Thursday, March 5, 2015

New Photos of Me

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Me being in trouble makes me find more of the fault in you.

Dr. Phil - Facebook

I've had people who don't know what they are doing or are bad tell me "what" "really happened" when it didn't happen like that, at all.  They know they are wrong, but they just keep at me.  Before, my parents respected me from a distance, in a way, like it was important and fit, but now they are able to be invovled via secret cameras in my room wherein other people must watch.  So, people keep distorting what reality is.  I've felt out of touch with people for 10 years since this experiment on my life began to take form for me.

I do not much find use for "forgiveness" when I think something someone did was wrong.  They think they are all forgiven "in the process," but I don't have to accept that they keep thinking it's right.  It almost sounds like the unforgiveable sin, to forsake the Lord God.

I dunno about what was really affecting my mind to me, but I would say a lotta poor people in Orlando are guilty of this and with racism, unfairness like a life don't count.  You could be George Washington, and no one would care cuza raical tension.  Like with me being the scapegoat.

Good advice, I clicked thru some of the links.  :)
OK, I just read probably an important secret message.  Even though you messed up on someone, does not mean everyone has to listen to you to make things right insofar as something was not for them.
People think I will do "something else" wrong.

College

maybe just general studies for now?  :(

Each class is over 3 hours twice a week or online.
I'm just a girl in a bubble.
If me being good doesn't matter, nothing will.

Robin McGraw

or someone on top of Phil

I see him slipping on the show.  It's his show.  So, what I mean is I've caught him tossing aside being nice, like people who seem to agree with me sometimes, like an outlet and on screen.  I don't mean to make a monster of it.  I'm just saying.  It might just be a time to go with the flow, but I think it's important.  I'm not always wrong.

..Is anyone even out there?

Dr. Phil - Facebook

That's a good question.  I think the mom is in trouble.  I don't know what the daughter wants, maybe just wanted to be on the show.  :)  I have the same concerns about my Gramma.  Before things got crazy, she was always very respectful to me.  Now, she has marred my body in a way 3 times.

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It sounds typical.  I'd kiss my mom goodbye. :) I hope she gets her relationship back.

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I used to wonder about my body in concerning taking both piano and the instrument organ lessons, but it's better than sitting around and doing nothing.  One little slip, and I could lose it all.  Pianist and organists tend to embody a lotta spirit, I must admit tho.  In general, it makes me wonder because I found that maybe musicians need more relaxation than normal people for some reason.  Musicians/singers and dancers can also seem to die young, to most people's surprise.  :(  A good topic in psychiatry or synesthesia/kinesthesia.

Exercise

almost 10 minutes a section of Killer Abs

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New Public Tag - Judge Judy
I was being nice.  People come on and keep getting at me for the past.  If you try to annoy me and give me problems with words coming to mind from you, I'm not gonna be angellic in the head by observation for sure.
watching Judge Judy and posting on IMDb - The Soapbox

Posting on IMDb the Soapbox

and with Ellen on

couldn't be happier
Why are these mean people telling us about ourselves when nothing's there?  Like, they act like they are so good cuz they are famous actresses.  In the end, the part of them that's not so good is the part they left for us!

he he he

Someone thought respecting me was a thing to copy and now it's catching on I don't care anymore.
Mean girl on Ellen who doesn't seem to get she's not looking in a mirror.
OK I don't care if you did it cuz I don't care anyway and I know someone else did it, too.

It's none of your business if what equals this is negative to you.  That's not what I meant.  There could be another meaning.  (!)
Wow, I don't care why you have a problem, you just have one.
Your relationship wasn't exactly a match made in Heaven, neither.
Why do you keep telling me other people are better?

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My last post posted before I could untag it.
Why do you need me to have said bad things about what you did to make fun of me?
Looks like Ellen really came out of the bushes.
So, what's so peculiar about Ellen?
THIS IS NOT OK

I SAID I THOUGHT OF TAKING MY LIFE
You are not the spitting image of Ellen DeGeneres.
See, you are uncomfortable about feeling.
Is this even cool?
Quit being uptight for Ellen.
Goofing off on Ellen again.
I know I'm a waste of time to "save."

Let's have fun by doing.

Why do you love so-and-so?  Is it so you don't have to love someone else?

IMDb - The Soapbox

Any Tips for My Mom?

I think it's been too much stress from others on her. The only thing she did wrong was try to block me from any Caucasian pleasure in the world.

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Re: Any Tips for My Mom?

lol "caucasian pleasure" what's that white dick?
Don't feel bad my mom tried to block me from all black hispanic and asian pleasure. For my 17th birthday she gave me Mein Kampf.

Re: Any Tips for My Mom?

I dunno, cool about your mom.

I just feel that I am not my parents. I get a little from like my dad's mom, for instance, but I never "got" to know his dad nor his dad's side..

🌈 ðŸŽ¶
I can have more than 2 parents.
Why doesn't what I say mean anything?  Ask someone else online to stick up to the bullies somehow.
Look, whose blog is this, yours or mine?

IMDb - The Soapbox

Any Tips for My Mom?

I think it's been too much stress from others on her. The only thing she did wrong was try to block me from any Caucasian pleasure in the world. 
Are you really there just to tell me something I already know?  Is that as far as it gets??

And why do you see the world thru glasses of sarcasm?  I don't need more problems for what you guess my tone of voice is.

cont. :)

Oh. My.

cont.

..Why?

cont.

How?  When?  Did what?

Song Lyrics

Save.. me.. lead me from my solitude


Who?  What?
So, who all did anyone have to move on to?
Wow, special Christina needs a lesson.  She must be stuck up.  She even took it  upon herself to say to not confine my relationships to being watched in my room in 2005.  Hate to burst your bubble.

Wednesday, March 4, 2015

My dad started being a whipper of me to be more than perfect, like no one thought I was.
I'm trying to be nice, but sometimes all I can see is attacks.  I don't outright say anything.  I hate people who overly analyze feelings and never let you experience them.
STOP HURTING MY FAMILY
My dad seems to fight in his own way about my wanting to temper the traits I get from my mom.

Lies

You don't care about what I say, but it hurts you.  That means you're snide-
For some weird reason I just coughed up some of my water.
People have roped off relationships and lied about my nature as being bad and done something that wasn't perfect mattering.

Dr. Phil - Facebook

She should be able to see the baby if she sees the parents.

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It happens a lot in this crazy world.

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I do take ownership of my decisions, but I don't dwell on them.

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I'm not a child.  I've been this mature since I was about 12.

I'll never have to reunite with any loved ones.  I came home and gave them a chance.  It's not to have sex..

I don't even trust any loved ones coming new into my life.  Now, beat that.  It's just me and my imagination/God, now.  You all, you get a chance from me.

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I think it's in the spirit of things to be suspicious of a couple who shields a baby from them.  You don't need to think too long to know what goes on behind the curtains.

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Does your mom make you feel ugly? http://bit.ly/DrPMomPlug
Wow, what a topic of discussing! Is this for people in post-menapause? :)

Know someone with a BIG ego who needs to be put in check. http://bit.ly/DrPBigEgo
No, no one wants people who need to be put in check to be put in check.

Want Dr. Phil’s help solving an ongoing debate? http://bit.ly/DrPSolveDebate
I don't want anyone's help.

Is your ex stalking you?
http://bit.ly/DrPStalkerEx
Whose ex, theirs or mine?

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Everyone wants to win but doesn't out in the time to fit the crime.
There's no coming in someone's life and saying oh I'm this compared to you and a parent and I'm that and it has to be bad in this way.

Problem

They are slowly taking everything from my life like it was perverted.
You know when someone has had more than their fill.
Gotcha.  You always drop in and have something to say.
I don't need to talk stupid stuff.
People did not just fairly give more than one person attention.  They - whoops I forgot the secret to what's my problem .. anyway?  Don't worry, it wasn't so bad.  It was actually not the usual usual.. it might have been good to others.

But anyway I solved it.  My writing ain't chicken s***.
I feel like I'm completing my high school education.  After that, I'm free!

My New College

Each class is twice a week and over 3 hours long.  At least for 1/2 semester of science and 1 semester of math.

That'll be the summer.  Spring B I might be in 2 classes online.  2 is the minimum for financial aid.
Paying my way adding classes in psychology of education.
Facebook is as important as my car which I don't have.

Dr. Phil - Facebook


I think he's just tired.

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He's just tired.

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We need to think of the cause, like the Middle East did for us about why they wanted war.  It was sad.

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A lot of girls and guys play hard-to-get.  It's just "a thing."  My dad always said that people are mean to you because they like you and to get attention.  That as a protocol is like sliced bread with I Can't Believe It's Not Butter.

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(gift card)

It's nice that those come about, makes me smile.

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Most males have "hungry eyes" for their partner.  They need to know it's not their fault and that marriage is an excluding practice, only it's also useful for child rearing.

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People need to learn to make changes without being embarrassed.  This is a big thing these days.

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:)  How theraputic!

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It must be necessary or something must be for change, seeing as she put herself thru thinking this.

Tuesday, March 3, 2015

New Audios of Me Singing



New Submission to Dr. Phil

link

New Virtual Makeover of Me

So I can go to bed the right way, sorry if anyone innocent was hurt tonight.  See you later..

Really, sorry.. I am not perfect in my thoughts and skills but try to get better by trying.  I want to solve if I do anything that bothers people-so nite.
Maybe that's why you still go to church.
You sure don't know anything about Jesus.
I hope you truly find your happiness in the clothes you chose to wear.

Do you think..

..I am spoiled earning attention when you're the one who's famous?  This is getting a bit uptight.  I don't wanna see my parents sometimes.

Monday, March 2, 2015

Emergencies happen with those you love.

Boy

You think you're better cuz you're famous..
We're all on our own ticking clock and always have been-

I knew as a baby what younger babies's dreams would be.  I had that look that they make the peak of their maturity when I was an infant/baby.
Are you telling me you'd rather look more Oriental Asian?

OK, this isn't for everyone..

Why have someone give their life and follow me and rub in that they're closer than me to anyone I like, whereas we'd be smooth sailing without them?  I wouldn't really get close like that, anyway, I hope.  Do you know what I'm saying?  The only problem is that anger against me was involved 1st.  I don't want my fortress for counteractions to fall, so-to-speak.
A relationship is important compared to other things.  That that relationship is safe is the other..

Mrs. McGraw, help!

I think Dr. Phil is mad at me, but I love the show!  What did I do?  How do I fix my problems?
Why would you be nicer to bad people?

Dr. Phil - Facebook

If I got on the show, we'd be discussing the psychology of how I feel about 18 and out.
I thought you was a Christian.

Do you believe at all in .. solitary confinement?
Ousting me is not the one answer to all your problems.  There's always room for all who want and were something.

Facebook

Looks like a happy family. I wonder why you didn't like Florida yet still live here. I tried to move to Miami, but I have to be more self-sufficient. I made a home here for 10 years, but in other ways I find it vicious. It might be a money thing. Anyway, nice pictures. Thank you so much fof sharing!  [speedboat]
Can you explain why my actions are not genuine conveniently cuz you found my race????

So..

..it's fine if you slowly slide me off the cake knife.

Not that I think you should wait if that's how it is.  I dunno.
You just don't like me.  I get in trouble so easily.

When I say you don't like me, I mean 1 thing, that I'm not good enough, not some weird reason like maybe "I don't get any attention"/enough attention.
OK I wanna know why things aren't like before?  I want a fair shot..
Sounds like something you'd say.
I just thought the topic was something you'd wanna talk about yourself, so you can thank me in making the decision.
I guess we all smile at others's misfortunes.  What an inappropriate related issue.
I want you to be on top, else I have nothing to make fun of.
That wearing glasses and beards and stomachaches is an insult to me.
So why am I threatened to lose my relationships?
So can you forgive a mishap?

Tho I did get really angry?  WHY DO POEPLE DO THAT NOW!!!!

We say goodbye

every day.

Why am I always the scapegoat

when it comes to race?

Being Pretty

I make a lotta efforts to look white, while others do nothing.

Now that

last post is something we all need to live by.  I can see people both smiling and crying for me.  Now, imagine yours.

Are you such a baby that you need me to do it for you?  Notice how my life really does not go any deeper than that in any way.  It might go deep like yours in some ways.  Bad news is everyone has individual strengths.