No Hard Feelings

I'm not spazzing.  I simply noticed my dad's technical unyielding wishes.

The Points

He hangs his head in possession over me and racially like I've made a statement is bad cuz I'm not white.  I disagree and would talk to the police about this.

This is worse than the Middle East cuz there everyone is the same race at least.  They aren't below Asians, neither, now.

Trapped Feelings

Yes, you are in my business.  My dad needs to know I am not a part of his life, the way he hangs his head over my declaration to be treated white.  I'm not for him to wrap and cage up.  What if you were stuck with someone you could not get along with? or who kept you?  He seems to respect people outside of his family and won't accept me racially in my desires in the world.

Cheating on Me

If it wasn't too late, I could have relaxed for once.  If it was, my butt'd be OUTTA HE'E!

"There's a place for everything and

and everything in its desired place in time."

Using Me

I wasn't put here to stay.

Ehehehehehehehehehehehe

Ellen looks at the world.  She says it's about losers born later than me who like a little boogy.  So that's why we dance.  It's a way of controlling us and say you're leading us.  It didn't mean anything it could've.  It's the one man band!  She dances, and the world turns.  I do want something special for her.  She is precious.  It's funny.  Watching her every day she gets predictable in her dance moves.  We're just sheep.  Our talents do not make it.  Do not sit there and tell me a dancer has never been in her audience.  It's like holding a bone over our head.

Edit

I reorganized my Tags.

Covering Up?

Ladies in Hollywood in their 30s and 40s are being ridiculed for wearing revealing clothes, maybe by a fashion expert or designer/s.  It had long sleeves but holes throughout.  They said to "leave a little mystery in life."  BUT- I see Bella Thorne always dressed like that.  She's about 18 I think.  She's also a symbol for innocence in a sea of supposed (untrue) guilt.  I think also that Hollywood does not know what to do.  They need something to believe in and know what's for them and sadly "what's" not.  I wouldn't say I was impolite.  I just did some things I didn't know others "knew" were wrong.  In a way I knew it wouldn't help in a way.  People are criminally shutting down my life, tho.  Why did you all say it's time to be more flexible or casual/laid back?  I can just hear/see the rush.  I can almost count the years.  I never tried to hurt anyone nor hinder their life.  I never started a fight.

Dishonesty

People who go by what you see must lack something in their depth.  They are afraid to spill the beans.  I just come and say what seems right or popular.  I'm not worried about hiding anything other than this.

Not Sure, Tired

Not sure I should watch the week of Ellen's favorite moments in past shows.  It was a little weird.

Race

Black/White/Asian

Native American indians are Asian.  Actually, they are also black.  It's Australoid.

New Audio of Me Singing

TV

On The Ellen DeGeneres Show today, I enjoyed watching her favorite moments.  She is such a sweet, kind lady.  I'd hate for something bad to happen, something affecting her.

Out of the moments, I really liked "Funk You Up.."

..I guess with Bruno Mars saying the "Funk You Up" part with all the black people supporting him was funny.  It made him look interesting.  He looks really good.  It's interesting he got so popular.  It's hard.  Some people can't just press a button sometimes.  We get old, and life passes us by.

Stereotypes

I guess people who are dark and shy and not Asian/Middle Eastern are considered "different."

Adults

Adults are worthless cuz they are only there to punish you as adults but otherwise behave as uncontrollable brats.  The thing is it's just a robotic distribution of false guilt.  Some just wanna be popular or aren't made of anything else.  I don't mean to call anyone specific worthless.  It's a worthless cause.

New Audios of Me Singing

Complex Decisions

Don't you hate when people say every little thing counts and there's too many things tugging at you?

Invaded

Why am I being affected by my parents at any possible moment?

And I did good in school so deserve anything I want.

Feeling Bad

I feel like my dad treats me like "OK, Christina is a possession of mine."  Like I did something to deserve it.  He won't stop.  This is pretty much illegal.  You wanna be treated like that..  Why do I feel I am being laughed at significantly?

Crazy

People think I can't make a CD cuz too many people without vocal training would.  That's kinda what we want.

Secret Hatred

It seems someone has gotten away with making people feel bad and then getting them in trouble for it, for them hurting their feelings and their inner reaction, like it matters.  You think this has been justified, but it's secret hatred.

Lies

If something makes someone unhappy, they will blame me, too, not just someone else.  They think they did it and I'm someone I'm not.

Ruined Reputations

I've seen more than 1 person make a fool of themselves because of a certain famous person, not trying to make a statement but noticed.  1 person is now on the IMDb Soapbox.  The other is an actress.

Weird Decisions

2 celebs seem to have married in spite of me, anyone would say, tho I don't wish to make a statement of it.  They are the hugest celebs in the world.  ..But, just to say I did something and they want nothing to do with me like as a person.  It might be untrue, tho, but it seems like it, too.  Just saying.  Don't make a statement of it.  Some people might be interested, other people.

Feeling Lazy on Psychotic Meds

I also have cholesterol and diabetes pills.

I can't work nor am I functioning in school.  I might take private voice lessons, tho.  My mom cooks, and I help with the cleaning.  I have this 1 dish I like, tho, I've made a few times in the past.  Beef bourguinon (sp?)  It's beef with noodles, wine, mushrooms, bacon..

Evil

My brother thinks good things are bad because it means I get it and he doesn't.  It seems I've gotten into a lotta trouble unfairly.

Convenience

They don't want people treating me like their sweetheart.  It's because they think I deserve to be punished.  They are coocoo.

What a Laughing Stock!

I worry about certain people but who cares in another way.  A ha ha ha.  One of them gets mad if one "does something sacrificial" for me.  They don't realize that they'd do something like that anyway.  They don't care if others sacrifice for them.  They would never hurt themselves.  Those other people are the ones that hurt them.  Also, while you're at it, forget the saints and cancel all religions.

TV

I just watched The Ellen DeGeneres Show.  It was mostly rerun clips.

I mostly liked the African American lady and her daughter who danced.  It's people like her mom who seem to be above me racially, a beautiful lady from back in the day with an adorable daughter.

The little boy from Pennsylvania who hates L.A. pizza was cute.  The girl who knew about Presidents was also darling.  The little ethnic boy who liked Bruno Mars was very nice.

cont.

Late Boomers's kids are comfortable with Dad.  I've seen it.  It's their time to shine.  They're also not too late to make it.

I didn't see it justified.

..that you can act like a brat and get all the welcome attention you want while we just sit here and suffer, Late Boomers and their comfortable kids, not my fault if they resemble the Leaning Tower of Piza.  It looks like the crime has been enforced..

With Immature People

Why?

You go straight for what you shouldn't be thinking, "rub it in," and make it so I will never have a chance at something others do and for what reason do only others?

1 Chance

I feel I am too old to make it online, like I got one shot and it was g**.  I was 21.  I am 29.

I just came online to talk and forgot about getting a blog for some reason.  I was on message boards where hardly anyone liked me.  I didn't have a thing going.  Maybe, it just took what it took.  I had problems eating with family and got on psychotic meds, too.  I slept more and am not myself.  My mom won't let me stop, but I am not required to take them.  I told my parents that they send me mean secret messages, but they ended up threatening to throw me out!  I'm not the one who wanted to quit school!  I did sorta to be with my parents, tho, is all.  If independence is another issue, then I guess it is now.  Maybe, I was too young before.

School is cool.

If you have school, you have been loved..

What..

What would have happened to me if I was on dance team?  Would someone ruin it?

A "Case"

I am just a "case" to most people because I can't do anything I want to do.  I want to dance AND sing.  I have no car and can't drive much here!

"Tis tis tis"

Just always in a stupor over girls who either have dark hair older or who had darker hair younger.

"Kids Today"

These days, they will feature kids doing more acrobatic dance like of course, but with me, my parents or I would be stared down.  I wanted to sing, too.

Do you know people..

..who don't tell you when you have to stop doing something or else they won't be your friend?

Do you know people..

Do you know people look for every little thing you do to make up a politically popular excuse for you being wrong/bad?

"Now, you're telling me!"

Did anyone ever tell you that you won't have friends only if your hair is black/dark brown..?

Prejudices

Full House, Olsen twins.

People will make fun of any white person who has that slick look if they are born our time, which is 1986.   They think we're little bugs.  They are just wild and crazy period about being obnoxious or highty tighty, ugh!  We should all just look as European as possible.  They just don't care.

Age-ism

I'm not saying you gotta be weird, but isn't it age-ist to say I'm waiting for the girl born in 1997-1998?  Sometimes, it doesn't work that way.

What now?

How violently in private do people think L.A. has it over people who are very European from other places in the US?  Maybe in L.A. they made it, but they still seem to have made it thru time.

Racists

People who only find something to waste their time talking about with other people just want to waste their breath telling me I’m not white because they are ashamed they themselves have problems racially, like they’re hair is brown or something.  I was watching it on Full House, and I just felt I was being pushed to “not even try” to look white if I listened to her intently at all.  What can you do to avoid a fight?  Is this what divides us all to make a select group content?  The ones who don't need to fight stay happy.  We can't seem to fix anything for the people in the middle, the ones who are ethnically not Caucasoid but look whiter than others who are not Caucasoid.  They hold up the racial "middle class" just to make the lower class happy, while the upper class stays as it is lazily or gets better naturally.  When I go out, I'm not gonna accept anyone pushing me away from anyone for race.  I don't hurt anyone racially, tho, I mean, if you wanna try and do that to me.  I can say what I want, too, and know what I mean and not have someone fight me, not debate, fight.  Fighting sometimes has no reason.  Debate should.  I'm just saying!  I was kinda joking around.  But yea something like that.

Eating - Important

I chugged down a plate of shrimp after supper, and I feel I pumped in fuel of brain power.  xp  Whoops, it just went down again.

Saving Up

Allowance.. for a real computer!

I just got a Google Chromebook.

It wasn't much money!  :D

Hair

Does short hair make you look like an adult?

Movie

They need a new ET with me as the eldest child.

Boy!

Things sure have changed for the Late Boomers's kids.

Nice Kids

It's nice to see kids have fun in a movie.

Nice Moments

Nice moments from the 80s, no existing to be in trouble for existing.  I want to delve into this, but the world is so against that.

I might be unable to do it.  Maybe, I should appreciate the 2010s.

Radar

There was a cute blonde young lady in the background part.

ET

It is cool, but it seems like a side show for little boys to watch who have nothing to do.  Bye bye 80s.

Irish

They are not a lost cause.  There are meager boys and lotsa hot girls.

I was thinking of rivalry among silly Americans, different kinds of heritage from Ireland, all uptight.

I had this fantasy that the Irish were hopeless to being as particular as their English cousins.  America speaks English.  The English conquered a lot linguistically.  No one seems to like the Irish.

Generations

Is Early Boom and Generation X social slaves?

The Joke Goes Both Ways

You'd say a Late Boomer is worth more than a Generation X because they were there successfully 1st, but I know people'd say "make one" to a Generation X concerning children of Late Boomers as Generation Z.  So, you can change the fact and say when it means certain people it's about how young you are and others it's about how old?

Me Singing

Ellen

I'm glad I got to catch up with today so far.

The 2 people playing the game at the beginning looked cool to me.  They were so happy to be there.  They were both brunettes, kinda big.

Howie Mandel was beyond funny.  He did some jigging on the show and sat there in humor with Ellen at the audience!  I didn't catch all that was happening.

Lonnie Love? was nice, too.  She was in fairy school and was a fairy for little kids's party.  She was so funny!

The couple at the end had a nice new house interior design.  It was so nice.  I'm glad they like it so much.  It was inspirational, esp. the little purple room..

I think Ellen is a great person.  Everyone has their ups and downs, but in the end you just gotta have a "good" time..  (I know life throws things at you and for some things happening on their lives have happened.  Some things maybe can't be thought out and are indeed H***.  That's a life lesson learned.  Social situations aren't really that complicated these days.)

Messed Up

Exhibit A seems sloppier with their kid/s yet does not get as beat for it as someone who is doing mostly what they are supposed to on some level yet gets people angry at them for the weirdness of the end result partly.

Also, they flop around the identity of their child, like, "Oh 'wife' you did such and such and that means our child did it, too."  It doesn't.

Unaccepted

Even in Facebook fanpages, people judge you by if you went online or to a certain site soon enough.

Cheaters

You know how people act so weird and letting it lose in public like only they mean anything?  Well, then, they see someone strict and such like Ellen and say it was all that.  What liars!  Where's our chance?  What happened?

So

Are people only mean to me cuz my dad threatens to hurt me if they aren't?  He needs to be taken away from me by the police, and I'd need money to take care of myself.

Ellen

I think the reason we like to go online to normal people is cuz we know or thought we knew that they wouldn't get us into trouble.  It gives us a sense of relaxation.  I feel so in trouble with some people.

It is rewarding to also see Ellen.

The beginning Epic or Fail, seems redundant recurring on the show but an interesting idea to get together.  I got at least 1/2 right as Fail.  Most or all seemed to be Fail, and I don't remember guessing Epic.

The lady who did comedy was funny.  She had a dark ponytail.  She seemed genuinely friendly yet a bit aloofly insulting.

I think everyone liked the dancer from the Ukraine.  He was tall and good-looking with a long nose with fair, light brown hair.  He did a ballet dance in a naked costume.

It was nice to see Ellen's #1 college fan.  She did well in the game.  I could have put 10 layers of clothing on faster and knew the name of Ellen's dancer faster after her hint.

So, about what I said at 1st, when we go online we just feel so open and settled and safer than how I usually feel around people I know and also insulting famous people.  Ellen is a good girl, tho, but sometimes she does what most talk show hosts do, go into this strange established way of doing negative comedy.  I mean, I go to a restaurant and the losers there are fine with me.  I used to be considered all that, and now when I try to meet someone prestigious people lose it.

Website Update

I had updated the Problems site to delete the 1st page.

Annie (1999)

I watched this whole thing to see a little girl sing "Tomorrow" in red curls and that never happens.  I don't remember the other 2.  There is another Annie sequel tho I don't feel like alotting my money to that.

What I'm up To

I just bought a fox and the Amazon Instant Video Annie (1999.)

Welcome!

Welcome to my Blogspot!

Hurt Races

What if it hurts someone of a non-white/Middle Eastern race to be praised to feel special but not if it's someone whose white?

Me at Your Age

I didn't suddenly become trash because a few years went by.

Connections

You might know a lot, but apparently you aren't the one who is really connected.  If you have a problem with your own kids not seeming how you want, it's not gonna be "because of me."  I'm not talking about anyone specific.  Also, I meant you might have imagined having a lotta friends, but if you are being silly saying it's all about one person you don't even tie with, then that makes no sense.

The Source of the Problem

It should not take forever to get to.

You'll find in the end I am agreeable.  Unless, you just don't want anyone there.

Your Answer?

A drooling, dull, "I dunno.."  You judge people for who they are, not with an intent to be mean.

Mean

Why do you think something is so important and I didn't really say anything that bad?.. like important for someone who doesn't really care?  Music people have something in common, too.  Why not just group brains into blondes and brunettes, then?  I think you've lost it.  I'm not trying to ruin anything.  I don't sit there like a doll content with my social situation, tho.  I just wanted to point out something interesting.

Outspoken

Can you people or music people be so "***" as to come into my house just to tell me not to ever be able to come to you, like something's up?  This is too funny!

..And I see people just lighting up to do something against me with no "brains" in it, like it's just popular.  If that were popular, something would be wrong.  It doesn't seem completely popular like you think, if you have an interest in good, clean people, normal people..

I'm not trying to point out a specific person/people.

Annie

The girl was a year younger than me and from where I moved the year before, 1998.  The girl who played Dorothy in the Wizard of Oz I met a year before.  She lost some weight or looked shorter, too.  She was a year younger and had dark straight hair and maybe blue eyes.  Courtney Cole.  She moved to Tennessee.  She didn't seem to think she was so comfortable with acting strangely when she went to an arts school later.  I think she might have said it or put on that front.  I mean, I think she was a great actor.  Maybe, it was too much for her.  She starred in St. Louis, too.  She is a singer now.  She must regret not singing as much as she could have..  Here is her website.  You know, I feel my own comfort with things got studded, as well, the more I played myself out.

Regrets

School s***ed so much, I now wish I became a child star but didn't have dark hair.

What will happen if..

..whites want to say mixed race people are inferior to full minorities?

Strange

It seems I can't do anything about my problems with others.  They won't leave me alone unless I put on earplugs.

Feelings

Why do you keep making it a statement that someone supposedly has certain feelings?

Sizes of Noses

How does having a smaller nose make one more complex than someone with a larger nose?  You think the larger nose cheats?  Maybe, smaller noses are messed up, tho.

Full Asians and Part Asians

Asians want to fight other Asians down from making it racially.

No, being mixed with white is not less white than full Asian..

New Website Pages

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Even..

..me trying to connect with red hair myself seems to be a futile, unwanted attempt for no connected reason.

In Your Family

Who seems to be the princess/prince?

You should stop being the one to fight with me.

It's about stuff that normally does not matter.

"The 80s??"

So your cheap answer is everyone loses cuz some people aren't white and just they lose as a false answer of hope?

"Soul Sister?"

Who ever said that about anything?

"My True Feelings"

I might say something on the outside, but I am not really happy about right now 2 people having the same hair color when I am pushed aside as having nothing in common because of it and other situations.

Blase

The relations between England and places like Finland are not really a win-win situation.

Fed Up!

I'm fed up with stupidity.

Your rules make no sense.  When you come to a conflict, it just says I'm wrong and deserve to be hurt by default.

Boring

All this is about nothing.  Nothing you all do is ever important.

YOU DON'T REALIZE IT..

You are always mean to me now.  When you started talking to me in private I said no but you still did it but you were nice.  You can't do this!

Freedom of Speech

It seems that's all you have.

Pathetic

You're creating weird fantasies to weird extremes about weird things, as though you've got nothing anyway in any way..

Apparently, they were right, something about you is "flawed" or rather not perfect..

I'm not the one making up weird things about myself!  You can mention it, but I didn't think you'd want to.

I just meant day in and out things sure have come out differently than I would have expected things to before, like I'm trapped.

Insane

Why am I getting vicious messages about someone else getting all and me being threatened like I did something or would be foolish as a suggestion and no one else?

TV

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

The 2 girls playing the game where they go across the spinning circles to fetch to object to bring back was neat.  The yoga instructor had an easy time, but the blonde didn't.

Allison Janney was really cool.  She looks good and has a good personality, is very smart.

The girl who Ellen saw dancing who came back was really sweet, a nice African American girl.  She played a few games and won $10,000, which was really nice!

The racecar driver was very cute.  I liked his young daughters, as well.  It was interesting a driver he was associated with had kids at the same school together.

Ellen sure is a sign of hope in the light, a torch to modern ways, as well.

Positivity These Days

Kids at school these days are told to be positive, but if I am positive I am told I am making good out of bad in a bad way.  This could be because kids can still be good movie stars, in that it's not too late for them.  It could also be just trying to get at people like me and still making it.