Showing posts with label Psychiatric Pain. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Psychiatric Pain. Show all posts
Monday, December 17, 2012
Problem
Why are things so torturous now? I know I'm getting better. I try to ignore it, but I'm not, like, perfectly pristine and dull. I don't know about subtracting a certain part. I think things become brittle and dead into nothingness.
Saturday, December 15, 2012
Extremely Torturous
What do you think of being in extremely torturous situations, like you get really annoyed and cornered? Like, people put curse words in your head, and others don't like them. I know I used to act like I was really hurting people but didn't think I was but worried I did.
Friday, November 30, 2012
Ma-a-ad
I'm not mad at Ellen DeGeneres. I'm mad sometimes about how Tim Burton thinks I don't have modern culture acquired maybe and at how he's pointedly racist towards my liking. I'm mad about the hysterics and antics I feel reverberating from what just came up as a vision connected to as though Johnny Depp did something ... and then got the message someone else was constantly doing something.
Well, it seems I got some bad clicks in my room from Ellen DeGeneres. I got some thoughts about her I didn't like, but I'm ignoring them. I was kind of mad at her before, but I don't remember why, but I wasn't very mad... Well, kinda like with Tim Burton. I think I just was mad at the n word thing. I think she moved on and decided people such as myself or just me is a nigger.
Well, it seems I got some bad clicks in my room from Ellen DeGeneres. I got some thoughts about her I didn't like, but I'm ignoring them. I was kind of mad at her before, but I don't remember why, but I wasn't very mad... Well, kinda like with Tim Burton. I think I just was mad at the n word thing. I think she moved on and decided people such as myself or just me is a nigger.
STOP
I'M GONNA *beep* YOU ALL IF YOU DON'T ALL SHUT UP ABOUT MY DAD!
I AM VERY TOUCHY ABOUT HIM! I'M GONNA *beep* YOU ALL!
I AM VERY TOUCHY ABOUT HIM! I'M GONNA *beep* YOU ALL!
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I'm going to *beep* my doctor.
Also, if it was diagnosed to me in the experiment, I wonder what that would mean. You shouldn't call the police on me. I'm gonna *beep* the Orlando police. They left me there. They wouldn't listen! ':0
x x x - x x x - x x x
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Oh, I'm so sorry, my oldest aunt has no children.
Oh, I'm so sorry, Ellen DeGeneres.
ANYONE ELSE OFFENDED!
Also, if it was diagnosed to me in the experiment, I wonder what that would mean. You shouldn't call the police on me. I'm gonna *beep* the Orlando police. They left me there. They wouldn't listen! ':0
x x x - x x x - x x x
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Oh, I'm so sorry, my oldest aunt has no children.
Oh, I'm so sorry, Ellen DeGeneres.
ANYONE ELSE OFFENDED!
Problem
You know, I need every moment. It's really annoying when people take their time out to hurt me emotionally or psychiatrically or chemically. I mean, I've been hearing other worldly noises. Before, I kept feeling judged in private for the n word thing. The summer came, and my brother was home. Then, the clicks in my room began, for some reason, like how I saw ghosts when "Ghost Adventures" started.
Ellen DeGeneres is not from L.A., like my family is not from Florida. 3I
You know, like Tim Burton, I feel that he has a problem with people like me racially, even though I just like being white though I do appreciate other cultures. I mean, like everything I think is wrong. It's because of mistakes I made, but these mistakes weren't very big. I didn't do anything big on purpose. I'm being attacked for fun. I get these thoughts because of thinking Tim Burton was posting to me calling me not white and then tricked me into the n word thing or the people in the experiment.
So, supposedly since I had a hard time remembering to write my cousin it's so bad. I felt like I was made to not think about it, though, really, and that makes me more mad because people will just get mad at my mom for it. Then, it's the thing where I ended up funning my dad. Woah, that's a big deal to me. Then, what, I gained weight and couldn't find myself all as a teenager living in the New Orleans area. It hurts to gain weight and do it by losing sleep and not really eating a lot. xp
I just realized I'm kinda made up lightly being from the Florida coast and not being robust until now when I got fat. One thing irritates me physically and then I can't think. I also realized I was made up kinda overly slick and then sorta built up more rumply and rough, like those Russian dolls. Then, I moved to the New Orleans area but couldn't quit unwind.
Ellen DeGeneres is not from L.A., like my family is not from Florida. 3I
You know, like Tim Burton, I feel that he has a problem with people like me racially, even though I just like being white though I do appreciate other cultures. I mean, like everything I think is wrong. It's because of mistakes I made, but these mistakes weren't very big. I didn't do anything big on purpose. I'm being attacked for fun. I get these thoughts because of thinking Tim Burton was posting to me calling me not white and then tricked me into the n word thing or the people in the experiment.
So, supposedly since I had a hard time remembering to write my cousin it's so bad. I felt like I was made to not think about it, though, really, and that makes me more mad because people will just get mad at my mom for it. Then, it's the thing where I ended up funning my dad. Woah, that's a big deal to me. Then, what, I gained weight and couldn't find myself all as a teenager living in the New Orleans area. It hurts to gain weight and do it by losing sleep and not really eating a lot. xp
I just realized I'm kinda made up lightly being from the Florida coast and not being robust until now when I got fat. One thing irritates me physically and then I can't think. I also realized I was made up kinda overly slick and then sorta built up more rumply and rough, like those Russian dolls. Then, I moved to the New Orleans area but couldn't quit unwind.
Sunday, November 25, 2012
Problem
I got another "message" about being poor and rich.
These messages are not stopping. I say something, and I get talked back to, if not now, later, I guess. Why doesn't anyone care?
Hey, stop defending my dad. He's mean to me. Hey, stop. I'm getting more signs. I got the sign of something popping. My dad popped some things earlier. Hey, once I thought of "Poppins," when he was mean to me.
Someone get this to stop. Answer. Stop acting like I don't matter.
Stop wasting my time and having me go through these things to send only me messages.
These messages are not stopping. I say something, and I get talked back to, if not now, later, I guess. Why doesn't anyone care?
Hey, stop defending my dad. He's mean to me. Hey, stop. I'm getting more signs. I got the sign of something popping. My dad popped some things earlier. Hey, once I thought of "Poppins," when he was mean to me.
Someone get this to stop. Answer. Stop acting like I don't matter.
Stop wasting my time and having me go through these things to send only me messages.
Problem
So, I deal with my frustrations. I can see things coming and I turn ideas over.
Upset things are happening, but when I'm not at peace I get upset.
Upset things are happening, but when I'm not at peace I get upset.
Haunted With Bad Thoughts
Bad ideas have been haunting me, but some ideas were planted in my head. Well, at least it seems like some of these sounds are real and subtle.
I'm trying to think of people I talk to who are afraid to be nice to me.
I'm trying to think of people I talk to who are afraid to be nice to me.
Rubbing Things In
Why does Tim Burton want to rub in everything my dad suggests?
Also, they get to be presentable around each other. Ever since I went to the mental hospital, things have been bad. I don't know who caused it nor why I went, I guess because of that weird American History class. You know, my life was really good, a bit harsh but not really. Not sure what got into me.
I had to post my race online, also because it was polite. I mean, I had an unfair opportunity, and it should be my mom's responsibility. I feel that people think I'm silly because they know I've taken psychiatric pills and I'm not technically all White American or whatever. I don't want to be totally set up in some elaborate fashion and be hard to function.
STOP BOTHERING ME. WITH YOUR COMPLEX MESSED UP IDEAS. YOU JUST SPRAYED IT ON MY PRECIOUS STUFF. IDEOLOGICALLY. LOOK, QUIT. STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I JUST SAID QUIT.
Tim Burton is racist and mean just because of the n word thing. He's trying to say my dad is bad, but he has no reason.
Also, they get to be presentable around each other. Ever since I went to the mental hospital, things have been bad. I don't know who caused it nor why I went, I guess because of that weird American History class. You know, my life was really good, a bit harsh but not really. Not sure what got into me.
I had to post my race online, also because it was polite. I mean, I had an unfair opportunity, and it should be my mom's responsibility. I feel that people think I'm silly because they know I've taken psychiatric pills and I'm not technically all White American or whatever. I don't want to be totally set up in some elaborate fashion and be hard to function.
STOP BOTHERING ME. WITH YOUR COMPLEX MESSED UP IDEAS. YOU JUST SPRAYED IT ON MY PRECIOUS STUFF. IDEOLOGICALLY. LOOK, QUIT. STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING WRONG. I JUST SAID QUIT.
Tim Burton is racist and mean just because of the n word thing. He's trying to say my dad is bad, but he has no reason.
Ruined
Since my female thing is ruined... what do you think now that we're pretty sure it was given to me as individual medicine secretly? I shouldn't have taken the medicine. Also, my life was really bad before I went to the mental hospital, I can see from the old YouTube videos.
Help!
I am being threatened and so are other people!
HEY, THERE'S A WARBLING RINGING IN MY EAR! I have my ear plugs in and my noisemaker on.
LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU ALL THINK YOU DESERVE STUFF IN LIFE AND NOT ME?
LEAVE ME ALONE. I WANT MY LIFE.
People are being dishonest on their opinion of me, and then I am told the clicks in my room are associated with them under all control of my dad, which I don't like.
HEY, THERE'S A WARBLING RINGING IN MY EAR! I have my ear plugs in and my noisemaker on.
LEAVE ME ALONE! YOU ALL THINK YOU DESERVE STUFF IN LIFE AND NOT ME?
LEAVE ME ALONE. I WANT MY LIFE.
People are being dishonest on their opinion of me, and then I am told the clicks in my room are associated with them under all control of my dad, which I don't like.
Saturday, November 24, 2012
WHAT
Look, stop telling me I'm bad and not going through why. You just want me to feel submissive ... to "get it." To get what? Stop saying I have an attitude and acting like I'm fat and ugly.
STOP
I'm tired of your fascinations of hurting me literally to come up with an idea. These things are all racist. You're just trying to take away my rightful accomplishments and say that you have the answer right away.
Friday, November 23, 2012
STOP
Stop bringing up good and bad things together with clicks in my room.
WHAT IS EVERYONE'S PROBLEM I see?
They're bothering me.
WHAT IS EVERYONE'S PROBLEM I see?
They're bothering me.
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