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I want to make the walls all aqua and the edges .. and the furniture will be medium aqua or bright aqua. The walls will be a lighter aqua. My bed will be aqua. I will throw in some random coral, like maybe a pillow or something.

Saturday, January 4, 2014

Sorry

I was out eating and got upset, something may have crossed my mind.

Video

Renee Fleming

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Problem

You all are mean to me and want me to look Asian.

Problems

I will not put up with anyone attacking me because they think they have to because of the N word thing.

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM .. !?

STOP BEING MEAN TO ME AND AROUSING ME WHAT YOUR PROBLEM GET OUTTA MY LIFE

WHAT YOUR PROBLEM YOU UNDERSTAND

What's the fuss? Just forget it!! This is absolutely .. ?

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Website Update

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Future Plans|Career
•Main Career: Movie Actor + Fashion Model
•Other Career Pursuits
•Composer & Singer & Musician
•Internet Talk Show Timeline

Mistakes From My Dad

I know for a fact it's that people think they are more European to offset a certain stereotype and then claim it as the more norm.

Maybe

some people believe you shouldn't talk to older people EVER. I wanted to work with kids.. See, it just gets me acclaim.

Problems

Ellen thinks because of the N word thing she can say like I can't approach someone attractive like I never did anything to deserve it. I'm pretty smart. See, you don't care.

Wait, Ellen doesn't do that. Why do I put up with this, this *beep*?

Problem

My passwords look different.

Also

I noticed a break in my German song of "The Tide Is High." ':[

Problem

Why do people go crazy if I hit things? Go get a life!

My mom just came and I think it affected my future daughter! FIGURE IT OUT

Issue

I just got a karaoke machine from my aunt and put it in Spare Oom.

I know..

..I'll sell the full album of these 3 little songs for $0.99 or $0.99 each.

Finished!

3 short songs, gonna sell them on iTunes. I wonder how low you can go. Maybe the 1st 2 will be $0.49 and the 2nd 1 $0.99.

What if I came up to you and just basically said..

..my parents changed to be shit like your parents? That's the kinda thing I wanna discuss. How to actually put it.. like, my parents were just nice people, and now they're just mean. They act like it's funny to be in trouble and I didn't do anything. They don't say oh go to school or work or whatever or move outta the garage. They just have a certain attitude. Like, they don't keep their distance, never smile much in my presence unless it's @ something weird.

Isn't it funny, though, the thing @ shit?? I don't mean to apply it to everyone.. nor anyone in particular maybe. I don't know how families go off, but it's best not to make it any harder. Accept their kids for 1 and put them in the right track in life.

I was taunted.

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Problem

Ellen IS making people mad at me. How can I even forgive you? I didn't do anything..

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Problem

If I tell my mom what she did she can get me on more medicine! Stupid doctor!

Well..

..like they think they're all that with their forceful moms..

Well

The word just came to me. She won't stop. My parents had fat moms.

Mean

I get a bit upset, like the English, and my mom called Karen Carpenter a lesbian so I figured why not **** her bc .. I forget but it's true! It doesn't mean anything what that person says.

STOP

YOU DID IT TO HURT MY MOM

STOP

I don't wanna sit here and deal with injuries to my FUTURE KIDS - WTF R U - YOU COULD DO IT TO YOURSELF. I'M TIRED OF THIS. STOP TELLING ME I AM YOUR SHIT.

Food

I just made zesty chili with just vegan products - FINALLY - I do like mean, though. I got ingredients that were like hot or made for chili. Also, I have Asian food I like.

I feel..

..people are feeding me unwanted spam crap

STOP

MY MOM IS TRYING TO AFFECT MY FUTURE KIDS - WITH ASIAN WRAPPING? AND FROM ELLEN? STOP! LEAVE ELLEN ALONE!

Did you ever stop and appreciate how machines are made, like computers I guess?

They are playing a little game that I can't get mad. Also, like now I'm typing better, they might say hm.. and think of some exotic insult. Anyway.. I was upset and didn't really do anything but feel defiant, didn't insult anyone.. how am I gonna get back what I lost? I was stuck cleaning dishes! It wasn't right in the 1st place, at least.. I didn't do anything, but they think I did. They are monitoring what's in my head. I am a good person! Don't set me off the wrong track. Let's just see if we can start a conversation on all the bad things brought about by Charlie and the Chocolate Factory and Tim Burton, who I don't mean harm to. It was the other people he sometimes says, like in hidden messages or body language or tone of voice. It was the way people reacted to Tim Burton, like a bomb that just ticked off, like a lottery winner. Also, I don't imagine inflicting pain on others, but now they just said something wrong to me like maybe it was the right suggestion, with a little click. I like the clicks, but they are just being mean! I don't need them there. I thought it was going to be something special for me! This sucks! STOP YOU ARE BEING MEAN I ALREADY SAID THIS YOU RACIST

Problem

My future daughter is being ruined! I was thinking of something and my Gramma's weight came up. You weirdos, I don't even "want my weight to come up."

Why don't you just tell me?

You decided to ruin my life.

This is illegal. I can't talk to anyone. I guess other people do.

Measurement

I addded it to my website, too, I'm 158.0 pounds.

i want THE experience

If I talk to someone, I want the conversation to hit home..

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Friday, January 3, 2014

I got 2 self-help new books and 1 from 2010 on Florida supernatural activity. A little light to read, tabs, stuffed caterpillar bookmark @ $5.. A BN membership, saved $6.

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I just watched a movie, Paranormal Activity,' and there was a guy with a clipboard on the side behind me. I heard clicking in the theater, and I told the workers. There were a couple clicks when it was over. Ellen did something @ being affected in a "strange" way .. like the guy at the theater. STOP TALKING. Like if you talk a long time to someone. I had to be mean to people funning @ me for it. I hope I didn't hurt the girl with the young gramma. I don't want these weird tabboos. That's why I leave people.

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Good News

Started my song, have staff paper.. It's EXCELLENT looked up and know how to sell on YouTube.

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I wanna be famous myself.

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Dream

I pulled something like wooden string through like by my pointer finger right through.

Bought Let It Go from Frozen..

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Bought Keep Calm and Carry a Big Drink

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I am my own person. No one tells me what to do. I am usually pretty good, I'd wager. I wanted an outlet and think exercise is a quelling thing.

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I feel so punished. What can I dream @? I wonder what I lost, a peace of mind and opportunity to calm down? It was only yesterday.

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Problem

These adults around me listened to something someone older said that wasn't right. I don't want these people in my life, not to be a part of it. Not like every time something happens that happened at the same time.. It's not even worth talking to you|these people. YOU'RE JUST A MEAN ANIMAL GO AWAY STOP PICKING AT WHAT I SAID YOU DID WRONG CUZ YOU DID IT N STOP ASKING ME MORE STUPID QUESTIONS

Audition

http://disneyauditions.com/audition-calendar/

Hoop Dee Doo Musical Revue: Female Vocalists
For: Walt Disney World
Audition City: Orlando, FL
Location: Disney's Animal Kingdom Rehearsal Facility
Looking For: Singers Monday, January 13, 2014
02:00 PM
Time zone: Eastern Time (US & Canada)

Disney Parks Talent Casting is seeking youthful and energetic female principal vocalists who move very well for the Hoop Dee Doo Musical Revue, performing live at the Walt Disney World® Resort near Orlando, FL. The Hoop Dee Doo Musical Revue is an evening of old-time food, fun and song as a troupe of Civil War era traveling players barnstorm into Disney’s Fort Wilderness with silly skits, fancy footwork, and heart-warming song. Seeking performers for potential full time and part time roles.

Performers employed by the Walt Disney World® Resort are covered under the terms and conditions of a Collective Bargaining Agreement with Actors’ Equity Association.

Seeking the following roles:

Flora Long: Energetic and youthful actor, beautiful leading lady; sweet and petite; vocal soloist-soprano.

Claire DeLune: Energetic and youthful actor, Johnny's girl; she's adorable, lovable and flirtatious, full of life and best known for her outrageous "giggle." Singer who dances.

Dolly Drew: Energetic and youthful actor, the strong woman and "Annie Oakley" type. Vaudevillian style Comedian. Her mannerisms and style are less than demure. Character actor/comedienne

Always Making Fun of Me

OK I just got especially upset and my dad wouldn't stop, like he could transcommunicate anything.

Why do you keep getting at me for it? I'm over it!! You weren't there!

STOP

I'M BEING RUINED

YOU ARE ALWAYS MEAN TO ME QUIT IT WANT SOMETHING TO HAPPEN SO YOU CAN ULTIMATELY GET IT

It insults me..

..when I get these messages. What's wrong with my feeling stimulated and hitting and throwing things mildly? You wanna just kill me cuz I'm not perfect or because you never thought that meant anything? I've asked about this before, myself. I didn't go wild and out of my room. I just stomped on the floor and hurt my heel. Is this a special not perfect thing? I don't believe you cuz I mean people mistreat me.

What do you think?

Like, you can be famous and then make a new statement, what is the effect?

You all are so weird.. :|

I'm the 1 who wants all the right things, but you go off and say everyone else is good and you're all white and I'm different. I feel you think I'm some slimy roach. I'm not some perfect stainless steel robot, so I have to have some soft spots. I also don't have enough exercise things to do.

Problem

I don't feel like having a good day and can't turn off the m.. feeling.

BEEP

YOU DON'T HURT MY AUNT

Has..

..Ellen gone insane because I feel people who talk to me get a funny feeling? She is so mean and sarcastic. She won't get a life. I said it was a burden to watch her show cuz I ain't rich and peppy and healthy like her, it actually is fun but sometimes I just really don't wanna. I already said I might not make it each time. I labeled it on a the blog.

Problem

My dad also acted like something similar was okay just because I wanted to be my lesser favorite princess at Disney. WHY WON'T HE STOP IS MY DAD SHIT I WANTED A RELATIONSHIP

I can already see your nigger nose in my face wondering if I need to be disciplined but thinking my dad lets me curse cuz he does or would.

STOP

I GOT ANOTHER MESSAGE

STOP

JUST SHUT YOUR MOUTH

I GOT MORE SIGNS!! STOP!! IT'S M.. ME WHICH IS FATAL!

SEE

YOU WON'T STOP

You have no right to talk to me in private with clicks in my room and how you even load the computer all the time and say I did something wrong.

STOP

QUIT FOLLOWING ME

RIGHT NOW

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Problem

I noticed my computer is slow sometimes. I pounded my table a bit.

STOP

STOP ACTING LIKE I DID SOMETHING - GO AWAY - ARRGH

Wrote

I wrote some of my song. I need to get sheet music. Might have some. Cakewalk doesn't work.

Death

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Endocrine System:
The pituitary, thyroid and edrenal glands are grossly normal.

I probably got my tumor from m********ing. I heard a girl died from m*******ing and got cancer.

She had a small but normal heart.

So!

I feel an influx of shit when I am upset with Ellen DeGeneres.. she thinks she's always right and knows what she's doing.

Why did she die?

Karen Carpenter? Was it unexpected? The pills she took ended up killing her, anyone could figure that out.

My dad was purposely trying to annoy me and arouse|stimualte me, so I was going around hitting things.

I heard something. Those noises annoy me, too!

Stop making fun of me as I calm down. I didn't do anything. I was upset.

I'm tired of feeling like I'm muttering as I think. How do you know what I think? You're sick.

STOP

TELLING ME NOT TO CURSE

YOU ALL ARE TO LIKE ROT IN HELL BC YOU KNOW I FEEL BETTER JUST STOP IT YOU'RE BEING MEAN TO ME EVERY TIME I GET A NEW BLOG AND WON'T LEAVE I KNOW YOU'RE WATCHING

WHO DID THIS

NOW I HAVE TO WORRY @ WHEN MY DAD GETS BACK STOP PLAYING AROUND WHY CAN'T I IGNORE THIS SHIT

Ha Ha

Ellen, you're just a baby and don't want to amount to anything "more"
I hope you have not heard that too much before
You act like maybe you're too young to be my mom
You don't give a fuck @ where anyone is from
You're too old to be a youngster like me
Why don't you get up go away and flee
Your sin is saying I'm a big fat troll
Acting like I'm just someone's pimple or mole
My regards and apoligies before I say adieu
I don't think this poem was also just for you

I feel

used.

I was trying

NOT TO CURSE

I WANT MY PRIVACY

*BEEP*

Why don't you go

stimulate yourself? I heard that sorta shit gives you cancer.

Also, I just slammed my heel that own't heal very hard!

My Problem

Not that most of you care, but I don't let people touch me, like get too close to me, like people I don't like or who dont' seem right ugh I'm bleeding on my left ring finger joint! It stings! 3(

Ugh

They were just in mah face! (my face) Stop acting all triumphant and get yo ass out!

Problem

You all are sinners. You get your energy and I am stuck in my room with you following me.

I could feel stuff in my brain after being hit, more sensitive than when I was doing gymnastics on Monday.

STOP

GET THAT *BEEP* OUT - THEY KEEP TALKING TO ME AND I HIT MY TABLE

You know I'm being followed?

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Stupid

You can't tell people to be mean to me and make me feel fat!

Who's responsible?

My parents used to never bite at me when I wasn't feeling well over and over! Also, you all are so mean to me when I am so nice!

Problem

Stop bothering me just because I got a new blog!

My dad is sending me secret messages and I hit my head with some clothes really hard by accident. I hope I'm okay and know I am cuz I fell on my head on purpose at gymnastics. It's like boxing. He's infusing stupid messages in my atmosphere, a loser like all the kids out there who do tacky things to annoy you and make you feel guilty.