Thursday, March 26, 2015
What did it take to realize I was worth anything again?
tho I'm 1/2 Chinese
knowing about Anita Lehtola-Tollin who sang Ievan Polkka? because she's not really that famous yet like me?
knowing about Anita Lehtola-Tollin who sang Ievan Polkka? because she's not really that famous yet like me?
I'm sorry to say
but I do not like some parts of LA
I don't like the famous people who make home there. I think I got the message from Bella that there's nothing to do there.. and right now she's flown to NYC.
I don't like the famous people who make home there. I think I got the message from Bella that there's nothing to do there.. and right now she's flown to NYC.
Bella Thorne and Socializing
Bella Thorne accepts attention.
She was raised with hardcore family values.
She balances it out.
I don't always accept all the attention, but in a way I do. In personal situations I don't. I think that's becase Bella is Spanish and I'm French.
She was raised with hardcore family values.
She balances it out.
I don't always accept all the attention, but in a way I do. In personal situations I don't. I think that's becase Bella is Spanish and I'm French.
Not Totally Modern
I don't think Bella Thorne is as modern as I am.
That's it. She's authentic. She could be. :)
That's it. She's authentic. She could be. :)
Young people can be stress.
They command all the attention in the family, party, or the world.. to you, those around you, and those that exist in the world.
I just realized why Bella is not post-modern.. hehe!
Because she was born in 1997. Post-modern culture begins with the next generation, born around 2002. It seems to end around 2005-2007.
Quick Comparison: Me and Bella Thorne
I am more post-modern as a person because of where I'm from. I'd say Bella Thorne is more even-keel, into cool things and not like the world turned over. She probably feels more emotions and is more hands on.
Identity ("ID") - I've thought of this twice today.
You might say it's time to check out who people really are, as tho they could control their life at a very young age. No, you have 2 parents and school to do that. You might get more than you deserve and very possibly less.
You might say someone is loaded with gifts socially, but prejudices exist between generations who live in different places in the country and the world.. So, some people were set up to chase their life down the drain. There's no interesting question to wanna talk about.
You might say someone is loaded with gifts socially, but prejudices exist between generations who live in different places in the country and the world.. So, some people were set up to chase their life down the drain. There's no interesting question to wanna talk about.
Wednesday, March 25, 2015
Tacky People
I see you've fallen over yourself and made a big deal outta all this like it's just tacky.
What are you like?
Who really reminds you of you? Not, who do you wish you were that hangs out with you.
Brats
Kids who go out and act like they are punishing you by like saying "Oh, when you have your baby you will think of such and such or a kitty." Like, if you are thinking and you stumble on something upsetting. Or they'll suggest your dad is the next Johnny Depp in a weird way that makes it seem less special.
Tuesday, March 24, 2015
Ratting Me Out
I feel that if I am treated well I will be ratted out. No one cares if I'm dead or alive or ever had a life.
You think I wasn't perfect?
You think I'm not really well-intended? You may as well feed me "chopped liver?" That means I'm not perfect? If someone abducts me? If I'm poor? I mean, I know I'm not perfect in that way. I wasn't a cheerleader.
Maybe?
Maybe?
Weirdos Shmeirdos
I see you wanna take away what I have but not Bella.
This is too pathetic of a waste of 10 years of my life.
This is too pathetic of a waste of 10 years of my life.
Appalachia in the Appalachians!
I have relatives from the top, there!
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Appalachia
I appreciate it very much.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Appalachia
I appreciate it very much.
Where I Stand
top = know
bottom = don't know
Finnish - Ieva's Polka
1st stanza
Yes, it's with pronunciation but not perfect. I memorized it at one point and should review.
nuapurista - neighbor
se - it
polokan - polka
tahti - music
jalakani - feet
aita - mother
tassinne - dance
vahti - watch
kutkutti - excite
silla - for
kuulu - hear
myo - that is also
ei - not
laitaan - side
vaan - but
meita - us
haittaa - harm
kun - when
kyllahan - sure
sen - its
silloin - then
kiellot - prohibitions
bottom = don't know
Finnish - Ieva's Polka
1st stanza
Yes, it's with pronunciation but not perfect. I memorized it at one point and should review.
nuapurista - neighbor
se - it
polokan - polka
tahti - music
jalakani - feet
aita - mother
tassinne - dance
vahti - watch
kutkutti - excite
silla - for
kuulu - hear
myo - that is also
ei - not
laitaan - side
vaan - but
meita - us
haittaa - harm
kun - when
kyllahan - sure
sen - its
silloin - then
kiellot - prohibitions
What I Hate About Social Networking
That someone can delete or refuse to post your post on the internet.
It might sound exciting when you're not the one who'll be deleted for you racial mix.
It might sound exciting when you're not the one who'll be deleted for you racial mix.
Not Afraid
No, I'm not afraid of other people knowing Ellen and I don't. What's she there for.. same with others!.. I realize I'm off TV for a moment. Felt a bit zonked and dazed off. I want to watch Cutthroat Kitchen. It sparked up some ideas about eating right..
I always can know people in general later. It's not like they'll get ruined, but that's what r*** is like.
I always can know people in general later. It's not like they'll get ruined, but that's what r*** is like.
How's It Feel?
Does watching Ellen make you feel like she took you to work in her briefcase?
I'm not watching cuz I'm so fed up by the people who are famous on her show. It's like, I already know that. I'm from Florida and I live there now.. and I lived where Ellen lived in between.
I'm not watching cuz I'm so fed up by the people who are famous on her show. It's like, I already know that. I'm from Florida and I live there now.. and I lived where Ellen lived in between.
Making a Point
I learned that Latin Americans, tho not white they suggest, make a point. However, the French, tho they think like the Spanish, come close to a point but never make one. I noticed that Ellen DeGeneres, not only gay, must be a real schizophrenic like they have been saying I am.
My Psychiatrist's Recommendation
My psychiatrist recommended I stay off things like Facebook and Twitter. I forgot to tell him what just went down on IMDb. It's on my Problems blog.
I said there was Facebook drama of hidden messages, suggestions.. full of nothing but introverted connotations.
I said on Twitter I follow famous people an that when I try to add and talk to people from up north they disappeared and I found myself banned after Tweeting them nice, interesting things..
He said about stress of being online.. like it gets to you, what you'd expect and know. He seemed like he could not help.
Also, he got is cat in a cupboard on Ellen's website!
He seems to think I'm doing well but wants me on medicine still, not ready to change but at least suggested it.
I said there was Facebook drama of hidden messages, suggestions.. full of nothing but introverted connotations.
I said on Twitter I follow famous people an that when I try to add and talk to people from up north they disappeared and I found myself banned after Tweeting them nice, interesting things..
He said about stress of being online.. like it gets to you, what you'd expect and know. He seemed like he could not help.
Also, he got is cat in a cupboard on Ellen's website!
He seems to think I'm doing well but wants me on medicine still, not ready to change but at least suggested it.
Sunday, March 22, 2015
Story
My duties as a mother should to tell a story before bedtime.
There is a girl named Bella Thorne.
There are other girls who are her friends and they frolick in the world. Chloe Grace Moretz and Lindsey Stirling are 2. They are both equally sweet girls. Bella is the baby at age 16, and the other 2 are 19. There is an older girl they like named Christina.. she is 30.
Bella, such a sweet girl, loved the mommies and daddies. They lived in a house. It was flocked with adult women who were of class. They lived and studied in the world. There were witches and things. The women were their mommies, and they were their daughters. Christina was still a child, too, something of a teenager with growing moods. She sat by the water and looked down upon it. It was dreary and moody. It enveloped her. Bella came to her and she took her to her lap for she loved her so much. They trotted back home, comfortably together. Chloe and Lindsey were there to break a party. Christina managed to hug them both. They ran up the stairs. The mommy that was mostly attached to Bella was named Dierdra Sal. She lifted up her baby Bella for she loved her lots. Bella liked it.. now, there was a fact of the matter another girl who was 17 who brought drama into their lives. She took after Christina. Her name was Tammy. Dierdra lifted her. Now, Christina knew she liked to be stimulated. Not one ounce in her mind would she ever want that to happen to her. It's not that she wanted to eradicate the process..
They were going on a crusade/sojourn. Christina worked hard. She kept the family together, lotta people, like a police. She just was able to be like an adult, as tho she were 60. They made camp. There was fire surrounded all over them. It was protection. Tammy shrieked in the night and Christina embraced her wholeheartedly. She saw what it was, a huge white wolf. She stood in horror, as people woke up and she jumped over the fire and led the wolf to the water, jumped out and scared him causing it fatigue with a big stick to stay in the water.
They finally reached the carnival. Christina went down the tunnel of love alone. It was ginormous. Lotta drama.. Anyway, what's important?? They went back home. Another adventure followed. Christina was still young and chipper, not really fully grown even. She sat with the younger and older girls on the bank as they waited for the boat to come. Anyway, it was very dark. Some of the women were tending to the children. Dierdra came to Christina. She was 40 and 5'6". Christina was taller than the younger girls at 5'3". She put her arm around Christina to ask why she was so moody and to say how impressed she was at her young feat with the wolf which worried her. She sorta hugged her and in the end cuz she was so forlorn to be like the other girls like Bella she pulled her to her lap and got up and lifted her to comfort her moods.
Finally, the boat came. Bella came along with Christina who shone, and they held hands together. Chloe and Lindsey came along and Christina said to run off with them. She wore a yellow dress that flapped in the breeze. She had panties under it and it was to her feet. The younger girls were in shorter dresses. Most of the other girls were a bit mellow and confused. They tried to figure out and manipulate who they were. Some mothers came to some girls who were like 7 and nursed them and they became happy again. Christina was able to nurse as well. The boys were being simply weird exploring things. Oh well, gotta give them credit, too.. ;)
Christina found someone very young, a beautiful baby but not like a bald infantile thing. I guess she was just like a baby for some reason. Christina picked her up and it was fine. The baby was so happy. She would grow a little. People tended not to outgrow others.
The ship got dark again. It was mostly the girls this time that were finding stimulating things to do that made them go cross-eyed and get all giggly.. Christina thought it was great fun the girls were having. She participated in this, too. They would get very close. Christina was older so she mostly was watching from afar. She served the girl chilled fruit meat lemonade pops..
Finally, they fell asleep. Christina got up and would listen to the creaking noises present. She looked and saw a ghost flying towards her. She ran. No one was awake but her. She fell asleep locked in the bathroom.
The End!
There is a girl named Bella Thorne.
There are other girls who are her friends and they frolick in the world. Chloe Grace Moretz and Lindsey Stirling are 2. They are both equally sweet girls. Bella is the baby at age 16, and the other 2 are 19. There is an older girl they like named Christina.. she is 30.
Bella, such a sweet girl, loved the mommies and daddies. They lived in a house. It was flocked with adult women who were of class. They lived and studied in the world. There were witches and things. The women were their mommies, and they were their daughters. Christina was still a child, too, something of a teenager with growing moods. She sat by the water and looked down upon it. It was dreary and moody. It enveloped her. Bella came to her and she took her to her lap for she loved her so much. They trotted back home, comfortably together. Chloe and Lindsey were there to break a party. Christina managed to hug them both. They ran up the stairs. The mommy that was mostly attached to Bella was named Dierdra Sal. She lifted up her baby Bella for she loved her lots. Bella liked it.. now, there was a fact of the matter another girl who was 17 who brought drama into their lives. She took after Christina. Her name was Tammy. Dierdra lifted her. Now, Christina knew she liked to be stimulated. Not one ounce in her mind would she ever want that to happen to her. It's not that she wanted to eradicate the process..
They were going on a crusade/sojourn. Christina worked hard. She kept the family together, lotta people, like a police. She just was able to be like an adult, as tho she were 60. They made camp. There was fire surrounded all over them. It was protection. Tammy shrieked in the night and Christina embraced her wholeheartedly. She saw what it was, a huge white wolf. She stood in horror, as people woke up and she jumped over the fire and led the wolf to the water, jumped out and scared him causing it fatigue with a big stick to stay in the water.
They finally reached the carnival. Christina went down the tunnel of love alone. It was ginormous. Lotta drama.. Anyway, what's important?? They went back home. Another adventure followed. Christina was still young and chipper, not really fully grown even. She sat with the younger and older girls on the bank as they waited for the boat to come. Anyway, it was very dark. Some of the women were tending to the children. Dierdra came to Christina. She was 40 and 5'6". Christina was taller than the younger girls at 5'3". She put her arm around Christina to ask why she was so moody and to say how impressed she was at her young feat with the wolf which worried her. She sorta hugged her and in the end cuz she was so forlorn to be like the other girls like Bella she pulled her to her lap and got up and lifted her to comfort her moods.
Finally, the boat came. Bella came along with Christina who shone, and they held hands together. Chloe and Lindsey came along and Christina said to run off with them. She wore a yellow dress that flapped in the breeze. She had panties under it and it was to her feet. The younger girls were in shorter dresses. Most of the other girls were a bit mellow and confused. They tried to figure out and manipulate who they were. Some mothers came to some girls who were like 7 and nursed them and they became happy again. Christina was able to nurse as well. The boys were being simply weird exploring things. Oh well, gotta give them credit, too.. ;)
Christina found someone very young, a beautiful baby but not like a bald infantile thing. I guess she was just like a baby for some reason. Christina picked her up and it was fine. The baby was so happy. She would grow a little. People tended not to outgrow others.
The ship got dark again. It was mostly the girls this time that were finding stimulating things to do that made them go cross-eyed and get all giggly.. Christina thought it was great fun the girls were having. She participated in this, too. They would get very close. Christina was older so she mostly was watching from afar. She served the girl chilled fruit meat lemonade pops..
Finally, they fell asleep. Christina got up and would listen to the creaking noises present. She looked and saw a ghost flying towards her. She ran. No one was awake but her. She fell asleep locked in the bathroom.
The End!
If I Could Redo High School
Year 1
1 - English II - Gifted
2 - Geometry - Gifted
3 - Biology I - Honors
4 - Career Orientation / Civics
5 - JROTC I
6 - Talented Theater
7 - Talented Music
Year 2
1 - English III - APG
2 - Algebra II - Gifted
3 - Biology II
4 - World History - Honors?
5 - JROTC II
6 - Talented Theater
7 - Talented Music
Year 3
1 - Engish IV - APG
2 - American History - APG
3 - JROTC III
4 - Health / Free Enterprise
5 - Talented Theater
6 - Talented Music
7 -
1 - English II - Gifted
2 - Geometry - Gifted
3 - Biology I - Honors
4 - Career Orientation / Civics
5 - JROTC I
6 - Talented Theater
7 - Talented Music
Year 2
1 - English III - APG
2 - Algebra II - Gifted
3 - Biology II
4 - World History - Honors?
5 - JROTC II
6 - Talented Theater
7 - Talented Music
Year 3
1 - Engish IV - APG
2 - American History - APG
3 - JROTC III
4 - Health / Free Enterprise
5 - Talented Theater
6 - Talented Music
7 -
Saturday, March 21, 2015
What I Do For Bella
I take into consideration if my pleasure causes you harm. I'm like, "Okay. I'm dealing with it."
Mistakes of a Different Kind
Everyone is so bossy and snide.
People tell me I am perfect. Now, they all turned around and thought something different. That I was too ugly and not in 1st rate, like my health and looks and appearance. You know, that was once popular and is among old older people. How can you hold anything against me? It's not related to some things but the topic in and of itself.
Rebels. A lotta young adults today are rebellious, ones in their later 30s and early 40s.
People tell me I am perfect. Now, they all turned around and thought something different. That I was too ugly and not in 1st rate, like my health and looks and appearance. You know, that was once popular and is among old older people. How can you hold anything against me? It's not related to some things but the topic in and of itself.
Rebels. A lotta young adults today are rebellious, ones in their later 30s and early 40s.
Determining Fate
It is not for us to determine our fate.
For some, it seems it was always too late.
For me, things were once great.
Now things can't seem to reach 1st rate.
Determining what you recreate.
For some, it seems it was always too late.
For me, things were once great.
Now things can't seem to reach 1st rate.
Determining what you recreate.
"Money can't buy everything."
Neither can being skinny or fat or blonde.
Money can't buy everything.
Money can't make you a king.
Money may not bring success.
Money can't buy happiness.
But of one thing I am sure.
Money cannot make you poor.
Money cannot make you sad.
Money can't be all that bad.
(Alfred's Piano Library - Late Beginner)
Money can't buy everything.
Money can't make you a king.
Money may not bring success.
Money can't buy happiness.
But of one thing I am sure.
Money cannot make you poor.
Money cannot make you sad.
Money can't be all that bad.
(Alfred's Piano Library - Late Beginner)
Dr. Phil - Facebook
They've been that way since the world was changing and things that happened since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.
Dream
There were like these wall petitions. Ellen in some form had me categorized as a child and I ended up in the regular thing. She was like, "What, what do you wanna say?" nicely. I think she was hiding she was evil in some way. She was mad about where we stood near "the bomb." I jumped down as it blew up. There was a frog with teeth and no Ellen there for then and we asked him to explain the bomb, "the topic which he was good at." It was to like cover the earth, like a Middle Easterner woman thought why not, like my thinking that it wasn't worth it in the world not to have/be someone and just in general, like how people find themselves. I think the people were from the IMDb Soapbox.
Friday, March 20, 2015
With this redhead, you can see she's telling us to back off and she gets the sex.
Guess what?!?! THE DUFF WILL BE RELEASED IN UK CINEMAS ON MONDAY 6TH APRIL pic.twitter.com/XNyM43g7JX
— bella thorne (@bellathorne) March 20, 2015 You can't go stripping everyone barren. I realize it doesn't work that way. You can spend loads of time with someone and they'll still be fruitious and someone awakened and conscious.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
What if it's abusive to leave a child alone or threaten perfectly nice people?
---
She has her ducks in a row.
---
She has her ducks in a row.
Dr. Phil - Facebook
This is murder prevention before your eyes and 1 more crazy family.
---
It's a good thing he saught help.
---
It's a good thing he saught help.
Not Sure What to Do
Dr. Phil is reruns. I liked seeing Madonna on Madonna week on Ellen. I feel like I wanna go to bed or watch something more relaxing.
Thursday, March 19, 2015
Trusting in Others
What do you think of someone when they totally fall into submission to others, like that's the only way to go, the only thing they built themselves for? Isn't there a fine line? I mean, why trust everyone completely?
Racism
Tim Burton only likes Helena Bonham Carter and Bella Thorne cuz they're not Chinese.
It's racist to them. I wish I knew more about them racially. So what if it's hot? Middle Easterners are hot. No problems, but still, I noticed..
It's racist to them. I wish I knew more about them racially. So what if it's hot? Middle Easterners are hot. No problems, but still, I noticed..
Wednesday, March 18, 2015
Suden Aika with Anita-Lehtola Tolin
They are from East Finland
http://kaustinen.net/?p=7290
March 18, 2015
WEDNESDAY 8th July Little Folk Song: Paleface, Johanna Försti, Topi Saha, Timo Rautiainen ja Aili Järvelä, Rimpparemmi Dance Theatre: Mä ja Niko, Floating Sofa Quartet (FI/SE/DK), Windalan pelimannit, MANdolinMan (BE), Suden aika, Maarit Nikula Tribute concert, Nikulan pelimannit, Hääkuoro, Vanhanpiian Pojat, Lilla Spelmanstämman, Rentukat, Simunan sakki, Jannen ja Ainon balladi, J-P Piirainen – Nordic Guitar Music, Antti Paalanen, Timo Alakotila ja Senni Valtonen, Singing workshop by Pia Rask.
http://kaustinen.net/?p=7290
March 18, 2015
WEDNESDAY 8th July Little Folk Song: Paleface, Johanna Försti, Topi Saha, Timo Rautiainen ja Aili Järvelä, Rimpparemmi Dance Theatre: Mä ja Niko, Floating Sofa Quartet (FI/SE/DK), Windalan pelimannit, MANdolinMan (BE), Suden aika, Maarit Nikula Tribute concert, Nikulan pelimannit, Hääkuoro, Vanhanpiian Pojat, Lilla Spelmanstämman, Rentukat, Simunan sakki, Jannen ja Ainon balladi, J-P Piirainen – Nordic Guitar Music, Antti Paalanen, Timo Alakotila ja Senni Valtonen, Singing workshop by Pia Rask.
Dream
There may have been a presence of someone I like or who is very attractive. I was waitig, we got to the end. I went back and got my wallet. I wanted baked goods, a little cupcake with a figure in frosting. We almost got home, where I'd take a picture. Some was missing. They had offered me more as carrot cake on sale. We were in line. I had done something. My brother threatened me and then gave me a little plastic bag of pistol things, more like old round metal things, like the little pellet aliens put in people. The wedding procession practice began. I was supposed to sing. I said I wanted to sing "Maria" from "The Sound of Music" in the end. My mom, younger aunt, older aunt's husband, and dad were in this. My mom was walking around awhile before. My younger aunt was walking around too, enveloped in fashion opportunities. My mom's hair was down with a crown, or band. My older aunt's husband was next to me in line. My dad gave a cackle action about me singing at the wedding. It was more dark or in feeling.
Dream
I was on the floor of like a gymn, an open area where you can do classes, probably dark gray carpeted like floor. There were others. I supposedly won the right to be President, just needed results. I remember a female touching me or like they did. It reminded me of someone else or like the ghost of Ellen. She came back with the results. I was something else. I iiked it. A tall, tan, ethnic boy with a long sharp pointed nose, like Bella Thorne was President and treated me like a baby. I was in a movie and someone was to put a shot in me, thin light needle, and I kept wanting to ask the boy questions. I was sorta hiding from the female. Like, playing coy and upset but I wasn't. I woke up feeling totally touched in a mysterious way by the female presence.
Facebook Hogs
Do you know about people with too much time on their hands?
-Don't understand why they keep sending you notifications?
-Disagree with their purpose?
-Don't understand why they keep sending you notifications?
-Disagree with their purpose?
So Tired
I'm so tired in a way. I mean like as a person, mentally and physically. I am not needing to sleep at the moment. I just woke up several hours ago-
Tuesday, March 17, 2015
Dream
I had 3 dreams. I remember the last one I was at a hotel. I was in charge of some kids at one moment, and we were to leave the next day. Like my 1st dream, it seemed life threatening and I freaked to save them. In the end I was with one woman. I remember falling onto her iwth my legs and ws with her enough to say "Mom , help!" There was a brief glimpse of my real mom on like a death bed. No biggie. The mom turned into like a teenager or what today is a young adult from the Ellen show. Who I really felt the mom was tho was someone I just saw who never knew me also looking thru the eyes of all these people. Someone gave us donuts, and I was able to taste them. I made sure people got what they wanted. The teen, who was tall. long, thin, and brunette wanted to kill the lady on the death bed for not giving me all chocolate covered. In the end, after cooing her down and seeing a long string of not as good smaller chocolate donuts, I went to distribute them all like there was no enemy. I saw a guy who was like involved in the program and he dipped is finger on one with chocolate and blue meat and chocolate syrup inside. I was gonna take it but got the green one. There were 3 left.
I left a war documentary on a few days ago. I dreamed I was escaping. I have been able to dream to the TV exactly as far as sound goes. It feels the same as making up a dream.
How I Feel About Mom: I dunno, I think it was essentially the people who visit Ellen or no one wants to know if somthing else it seems. Not sure what it should really be. I mean, the immature young adult sticking up for me. I was the one who had it together, in a way, as my personality.
I left a war documentary on a few days ago. I dreamed I was escaping. I have been able to dream to the TV exactly as far as sound goes. It feels the same as making up a dream.
How I Feel About Mom: I dunno, I think it was essentially the people who visit Ellen or no one wants to know if somthing else it seems. Not sure what it should really be. I mean, the immature young adult sticking up for me. I was the one who had it together, in a way, as my personality.
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)