Tuesday, January 21, 2014
Question Numero Uno?
Is California gay? I'm listening it so happened to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. You're like, "Oh that is so fabb." Well I'm gay too, I'm polyasexual.
And, yea, even your girls.
Does anyone happen to also know I just so thought why he chose to live there and raise a family?? I mean Richard Carpenter.
What a j0ke! No offense though. Ginny has a mom from there and a dad from Pennsylvania-it's Pittsburgh!
..And Tim Burton might be Canadian
And, yea, even your girls.
Does anyone happen to also know I just so thought why he chose to live there and raise a family?? I mean Richard Carpenter.
What a j0ke! No offense though. Ginny has a mom from there and a dad from Pennsylvania-it's Pittsburgh!
..And Tim Burton might be Canadian
Monday, January 20, 2014
Please Stop
Ellen your message is that you're bad and need to be good.. it's not ^too late^ for me all the time. You always attack me, I didn't do anything.
Problems
Did you notice I'm not invited to the Ellen crowd? That's how I'm banned from lots of places all for LIES.. It seems Ellen is in in the in crowd. I'm Jewish too if not more.
An Unstoppable Force Who Does Not Much.
.Ellen DeGeneres, you expect something to matter that she does and find you can't place an ounce of trust in her. She could have a baby and get prattled for it. Like, she'll seem nice then say something that sticks with you that's mean and say oh well that's the way it is. She seems nice as a disclaimer, though, but I am curious @ this.
So..
..Does anyone out there have the opinion Ellen DeGeneres is actually just a baby? She has nothing to say but a snoot nose.
Disclaimer: I don't really feel that bad @ her, but she seems to be letting too much out.. you know like against me in a certain way that seems to total like everything.
Disclaimer: I don't really feel that bad @ her, but she seems to be letting too much out.. you know like against me in a certain way that seems to total like everything.
Problem
People are bothering me telling me they won't do stuff just because I thought I wanted to k*** people. I didn't wanna think of that word. Oh well, I have no real friends..
Problem
My dad breathed on in a bag of toys I had that I might give to future kids. I don't wanna think of this!! You chose to mess with me.
Success
I've got lots of laundry done, will finish most of it tonight.. lots to fold but can listen to music or watch cartoons.. 2 filled machines of clothes that don't need ironing!
Wah!
I have been feeling threatened by my life.
Stop!! Stop bothering me! Stop lying. They said "only Johnny Depp can ^do it^." Get your own blog to post *shit* on!
So, that's why I'm cracking down and making sure no one can all go crazy and attack me. Ellen has been sponsoring this to me, no work on her part. I don't know why she always looks like she's talking to me sometimes, but I did want to catch her attention just don't know why she did it so much it seemed sometimes. Sometimes, people do seem like they do that when they aren't, I know, too.
Anyway, what is with Ellen and how she smirks in the shadows? Does she seem to do that to everyone like she's the best and using other people against others? She does what's popular ^reluctantly^ and this is ^popular^. She really makes a scene saying other people aren't all that, like maybe just cuz they aren't famous or they expect to talk to famous people but not themselves ALSO BE famous, which is another way to save space in the world by some people's worried standards.
So, sorry, @ it, I don't really want to do it. I don't know hot to react when I feel hurt or threatened. I have a book on how to control yourself and one on goals, cost a bit. Maybe, I'll look into that some more again. Yes, I am still me, upset @ some things where I felt uncomfortable. I do need to defend myself, but Ellen uses it as an opportunity to feel better than me. I mean, it's not illegal to get mad on the inside. Tim Burton was upset I could do that. See, he did something wrong and can't take it.
Stop!! Stop bothering me! Stop lying. They said "only Johnny Depp can ^do it^." Get your own blog to post *shit* on!
So, that's why I'm cracking down and making sure no one can all go crazy and attack me. Ellen has been sponsoring this to me, no work on her part. I don't know why she always looks like she's talking to me sometimes, but I did want to catch her attention just don't know why she did it so much it seemed sometimes. Sometimes, people do seem like they do that when they aren't, I know, too.
Anyway, what is with Ellen and how she smirks in the shadows? Does she seem to do that to everyone like she's the best and using other people against others? She does what's popular ^reluctantly^ and this is ^popular^. She really makes a scene saying other people aren't all that, like maybe just cuz they aren't famous or they expect to talk to famous people but not themselves ALSO BE famous, which is another way to save space in the world by some people's worried standards.
So, sorry, @ it, I don't really want to do it. I don't know hot to react when I feel hurt or threatened. I have a book on how to control yourself and one on goals, cost a bit. Maybe, I'll look into that some more again. Yes, I am still me, upset @ some things where I felt uncomfortable. I do need to defend myself, but Ellen uses it as an opportunity to feel better than me. I mean, it's not illegal to get mad on the inside. Tim Burton was upset I could do that. See, he did something wrong and can't take it.
Problem
I don't wish anything bad on her, but thoughts of her when not watching for like 2 weeks came back. I don't know why it bothered me this time, but I mean I guess I just didn't want the news while I was busy, ironing.. :/ Like, she has a deep hatred and smirking nature, trying to disettle me. I always am earnest and don't say I'm much but hear lots of praise. When I hear that I'm just a joke, that doesn't settle well with me.. I don't wanna be fooled by Ellen just because I feel upset watching the show. When I didn't watch it, I was okay. I don't know if I should apologize to anyone, but I know I didn't want to mean it. My room is such a mess. I must paint it!!
Problem
So, if I don't post what bothers me, I'll think of something you don't want me to think of.. like when you just keep going making big statements in big ways literally..
Problem
I am already nice to my friends. You can't go in like you're something and wanna say I did something cuz my mom is Chinese. I am perfect enough and stop making fun of me for it!!!!
Not Your Choice
If I think of "k***" does not mean you can ^do something^. You think you're younger like a scale but aren't.
The Real Problem
I had to stop my work to post this.. guess I must always be ready to post even if I am cooking or something.
What made me upset at start was my mom prancing in like she's all that saying she's now only grocery shopping once a week and I found that it cost more money to make food each week and for some reason only have $20 left for about a month more, spent @ $80 for a dinner and dessert.
What made me upset at start was my mom prancing in like she's all that saying she's now only grocery shopping once a week and I found that it cost more money to make food each week and for some reason only have $20 left for about a month more, spent @ $80 for a dinner and dessert.
Why I Don't Care Now
They keep being suggestive. I can fight back. That is always allowed. Except my parents would call the police if I did physically even if it bothered them like I was yelling or maybe if|When I've made them yell. I just don't want to interact with them, but there's always something waiting. I haven't watched that Ellen for like 2 weeks.. Why does she think I owe her something? She can put her ass in a seat and watch us all be Ellen for awhile until we're evened up enough for her to take.
My mom just came in and tried to make me feel tacky, like she's just a slob, my head. She was muttering some words @ going back behind the house..
And I just heard another tacky noise and they eluded to a real person. Can't you just get it and go? Stop trying to affect me you weirdo. No one likes you if you are who you say you are. Just wasting time.
All I did was think "k***" and tell each parent the other was bothering me..
My mom just came in and tried to make me feel tacky, like she's just a slob, my head. She was muttering some words @ going back behind the house..
And I just heard another tacky noise and they eluded to a real person. Can't you just get it and go? Stop trying to affect me you weirdo. No one likes you if you are who you say you are. Just wasting time.
All I did was think "k***" and tell each parent the other was bothering me..
Problem
I was so mad I didn't wanna stop my chores to write this but thought of "k***" just because it was stuck in my head.
My parents keep doing things to stimulate and hurt me and so would anyone else cuza Tim Burton!
I haven't even been on Ellen for a week or so for this purpose. She turns on like a steam roller if something I do happens. What is this *beep*! What's her problem? I can't stand the news that she comes up with some new thing all the time. I didn't do anything that much! She doesn't know much! I know @ where she's been from. She insists it's okay with her mom, but her mom's just scared now. She was so strict with her on other things, though, apparently, and Ellen could not do it herself.. she has Mommy help her as the baby. She doesn't even have any kids!
My parents keep doing things to stimulate and hurt me and so would anyone else cuza Tim Burton!
I haven't even been on Ellen for a week or so for this purpose. She turns on like a steam roller if something I do happens. What is this *beep*! What's her problem? I can't stand the news that she comes up with some new thing all the time. I didn't do anything that much! She doesn't know much! I know @ where she's been from. She insists it's okay with her mom, but her mom's just scared now. She was so strict with her on other things, though, apparently, and Ellen could not do it herself.. she has Mommy help her as the baby. She doesn't even have any kids!
Dream
I was in the car with my mom. She kept plunging into a beachy colored pool.. I did something like that under instructions and in the end just wanted to know if I could still do high school band- Woke up and felt like my head was just m.. except in a thinking way and I was so depressed I was not still in high school..
Big Question
I am not here for Ellen to get mad at me a lot, but most people believe she gets mad at many things I chose to say. How does she? I think she just sends it in the mail, for me literally.
We have to say she's alright and too nice sometimes. I could say no Ellen, but I like it and I just want to be in on what she does like everyone else is allowed to.. I just feel made fun of for it I mean.
We have to say she's alright and too nice sometimes. I could say no Ellen, but I like it and I just want to be in on what she does like everyone else is allowed to.. I just feel made fun of for it I mean.
Wah (Why)
Why should I believe someone would torture my future daughter mentally? I ask because I got threatened with things of such a nature, while at the time I am avoiding having a family seeing as how it probably would go. How does such a thing seem to work out for you? I am being more of a sojourner or someone who is into the world and doesn't want any jealousy issues to arise. It doesn't seem like an especially appropriate post, but it really bothered me and a bad word came up. It's the same for if I did have a son or|and a daughter.
Another Funny Issue
Is Ellen just like always worried @ being stimulated from being overlyrated famous?
Problem
My problem I wanted to address my dad was I'm in a constant fit of stimulation, battling it from him, he who should not be in my life in this way. He keeps trying to say suggestive things @ just anything. He started yelling in the car at me or things I said and made up weird things. It's just because he stimulated my brother as a baby. My parents are selfish and that's stupid.
New Videos
New Videos of Me Singing
2014/01/20
1 - 6/10 - Top of the World - no images
2 - 6/10 - Both Sides Now - no images
2014/01/20
1 - 6/10 - Top of the World - no images
2 - 6/10 - Both Sides Now - no images
What I Think Of
My thoughts on Portia are that she's sorta bad in a cool way like most people.. She's very sweet, but she doesn't seem to do things for herself nor others..
Problem
My dad is trying to stimulate me just because my mom was thinking @ stimulating my little brother. Like, he keeps saying stimulating things, suggestive things. I think it has something to do with Ellen DeGeneres, unfortunately-
Sunday, January 19, 2014
May I break another ice cube?
My mom may be Chinese, but she's a good mom as in a good person. There are things she has and then again things she doesn't- (me) I mean, do you wanna meet her? What did I get from her? Isn't it obvious? Also, I'm related to my dad's relatives.
The unspoken: some people don't even wanna be good, but my mom is not disagreeable. I like you all a lot for what you've offered, too, honestly- My mom isn't too annoying about silly things. I think she changed after my brother was born- Why is he a key figure in our family? Isn't he the side dish- whoops why'd I say that? It's just that it's using food as an example for us. My brother is just my worst fears. Should we dispose of them - no. What's wrong? Don't I appear put together in some way? Some way that isn't attached to my family. I'm not a baby. I'm either like a toddler or a tweenager.
The unspoken: some people don't even wanna be good, but my mom is not disagreeable. I like you all a lot for what you've offered, too, honestly- My mom isn't too annoying about silly things. I think she changed after my brother was born- Why is he a key figure in our family? Isn't he the side dish- whoops why'd I say that? It's just that it's using food as an example for us. My brother is just my worst fears. Should we dispose of them - no. What's wrong? Don't I appear put together in some way? Some way that isn't attached to my family. I'm not a baby. I'm either like a toddler or a tweenager.
Problem
My mom just came in the laundry room and made it feel like my future son was a bad person and my mom believes it. Help! Who's involved!
Useless Anger..
Do you think that everyone needs to be told they have a flaw it so happens? Like, you try to surround someone and make them feel like a bad person. Say, they aren't, but you make it happen somehow.
No, I don't really care, but I just wanna talk @ it to myself on my blog and lure in readers from around the world and country..
I just mean that you can have lots of people who are pretty good and others who are just more rebellious who get made to feel they are different in a bad way. You can't bring people in on your wrong ways of thinking like this. Some people don't want to be turned into a bad person by accident.. but anyone would try to find some way to be interested and help. You don't bring other people into the fight itself.
No, I don't really care, but I just wanna talk @ it to myself on my blog and lure in readers from around the world and country..
I just mean that you can have lots of people who are pretty good and others who are just more rebellious who get made to feel they are different in a bad way. You can't bring people in on your wrong ways of thinking like this. Some people don't want to be turned into a bad person by accident.. but anyone would try to find some way to be interested and help. You don't bring other people into the fight itself.
Suggestion From and About Someone
So, you think rebellious people who take out their anger on unpopular people are more right than those who only get upset when appropriate cuz you think people ultimately should be gay and deathly boring and one-mode?
Saturday, January 18, 2014
Issue
Most people think I'm fine. Not Ellen, Depp, it seemed.. Ginny thinks she's better..
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Well, folks.
I realize that I have a lot of exercise to do.. auditions this Thursday. I have to keep it up to look normal- What is going on with ya'll? =]
=[ I got upset again and like a bot curse words came. I didn't want them to.. =I
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=[ I got upset again and like a bot curse words came. I didn't want them to.. =I
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Dream
I was kissing Ellen's feet and asking if she was actually okay @ something or just in general, like I felt she was a bot from Futurama. :( Anyway, her mom's lastname as Jewish, they are Caucasian. She didn't know! She was alone on a bench.
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Friday, January 17, 2014
Problems a Lot
Ellen laughed and mocked someone at the Golden Globes and needs my dad in a writing job for no good reason. Ellen, I don't care, but my dad is also annoying me and it makes me uncomfortable. It's getting worse. Why should I care @ these people? Why are they nice. To everyone else?
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Sick
I feel so sick and need to go for a jog to get my blood circulating, unless I shower and go to bed.
New Videos
New Videos of Me Singing
1 - 5/10 - Top of the World
2 - 5/10 - Rainy Days and Mondays
3 - 3/10 - Angel of Music
1 - 5/10 - Top of the World
2 - 5/10 - Rainy Days and Mondays
3 - 3/10 - Angel of Music
You know what's what, though..
set up..
My cousins are cared for by younger relatives, and I'm pushed to my gramma when she's mad at me for nothing now.
My cousins are cared for by younger relatives, and I'm pushed to my gramma when she's mad at me for nothing now.
Jumping to Conclusions
I wouldn't jump and say Sarah Brightman + Richard Carpenter are more real singers than me. Doing it for popularity and not to showcase talent.
No hard suggestions|feelings, just trying to say something partially braindead from the cold last night.
No hard suggestions|feelings, just trying to say something partially braindead from the cold last night.
Just Admit It
Ellen is prejudiced, but she continues to lure me in. I mean she likes younger young people. She's just giving me a ball of yarn to play with.
Ah!
I feel dead in the head.
I'm washing my bedding, stuff too wet to iron may wash more laundry.. ehehe
I'm washing my bedding, stuff too wet to iron may wash more laundry.. ehehe
Yesterday
Talked to people from Pennsylvania and Colorado. The Pennsylvanian lady was right next to me so was very close but felt sorry for her.
What the *beep* is the problem?
I did not make the same decision as my parents as to what I am socially in the world.
Background in Music
Well, supposedly real music you learn more, and it helped me in singing but not when I was kicked out of it.
Changed My Mind
Guess I'll just do singing and ballet @ UCF. Wanna get in the dance program ASAP.
I felt uncomfortable about how I figured this out but no need to talk @ it.. I was looking through the sites. I also tried to call to ask @ what voice majors sing. Guess they sing the best. I mean, I dunno what musical theater singing is, too much like rock and pop.
I felt uncomfortable about how I figured this out but no need to talk @ it.. I was looking through the sites. I also tried to call to ask @ what voice majors sing. Guess they sing the best. I mean, I dunno what musical theater singing is, too much like rock and pop.
So..
..Musical Theater is built for the performer with multiple talents in a transitory state. Like, who wanna do things like be in a movie or perform @ Disney..
@ UCF..
..They say you have a close-knit curriculum not designed for transfers. What will my mom say @ that??
Upset
At colleges elsewhere we have less general studies if our major is not an Arts degree, like AA or BA..
Real Problems
If you kid @ me taking advantage of things, which I can't, you'll never solve the real problem.
Problem
I want to be on good terms with my parents and get my needs met.. guess I will do musical theater @ Seminole then UCF or possibly Rollins.
Well
Expect a lotta bs from me (ignore my cursing) if I don't get to talk to anyone like a real person in person.
And
I don't want to with them. That is who they and my brother are how he is, in a highly permanent way. They can change, but they can't change our relationship now in a snap to be someone else.
I don't know what the big deal is.
My point is my parents don't socialize. Not in an organized, set up, make sense, fun, orderly, reasoning sorta way.. You know how most moms are like set up in everything in some weird way. The experience is material.. I'm trapped like some bubble.
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