Friday, January 24, 2014

I think..

..they whoever they is.. believed that like things like the school is a living thing, community theater .. is a living thing .. well, we never said to make your hair dark and get piercings and move somewhere you don't really like at all

Girl in PLay

So, she was Dorothy but then she went off to NOCCA|Riverfront..

Now, she's in Tennessee.  Nashvilee fits her, but what about the real Saint Louis?

She would not talk to me.. I think her hair also got darker..

Another boy changed, too, looks older, was at our high school 1 year when his friend died.

I never wanted that for them, they deserve something but so would technically I someday, though that's not really that important in this position.

Problems Add Up..

..Do you wanna shudder @ living in Fort Lauderdale area since you were little and when you've never lived there again ) ) )

Messed Up

My rowdy self-indulged in a good way cousin has lived in the family area of Florida all but 1 year of her life and when going off.  It is by Miami..  You can visit the beach.

So, my family is also messed up..

Clammy

So, I've withdrawn like a clam and love livin' in O-Town~

LIKE "OMYGOD"..

I like the little boy from Pirates of the Caribbean from California.  I like the big men I saw with Burton who must eat lots of tacos and talk a lot..  I love that little girl they put in "The Brady Bunch }:]"

Otherwise, I've grown to hate California cuz all the adults I look up to from there are like ^and the club goes bump goes bump^ - probob is I also have beachy heritage in my lifetime but not claimed 1st, more like a visitin' lyfe!

Born and Bred in the Sout'

Naow, naow.

Tim Burton and Richard Carpenter mirror images..  What is so amazing about the fact that you see that you check your Facebook?  I bet lots of beady-eyed celebs actually do this..  I'm just saying it clicks with me as something private.  Ah'm bred in their crops.

Oh, and no offense- *doors close!* my orders!

Thursday, January 23, 2014

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What if I did ballet and gymnastics? That's for the reeally quiet type!

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Doesn't the fate of the ^19-year-olds^ rest on you so I can go @ this life?

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Well

I admit I'm fat, but do you have to blame me or was it meant to be that way?

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Well, I just saw some nice bigger girls come out.



I also realized right away the experiment against me performing.

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Everyone @ Disney knows I have "it."

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Shouldn't ballet dancers have tendered grayish honey hair??

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What color should my hair be and what should a gymnast appear to be? I also love ballet, dancing to music. I'd rather not be fat. I wanna be athletic and not do soccer professionally. I respect its offerings but everything is too much.. I like playing sports with friends I don't have.

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I'm dead, anyway!!

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Is it gay to ice skate today? It is for up to age 18-ish.. I got scared of gymnastics after from 1 3/4 to turning 9. What have you found out?? That's what I picked up..

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Question

Does Ellen want prestige for herself or someone else-



And what of the fact of how I didn't make it but am better off attractively, no offense to any one..

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It appears your secret wish to disclude me had to come true, just disclude me.

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So, life is @ the right to think @ something professionally and be talented privately/personally. Why do you support the Mother of God freaks of nature? LOL



I obviously like to just lower myself in life and have fun like minimum wage workers.

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So, how is Tinkerbell @ Disney World/Land a dancing-interest role.. What @ multi-talented people who did not compete at a dance school?? I just did some ballet I could take.

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It's funny when people judge you by popularity and worth without talking to you. You know there is no such thing. Life is intellectual. I know I made sacrifices for others's mistakes.

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They got serious dainty, thin and short girls.

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I kept acting like I didn't wanna make it.

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If a bad and good person say or do the same bad thing, I would put the hatred on the bad 1 more. Most people are the opposite.

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Auditions

I wasn't quite able to make it. My face is too fat.

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Morning

Too Old

Ellen is to old to administer *** to me-  =}

Just Watched a Show

Campus Police Department, 1 in Indiana PA, looks just like Dad!

Wednesday, January 22, 2014

Up Still

I listened to Richard Carpenter's interview again.  He seems like a nice man.  I didn't get all of what was said, which gets me in trouble, but it was a pleasant listen..

I ~ want ~ more!

It would be nice to have more to listen to like of Mindi Carpenter..
TV Forum

Watcha Know??

Do you know @ being taken care of cuz of havin a young mom?  I was in bed and got up..

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TV

I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Lonnie Love?  She was so cool!  The lady who was older but looked young was so radical.  The 1 who dressed from the 1980s was cool.  The football player was sweet.  The group who all did different things but performed for Ellen was good.

Singing

It's really hard.  If you are healthy, it's not.

Stereotypes

In judging how attractive I can, how much of a risk would you tell an Asian to take in being good with actual experience already in actively loving and tendering kids?  I did say last night something with the word k*** which was on the no-no list.... and I said well people like such and such are shit and decided to get that outta the way or something like that.  That's called shit, though.  Don't mean it against the people who all did that, have nothing waiting at the end for you, no good news....
155.8 lbs
31" waist

Problems in My Social Life

I've turned to a life fighting crime.  The Ft. Lauderdale Police said "don't shoot your gun in the sky" on New Year's.  I don't believe in encouraging racial complementing people against others racially....  They think I'm black!  I look white!  Those other kids aren't even as advanced looking as me.  They are only cute cuz people are nice to them and never or not me..

And Another Thing

While Ellen sits in the middle of her flocks of sheep, what right do you have to surpass someone like me to her if you were just juggling to see if I was equal to a 55 or whatever year old?

*sniff sniff*

So, who ruined the 2000s and 2010s?

My New Thing

People need to recognize how good I am as a white person racially.

Kicking Out

So, are we just kicking out girls born in the mid-late 1980s with older moms?

Wow

"Call Me" is from 1980.

Problem

Older people act like kids should be as developed as they are.. they are mimicy about it, like kids from the 1990s.

They're just being aroused about their "type" of generation of kids, but I'm in it, too.

Why are things less modern?

Listen to "Call Me" by Blondie - https://itunes.apple.com/us/album/call-me-2002-remaster/id723845843?i=723845927

Mixed Race

Remember that feeling of coziness kids had of the 1990s?  What happened!  Remember all those 15-year-olds on here around 2008?

Nitey

Going to bed soon unfortunately, maybe listen to music but need sleep..

TV

I just watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  There was a nice girl with medium blondish brown hair and highlights from a TV show since she was 16.  So, that's 21 years.  The 1st guy is really cute, gonna do a talk show, excited it'll be every day.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

Dream

I had a CD and there was a big rink, silvery, and I was going around the rink saying how I'd buy it.  I said something @ mine, like along the lines of selling just 1.  Then, I woke up.

New Video

1 - nice movement for me to watch - 6/10 - Top of the World

Alike Singers

Does Adele remind you of Lady GaGa and Christina Aguilera??

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Posts

Did you ever notice people just nag at you to get you to say something they're going to make fun of?

So

You can't do something back to someone cuz they will do it back again.

Do you wanna talk @ something?

My brother can't say he's more European than me and get away with it.

I know..

..You wanna get rid of all the Americans.

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Rule Numero Uno

If you're gay does that mean you get to be annoying-

Where I Chose to Live

I'm 1 to go back.

Question Numero Uno?

Is California gay?  I'm listening it so happened to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  You're like, "Oh that is so fabb."  Well I'm gay too, I'm polyasexual.

And, yea, even your girls.

Does anyone happen to also know I just so thought why he chose to live there and raise a family??  I mean Richard Carpenter.

What a j0ke!  No offense though.  Ginny has a mom from there and a dad from Pennsylvania-it's Pittsburgh!

..And Tim Burton might be Canadian
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Richard Carpenter

Well! Here's the music.

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Well.

I'm getting the sheet music to "LET IT GOO"

Mistake

Why do you even care @ kids?  Frozen was made to comfort them.

Monday, January 20, 2014

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Me Singing

3 - Top of the World - no images
4 - Top of the World - no images

Please Stop

Ellen your message is that you're bad and need to be good.. it's not ^too late^ for me all the time.  You always attack me, I didn't do anything.

Well..

I find Ellen to be attractive and therefore appealing to watch for people.

Problems

Did you notice I'm not invited to the Ellen crowd?  That's how I'm banned from lots of places all for LIES..  It seems Ellen is in in the in crowd.  I'm Jewish too if not more.

An Unstoppable Force Who Does Not Much.

.Ellen DeGeneres, you expect something to matter that she does and find you can't place an ounce of trust in her.  She could have a baby and get prattled for it.  Like, she'll seem nice then say something that sticks with you that's mean and say oh well that's the way it is.  She seems nice as a disclaimer, though, but I am curious @ this.

So..

..Does anyone out there have the opinion Ellen DeGeneres is actually just a baby?  She has nothing to say but a snoot nose.

Disclaimer: I don't really feel that bad @ her, but she seems to be letting too much out.. you know like against me in a certain way that seems to total like everything.

What is your problem?

I don't remember what happened, but if I'm threatened I'll do anything.

Problem

People are bothering me telling me they won't do stuff just because I thought I wanted to k*** people.  I didn't wanna think of that word.  Oh well, I have no real friends..

Weird

My parents think if I get upset at racist kids that I think they're worthless.

Problem

My dad breathed on in a bag of toys I had that I might give to future kids.  I don't wanna think of this!!  You chose to mess with me.

Yes

I stepped into my old bedroom and now realize I must paint my room to be like Miami Beach.

Success

I've got lots of laundry done, will finish most of it tonight.. lots to fold but can listen to music or watch cartoons.. 2 filled machines of clothes that don't need ironing!

Wah!

I have been feeling threatened by my life.

Stop!!  Stop bothering me!  Stop lying.  They said "only Johnny Depp can ^do it^."  Get your own blog to post *shit* on!

So, that's why I'm cracking down and making sure no one can all go crazy and attack me.  Ellen has been sponsoring this to me, no work on her part.  I don't know why she always looks like she's talking to me sometimes, but I did want to catch her attention just don't know why she did it so much it seemed sometimes.  Sometimes, people do seem like they do that when they aren't, I know, too.

Anyway, what is with Ellen and how she smirks in the shadows?  Does she seem to do that to everyone like she's the best and using other people against others?  She does what's popular ^reluctantly^ and this is ^popular^.  She really makes a scene saying other people aren't all that, like maybe just cuz they aren't famous or they expect to talk to famous people but not themselves ALSO BE famous, which is another way to save space in the world by some people's worried standards.

So, sorry, @ it, I don't really want to do it.  I don't know hot to react when I feel hurt or threatened.  I have a book on how to control yourself and one on goals, cost a bit.  Maybe, I'll look into that some more again.  Yes, I am still me, upset @ some things where I felt uncomfortable.  I do need to defend myself, but Ellen uses it as an opportunity to feel better than me.  I mean, it's not illegal to get mad on the inside.  Tim Burton was upset I could do that.  See, he did something wrong and can't take it.

Problem

I don't wish anything bad on her, but thoughts of her when not watching for like 2 weeks came back.  I don't know why it bothered me this time, but I mean I guess I just didn't want the news while I was busy, ironing..  :/  Like, she has a deep hatred and smirking nature, trying to disettle me.  I always am earnest and don't say I'm much but hear lots of praise.  When I hear that I'm just a joke, that doesn't settle well with me..  I don't wanna be fooled by Ellen just because I feel upset watching the show.  When I didn't watch it, I was okay.  I don't know if I should apologize to anyone, but I know I didn't want to mean it.  My room is such a mess.  I must paint it!!

Problem

So, if I don't post what bothers me, I'll think of something you don't want me to think of.. like when you just keep going making big statements in big ways literally..

Problem

I am already nice to my friends.  You can't go in like you're something and wanna say I did something cuz my mom is Chinese.  I am perfect enough and stop making fun of me for it!!!!

Not Your Choice

If I think of "k***" does not mean you can ^do something^.  You think you're younger like a scale but aren't.

The Real Problem

I had to stop my work to post this.. guess I must always be ready to post even if I am cooking or something.

What made me upset at start was my mom prancing in like she's all that saying she's now only grocery shopping once a week and I found that it cost more money to make food each week and for some reason only have $20 left for about a month more, spent @ $80 for a dinner and dessert.

Why I Don't Care Now

They keep being suggestive.  I can fight back.  That is always allowed.  Except my parents would call the police if I did physically even if it bothered them like I was yelling or maybe if|When I've made them yell.  I just don't want to interact with them, but there's always something waiting.  I haven't watched that Ellen for like 2 weeks..  Why does she think I owe her something?  She can put her ass in a seat and watch us all be Ellen for awhile until we're evened up enough for her to take.

My mom just came in and tried to make me feel tacky, like she's just a slob, my head.  She was muttering some words @ going back behind the house..

And I just heard another tacky noise and they eluded to a real person.  Can't you just get it and go?  Stop trying to affect me you weirdo.  No one likes you if you are who you say you are.  Just wasting time.

All I did was think "k***" and tell each parent the other was bothering me..

Problem

I was so mad I didn't wanna stop my chores to write this but thought of "k***" just because it was stuck in my head.

My parents keep doing things to stimulate and hurt me and so would anyone else cuza Tim Burton!

I haven't even been on Ellen for a week or so for this purpose.  She turns on like a steam roller if something I do happens.  What is this *beep*!  What's her problem?  I can't stand the news that she comes up with some new thing all the time.  I didn't do anything that much!  She doesn't know much!  I know @ where she's been from.  She insists it's okay with her mom, but her mom's just scared now.  She was so strict with her on other things, though, apparently, and Ellen could not do it herself.. she has Mommy help her as the baby.  She doesn't even have any kids!

Dream

I was in the car with my mom.  She kept plunging into a beachy colored pool..  I did something like that under instructions and in the end just wanted to know if I could still do high school band-  Woke up and felt like my head was just m.. except in a thinking way and I was so depressed I was not still in high school..

Big Question

I am not here for Ellen to get mad at me a lot, but most people believe she gets mad at many things I chose to say.  How does she?  I think she just sends it in the mail, for me literally.

We have to say she's alright and too nice sometimes.  I could say no Ellen, but I like it and I just want to be in on what she does like everyone else is allowed to..  I just feel made fun of for it I mean.

Wah (Why)

Why should I believe someone would torture my future daughter mentally?  I ask because I got threatened with things of such a nature, while at the time I am avoiding having a family seeing as how it probably would go.  How does such a thing seem to work out for you?  I am being more of a sojourner or someone who is into the world and doesn't want any jealousy issues to arise.  It doesn't seem like an especially appropriate post, but it really bothered me and a bad word came up.  It's the same for if I did have a son or|and a daughter.

Ugh!

I just m..

Another Funny Issue

Is Ellen just like always worried @ being stimulated from being overlyrated famous?

Problem

My problem I wanted to address my dad was I'm in a constant fit of stimulation, battling it from him, he who should not be in my life in this way.  He keeps trying to say suggestive things @ just anything.  He started yelling in the car at me or things I said and made up weird things.  It's just because he stimulated my brother as a baby.  My parents are selfish and that's stupid.

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1 - 6/10 - Top of the World - no images
2 - 6/10 - Both Sides Now - no images

Thought I'd Die

on my way back from Disney but listened to "Top of the World."

So

Why doesn't Ellen torture Portia?  I don't mean she should!

What I Think Of

My thoughts on Portia are that she's sorta bad in a cool way like most people..  She's very sweet, but she doesn't seem to do things for herself nor others..

Problem

My dad is trying to stimulate me just because my mom was thinking @ stimulating my little brother.  Like, he keeps saying stimulating things, suggestive things.  I think it has something to do with Ellen DeGeneres, unfortunately-