Measurement

I addded it to my website, too, I'm 158.0 pounds.

i want THE experience

If I talk to someone, I want the conversation to hit home..

interview

I got 2 self-help new books and 1 from 2010 on Florida supernatural activity. A little light to read, tabs, stuffed caterpillar bookmark @ $5.. A BN membership, saved $6.

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I just watched a movie, Paranormal Activity,' and there was a guy with a clipboard on the side behind me. I heard clicking in the theater, and I told the workers. There were a couple clicks when it was over. Ellen did something @ being affected in a "strange" way .. like the guy at the theater. STOP TALKING. Like if you talk a long time to someone. I had to be mean to people funning @ me for it. I hope I didn't hurt the girl with the young gramma. I don't want these weird tabboos. That's why I leave people.

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Good News

Started my song, have staff paper.. It's EXCELLENT looked up and know how to sell on YouTube.

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I wanna be famous myself.

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Dream

I pulled something like wooden string through like by my pointer finger right through.



Bought Let It Go from Frozen..

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Bought Keep Calm and Carry a Big Drink

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I am my own person. No one tells me what to do. I am usually pretty good, I'd wager. I wanted an outlet and think exercise is a quelling thing.

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I feel so punished. What can I dream @? I wonder what I lost, a peace of mind and opportunity to calm down? It was only yesterday.

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Problem

These adults around me listened to something someone older said that wasn't right.  I don't want these people in my life, not to be a part of it.  Not like every time something happens that happened at the same time..  It's not even worth talking to you|these people.  YOU'RE JUST A MEAN ANIMAL GO AWAY STOP PICKING AT WHAT I SAID YOU DID WRONG CUZ YOU DID IT N STOP ASKING ME MORE STUPID QUESTIONS

Audition

http://disneyauditions.com/audition-calendar/

Hoop Dee Doo Musical Revue: Female Vocalists
For: Walt Disney World
Audition City: Orlando, FL   
Location: Disney's Animal Kingdom Rehearsal Facility
Looking For: Singers        Monday, January 13, 2014
02:00 PM
Time zone: Eastern Time (US & Canada)

Disney Parks Talent Casting is seeking youthful and energetic female principal vocalists who move very well for the Hoop Dee Doo Musical Revue, performing live at the Walt Disney World® Resort near Orlando, FL. The Hoop Dee Doo Musical Revue is an evening of old-time food, fun and song as a troupe of Civil War era traveling players barnstorm into Disney’s Fort Wilderness with silly skits, fancy footwork, and heart-warming song. Seeking performers for potential full time and part time roles.

Performers employed by the Walt Disney World® Resort are covered under the terms and conditions of a Collective Bargaining Agreement with Actors’ Equity Association.

Seeking the following roles:

Flora Long: Energetic and youthful actor, beautiful leading lady; sweet and petite; vocal soloist-soprano.

Claire DeLune: Energetic and youthful actor, Johnny's girl; she's adorable, lovable and flirtatious, full of life and best known for her outrageous "giggle." Singer who dances.

Dolly Drew: Energetic and youthful actor, the strong woman and "Annie Oakley" type. Vaudevillian style Comedian. Her mannerisms and style are less than demure. Character actor/comedienne

Always Making Fun of Me

OK I just got especially upset and my dad wouldn't stop, like he could transcommunicate anything.

Why do you keep getting at me for it?  I'm over it!!  You weren't there!

STOP

I'M BEING RUINED

YOU ARE ALWAYS MEAN TO ME QUIT IT WANT SOMETHING TO HAPPEN SO YOU CAN ULTIMATELY GET IT

It insults me..

..when I get these messages.  What's wrong with my feeling stimulated and hitting and throwing things mildly?  You wanna just kill me cuz I'm not perfect or because you never thought that meant anything?  I've asked about this before, myself.  I didn't go wild and out of my room.  I just stomped on the floor and hurt my heel.  Is this a special not perfect thing?  I don't believe you cuz I mean people mistreat me.

What do you think?

Like, you can be famous and then make a new statement, what is the effect?

You all are so weird.. :|

I'm the 1 who wants all the right things, but you go off and say everyone else is good and you're all white and I'm different.  I feel you think I'm some slimy roach.  I'm not some perfect stainless steel robot, so I have to have some soft spots.  I also don't have enough exercise things to do.

Problem

I don't feel like having a good day and can't turn off the m.. feeling.

*BEEP*

YOU DON'T HURT MY AUNT

Has..

..Ellen gone insane because I feel people who talk to me get a funny feeling?  She is so mean and sarcastic.  She won't get a life.  I said it was a burden to watch her show cuz I ain't rich and peppy and healthy like her, it actually is fun but sometimes I just really don't wanna.  I already said I might not make it each time.  I labeled it on a the blog.

Problem

My dad also acted like something similar was okay just because I wanted to be my lesser favorite princess at Disney.  WHY WON'T HE STOP IS MY DAD SHIT I WANTED A RELATIONSHIP

I can already see your nigger nose in my face wondering if I need to be disciplined but thinking my dad lets me curse cuz he does or would.

STOP

I GOT ANOTHER MESSAGE

STOP

JUST SHUT YOUR MOUTH

I GOT MORE SIGNS!!  STOP!!  IT'S M.. ME WHICH IS FATAL!

SEE

YOU WON'T STOP

You have no right to talk to me in private with clicks in my room and how you even load the computer all the time and say I did something wrong.

STOP

QUIT FOLLOWING ME

RIGHT NOW

More Problems

They won't quit being mean.  My dad left me a note that it's cold today and not to wear something..  Well, I saw "The Nutcracker" in St. Petersburg on New Year's and I noticed they kept touching Clara.

Problem

I noticed my computer is slow sometimes.  I pounded my table a bit.

STOP

STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING - GO AWAY - ARRGH

Wrote

I wrote some of my song.  I need to get sheet music.  Might have some.  Cakewalk doesn't work.

Death

link

Endocrine System:
The pituitary, thyroid and edrenal glands are grossly normal.

I probably got my tumor from m********ing.  I heard a girl died from m*******ing and got cancer.

She had a small but normal heart.

So!

I feel an influx of shit when I am upset with Ellen DeGeneres.. she thinks she's always right and knows what she's doing.

Why did she die?

Karen Carpenter?  Was it unexpected?  The pills she took ended up killing her, anyone could figure that out.

My dad was purposely trying to annoy me and arouse|stimualte me, so I was going around hitting things.

I heard something.  Those noises annoy me, too!

Stop making fun of me as I calm down.  I didn't do anything.  I was upset.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm muttering as I think.  How do you know what I think?  You're sick.

STOP

TELLING ME NOT TO CURSE

YOU ALL ARE TO LIKE ROT IN HELL BC YOU KNOW I FEEL BETTER JUST STOP IT YOU'RE BEING MEAN TO ME EVERY TIME I GET A NEW BLOG AND WON'T LEAVE I KNOW YOU'RE WATCHING

WHO DID THIS

NOW I HAVE TO WORRY @ WHEN MY DAD GETS BACK STOP PLAYING AROUND WHY CAN'T I IGNORE THIS SHIT

Ha Ha

Ellen, you're just a baby and don't want to amount to anything "more"
I hope you have not heard that too much before
You act like maybe you're too young to be my mom
You don't give a fuck @ where anyone is from
You're too old to be a youngster like me
Why don't you get up go away and flee
Your sin is saying I'm a big fat troll
Acting like I'm just someone's pimple or mole
My regards and apoligies before I say adieu
I don't think this poem was also just for you

I feel

used.

I was trying

NOT TO CURSE

I WANT MY PRIVACY

*BEEP*

Why don't you go

stimulate yourself?  I heard that sorta shit gives you cancer.

Also, I just slammed my heel that own't heal very hard!

My Problem

Not that most of you care, but I don't let people touch me, like get too close to me, like people I don't like or who dont' seem right ugh I'm bleeding on my left ring finger joint!  It stings!  3(

Ugh

They were just in mah face! (my face)  Stop acting all triumphant and get yo ass out!

Problem

You all are sinners.  You get your energy and I am stuck in my room with you following me.

I could feel stuff in my brain after being hit, more sensitive than when I was doing gymnastics on Monday.

STOP

GET THAT *BEEP* OUT - THEY KEEP TALKING TO ME AND I HIT MY TABLE

You know I'm being followed?

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Categories

Stupid

You can't tell people to be mean to me and make me feel fat!

Who's responsible?

My parents used to never bite at me when I wasn't feeling well over and over!  Also, you all are so mean to me when I am so nice!

Problem

Stop bothering me just because I got a new blog!

My dad is sending me secret messages and I hit my head with some clothes really hard by accident.  I hope I'm okay and know I am cuz I fell on my head on purpose at gymnastics.  It's like boxing.  He's infusing stupid messages in my atmosphere, a loser like all the kids out there who do tacky things to annoy you and make you feel guilty.

Things I Regret|Can't Take Back

Ugh!  Why must I really get ticked?  I'm not better.  How humiliating!  May as well find someone else to talk to.  I'm still here.. watching TV and posting online, listening to my singing.

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Do - you - think

Tim Burton came into the world of fame to make it so young people getting attention wouldn't be a positive thing?  I QUUIT

I just bought

Die Zeit ist reif

My fish is looking @ "Futurama!"

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New Website

Also

She woke up early to have tea.

I also found..

..she died at her mom's.

I know I know

Most people just look at me to tell me I'm shit.  But that's not my fault!

More

I forgot to add there was a little of a pulse, and they roughed around with her.

Want Me to Die

Want me to not live it up in Hollywood?  I've skipped many a meal.

I must ask..

..would Karen even matter?

I'm pretty straight.

What was I gonna say- oh not once do I totally fail to admit I am sad Karen Carpenter died for who she was in the world.  Watching a video on YouTube on what really killed her.  It was a drug unknown explained by her psychiatrist that eats away the fiber by the heart..  I almost died from 1 of those, too, but me losing my female thing was the indicator..  She also was stressed her husband wouldn't have kids.  Now, that means something to me, that it might mean something.

We learn

through failure

I find..

..when I m.. I just wanna do some work in the end.

Something We Need to Cover

Obviously, Karen Carpenter, like Ellen is with some things, was overwhelmed @ life centered on kids.  In that 1 interview, she kept using the word "pooped."  She must have been depressed she didn't have a kid then.  She also seemed very much for mixed race, like maybe she was worried that there would be some racial issue and it wouldn't be okay to like work with the white kids.

It feels like..

..my life since Ohio has been telling people what to live for through action..

If

Karen is offended by little things why not feel offended by death, like hurt?

No Way OUT

I am not a big eater.

Never Give Up

However

I think Karen believed in .... MACHINES

And

Something Ellen Would Agree With

I forget but it was another thing that would make her a good President - that death isn't a joke.

What Do You Feel

@ Karen Carpenter

Do you wish she were your mom?  I don't know what I'd say @ that with anyone but I have 1..  I wish .. Well, I have a lot of love for her!  And she's dead!  At 32!

So..

..Even though I didn't like who I was, I remind myself of Karen Carpenter in some good ways~

Ah Trah (I Try)

to put mah best foot fore wore'd

What do you think of "people" none if which have anything for you who just get antsy at the "darndest" thangs

A Note

To: The Carpenters

Death is not a joke, and neither is a bachelor's degree in Social Work.

Health Tip

When eating, don't overdo it, but you can put sweets "in it"

You know when a singer doesn't really know how to have like a full palette with all the primary colors for singing in a high volume or note

Better Singers

have more talent, not because of the practice alone

A Lesson Learned

Just because someone can do something like you .. it's just another version.  No one just makes another useless.

2 People

Tim Burton and Johnny Depp - they just play it safe so everyone is special.. they want you to treat me special.

A Better Poem

I'm willing to set some time for you today.
I do it often in a very ^special^ way.

Would you like to learn a little more about me?
Things in the world that are good and are free?

Learn to compare yourself with others like you.
It's a fun and very normal thing to do!

Moody

I imagined it'd be a dream beyond music to be an executive and make mullah!

A Poem

I'd love to communicate to you how I really feel today
I'd like to do it in a concise and special way

Do you wanna hear a little tune that I wrote
Tell me if you like it, give me a little vote

Would you like to speak to me about something in your life?
I'm in it in the flesh and blood and tears and sweat and strife

Writing Music 3)

HAY

The MOODY BLOOOS

If

Karen still exists in any form what can we do for her?  What does she think @ the responsibility of life.  It doesn't come down from the sky.  I thought she was a Protestant!!

Do you listen to your music

LOUD

Um, excuse me?

I live with my parents.

The Lesson

Karen Carpenter finds it groovy to care for kids, but she knows in real life that's a thing we "don't do."

What do you think @?

"A Little Fall of Rain?"

So, what am I living for?

My new outfit?  New Year's Eve, my favorite holiday, and ..

Well

You may as well listen to me if you always listen to older people.  I know you secretly always want to be with people who are older than you.  Weren't you supposed to do something about this?

Upset

Not that it has to matter, but I think my mom imagined my daughter as a tortured pinata raveled up like ravioli.

Just so you know..

..Ellen, if Ellen k*lled Karen Carpenter, too, it would be for the same reason Sarah Brightman seemed uncomfortable around Andrea Bocelli.. not taking kids my age as their own.

Hmph!

You're messin' up my blog!

Anyway, what about all that oh boo hoo I want Ellen to run for President of the U.S.  I just praised Ellen, and you were rude!

I am attractive and mean to be so!  Don't you know!?

Problem?

What's wrong with my ode to Ellen?  You think I was bad and don't deserve to enjoy her?!

THAT'S WHAT I WAS TALKING ABOUT.  What is this?  I don't have to listen.  I know you just did it for fun and if I didn't just say this you'd bother me more.

Ode

Ode to Ellen

Glory and Praise to Our God
Who Alone Gives Light to Our Day
Many Are the Blessings He Shares
With Those Who Trust in His Ways

We the Daughters and Sons of Him
Who Built The Valleys and Plains
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