Inside and Out

I am good outside, but I am also good with my family.

Exercise

I think I need to stop jogging.  I have other exercises.  I'll need rest for the ballet classes.  xp

Boing Boing Boing Boing

I was thinking of doing hip hop, ballroom.. but I found some ballet that might be good.  I also didn't want to partner up in ballroom.  Line dancing is fun if you can find a class.  I used to go in Louisiana.

Sometimes, I wondered if this composer and teacher at a music school did jazz or something before she came to work.

How I'm Doing

I just watched Kindergarten Cop on TV.

I've been on painkillers for the lower side of my back by my hips.  It hadn't been getting better and I keep taking the pills.  I feel weak and tired, perhaps from not sleeping thru long enough.

I think it is happening because I overate.  My pills slow down my digestion.  There is hope; I just have to move out and my parents won't make me take the psychotic pills, which is probably reason for having diabetes and high cholesterol.  I need to get healthier, maybe learn to cook something.  Right now, I like when I have frozen chicken pot pies.  I also like juice and fruit cups.  It's better than a possible addiction to soda.

More Movies

If you can put on a play, why not make more entertaining hit family movies?

Well would you look at that, The Cat in the Hat

I feel like I'm still respected when I watch movies this old.  True, they were mean to the actors and shouldn't have been too, tho.  They got carried away with the truth but are not truthful in that way.

The Cold Shoulder

I guess I'm not talking to people who think if you bring up a topic it means something simple and there's no story.

Little Instruments

They played music.

Something Personal

Do you think you wanna be not too skinny in certain ways?  I wonder if that's possible.  Apparently, it is.

Key Factors

A normal person is in high school, easily 5'6"+.  Brown hair, who cares.  It comes time, and they can make it after all.

Martial Arts

I'm wondering about doing kung fu partially for a workout. I also jog most days.

My Little Asian Princess

As a baby..

If my existence is harder as a Eurasian with whatever kind of parents I have, why am I not like a gem rather than treated like I'm also not really that good, not worth it?

Suggestion

When I was 15, I was encouraged to do band and army.

I think I know why people go active duty or reserves.

It's fun.  You also are in good shape and are astute.  It pays well and for college, too.

It was interesting today reflecting on attending the part time job event.  I think a guy who must have been Middle Eastern, did say where he was from, was interested, a more obese short one, which I'm cool with.  I felt the recruiters, at least some white, didn't file me up as a nonwhite just because he was there and knowing what I seem like I like and chose to do.  I would love to be a comrade of other races, too, tho!

Something for Everyone: There's gotta be a light at the end of the tunnel.

I was thinking about how famous Bella Thorne is, tho it is sorta a secret fame of someone really famous!  You know, girls, guys, if you wanna be like that you gotta get into the business of modeling and things or we all have the right to settle for what it's worth those with fame.



I had a hard time.  I actually said I wanted to sing and play flute/violin at age 5 and 6.  My parents didn't do it, and I don't know why.  They said I was pretty well-behaved for a 5-year-old.  They did provoke me to write a hate note.  I had other problems at 3 and 4 like picking my nose and pooing in my pants!

There's more.  I tried learning a song on piano with my dad and I was put in piano lessons at age 9.  I resented people telling me I'd be a pianist.  20 years later, I know it's because it's lonely, more more lonely than people in band and orchestra! even singing!

I've been singing again after a 2 year break in using my voice much at all since 2010.  It has really helped my musicality to feel myself pushed to achieve.

I'm not lying.

I feel like if I do something someone is against I could get cancer and die.

Problem With My Hair

I used to dye my hair a lot in a short period of time cuz my hair is so hard to dye and impatience.

It still prickles from it.

It seems a hair falls out every time I comb my fingers thru my hair.

I'm trying to grow it longer and grow out my bangs.  Something's wrong with it.

Ballet

My mom wants me to take ballet.  It has beginning/intermediate twice a week for adults.  There's an advanced level, too, but I'm taking beginning/intermediate.

Here's what the kids do:

Brooding

That's often not for me!

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How I Feel

Some people may be withdrawn or ^preoccupied^ and even mentally ^disturbed^ and ^need help^.

I feel "emotionally ^challenged^."

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Prejudice of a Certain Stereotype

If you are prejudiced towards males who are dark with dark hair and dark eyes with a gruff look, then you are missing something and that is shallow-minded to believe cool people are all one way, like Hitler, long, thin, blonde, smooth, but ditzy.  You can be whoever you want eventually, but you are wrong to musjudge people and be rude "to their face."

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