Friday, March 27, 2015

Chris Mann

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He is a celebrated classically trained singer who got his music degree at a highly prestigious university.  He was so good, he got cast in an opera in Italy upon graduating.  He also was a runner up in The Voice.

He now is touring as the phantom in The Phantom of the Opera around the US.  I got to see him perform it 3 times!

Waterfalls

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Baby Arctic Fox

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Arctic Fox/Wolf

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Social Bullying

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There are 3 forms of bullying - physical, verbal, and social.  It is the result of prolonged indirect passive aggressive behavior.

Your personal background can determine if you will be socially bullied or maybe just be unlucky in a given situation that has to do with your background.

Somewhat Lengthy Discussion on Interest in Performing Singing..

I mentioned things like that Josh Groban and the guy playing Phantom grew up playing piano.  I focused more on ballet those years when I could.  The gymnastics as a child got my voice in shape when I started singing.  I wanted to be a singer my whole life.

..They seemed happy to know I was accepted to music school in college.

Kids and Too Much School/Homework

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Kids these days do college level work, whatever that is - lecture, useless notes, and possibly text?

Kids in the late 90s don't have as much substantial work, I feel.  Homework levels pump up for some in the 2000s.

A Beautiful Flower

Tagetes Petula - French Marigold

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Welcome!

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Problem

Why is my dad sometimes acting concerned about our relationship and others acting like of course I'm in trouble still when I did nothing wrong?

Problem

Why, now, do you keep insulting me?  You can't take me away from people.  You gonna stop?  Are you threatening to do it if I still am liking someone?  I'm not listening to my oldest aunt and Gramma.

So far so good.

No more problems from me.

I dunno why I said all that.  It was that one statement with the stimulation, "No, you go back to work."  I think it made me want to m******** in my sleep.  Also, I believe it is important..  I wanted problems-free, but I guess I'll have problems even if I were living as a normal person.

Messing With Me

My dad won't quit messing with my new relationships.

Lying All Day

They keep shooting lies at me.. like "you can't pick up your baby," "I'm not gonna touch you.."  I know Ginny Kopf started this.  I don't care!  You're bad.

Problems

I met someone I like a lot, and I happened to be upset that day and posted about it on my blog.  I repeatedly thought of things to post.  My dad didn't take that and now people I find are acting like this person is getting stimulated.  I fel distanced, and it's painful.  Yesterday, nothing much happened that I remember, but my oldest aunt supposedly had her going all dizzy and saying, "No, you go back to work."

I like this person a lot and find it done robotically and even just as a check or precaution without explanation that Bella Thorne takes away all my relationships.  There were big things done.

They keep interjecting things that she says that are negative and selfishly picky, so it's probably not straight from her.

Also, it might be cuz my Gramma once acted like she said, "If it happens around something, why, then, it must be re-Lated," and that "if it happens when I've been thinking of a person (I like) that person must be a problem."

Things have been pretty good without all this.

My dad yesterday seemed to say, "I'm making so-and-so into soup and leave you in your crib.  See?  I did it."  I don't want that feeling, neither, of being stuck with my dad, like that's my message in life.  He might not think that at another time.  If I'm c***, that's not my fault.  I'm mad at my parents for that, my dad in this case.  They can't stimulate others and keep me for themselves.  I don't want him (like that.)

I will not take nor let you get away with stimulating her.  I will not take that it's over cuza something I did.  You don't lose people like that.  I think it's my dad's fault now.  My mom thinks if they said something they can't take it back.

Quit acting like me posting this is bad or you're my enemy.  I was thinking of not, but the stimulating factor is too much.  I felt like m********** while I was asleep and I feel the effects now.

You don't go and r*** someone just because they are a role model and you think they "need it," like if they're attractive.  They might be somebody's mother!  You don't just "press the button."  No, you're not getting away with this.  I don't know who did what, honestly, and I'm not threatening to hurt anyone, but justice must be served.  I can't even reverse the process and don't know what to do.  It's my skittish, drawling personality of a dad in action.  I don't know how to deal with this.  I figured I'd just not talk to others as much if possible.  I really won't take this!  What can I do?  I started liking someone, and everyone is acting like the person is being stimulated just because I posted about my problems when I met them!  I don't care!  It's not funny!

Do you wanna talk this out?  I won't accept it.  This is absolutely ridiculous.

Also, why are you so attentive to Bella Thorne and being mean to me when I mention her or think about her?  I didn't do anything bad like she did to me.  Did you know that when I was sharing something with my dad he made a noise that knocked out a part of my brain forever, the front, and right after I said Bella Thorne was being shown affection being picked up?  So, in the end, yes I am nice to Bella.  Why do you keep pushing me about how I treat her, then?

They could give me messages all day, and I'll have to boomerang back to here.

Bottom line, you don't ruin my relationship with someone just because you see me post about my problems and maybe you think the relationship is too perfect.

I know, they'll get tired of keeping this up.

Now, I just have to worry about the new inappropriate messages.  I was mainly backing up stuff I didn't write about when I tried to lay off it.  I will not take this new way of acting about someone I like!  It's not for you to monitor.

Also, I got upset the other night and now my eyes are seeing faintly in double some things sometimes.  I think Bella Thorne did it posting 2 images of herself in one picture like a trick.  Someone told her to do that to me.  Why am I the bad guy??  I don't do anything.  She did.  It's nothing to go viral about, but you tell her to be mean to me and she decides to.

Now, nothing "wrong" about what I said.  Most good people would agree or care about it.  You're just making up stuff, like I'm bad if I informed of this.  Lotta things happened, but this is bigger.  They keep acting like someone I look up to is just stimulated into a stupor.  Get it, now?  Cuz I've had to say enough.  It's time to get breakfast.  I didn't do anything to deserve to be treated badly.  It is important that I post about this.  It's not really bad.  It might not be to your liking cuz it's about what you do wrong to me, which you believe is right.  Don't just get mad.  If you wanna tell me it's bad, figure out a reason.  I should post about problems, you think just not to do with you.  I realize it's not perfect.  I am an adult, and I write my own blog.  It is not for you to edit and be bad about.

Did you know also I think my dad and Ellen and others may have made my left nostril have a whistling hole in it sometimes when I started singing lessons once?

So, another reason I posted about this again is because it damaged me.  It's for me to write and you not to bug about the fact I wrote it.  Maybe, there's a hint of an attitude but not especially.  You can't go making up stuff, neither, about what I really did and then trying to bug me about it and get all mad.  I'm sure you appreciate the news of "what's going on."  I will continue to blog freely about my life.  Maybe, this all doesn't matter, but maybe a little of it does, the stimulating part.  I feel I didn't go about saying it in just the right way, tho.  It will probably at 1st cause more stimulation, even.  I dunno.  A lot happens, and I say about it all.

I don't know about the fact that this person needs to be stimulated inappropriately and from some revoltingly, but I saw you change my life.  What's with all the good people being stimulated inappropriately?  The bad people are just losers.  Now, we have no one to talk to cuz they've all been drawn in to be stimulated inappropriately like it's funny.  I didn't say, "No, they can't be stimulated in any way," like a kid would say.

Also, quit acting like I'm bad.

I'm gonna go ahead and post this and hope nothing bad happens.  I'm just reporting and solving, not trying to even insult the bad people..

About the stimulating, I think it's important cuz it's really happening.  I am not inappropriate to deserve this annoying treatment.  Maybe, I was tired on the meds.  I thought my dad didn't even care if things were neat and tidy for me and even was silly enough to think it was bad to make myself happy cuz he thinks I'm bad.

They were just mean to me again!  They made the aura around my hands feel cross-eyed..

I see there is a point for me to post this.  Quit being irrational.  You were mean to me just because of me posting about Ellen and my problems!  Now, the world will know!

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Good night!

Prayers that people be well in the world.

Another Thing

I had to walk with a limp when I took my walk cuza my foot.  We were at the gym today.

Glamour Queen

It's not like, "Oh, Christina didn't even do this.  So this person is yours!"  What?  Someone I like I can't like?  Because of drama queenness?  I'm #1 in the ways I'm #1.  Others are #1 in their own ways.  You know, I know you grew up laid back, cozy in your den, deep seated, but you can't go and ruin the world as is socially.  "People who need people are the luckiest people in the world."  Some people have created some sentiments and regiments, and they are not to be halted.  We don't want a bland world.

Again

I'm truly sorry.  I'm sure it's been done to me by them.

What can I do?

To gain forgiveness for this accidental thought that happened too quickly?  I was being stressed out.  Someone/something just upset me.  It was wrong.  I've been very stressed out all the time for my interests recently.  People are against me deserving to think about it.

I was talking about this person..

..today, concerned.

Did you know I took action..

..and watched criminals on TV so I wouldn't become one?

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Something strange is my dad made a noise that seemed to knock out a front of my brain forever a few days ago.

Apology and Need 1 From You

I figured it was an accident or rash action sorta that I thought something that involved violence, just a tap into things, but I feel better now that I can do it in controlled quantities.  I'm just frustrated about being in trouble for nothing.  I do what I'm supposed to do.  I'm not silly.

I found when I watched Dr. Phil, he sorta sits back and doesn't remind you of things that could keep you from being mad.

Unforgivable

You adults pampering young adults who flip off your affection and leaving me to suffer cuza my race, which isn't a problem for me.

"Playing It Cool"

It's not just oh I'm cool, I deserve to be with everyone.  There's not just 2 of us in this kinda room.

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People With Things Going for Them

It's funny how some people all have something going for them.  Like, oh, I happen to live in Europe.  I happen to already be a child actress.

I wake up or whatever, and what do I have, I have nothing.  I've spent enough time both off and online.  Still, no result.

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The more the merrier.

The more the merrier.

Stealing

Someone showed me someone I like who I might have found anyway, anyway.. now, everyone wants to take them because I like them a lot.  I probably like them cuz they're so good.  These relationships are ravenous and real.  I guess if you're on top you get treated like this?  I feel I've been downgraded ..and get treated as badly still.

What if..

..we put psychiatrists out of business, too?

Without your crazy, careless contraptions

no one would give a crap about me.  I would be well-off and I could meet people.

At least..

..I know I won't get arrested

Cursing on my blog, not using danger, cannot get me arrested.

So, what's for lunch?

Scallops! and Dole Fruit Cup

I can see the lies.

Mature adults have to reject me just because of my race.

What did it take to realize I was worth anything again?

tho I'm 1/2 Chinese

knowing about Anita Lehtola-Tollin who sang Ievan Polkka?  because she's not really that famous yet like me?

I'm sorry to say

but I do not like some parts of LA

I don't like the famous people who make home there.  I think I got the message from Bella that there's nothing to do there.. and right now she's flown to NYC.

What is "Modern?"

Just because I look old in some ways does not mean I am not as modern.

Bella Thorne and Socializing

Bella Thorne accepts attention.

She was raised with hardcore family values.

She balances it out.

I don't always accept all the attention, but in a way I do.  In personal situations I don't.  I think that's becase Bella is Spanish and I'm French.

Not Totally Modern

I don't think Bella Thorne is as modern as I am.

That's it.  She's authentic.  She could be.  :)

Young people can be stress.

They command all the attention in the family, party, or the world.. to you, those around you, and those that exist in the world.

I just realized why Bella is not post-modern.. hehe!

Because she was born in 1997.  Post-modern culture begins with the next generation, born around 2002.  It seems to end around 2005-2007.

Quick Comparison: Me and Bella Thorne

I am more post-modern as a person because of where I'm from.  I'd say Bella Thorne is more even-keel, into cool things and not like the world turned over.  She probably feels more emotions and is more hands on.

Identity ("ID") - I've thought of this twice today.

You might say it's time to check out who people really are, as tho they could control their life at a very young age.  No, you have 2 parents and school to do that.  You might get more than you deserve and very possibly less.

You might say someone is loaded with gifts socially, but prejudices exist between generations who live in different places in the country and the world..  So, some people were set up to chase their life down the drain.  There's no interesting question to wanna talk about.

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Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Good night!

Schedule

I don't feel like watching TV at the mo.

Video of Me Singing Today

IMDb - The Soapbox

What do you wish you looked like?

 taller, skinnier, fairer 

IMDb - The Soapbox

Do you wish you were still in high school?

 You know, I found no interest in the internet. I had everything I needed. I was worried about being bullied online. I think I would have liked a blog, a lot, but it seemed something would go wrong. I was just always so busy. You were supposed to chose between posting online and playing video games. I got a piano. 

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Words

I have the 1st verse memorize to the Finnish Polka mostly.

Tacky People

I see you've fallen over yourself and made a big deal outta all this like it's just tacky.

You can't really keep this up.

You can't keep using the excuse my dad is not good so I am not good.

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What Weirdos

Bella and I are both good.  You can't prove a point with that.

New Twitter

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The Beach

Why are people so nasty to people from the Miami area?

because

don't say I have a problem like you

What are you like?

Who really reminds you of you?  Not, who do you wish you were that hangs out with you.

My Ethnicities and Races

I will know the from 23andMe.com by the beginning of May!

Brats

Kids who go out and act like they are punishing you by like saying "Oh, when you have your baby you will think of such and such or a kitty."  Like, if you are thinking and you stumble on something upsetting.  Or they'll suggest your dad is the next Johnny Depp in a weird way that makes it seem less special.

New Video of Me Singing

Tuesday, March 24, 2015

Why

Everyone is interested in kids or adults.

Ratting Me Out

I feel that if I am treated well I will be ratted out.  No one cares if I'm dead or alive or ever had a life.

You think I wasn't perfect?

You think I'm not really well-intended?  You may as well feed me "chopped liver?"  That means I'm not perfect?  If someone abducts me?  If I'm poor?  I mean, I know I'm not perfect in that way.  I wasn't a cheerleader.

Maybe?

Weirdos Shmeirdos

I see you wanna take away what I have but not Bella.

This is too pathetic of a waste of 10 years of my life.

New Video of Me Singing

I had just got home from Disney..

I can't believe..

..how they dehumanize my Grandma.

Appalachia in the Appalachians!

I have relatives from the top, there!

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Appalachia

I appreciate it very much.

Where I Stand

top = know
bottom = don't know

Finnish - Ieva's Polka
1st stanza

Yes, it's with pronunciation but not perfect.  I memorized it at one point and should review.

nuapurista - neighbor
se - it
polokan - polka
tahti - music
jalakani - feet
aita - mother
tassinne - dance
vahti - watch
kutkutti - excite

silla - for
kuulu - hear
myo - that is also
ei - not
laitaan - side
vaan - but
meita - us
haittaa - harm
kun - when
kyllahan - sure
sen - its
silloin - then
kiellot - prohibitions

"Why is a raven like a writing desk?"

I'm in and out of Facebook like a bat.

What I Hate About Social Networking

That someone can delete or refuse to post your post on the internet.

It might sound exciting when you're not the one who'll be deleted for you racial mix.

Tweets

I quiver at Twitter.

Do you get it

when people seem like they should start a conversation with you but don't?

Not Afraid

No, I'm not afraid of other people knowing Ellen and I don't.  What's she there for.. same with others!..  I realize I'm off TV for a moment.  Felt a bit zonked and dazed off.  I want to watch Cutthroat Kitchen.  It sparked up some ideas about eating right..

I always can know people in general later.  It's not like they'll get ruined, but that's what r*** is like.

How's It Feel?

Does watching Ellen make you feel like she took you to work in her briefcase?

I'm not watching cuz I'm so fed up by the people who are famous on her show.  It's like, I already know that.  I'm from Florida and I live there now.. and I lived where Ellen lived in between.

Making a Point

I learned that Latin Americans, tho not white they suggest, make a point.  However, the French, tho they think like the Spanish, come close to a point but never make one.  I noticed that Ellen DeGeneres, not only gay, must be a real schizophrenic like they have been saying I am.

My Psychiatrist's Recommendation

My psychiatrist recommended I stay off things like Facebook and Twitter.  I forgot to tell him what just went down on IMDb.  It's on my Problems blog.

I said there was Facebook drama of hidden messages, suggestions.. full of nothing but introverted connotations.

I said on Twitter I follow famous people an that when I try to add and talk to people from up north they disappeared and I found myself banned after Tweeting them nice, interesting things..

He said about stress of being online.. like it gets to you, what you'd expect and know.  He seemed like he could not help.

Also, he got is cat in a cupboard on Ellen's website!

He seems to think I'm doing well but wants me on medicine still, not ready to change but at least suggested it.

Sunday, March 22, 2015

Story

My duties as a mother should to tell a story before bedtime.

There is a girl named Bella Thorne.

There are other girls who are her friends and they frolick in the world.  Chloe Grace Moretz and Lindsey Stirling are 2.  They are both equally sweet girls.  Bella is the baby at age 16, and the other 2 are 19.  There is an older girl they like named Christina.. she is 30.

Bella, such a sweet girl, loved the mommies and daddies.  They lived in a house.  It was flocked with adult women who were of class.  They lived and studied in the world.  There were witches and things.  The women were their mommies, and they were their daughters.  Christina was still a child, too, something of a teenager with growing moods.  She sat by the water and looked down upon it.  It was dreary and moody.  It enveloped her.  Bella came to her and she took her to her lap for she loved her so much.  They trotted back home, comfortably together.  Chloe and Lindsey were there to break a party.  Christina managed to hug them both.  They ran up the stairs.  The mommy that was mostly attached to Bella was named Dierdra Sal.  She lifted up her baby Bella for she loved her lots.  Bella liked it.. now, there was a fact of the matter another girl who was 17 who brought drama into their lives.  She took after Christina.  Her name was Tammy.  Dierdra lifted her.  Now, Christina knew she liked to be stimulated.  Not one ounce in her mind would she ever want that to happen to her.  It's not that she wanted to eradicate the process..

They were going on a crusade/sojourn.  Christina worked hard.  She kept the family together, lotta people, like a police.  She just was able to be like an adult, as tho she were 60.  They made camp.  There was fire surrounded all over them.  It was protection.  Tammy shrieked in the night and Christina embraced her wholeheartedly.  She saw what it was, a huge white wolf.  She stood in horror, as people woke up and she jumped over the fire and led the wolf to the water, jumped out and scared him causing it fatigue with a big stick to stay in the water.

They finally reached the carnival.  Christina went down the tunnel of love alone.  It was ginormous.  Lotta drama..  Anyway, what's important??  They went back home.  Another adventure followed.  Christina was still young and chipper, not really fully grown even.  She sat with the younger and older girls on the bank as they waited for the boat to come.  Anyway, it was very dark.  Some of the women were tending to the children.  Dierdra came to Christina.  She was 40 and 5'6".  Christina was taller than the younger girls at 5'3".  She put her arm around Christina to ask why she was so moody and to say how impressed she was at her young feat with the wolf which worried her.  She sorta hugged her and in the end cuz she was so forlorn to be like the other girls like Bella she pulled her to her lap and got up and lifted her to comfort her moods.

Finally, the boat came.  Bella came along with Christina who shone, and they held hands together.  Chloe and Lindsey came along and Christina said to run off with them.  She wore a yellow dress that flapped in the breeze.  She had panties under it and it was to her feet.  The younger girls were in shorter dresses.  Most of the other girls were a bit mellow and confused.  They tried to figure out and manipulate who they were.  Some mothers came to some girls who were like 7 and nursed them and they became happy again.  Christina was able to nurse as well.  The boys were being simply weird exploring things.  Oh well, gotta give them credit, too..  ;)

Christina found someone very young, a beautiful baby but not like a bald infantile thing.  I guess she was just like a baby for some reason.  Christina picked her up and it was fine.  The baby was so happy.  She would grow a little.  People tended not to outgrow others.

The ship got dark again.  It was mostly the girls this time that were finding stimulating things to do that made them go cross-eyed and get all giggly..  Christina thought it was great fun the girls were having.  She participated in this, too.  They would get very close.  Christina was older so she mostly was watching from afar.  She served the girl chilled fruit meat lemonade pops..

Finally, they fell asleep.  Christina got up and would listen to the creaking noises present.  She looked and saw a ghost flying towards her.  She ran.  No one was awake but her.  She fell asleep locked in the bathroom.

The End!

New Videos of Me Singing



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If I Could Redo High School

Year 1
1 - English II - Gifted
2 - Geometry - Gifted
3 - Biology I - Honors
4 - Career Orientation / Civics
5 - JROTC I
6 - Talented Theater
7 - Talented Music

Year 2
1 - English III - APG
2 - Algebra II - Gifted
3 - Biology II
4 - World History - Honors?
5 - JROTC II
6 - Talented Theater
7 - Talented Music

Year 3
1 - Engish IV - APG
2 - American History - APG
3 - JROTC III
4 - Health / Free Enterprise
5 - Talented Theater
6 - Talented Music
7 -

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Saturday, March 21, 2015

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Why is it called being politically correct?

If it's legal and possible, you can do it! 

What I Do For Bella

I take into consideration if my pleasure causes you harm.  I'm like, "Okay. I'm dealing with it."

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Ate

veggie salad with oil

Mistakes of a Different Kind

Everyone is so bossy and snide.

People tell me I am perfect.  Now, they all turned around and thought something different.  That I was too ugly and not in 1st rate, like my health and looks and appearance.  You know, that was once popular and is among old older people.  How can you hold anything against me?  It's not related to some things but the topic in and of itself.

Rebels.  A lotta young adults today are rebellious, ones in their later 30s and early 40s.

Determining Fate

It is not for us to determine our fate.

For some, it seems it was always too late.

For me, things were once great.

Now things can't seem to reach 1st rate.

Determining what you recreate.

"Money can't buy everything."

Neither can being skinny or fat or blonde.


Money can't buy everything.
Money can't make you a king.

Money may not bring success.
Money can't buy happiness.

But of one thing I am sure.
Money cannot make you poor.

Money cannot make you sad.
Money can't be all that bad.

(Alfred's Piano Library - Late Beginner)

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Dr. Phil - Facebook

I've been a firm believer of more than 2.

Norwegian

I just read both Barrett families in Ireland are Norwegian.

Exercise

Jillian Michaels - No More Trouble Zones - Upper and Core - 5 minutes

Dr. Phil - Facebook

They've been that way since the world was changing and things that happened since Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

Update

I changed my Problems blog.

Dream

There were like these wall petitions.  Ellen in some form had me categorized as a child and I ended up in the regular thing.  She was like, "What, what do you wanna say?" nicely.  I think she was hiding she was evil in some way.  She was mad about where we stood near "the bomb."  I jumped down as it blew up.  There was a frog with teeth and no Ellen there for then and we asked him to explain the bomb, "the topic which he was good at."  It was to like cover the earth, like a Middle Easterner woman thought why not, like my thinking that it wasn't worth it in the world not to have/be someone and just in general, like how people find themselves.  I think the people were from the IMDb Soapbox.