Website Update - Advice

Tuesday, 11-27-2012 - Working out and taking a shower will make you feel better, quell you, and cool you down.  It can take away bad stimulation like altogether.  It deflates you and puffs you up and puts flush in your body, especially your cheeks|face.  It cane make you seem much slimmer or more inflated.  It cleans you and ceases irritation.  I have been not shaving my legs to save time in the winter.  Also, do your nails every day, take the polish off and repolish them.  More expensive polish is better, and it's better to wear interesting colors to match your outfit for the next day.  Also, wear a matching ponytail holder, even when you're in loungewear.

Finished My Shower

Clean.  Did my nails.

Not Feeling Well

I keep feeling like I have to pee.  Not badly, but it's annoying.

Not Feeling Well

My female thing started but stopped.

It must be the pizza.

I'm making grits and bacon.

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I added a tag to my last post, *.

Exercise

Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred

Already, I'm losing my double chin and slimming down.  I just did it for 5-10 minutes.

Had Cereal Awhile Ago

Disney Prep & Landing

I saw it I think 2 or 3 years ago.

A Bad Yet Cozy Holiday at Home

Thanksgiving was neat.

I didn't watch the Macy's parade.

Sorry I got upset.  I guess it was just the holidays.  Shouldn't have gotten upset.

TV

I got a message about "not Ellen."

I regret to inform you...

It's not a big deal, but I was knocked out this morning in the bathtub, well, I hit my forehead on the faucet in the tub in the dark because I like it in the dark.  Also, I knocked my camera over.  Something happened, but I fixed it.  I had to tape it to the stand like a Nutcracker.  :|  My 1st YouTube channel was luvsacam008 I think.  I deleted that so no one would check it again.  I had forwards from my aunt.

TV

Hopefully, I will watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" when I wake up again.  I feel kinda tired and dilapidated.  I should do some workouts.  Have some yogurt.

New Facebook Posts This Morning

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Dream

Also, a tall Anne Hathaway came in and showed her black nails.  I said mine were silver, I didn't work, and I paint them every day.  I said I was thinking of someone with black nails, and it was her, though she didn't care, and I didn't understand why, at the time.

On IMDb, I was having fun and expressed I had an inner hatred for her thinking she was from somewhere else, early on.  It was on the Alice in Wonderland boards.

Problems

So, I've been feeling bad, lately.  Things come up in the dark of my privacy.  I guess I'll try to control it and feel better.  The exercise and healthy food should help.  I guess, next time, I need cold cuts and wheat bread and vegetables like lettuce, as well as maybe like honey mustard.  I have some Dancing With the Stars workout videos.  Some are dubbed exercise-based.  I also started working on another Jillian Michaels DVD. It's more routine-based.  I stopped because of my knees and I had done 2 workouts already online, for about 5-10 minutes each.

I don't know what's being squeezed out of me.  I'm not happy that this is happening.  There must be another way out.

...

Also, I've been watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and watching her online...  I'm thinking of watching "True Blood" or maybe "Ghost Adventures" again.  I miss "The Secret Circle."  I also need to watch Jimmy Fallon.  Blogging is something everyone should do.  I like the forums I find.  I need to find more.  I also have that little basketball hoop.  There must be other things I could do.

Hey, also, there's a small, hard pimple on my right pointer finger.  I also felt my eyes kinda cross as an idea, kinda like a crazy, disgusting, perverted idea of, unfortunately, what you think of a black person presenting something.  I've felt this since some time after starting to watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" again.  This didn't happen before.  I think it's because of her audience.  Hey, now, my left finger tips felt gooey kinda and thick like I had short nails.  This shouldn't happen.  So, I recommend you behave and take care of yourself and this stuff shouldn't happen.  I guess it is good for older people and in certain ways for people born at certain times to deal with things that have come their way and that these things are supposedly unavoidable.  There must be some way to avoid this, but I know people also think we have it coming...

Dream

I was in this big, dark room in a place where a lot of people were around.  There was a person who looked like someone I knew who was someone trying to look like Ellen DeGeneres.  They kept carrying me around and putting their hand around my crotch and like lightly tap-pumping my butt.  I was imagining a feeling.  It was a bit weird.  I was thinking of going all out for being very stimulated, on my own.

I was in a room with a laptop and typing a dream.  I handed an old dream to the person.  There were kids in the room.  The person read it, and was like oh that's what I meant to do.

Then there was someone dressed up with a small small head and a big big body, like a robot.  They put their hands on mine, and I let out a little energy.  They felt a bounce and hearts reached its eyes.  We danced, and now I forget what we sang.  The other person was upset yet indicated I deal with my problems.

So, no, it didn't feel good.  It wasn't a strong feeling.  The person indicated they were going to.  When I tried to stimulate myself, I was unable to.  Also, what disturbed me was I went up to the person and imagined they put their arm around my back and walked with me and then I leaped to their side and then got off thinking it was tacky.  Now, that reminds me of a girl I saw in Washington, D.C.

I had a dream before this but went to the bathroom and never remembered or pretty much forgot.

9 nu videos of me singing loading

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Going to Bed Soon

Hopefully will wake up and watch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

What I Wish I Did

Year 1
1 Freshman Orientation | Civics
2 Biology I H
3 English II G
4 Geometry G
5 PE I
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing

Year 2
1 World History
2 Biology II
3 English III G
4 Algebra II G
5 Advanced Math APG
6 Talented Theater
7 Talented Music - Singing

Year 3
1 English II G
2 Calculus APG
3 PE II | Health
4 Free Enterprise |
5 Talented Theater
6 Talented Music - Singing
7

College - Loyola University New Orleans - Communications + Film

Graduate and work for Disney Junior @ Burbank.

Edit

I added italics to my last post.

Website Update - Advice

Monday, 11-26-2012 - I read in Diet for Dancers that dancers like need to go for really long walks or do like exercise for a long time nonstop, probably that would then be less strenuous.

Exercise

I just did some exercises.

30 Day Shred Jillian Michaels

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I read in "Diet for Dancers" that dancers like need to go for really long walks.

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New Photo of Me

Flickr

New Facebook Profile Picture and Post

I changed my Facebook Profile Picture and made a new post.

Facebook

Edit

I edited "pimple" in my last post."

Something

For some reason, I have a sensitive pimple on the middle of my stomach.  It makes me feel the effects of when I felt the waitress like thrown at me, my stomach, and when I tapped it this time it bubbled in a thick way around my egg sack.  I think it was set up.  Not sure.

Bloated

I'm really bloated.  Must be the bacon.  Don't worry, I'm going for a jog this morning.

I just did 2 stomach workouts.

YouTube #4 & 5

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My Other Updates Online

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New Forum Posts

New Posts on My Forum By Me

Website Updates

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Blogger Pages Updates

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My Other Updates Online

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New Posts @ Ellen-DeGeneres.com

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Vegetables

I'm going to eat cooked vegetables.  :|

Pizza

I had the Domino's my dad elected to get me.  It's giving me that funny feeling, of that waitress, like in my stomach are.  I feel like I'm in a mental hospital and am tired from complaining online.

So, he got thinner pizza and the cheese bread I like and the lava cakes, which I didn't have, yet.  That's also been connected to other ideas...

Now, my stomach is bloated, even though I've been exercising.  Maybe, I shouldn't have had the pizza...

Edit

I linked the l on link on the Education post.   I had gone back to fix it.

Edit

I linked the Education tag.

Also, I had the profile christina-barrett-1 on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" website before.

Cute Photo of a Girl

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oh, painting

Leftovers

Thanksgiving
Then Beef & Noonoos, Pasta

Problem

My dad and other people are doing things with him to send messages to me that are elaborate against other people who even suck up to them.

Problem

Leave me alone!

Problem

Stop playing around with me and broadcasting my life.  I'm not sure why this happened.  Guess it's not safe to post anywhere.

Problem

I just got the idea that things are supposedly all being set up intelligently around me to stimulate others.

Just Ate a Snack

Leftover Sushi and Gummi Bears

Problem

Please leave me alone for how I say things.  Also, you've already ruined my life.

Problem

Why is life so lame since my interest in Ellen DeGeneres and moreover my dad with the n word thing.  Someone needs to put an end to him.

Problem

They're really in the process of fixing this.

Problem

Can you leave me alone?  I got the message that dirty Americans wish to eat away at people who want pure, full heritage from Europe.

Problem

Why is everything I do a bad message from someone I care about or who is nice, a good person, I don't interact with in person?

I'm ba-ack.

my account @ The Ellen DeGeneres Show website: link

Problem

I got another message.  A threat.  I also got a message that associated something special to me, again.

Problem

I think people are hiding out waiting to hurt or at least act like to me they're hurting people I know or the way I see them.

Problem

I'm getting perverted, messed up messages from Ellen DeGeneres, like that she wants to hurt people I know, like my dad, because of my suffering of messages I get that people pretend are from her.  I bet it's someone trying to get attention.  I can talk about it.  Anyone agree she's just wasting time or whoever did that?  I don't have time to fix what I write all the time, agree?  It's about what you mean, but it's also about other things.  Why do we have to say this when we're busy?  Oh, and don't overreact to some things I say, just for the fun of it.  You can't hurt me.  You shouldn't.  I wonder what I can do to stop you and to stop you from bothering me when I feel good.

Edit

I changed the link from 3I to 3*.  :|

Cereal 3*

Problem

Every time I get mad at being set up, I get a weird message that's like Ellen DeGeneres.  It happens.

I just got another weird message about something in private about my breasts.

Problem

My dad won't leave me alone.  He's leaving the pizza out for me to eat later.  Like I said before, I didn't order it.  I just had some, yesterday.  My parents were at a wedding.  My dad was filming it!

Problem

What's going on with the idea that if something bad happens after someone good comes into the picture that it's bad?  I mean the good person should be hurt.  I get in forced situations, and I get mad when I'm attacked when I'm alone and have weird mechanisms in my head, like I can't think how I used to nor any better, for some reason.  Sure, it would reach the knowledge of others.

Problem

You know, you can't just keep hurting me, like it's a part of fate.  I know you're inept.

Website Update - Advice

Sunday, 11-25-2012 - Nail polish apparently wears away when it gets old.

STOP

My dad won't stop coming in my room giving me messages.  I'm changing my account at "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

He came in to tell me he got the cockroach.  I'm getting the idea of people intruding my life, like beasts.

Hey, stop, why is this topic on Ellen DeGeneres?  What's going on?

Something That Happens

So, if someone is mean who is famous, someone else will take charge.

Problem

I got another "message" about being poor and rich.

These messages are not stopping.  I say something, and I get talked back to, if not now, later, I guess.  Why doesn't anyone care?

Hey, stop defending my dad.  He's mean to me.  Hey, stop.  I'm getting more signs.  I got the sign of something popping.  My dad popped some things earlier.  Hey, once I thought of "Poppins," when he was mean to me.

Someone get this to stop.  Answer.  Stop acting like I don't matter.

Stop wasting my time and having me go through these things to send only me messages.

Problem

I got the idea that my brother should ***.

Problem

I'm getting weird messages in my room that others can't tap into because I like to post all the ways I'm bothered online.

Problem

So, how you a gonna solve the problem about my dad being hurt all the time?  Just sorta sit here and attack me like my dad will attack you?  THIS NEEDS TO STOP.

Oh, as I was walking out of my room, this time, my dad opened the door and came in and said he got pizza.  I think he got upset at my brother for the idea I might get more vitamins, instead of the ones I had from before that sometimes he takes.  I'm taking them now, waiting until I get my money next month...

I just had pizza.  I got the bad feeling that waiter was in me when I had it yesterday.  I wa pumping out said feeling.

Also, I was reading Ellen DeGeneres's e-mail she sends out.  :|

Well, I dunno.  I don't want pizza, again.  Hm, also, he filmed a wedding yesterday or took pictures for it.

So, this isn't on my website, but my dad gave me pizza before and I didn't look as sorta stretched out, Hot Pockets.

Who You Hang out With

So, if you're mean to me, I can hang out with someone else and hope the world doesn't let you say bad things about me.  I realized that it'd make you feel guilty to think bad thoughts about me.  We're definitely open to social mingling.

Stop

Stop bothering me.  I don't need things to happen to make sure they're okay that they won't happen any worse.  I know that's the tacky "fantasy" that's going around for how I will ultimately and supposedly in a way others will be attacked.

It seems when I post something, something else happens to me in private and I blog about it, often, lately, more than I should, which maybe I shouldn't have to, at all.

Attacked Some

I've been attacked a bit nonstop since waking up and insulted.

They could make noises come up in my ear over even loud music, which I don't want to turn on.

I think they're chasing the wrong person.

Stop

Stop acting like I need to listen to my dad.  I'm already too old to all of a sudden need to listen to my dad.  What about my mom?  What's your problem?

And it's all weird little things.

Stop acting suggestive like I'm guilty.  If you want to materialize that thought to the world, post it in your blog.

Stop being so critical of my thoughts if you make bad ideas hit me and are watching me all the time in private and telling people what I do and think.

I can post about my experiences on my blog, if I'm civil.  I'm not sure what your problem is...  That I posted an alluding to it?  I think you're just pretending.  If it doesn't matter, then I'll do it because it'll help me.

... Okay, bye, this is no fun.

Every time something happens, you don't have anything else to do.  I'm forgetting it.

Stop

I'm getting weird noises in my room getting mad about me getting mad.  I explained what happened, and sometimes these thoughts just materialize because of the nature of my world.  Blame my world.  And don't hurt people in the wrong way and do certain things to the wrong people.

I'm getting more messages, too, and I can't write them all down.  As I write them down, I guess I get more.  If you do this, shouldn't you stop?  Maybe, you should have stopped, anyway.  I don't have to feel bad for you, like this.

Problem

I still don't feel good about pressure behind my body, feel kinda cut out.

Dream

I was at church in choir.  The choir director was at the organ.  I had the feeling she'd put her arm around my back as we talked.  My friend was there with another friend, both older in the same class but not where I lived then.  They were arguing like I was before but more acutely, and I told her after she went over to reprimand them and sat down and said some things.  I talked to a teacher in the choir, and she was stern about me.  We sang, and I had trouble sounding loud.  In the end, finally I could sound somewhat celestial.  There were a bunch of lowly tribal people from Africa at the front of the church, which was more bright and partly white.  We noticed the ceiling above them, which was like big round stones was gone.  They came by us, though we were in a loft before.  I noticed one tall, thin man who looked more Jewish or Middle Eastern.  He was talking about having a Jewish dad, like it was an official definition of being Jewish, in an enlightening way.  He said, if your dad's dad and mom both had Jewish then you're "the one" and followed forward thinking about it.

Oh, before that, we were drawing people for like a job.  I sketched a girl well in 15 seconds, the 2nd one.  I went to see her at breakfast, and she and her friend were there.  She gave me the picture back, like I was dirty.  She was White but was dark with a kinda African smooth but shapely face, like a White person.  So, I left them and forget what else happened.  It was kind of a more dilapidated, dirty situation.

Nite

Maybe will just fall asleep.

Problem

I guess I got upset and didn't know what to say.  Turned off because I am.

Problem

So, I deal with my frustrations.  I can see things coming and I turn ideas over.

Upset things are happening, but when I'm not at peace I get upset.

Problem

I was leaving my bathroom and heard a bunch of noises.  Because I had a light on, the deodoring thing.

STOP

NOW WHAT NOTHING MATTERS - I DON'T WANT TO BE ASSOCIATED WITH YOU I KNOW WHAT YOU'RE UP TO

LOOK YOU ALREADY MADE A BIG DEAL OUT IF IT LIKE IT WAS GOOD - GO TELL THE WORLD YOURSELF BUT NO DON'T SPREAD IT AND QUIT PICKING ON ME TRYING TO BLOG

I'M TIRED OF YOUR PERVERTED GAMES

STOP

Stop kidding like I'm perverted.  I just felt disconnected because of your messages about my grandma.  I don't feel as physical.  I was filled with something I didn't want to be filled with, and now I'm not as immense.  Stop.  You're torturing me and laughing.

STOP LEAVE ME ALONE ABOUT MY GRANDMA IN A BAD WAY I'M MY OWN PERSON AND HAVE BEEN YOU MEAN PEOPLE I DON'T LIKE MY FAMILY NOR EVERYONE IN CERTAIN WAYS AND STOP ACTING LIKE I'M WEIRD WHEN I PAUSE WHEN TYPE

STOP

Stop bothering me about Ellen DeGeneres.

STOP

STOP WITH THE RACIST MESSAGES THAT DON'T MAKE SENSE THAT AREN'T RIGHT THAT REALLY ARE EASILY KNOWN TO BE UNTRUE FROM TIM BURTON THAT I JUST GOT THIS RARE TIME OUT OF WHAT'S BEEN GOING ON.

WHAT AM I GONNA DO NOW THAT CAPS DON'T MEAN ANYTHING?

STOP

STOP WITH THE WEIRD MESSAGES FROM ELLEN DEGENERES.  I BET SHE THINKS I'M WEIRD.

STOP

Stop with the weird faint noises of people torturing each other when you make me mad|upset.

Stop!  I just got another suggestion!  I said stop!  Answer!  I SAID STOP.

STOP MAKING FUN OF ME!

Hey, I said stop.  You're using my energy.  I said STOP.  GO AWAY.

Problem

Leave me alone since the n word thing.  You're using my energy.  I just got a bad suggestion, that I was bad to my grandma.  That I can't get away from her.

Also, my dad is predicting all these things I will say and it's sick.  He's spying on me in my room.  Get him to stop.  What's going on!  Who'd agree to look at me in my room?

Problem

Please don't hurt anyone.

I'm tired of blogging for now.

Bad Sense of Humor

What do you really think of Ellen DeGeneres's sense of humor?  ':{

I mean naughty sense of humor, like it matters now.

Acutely Angered

My left hand kinda went out in a way, too, so I became acutely mad.  ':|

Finished Eating Leftovers

Hunk of Beef & Rather Plain Pasta Nested Under It
Soup (Tomato Based)
Carrots (No More Ranch Left)

Sushi!

Stop

Stop feeding me fake stuff I can't enjoy later.  I'm not of your generation.

Stop!

Now, I felt my right finger break up into little pieces.  Someone get Ellen DeGeneres.  It's her fault!

GET OUT

Get out of my life, quit making fun of me like you have any say in me.

And quit bothering me more for not describing things like a freak.  I'm from America.

Problem

I grew up very unguided and very innocent, and all of a sudden since college and moreover the n word thing my dad has been acting like I "need" discipline from others.  Don't do it.  Let him play with himself.  What's your problem?  I don't like you.  Not if you're like that.  8^|

Good Night 3)

STOP

Ellen DeGeneres may be meaner than me, but she isn't meaner than most people.  Nice people are presentable or upfront.  They all tend to blend in in the crowd, but I wouldn't dwell on it...

STOP

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM.  I DON'T HAVE TO ALWAYS KEEP UP WITH ELLEN DEGENERES AND KEEP TABS ON HER ... IN SOME WAY I'M TALKING ABOUT.  NO I'M NOT GAY IN THE WAY THAT MEANS YOU'RE BAD.  IN FACT, I AM KEEPING UP WITH HER, SINCE 2012.  ':{

What bloody way will I fall into sleep this day?

STOP

I don't need to sit here and think about if I was guilty like I'm playing with some sort of baby toys...

Stop acting like you can control what I do.  Quit bearing down on me.  WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM?

STOP

POST THIS ON YOUR BLOG

MY NOSE WAS JUST TURNED OVER

STOP, THEY THINK THEY ARE DESTINED TO IMAGINE TORTURING PEOPLE I CARE ABOUT AND WHO CARE ABOUT ME ... WELL, I DON'T WANT IT TO MESS ME UP AND NO I DON'T WANT IT TO HAPPEN AND I SHOULDN'T HAVE TO SAY THAT

R U EVEN AWARE

HOW BAD ALL THE BALLET TEACHERS ARE

The Benefits of Ballet and Dance Exposure

Ballet fixed my scoliosis.  I looked good after I did softball, too.  I didn't get to do as much dance as I wanted.  I quit to get taller and to get into film.  It took years, and, then, I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."

DANCE IS BAD

So, a lot of girls actually quit dancing in high school.

I suggest that parents take their kids out of ballet, right away.  Dance is all bad.  We need to eat.