREAM TO BE SUGGESTIVE!


I guess you could pair up Thanksgiving with July 4th in the U.S.


stop saying I'm worthless all of a sudden, that I'm just creatively there for knowledge.


Ellen DeGeneres is racist to everyone.  Who cares?


What's her itch?  Something wrong with the n word?


So, who's doing this to me?


Wow, she's so untalented, she can't speak the truth!  ;D


Tim Burton is really mean and underhanded and people are all using him.  Too bad for submitting to the n word thing.


STOP TAUNTING ME FOR BEING COMLEXLY COOL ABOVE YOUR HEAD


I just wanna wrestle Ellen DeGeneres or like do something to my dad for taunting me like it's okay, to say I'm tacky in a weird, perverted way.

OMG I so wanna *beep* you for your fantasies on things to me that are important that are not even part of my daily life.  What's wrong with you?  You don't even deserve to live!

LEAVE ME ALONE!  I'M TRYING TO ENJOY MYSELF!  GO *BEEP* YOURSELF!  YOU'RE ALL STUPID.  LEAVE ME ALONE, YOU WORTHLESS PIECES OF CRAP!

HELP!  YOUTUBE KEEPS POPPING UP WHEN I WATCH IT, THE BOTTOM BAR!  :0

SOMEONE *BEEP* THESE STUPID, WORTHLESS PEOPLE!

SHUT, UP, NIGGERS!

LOOK, I SAID SHUT UP!  GO TO HELL!  I'M GONNA *BEEP* YOU!

I SAID STOP!  SOMEONE *BEEP* THIS PERSON!

STOP!  *BEEP* THIS PERSON!  THEY'RE ASSOCIATING THINGS WITH ME.  SOMEONE GET THIS PERSON!

SOMEONE *BEEP* THIS STUPID PERV!  KNOCK THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUTTA EM.


HELP!  I FELT THE MUSCLE ON MY STOMACH GO DOWN!  MAYBE WE SHOULD JUST *BEEP* YOU!


WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM YOU STUPID PERSON?  SHUT UP!


SHUT UP NIGGER

LOOK SOMEONE *BEEP* THIS PERSON FOR BEING STUPID AND GAY

STOP SAYING I'M A BAD PERSON.  MAYBE YOU NEED TO BE STIMULATED.


LOOK LET'S PUT CLICKS IN YOU'RE ROOM WHEN YOU'RE RELAXING AND DOING SOMETHING

LOOK SOMEONE GET THESE PEOPLE TO STOP.  THERE'S CLICKS IN MY EAR.


LEAVE ME ALONE YOU STUPID PEOPLE, I'M MORE MATURE THAN YOU - GO AWAY AND GO M********* YOURSELF


SOMEONE *BEEP* TIM BURTON FOR - AH MY MOM JUST CAME IN - HIS GAY FETISHES


LOOK SHUT UP YOU ABSOLUTE PIECE OF SHIT YOU BETTER GO TO HELL SOMEONE KNOCK THE LIVING DAYLIGHTS OUTTA EM AND T****** EM


SOMEONE GET MY MOM TO LEAVE MY DAD AND I ALONE - SHE'S JUST SUCKLING UP LIKE A NIGGER


Look, quit getting mad at me for getting mad at my social situations.


I guess you can corner Ellen DeGeneres and find her to be wrong.


Why can't these people figure anything out?  Just blab something out...


I didn't say I would do anything to you.
nu blog

Welcome to my Blogger!

Oh, where are you going?

Ellen DeGeneres or those who influence her repercussions don't know where they're going.

Hurt

My left leg still hurts and is rather immobile.  Also, my noisemaker turned off.  I mean I turned it off.  There were weird clicks.  SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING!  THIS IS *BEEP*  Someone did that to me for missing "The Ellen DeGeneres Show for maybe a week at lesat."

Well, she was out of town, and I decided I might not watch her until I felt, better, too.  Not sure what kept me occupied.  I could go online and watch the clips, but dunno.  I'm kinda tired.  People are always at me.

Don't Feel Well

Going back to bed.  ':(

Implications

I think you were implying things from me using the word "fuck."  Fuck.  Fuck.  Fuck, like a duck.  GO - AWAY!

When I Was Sleeping

I don't remember my dream, but I woke up saying "Ow," over and over.  My legs swirled when I ran this one time.  It made them knot up.  I thought of myself on YouTube, and it made me feel guilty.

I think my dream had to do with school and was kinda complicated and serious.

STOP

LEAVE ME ALONE!

MY MOM JUST LOOKED AT ME AND ASSOCIATED "CAR" WITH ME, AS THOUGH SHE WENT ONLINE HERSELF AND SAW WHAT I WROTE THIS MORNING - LEAVE ME ALONE - STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG

I don't think my dad is home.

SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING - THIS IS JUST BECAUSE I LIKE WATCHING "THE ELLEN DEGENERES SHOW"

NOW!!!

Problem

Ugh!  I'm wretched uncomfortable.

I look really funny, a big torso, and an oval head, like a pin.

My dad keeps acting like I don't deserve any respect and can't reason it.  Everyone is afraid to be my friend.

11 nu videos of me being uploaded

YouTube

Problems

What's wrong with my dad?  He's been crazy since the n word thing.  My mom has softened.  I keep getting "messages."

STOP

SHUT UP YOU STUPID GOOD FOR NOTHING ITALIAN NIGGERS

RIGHT NOW!

THE WORLD IS EVIL AND SLOW AND STUPID.  YOU'RE ALL NIGGERS AND ARE GOING TO HELL RIGHT NOW!

STOP

I SAID STOP

STOP

LOOK YOU DID SOMETHING.  You wack!  How dare you!  You absolute perv!  What do you think you are?

Leave me alone when I curse when people are absolutely bad to me.

And leave my dad alone!  Leave my family alone!

Thanks, a lot, Johnny Depp.  You sure have a 2-sided "DisHonest" personality.

*sh**ts self*

Upset

Sorry I was upset, but I was.  It might not have been the best thing to say, but it's what I said.  I was just upset about like tearing down a public figure.

Just Took a Shower

Going to Bed Soon

Cutting the Chord

When my dad sees I've accomplished something hard to overcome, quite, he sneakily looks and cuts the chord behind my back, so-to-speak.

nu videos of me singing

YouTube

But then it's just it, and I'm going to do it!

LOL

I just laughed really hard and smiled like Heath Ledger.  For a long time.

Crud

Why do we keep getting kidding messages from Helena Bonham Carter?  She just hoards the wealth and is anti-Chinese and defends herself from Europeans saying she's cruddy.

BAD!

Oooh, I feel so offended you had to suffer.  You're just onto that stupid n word thing.

STOP

Ellen DeGeneres has shaky hands and seems like she's dying, and I don't know why.  It looks like she can have a nice life, though.

You know, in Orlando, the food here is quite polished, but I got off my diet coming home from up north.  I wanted baby food and formula, but my parents didn't permit it.  Where I used to live, I got spinach wraps all the time and soynuts.  They have good pasta, pizza, stuff, here, actually.

I'm a bit sad Ellen DeGeneres is dying.  Oh well, at least she's not crap, like me.  My life was too busy and unaccomplished.  xp

I have to accept that people get older, but my parents don't seem that old.  That just lets me in on a little secret I won't accept.  I don't really give a fuck about other people's inklings for their mistakes and misjudgements.  I guess I'll just say I don't know how to say exactly what I want to say.

I think Ellen DeGerenes has no morals and that they're messed up.  Who cares about what people think about one little mistake!!!!

You know, she is really illogical.  I just can't stand what's going on.  She feels pressured by certain people.  Is it you?  Or most people?  What's wrong with her?  Who cares, anyway?

I've really figured something out.  I feel I'm also on easy street.

Maybe, she's really worn out.  I guess Tim Burton says no to some people.  I don't give a fuck about what he says.  Who does?  What do you think of his popularity?  I respect his art and his specific accomplishments.

I don't give a fuck about what you think about certain things that people say in certain situations.  You don't deserve any signal, and you're all going to ***!

New Interview

Kate Bush

It ends with some sample music, not sure from when...

link

No Prob-le-em

I don't have an extra problem about others getting attention

*kisses fingers* Just Finished Eating

about 3|4 hot dog
leftover pasta
some beef
cabbage

Before

I guess Ellen DeGeneres thinks that people who are really good aren't really that good to her.  I don't believe I'm well-connected.  Maybe, I should ask my mom to see the videos of me when I was still a pre-teen in Florida.  That's all I rattle on about.  I put up a picture of me from just 7 years ago.  I'm not sure what could be wrong.  We moved and the magic stopped.  It was already dying down.  I guess I just wasn't good enough.  Didn't have a nice experience in class with history nor at home, really.  I think I already fixed myself up before I was set for failure.

Why not just do it?

Insulted

I feel really insulted by Tim Burton.  I mean I just posted about him.  Think of all the attention he gets.

I feel my life has literally closed up.

Feelings

So, you guys seem interested in feelings.  I know some people feel really confused sometimes.  I imagine Late Boomers had strong feelings, as well.

I guess some people don't want me involved.  I can still do it in private and will do it with other people.  :|

A lot of these things are made up, but grotesque things can take place.  Please don't tell me I don't deserve what I've earned socially or psychologically.

Really Bad

There was this really bad history teacher at my junior high who just wanted to be religious and sang a song at Christmas, "Grown Up Christmas List."  She just had us memorize facts. I brought home the book to read but never got around to it.

So, dyou really wanna know?

So, I spent time trying to settle down when I was 16.  I had this really hard American History course.  I was asked to leave.

do you reall

Wanna know something really gay?  I think my dad with even the likes of my oldest aunt and grandma are going furious about my interest in Ellen DeGeneres and want her not to appeal to me.

Cool Story

My 8th grade English teacher moved to the public high school I went to.  I was involved with her in drama.  She was my homeroom teacher in 8th grade.  She was black.

So, do you think there are other people out there like me who just happened not to go online?  People who don't act like they're too white for everything, like they're Chinese?

Handling Things

People supposedly stimulated their kids in a bad way in the 80s.

Also, why is the point that I can't deal with this stuff?

Website Update

I'm finding it impossible to coast along in life, comfortably.  Something came up.  I made it a point, and then I tagged it in a different direction.  I feel accused of other thoughts that went through my head and "what I really meant" just because of language.

A Sudden Change

If people have been shoving in my face to be more casual, why all of a sudden make me in pain all the time?

Funny Story

I have the funniest story to tell you.

I started ballet at 5.  These blonde girls and some brunettes, who seemed at the end of the world when I saw them, when asked to dance for fun in the room quickly before like anything I could sense would chirper the name of some like tough French song and do something with confidence.

A robber broke in and stole the, not sure what it was called, maybe boombox...

I had a teacher who I think was from France.  She was strong, had short dark hair, and quite dark skin.  You may get the picture.  She had a lot of wrinkles, probably looked kinda like a principle.  She probably seemed a bit more European.  She didn't seem to connect with us as a European.  She just seemed strict.

My back was curved from gymnastics, and it tired me out to "get in trouble."

I couldn't remember anything, and it was really painful but in a way seemed like it could be harder.  I could never remember anything in ballet my whole life except at this easy modern school where I just took ballet.  I really shone at a school a Tulane graduate made, a slick black lady, with black girls who were younger.  I was only there a little and missed parade season.  Same with baton when I went back after moving.

Anyway, these girls were so uptight and overly knowledgeable, supposedly, of these songs.  They were really pretty casual.  Please don't attack them for being who they are and for seeming appealing to me.  Well, I don't really want to be like them.  I guess they just seemed kinda pleasured racially.  They seemed really smart, complex, and fresh, but things "went over their head."

Schools Across Schools

All the people where I moved at the school I was had gooey, uneven, rather, sorry to say not sure what else to say, "disgusting."  Someone called me disgusting when I was 7 or 8.

Are we just in school learning to help bad schools?  Like to feel for that in society?  And to go against those who mess up in hard situations?  What would you go on to think was "the" situation?  Racism?

My Life

I just wanted my life and my chance to succeed, and I feel that I've been given special treatment.

Why wait until I mess up to act like things are different now?

Do you really wanna know?

Do you wanna suffer like me?  How much?

What do you think of what's fair for what I've done?  Why dig into me like I'm really bad and don't deserve a nice life?

I know, racially, I might be a bit queer, but that hasn't stopped anyone I know, like in the world, when I was at a more formative time.

L.A.

So, some people live in L.A., huh?  Well, who are they really spending time with?

Bad!

Why are people playing with me in different odd situations and like associating things I don't like that make me feel bad all the time?  Just because of some things that make them antsy that others do all the time and don't ever have to pay for in the world?

Also, I noticed my thumbnail is looking like my brothers's and mom's.  Didn't know that.