Apology

About that Twitter remark.. I'm losing my mind!  I must have lost touch with reality.  Still, proves how inappropriate I've become on the inside.

Apology

I am sorry for the people I have bugged in public, etc., thinking they were attacking me.  I pushed the envelope, lazily.

Problems

I'm kinda worried about what Ellen DeGeneres thinks about what I did.  I just don't really want to take it.  When I'm mad, I sometimes get confused and just hit my sofa/pillow.  I kept looking at her, and she kept making angry expressions in my perception.  I started out on a good note recently, but that doesn't matter.  I used to curse about her being mean putting illegal hurtful noises in my room a long time ago.

What can I say?  I thought I'd been nice.  She was upset I was feeling neutral during her last episode or something.  I think it was that I wasn't mad at others for what she did.

This is a goofy way of communicating.

It wasn't a nice thing to joke on me with, everyone, like I'm *beep*.  What business do you have doing this?  This requires an explanation.  I just did.

You don't even have to pay attention to me.

I know people I encounter won't stop being mean to me.

I won't accept these other people who are trashing my life in what they say like I'm the one who ultimately did something.  If I say someone was being mean, they are just meaner.  The world doesn't care when you do this.

Constantly digging in my past telling me I'm worse than you is not something I'm gonna smile about, and I'm not joking around nor being disrespectfully sarcastic, just saying.

Other people wanna feel so triumphant like they're over me.  I don't need to listen to that.  Like, do it in public so you can get in trouble.  I'm making it public right now cuz they all just keep doing that for some random reason.  Just because someone is not emotionally perfect does not mean this is something you're gonna get away with.  I need to make a Police post and tag as a warning.

I don't just go and hit things for no reason.  They kept at me repetitively.  Getting physical.

If I'm already mad, chances are I could get even madder.

I didn't mean to look at Ellen badly, but she kept looking to annoy me on TV.  I'm the one in my room with the TV on.  Can you explain what Ellen does?  Let her at it, I didn't say she had to do it.  I already want her to stop, but I guess it's up to her.

So, yea, I'm not here to submit to Ellen, but she doesn't have to do that for me.

I just wanna watch the show and post about it online.  Other people can talk to her, too.  I'm at home and can watch TV as of now.

Like I said, I didn't mean to hit the sofa in synchronization with her like it's at her.  I guess it was irritating me or something, but it wasn't like unusually bad.

Sorry!  Hate me if you want.

Apology

I wanted to say sorry, but I could get upset again in some way.. as usual.

Disclaimer

I didn't mean to bring up anything bad.  Latinos are just a big part of the country.

Apology/Appeal

It kinda shocked me when they said someone else would be experimented on but without the mean things they did to me.  They would also be the one close to someone, which is a good thing, but like as punishment to rub it in against me.  That is why it made me feel bad.  It was a startling way to say someone else can be experimented on but nice and not nice to me.  I just thought about disliking it once and then tried not to linger on it.  It was my reaction because it was a weird thing how they said it like I have to react and not say anything.  I'm sorry this apology is not very good.

Important Apology

I am very sorry I let my mind slip, as I do when I am with my dad and mom sometimes.

Apology

I just wanted to send out a sorry for losing my thoughts, as I do.  I guess it was just a misuse of a word, but it ended up applying to a lotta people.  I guess it's over for me.

cont.

Something strange is my dad made a noise that seemed to knock out a front of my brain forever a few days ago.

Apology and Need 1 From You

I figured it was an accident or rash action sorta that I thought something that involved violence, just a tap into things, but I feel better now that I can do it in controlled quantities.  I'm just frustrated about being in trouble for nothing.  I do what I'm supposed to do.  I'm not silly.

I found when I watched Dr. Phil, he sorta sits back and doesn't remind you of things that could keep you from being mad.

"Bust a move" doesn't mean any joke, just what it says.

I'm trying to be nice, but sometimes all I can see is attacks.  I don't outright say anything.  I hate people who overly analyze feelings and never let you experience them.

I guess we all smile at others's misfortunes.  What an inappropriate related issue.

So can you forgive a mishap?

Tho I did get really angry?  WHY DO POEPLE DO THAT NOW!!!!

I literally blew it for me.

Well, I felt deeply a cutting message.  I don't think, I know, it no joke.

I have to say I have life/d**** anger that needs to come out and be dealt with.

I don't wanna be the only one in the world out with others all having their chance.

I don't wanna pretend I don't have something.  I don't even know what I have.

Did you notice most people have been kept away form living yet do not need to convey their emotions of jealousy?

Now, there there.

No one is the punching bag.  Make one of me.  I wouldn't care.

So, I was fine if you chose to use someone like against or above me in certain ways, but I needed to figure out what had happened.

Apology?

I don't understand what I did wrong.  I explained it was hard to say stuff.  Sorry for the bumps in the road.  If you need a break or bye bye from me, make sure you do take it.  Or if you think I said something .. I stand by some of what I said I know.  I think that people are in a different world and I have to be the one to say where my feet get planted.

What should I say?

Yes, I meant it?  What did I mean?  Something related?

Don't you owe me the apology??

Why is this considered not nice to do to anyone else??  I have no issue with - whoops time to eat!

cont.

You know, it didn't come to my mind to rephrase that.  I just thought it and posted.