Chain Reaction

I think because I had a friend with a prominent mole, I got a small one under my eye after talking about something weird that happened to me to do with eyes.  I think it was rubbed in.  I just saw a girl on TV with a small-medium mole near the side of her eye.  It reminded me of me.  If it is of your interest, she also has frizzy medium brown hair, blue eyes, and a darker look with her eyebrows for instance.  It's "A Haunting" - "Nightmare in the Attic" - 2014.  Also, I got myself one when I had started watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show.  Other things have happened, too, something important that had happened similarly before watching.  The girl on TV is probably born around 1998 with Late Boom parents.

Nauseous

Not disgusted.. was eating Indian food and had to leave, almost hurled.  I need to start cooking, nothing to eat.

My throat was too sensitive drinking water.

Did you ever wonder

Why not sing louder and smoother, more substantial and connected?

How I'm Feeling

I do feel so weak, and my arms are trembling.  I walk and have some feeling of dizziness, again today.  I still feel like I'm lighter than air, like my head makes me a balloon with a string coming out the bottom, though the bottom feels like a ballooned fun house thing.  I can't like hold still easily, neither.  Sometimes, it causes me to tremble ... tremble ... tremble.  Well, I can help it a lot, too.

Listen to this.

Pa-pa-pa-Palavas
Cabaret Hoover

from Les Triplets de Belleville..

Feeling Better

I sang "Ouor House"

Bionics

I swear to you I am not just a biological human, I only sense what's around me.  I know this may seeem atypical, but I would even around age 12 but also since maybe 5 lie under the covers, maybe 4, and hallucinated that there was a sadistic cartoon that I couldn't get my eyes off.  If I did it now I'd be looking.

Finding Dory

I wrote up I believe mostly the fronts of pages unless going back 2 composition books plus enough lose paper to fit a composition book - but they lost my good drawings of girls that didn't take too long.

I also got constant short term memory loss, not sure what's happening now.  At least I know Ellen = mama.  MAMA not ma ma like she slangs since she's from the New Orleans part of the country-

NyQuil + DayQuil

I came out and saw a pack with a split between 2 sides, NyQuil + DayQuil.  You take 2 pills at a time, of different very very very strong colors, very thick, hard, strong pills.  I took 1 NyQuil, and I feel it in my brain.  It's for Cold + Flu.

Ahead of the Class

Why is Obama wasting time on gun violence, with kids?  I guess that makes sense.

Isn't he supposed to be worried about bigger issues?  Like, the war in Iraq.  Foreign missil crisis???  Malnutrition in school.  Education.  Medicine|"Healthcare."  Finance.

Subway 3I

Chicken and Ranch on Honey Oat and Chocolate Chip Cookie

Feeling Better

The tea is making my head pump.

Also, I went to the bathroom fine.

Bath

I feel like I need a shower.

Ruined

Since my female thing is ruined... what do you think now that we're pretty sure it was given to me as individual medicine secretly?  I shouldn't have taken the medicine.  Also, my life was really bad before I went to the mental hospital, I can see from the old YouTube videos.

Shopping

$10 Mouse
$10 Keyboard
$50 2-Pack Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs
$10 pads
$5 teen female chewable vitamins
$5 hair, skin, nails pills
$20 coat hanger

Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
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$194

Ooh, that's too much.  I'd better not get the air purifiers.  So, it's $144.

Problems

I don't know why people are digging into my life in private in insulting, dirty ways, thinking I want to really, privately, secretly want to be stimulated in a perverted fashion.

The theme has been going ... elaborate plans have been made to carefully control and monitor things in my life that I can't control.  To relay messages that others I know are now more worthy than me, people who have been uncontrollably snide|rude|snippy|hurtful with me.

Also, no one cares if I'm not comfortable.

I better spill the beans.  I dropped my Wal-Mart card, somehow.  I got 2 coats at the mall.  I lost my credit card, and I'm guessing someone in my home took it.  I guess I have to keep my cards where I can see them or keep track of them.  So, I got some pink pants, and now I can't find them.  I had given them to my mom to get hemmed, and the lady was out for awhile.  I am pretty sure I got them back last week.  I just did my laundry, and I don't see them, anywhere.

I've grown up wanting privacy, but I feel people have acted like they know more than me and that means I'm worthless.  I've also been unhappy, like I wanted a more expensive life.

Also, yesterday, I thought I folded pink pants with a hook, but now I see I have pink pants with a button.

I realized that successful people may cause jealousy, but I don't really believe that.  Even people who try to live life like others and not just live out their dreams.

Another problem is I'm feeling smooth parts of my body go into pieces like glitter.

So, I am upset that people are telling me they are the one with hidden strengths.  They are getting mad at me for not knowing or something like that.  I'm sorry if they've seen twilight or whatever.  I hope they get better.  They certainly close their wound up from people like me.  So, why like cut into me for it?

I'm tired of people saying they are so smart and know everything.  They don't even know how to be happy.

I feel kinda like my eyes popped out looking for the pants.  My head feels a bit blown up.

I don't have to listen to Helena Bonham Carter and what people think of her towards me now because she is with Tim Burton, who is testing us about maybe he'll marry her and be more disconnected from us.

I was just settling in, and now people are distracting me.  What if they distracted you?  I don't feel well, quit bothering me just because I haven't showered, yet, today.  I'm still tired!  Quit bothering me!!!  You keep annoying me!

Please stop acting like your so good, even when someone makes a point, like you understand it.

I'm tired of the drama with Ellen DeGerenes punishing me, for nothing.  See how you like it?  Hm?  Oh, she already has that on her show.  Still the same thing.  '}:{

Look, GIVE A COHERENT ANSWER AND QUIT!  Stop complaining about me not living a comfortable life.

I could at any moment have anything jump at me, have some noise in the background that warbles...  I'm tired of people with concocted lives taking over everything.  They must have some racial problems.

Oh, and you've pretty much let other people seem to make statements of others and threaten to hurt them.  Racial statements.

I thought my life was getting better.  So, you're complaining about your problems and thrashing my successes like fate.  Being picky about my needs.

I - WANT - 2 - PUMP - U - UP

Do you want big arms or a small core|torso, chest, waist, and hips?

Shopping

$10 Mouse
$10 Keyboard
$50 2-Pack Air Purifier link
up to @ $15 Good Nail Polish
$1 Nail Polish Remover
$1 Nail Scissors
$25 Contact Lenses
$3 Cleaning Spray
$7 Eyeliner
$5 Glitter Eye Shadow link NEW $5.00 @ Wal-Mart
$4 Waterproof Earplugs

Subscriptions
$10 People (like an issue every week, I think)
$6 Flickr
$7 At Some Point Ad-Free for My Forum @ ProBoards
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$154

Maybe, have my dad get me:
a loud fan to block out noise (I already have a noisemaker.)

I cleaned my room, this morning.

It's very clean.  I just have to get rid of some of my belongings.

I just did some Pilates Core workouts.

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