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About the Class

So, people are really mean to the young lady from Russia.  I know she is not German, but I mean Russia is a secondary major country.  I can understand they be mean to me being from America, but I mean it's like they're just attacking right and left anyone with anything to offer..

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Trapeze Camp

I found 1 in Miami, but I don't know how I will pay to live there. Dad and people keep saying to get a little apartment.. like the government might aid. Can you find out, like if I can get a loan? Or if there is a trapeze camp that pays for board for adults? Here is the only school I found so far, am still kinda tired, most schools are for kids and teens..

http://www.theflyingtrapeze.net

Pain

I'm in a lot of pain.  I need to figure out how to record TV in my room on my sofa where I lie down facing the TV.  I feel so immobile.  3I  I will practice acting, too.  The week has gone by so fast, and I'm doing gymnastics again on Saturday.

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Why won't you get me the dresses for $50?  That's not very expensive for a dress.  I'm using the money I get from SSI for food, and I only get $180 per month.  How am I supposed to get clothes if you never get me anything?  What, you just don't want to get me pink boots?  I already told you I need you to save to get me these things.  I already told you a long time ago.  I would have maybe changed how I used my money, if possible, or you should have already known I'd spend maybe $100 on clothes in 1 month..getting stuff online instead of a shirt at the store since I want dresses.  Why does Mom take my SSI money?  I only get $180.. if I spend it, then I won't have any at the end of the month.  I'm using it to make sure I have money for the food, and you can use your money for the clothes.  What, so then just get some of the stuff I asked for.  Get 1 dress at a time.

Pink Girl Child's Party Dress
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_1082HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Girl Child's Turtleneck
Size 14-16 XL - Color: Pink - $4.90
http://www.target.com/p/cherokee-girls-long-sleeve-turtleneck/-/A-14171125?ref=tgt_adv_XSG10001&AFID=Google_PLA_df&LNM=|14168611&CPNG=Women&kpid=14168611&LID=PA&ci_src=17588969&ci_sku=14168611

Pink Knee Socks
1 size fits all - $11.97
http://compare.ebay.com/like/360502156110?var=lv&ltyp=AllFixedPriceItemTypes&var=sbar

Pink Women's Leggings
Size M|L - $12
http://www.dillards.com/product/Moa-Moa-Basic-Leggings_301_-1_301_501845724?df=02516444_zi_charcoal

Pink Gloves
$2.95
http://www.bonanza.com/offers/10161255/my_cart

Pink Boots
Size 12 - $57
http://www.cosplaysupplies.com/store.php?p=DAME05/BP/PU&size=9&gclid=CPDNjK255bUCFQo3nAodyAgApw

Total
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$138.81

Without the boots, it's $81.81.

If you want, you can get cheaper boots:

Pink Boots
Size 9 - $16.99
http://www.discountwomensdressshoes.com/servlet/the-46998/Hot-dsh-Pink-dsh-Suede-Comfortable-Winter-Womens/Detail?gclid=CJvc5MHa5rUCFQeznQodCXQAbw

Total
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$98.80

So, maybe, I can use some of my money, but Mom probably won't want to help.  See what you can do, maybe buy the dress and accessories and I can get the boots or something, or I can get the dress and you can get everything else.  Just pick how much you are willing to spend and I can buy the rest.  Thanks.

Starred

I starred the gymnastics videos, the 1s that are the best..didn't weed through completely, maybe.

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Problem

So, I need an alternate plan for clothes..my dad didn't plan it out, you NIGGERS.

Dream

I think I was sitting in Ginny's big lap.  I forget the nostalgia, the "violence" or danger.

Later on, I was in this huge class, had been trying to sign up for ballet for a few times around.  So, I was in this huge computer like sorta hall-feeling room, getting my stuff, passed this naughty girl who was rather stocky, fuzzy mousy light blonde hair.  So, some reason, I was in a bus with Ellen DeGeneres, and I was supposed to film myself as though I had a headband on.  I told her to do it, and she was stuck on the idea that I was supposed to do it kinda but I was so quick to flip the lid that that wasn't an issue that existed.  It felt like I was really there.  So, then, the popular girl in front was like acting like a lot of kids do and said can I sit on your lap or something ... don't remember what happened, but she was acting funny.  I think like it was about people from California.  So, then, like people were jumping off or stuff.  I think when I did something she jumped off.  I think I fell off, and someone would get me, but they knocked the old tall lady out and then it was like she liked me.  Then, I was thinking about how Ellen DeGeneres said like she wasn't that big at, like, 11, and I sorta cowered up and said I was as big as I ever was just fatter now..  So, I was thinking about how she was so tall but why she filled out.  I guess I had a little happy, thinking I was dead and walking over to her and she was supposed to pick me up because I was so much younger than her and a kid and like she was an age of my mom..  I woke up..

I also had a dream of Alice in Wonderland, that she wasn't short, in a big image.  Ah, yes, and the mother was in the car and I had another situation before where they approved me.

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READ THIS SHOPPING LIST FOR STUFF ONLINE INSTEAD

Disregard the past e-mail on the list of clothes and also don't get the Saint Patrick's Day stuff because I already got it.  Please, I hope you can get this, instead.

I found 2 children's dresses I want plus the sidegarments to go with them.

I think this is all the clothes I want for the month, unless you want to also get me colored pants to go with my old new shirts.  Like I said in a past e-mail, I really hope you can get this now.  It's only 2 dresses for $50 each for this month + the sidegarments.  I guess the shoes are a bit expensive, but they are nice boots.  They don't sell that many pink boots.

Here it is, thanks:

Pink Girl Child's Party Dress 1
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_1082HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Girl Child's Party Dress 2
Size 13|14 - $49.99
http://www.flowergirldressforless.com/mm5/merchant.mvc?Screen=PROD&Store_Code=Flower-Girl&Product_Code=MB_209HP&Category_Code=100#ad-image-0

Pink Girl Child's Turtleneck
Buy 2 of these - Size 14-16 XL - Color: Pink - $4.90
http://www.target.com/p/cherokee-girls-long-sleeve-turtleneck/-/A-14171125?ref=tgt_adv_XSG10001&AFID=Google_PLA_df&LNM=|14168611&CPNG=Women&kpid=14168611&LID=PA&ci_src=17588969&ci_sku=14168611

Pink Knee Socks
Buy 2 of these - 1 size fits all - $11.97
http://compare.ebay.com/like/360502156110?var=lv&ltyp=AllFixedPriceItemTypes&var=sbar

Pink Women's Leggings
Buy 2 of these - Size M|L - $12
http://www.dillards.com/product/Moa-Moa-Basic-Leggings_301_-1_301_501845724?df=02516444_zi_charcoal

Pink Gloves
Buy 2 of these - $2.95
http://www.bonanza.com/offers/10161255/my_cart

Pink Boots
Size 12 - $57
http://www.cosplaysupplies.com/store.php?p=DAME05/BP/PU&size=9&gclid=CPDNjK255bUCFQo3nAodyAgApw

Total

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$220.62

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What do you think about not thinking of anything because of Nell Burton?

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Hello, people of Ginny's 3 classes at Valencia, each...

Hello, people of Ginny's 3 classes at Valencia, each a nice class, wish you guys would consider being in all of them, don't think anyone else is, but there is 1 girl who has taken classes from her for 3 semesters, in a row..

So, I made a group for us and created a poll and there will be a message up. Here is the poll: http://tech.groups.yahoo.com/group/vccginny/surveys?id=2771310.  Here is the message, for now, will be on the forum, later: http://cab1986orlfl20.blogspot.com/2013/03/y-group-post.html  Yes, I am indeed interested in my best interests, and there is nothing wrong with that.

I have 2 of you on AIM, and I invited you on G! Talk and some of you are on Y!..  I made the group under Chat.  Too bad we can't all get on a Chat group.  You have to plan when you meet, and you're not always on..

So, I hope that we can communicate through e-mail.  You are welcome to post on my blog, comment, or to post under my forum now..  :|

So, I'd prefer to talk on Y! Groups, but I guess for now I'll ask what you think of Ginny.  I guess I should ask why you like her and if you chose the class because of her or if you took the class because of her.  I took the class because of her but also probably am into performing more than you guys, but my life is real like any other person's, maybe not in a racially sensitive way...  That shouldn't offend you, I don't mean I'm better than each of you individually..  I think we need to get in on the common interest of the mystery of Orlando and what Ginny knows.  I've seen kids around, and a lot of them are nonchalant and don't deserve to ****.  Ginny cares about them, but she also cares about me, as most people do, at least before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory came out, seriously.  It's like, if you weren't perfect, there was a problem.  I was kicked outta college.  When I came here, what I worked on was that as an Orlando citizen it was all about people born here, later on about families with residence here longer ago I guess, and now it's about how people like Ginny, any successful person in the area basically..? in a way, would be considered off-limits to people here, too..though in other places it seems different.  We have the internet, and we don't even know any reason why we exist, and we are here unraveling strange mysteries..  All I can say is I've moved a lot with a dad in business, and I'm from Florida, as any responsible, unsinful citizen.  I don't mean other people are not worth it to me.  I would have found out about Ginny.  I'm not sure, though.  Ginny is that kind of person.  The only thing is, year, I'd be interested in others, but I mean, yea, Disney happens to be interesting..  The only other thing would be if I lived in L.A., I think, though, or about if there are cool teachers like her in NYC, which, they might be more urban and make me not feel in the moment..

That aside, rr..

1) What do you think of Ginny?..
2) Do you feel she really made Orlando seem acceptibly a mystery, like why are we here, the way we normally feel around people other than her?  Who created said mysteries?  I know I came here more into things like fitness, health but careful about my eating.. I was already someone into the locale of where I'm at. That was mainly what I did, that and go online.  So, what do you think of how she is like thinking that life is all happy and Orlando is not a mystery, our misery?  I mean, it's like we leave her class and we feel we're in an urban situation.  We're not!  I mean, I guess her class just isn't that, and that tells us no class "is.."  I mean, what, go to another class?

- I just got upset about something, cooking hot dogs.  See if I can think of anything else for Ginny.. She doesn't seem to think "anything" of me as far as working goes.. -

3) What do you think about her hopes for the future?  She keeps claiming she cares about our generations, but in the end feels that she babies the comforts of those beings born later, and everyone just kills any hope in us because they are taking from the times, now, in retroguard to age of the father.. probably holding off a prejudice for those with mothers of Late Boom..  You have to work with what exists, I guess.  I guess I would be happy to know I'd always be a baby to her, but life is indeed short and no one seems to care about preserving their youth enough.  She still is that lady from the Baby Boom.  I have no problems about my age because I like being younger than who I'm younger than..  Like being older than people, as well..

- I'm feeling psychiatrically disturbed by my dad thinking I did things wrong and not feeling it in him to fix my life nor have a healthy conversation with me, digging in too deep, not thinking about the world. -

- There are lots of questions, but I can't list them all.. will probably post more about her, later, if anyone talks to me|joins the group, hopefully..

4) Do you think Ginny should be involved in greater things and network more to other areas, invite people she knows to partake in what others in other areas partake?  Why does she waste time on people in Orlando?  Why not send out invites to meet her if she thinks she's so special, but she's not, in a sense..  Fact is, we don't even know why we exist, but we all strive to meet the goals of the hippie generation and "flower 'children.'"  :|  I do think we need to think about Orlando because we are here and because we do have a bond and some of us may share interests..  It is the 2nd most major place in Florida, condensed..  :|  L.A. is the greatest.  Florida might be next..

5) Have any issues to talk about with not being white or being Latin American, probably mixed with indian heritage?  Don't you wish we got a cute Asian girl in our class or maybe a Eurasian girl from Europe?  A lot of them look Asian, but I look least Asian.  It's just I might have Native American, but I may never know unless we test my blood..  We never talked about race, and I'm 26.  It's all about mixed people born in the 1980s.  It seems the whole class is about being Spanish..  :/  Well, some of us are Native American..and not Spanish.  :|  ...  I mean, I thought I understood the other races.  I don't look like the stereotype of any given race..  :/  I am more interesting than Connie Francies and Céline Dion ... and Justin Bieber.  :/  ...

6) There aren't many black people ... wait, there are black girls in the classes.. very defiant, really..  You will find, though, that you are black.  You are black because you are not European and because you didn't chose to submit to the white race like white people do..  You are like everyone else, not special because you're black.  The truth is racist people have that molded, shallow look, that's who they did it young, and they weren't supposed to, really.

7) There aren't many nice people, they're all kinda dirty and like not that attractive, not really there to say anything but like be defiant, not a good thing, common to Orlando, presenting an image, not realizing people are special.  Orlando has no culture and borrows from Florida.  Also, did you see the sarcasm about not filming Pirates in Orlando?  They filmed Sydney white at Rollins and another school, UCF I think..

- I have lots to talk about. Maybe that did it?? 8p -

So, please join the group.  The messages showed up.

- <3 -

Christina 

Y! Group Post

I guess it's broken for a few hours. The poll works.

Already, I know she "flips her ideas in French.."  Like, she'll say, oh, yea, that's for a younger generation, though I'm older than you and taking that in..

She is so sweet and nice, but for some reason she can't click with me.  I am not really complaining that she should.  I am just saying how it is.  I just keep being bombarded with the idea I don't deserve her.  The fact is I feel I've networked enough to encounter any living being wholeheartedly..

I just really believe she would hold out for nicer people but feel guilty like about say hurting me.  I just don't care, they should be online.

As for like Orlando, in general, I don't know many people who have been here for most of their life.  There are a lot of mysteries here, but I don't know about them.  I think this is the topic we are on.

Maybe, we should map out how she will make me mad.  If I don't do homework, it's because I forgot something, like I skimmed over my notes.  If I don't spend much time on it, it's because I didn't know.  Why can't she get that?  Is that something I have to learn?  I mean, I'm not gonna waste my time on something, like reading a play in 1 day.  I mean, a few sentences would do for a simple question.  An essay is an essay.  An essay is made of 5 paragraphs.  These sentences don't really ask about anything to do with the performance..  See, acting is about performing and like sorta the juice in life you suck out.  A test is a test, too, and it's something you read in class, as a class..  The semester is short.  Storybooks really don't have that many important parts.  I said before theater was hard in reading, just didn't understand it.  We read as a class.  The plays she gave us were kinda crappy.  I didn't want to ruin myself, and I didn't want to use my time on it, already said I don't care if I don't get a B.  It's just a bunch of crap, really.  I never read new dramas like this.  I haven't read many new books that weren't inciteful.  I just haven't..flipped through some romances.  They seem more like late 1990s.  I don't watch TV and don't understand most movies.  I watched them twice a week for a year, recently, at the movies.  I wanted to watch them more, before, but the day dramas are gone since the mid-2000s..  I guess she can't teach us to read more facts that we remember, like you don't remember what I just said.  What I said was something you live for, except I guess the class is like made to surround you for studying, too.  You could make a conservatory where it's more about the art.  :|

Problem

My 1st video|s of me ... wait ... maybe I forgot to record some videos on the small trampoline.. Oh, well?

Oh, the weather outside is frightful.

It's still so cold here.  I needed my thick jacket, I think.  Tonight wasn't so bad after the workout.  }:)

Being Young, Forever?

So, Ginny, do you care about younger people?

I have a problem, people, I don't wanna just be considered the peak feeling of Generation X, when I'm set up for Generation Y.

I forgot what I was thinking so might have to admit shit.  I am upset that I don't know many people.. I'm in a situation I guess, socially.. Anyway, I did notice that I'm ½ the age of people the age of parents like my mom's age would be, you know like almost 30 when I was born?  I was born in the 1980s.  The problem is that everyone planned I would not grow up until way after high school, but now Ginny feels uncomfortable around me, whether she tells you this or not.  I noticed, all of a sudden, that people who are only like maybe 15 years older all of a sudden don't see me as that much younger, some of them.

I'm also concerned about meeting people who are older and older who think they can like sorta ruin my life.  I don't understand why so many kids born in like 1989 or 1990 or earlier 1991 I guess would just be like attached to the peak generation of men born like around 1950 as old and suck up to them.  I don't know any men born in the 1940s.  I guess it's a thing about younger kids to older parents.  I know, though, that kids born in 1998 do enjoy adults born around 1960.  Maybe, they saved themselves solely for them, in life.  What am I supposed to do?  My life is changing.  People are getting like mimicy to me for saying I want people to act nice, like it's a robotic wish.  It's true, though, it seems that kids born in 1990 didn't really have it good and that 1s born in 1991 are considered like too active and then the 1s born the year after pretty much enjoyed life the way my generation was supposed to be successfully, you know? like thinking things are cute and not worrying so much about being in some certain mold and stress, in life.

So, I guess I'll just say it here on my like private forum, I mean, I want to live life like a kid, still have that interest, to post online.  As a person, I still like to be like a kid, I guess, dress like a kid.. I feel like a kid.. I look like a kid..  I was upset that boy from The Santa Claus is seen as being too young, and he's a boy but born a day before me.  Maybe, look at the star of Sydney White and Hairspray and the Olsen twins and Lindsay Lohan and Hilary Duff to think about me.  Charlotte Church, too.  Amanda Seyfried.  Brittany Snow from Hairspray.  So, it's true, if you're younger than me, I guess you'll grow up in a few years.

The problem was I still am a kid and if I'm over ½ the age of someone older than me from Late Boom, they might just not treat me like a kid.  I already have lots of problems fitting in as a generation.  The bottom line was to look like a kid born in 1997 and that 1998 was just too much, kinda prejudiced, shouldn't even exist.  The bottom line is I still am a kid, I just never really looked like a modern teenager.  I am not treated like a 1920 woman.  I will not be treated like I am too old by someone just because I am over ½ their age.  I counted from when I existed.  Hm...  That means this whole time I forgot I was passing up my mom in when she 1st existed.  Now, what?  At least, I planned, but it's just that I have a good relationship.  I pretty much have wanted to be like her.  I kinda wanna fastforward and solve my problems for like the next 3 years.  My relationship with her is good, though.  Maybe, she just sees me as her egg.  :(  Well, I look like my mom.  I just hope I am still a kid to her because if it doesn't work out I think I will need to be restrained.  I got a feeling as a Middle Easterner I was no longer young.  I'm not really Middle Eastern.  I guess I will just accept I have my mom's blessing and that the fact is what the fact is.  I still am a kid, though.  Not really, but it's like I don't feel mothered.  I'm just worried what my mom will think.  I might have to wait and see.  I don't want to be treated like I'm someone older.  I just don't feel life is all about looking like you're born in 1998.. maybe 1992? but not Miley Cyrus.  More like that girl Hayley on the Pirates board on MS.  So, help me with my mom, I really want to be a young kid to her.  She definitely doesn't see me as her age, have been trying to be like her age but feel the motherly relationship..not sure why things went wrong, really.  :|

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I will **** you - my Y! Messenger isn't importing everything.