Saturday, August 20, 2016
Update
New Page - Topics - Testimonies
People think they all have something on me, like this is it, because people spread lies about me and appealed to others, perhaps forcing this.
People think they all have something on me, like this is it, because people spread lies about me and appealed to others, perhaps forcing this.
Did I do something unforgivable?
Me thinking to give a pastor at church a present or so is a bad thing? Why wasn't I informed? It's a rare thing in general. They must get lonely. What of these things?
Update
Page - About Me
People who are overly proud of not being white European should not assume just I am under them. They still look up to other people who are all white, no matter how much more racist than me they really are. I'm not racist, but I don't want to be a race other than white European or whatever is best.
People who are overly proud of not being white European should not assume just I am under them. They still look up to other people who are all white, no matter how much more racist than me they really are. I'm not racist, but I don't want to be a race other than white European or whatever is best.
Unaccepted, Unacceptable
I get all these strangers talking at me like they have to send me a negative message.
I can just see someone who would have been nice to me make up something and say, "No, Christina, you're not popular."
I can just see someone who would have been nice to me make up something and say, "No, Christina, you're not popular."
Friday, August 19, 2016
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The Mothers
I guess Baby Boom moms were thought at the end to just be Barbie dolls with baby Barbie doll kids.
Edit: Like, they just make a good show.
I guess Baby Boom moms were thought at the end to just be Barbie dolls with baby Barbie doll kids.
Edit: Like, they just make a good show.
The Mothers
I guess Baby Boom moms were thought at the end to just be Barbie dolls with baby Barbie doll kids.
Edit: Like, they primarily make a good show.
Edit: Like, they primarily make a good show.
My Generation
I find my generation to be very indirect.
They also have a bubbly accent often.
They think Johnny Depp is dating age.
They also have a bubbly accent often.
They think Johnny Depp is dating age.
Dream (cont.)
I remember saying I started gymnastics at age 1 3/4 and starting to say I can do some ballet.
Dream
I had a dream I was with the Freiburger Barockorchester, and I was gonna play "I Dreamed a Dream" on the keyboard. I think I saw the conductor, too. It was some big gymnasium and outside was involved for me. It was probably dusk. Something happened twice where I didn't play. I was like in a choir and was feeling like I was getting taller and was behind everyone, tweens or young adults, who might have all been taller. Not sure what we would sing. Something that seemed strange maybe at the time was supposedly everyone but one person was with me the 1st 2 times or at least a handful. Someone seemed very real but when they supposedly said my name maybe not. They moved me behind the very tall people. I tried to keep thinking, but dream was over, I woke up. I could still feel the effects of the dream some, like waking up from seeing a ghost.
Pathetic, Pu-lease (Pathetic, Please)
People are trying to psych me into thinking I was insufficient in a past life.
TV vs Internet
I don't know much about the healthcare on TV, but I know when I'm ignoring something when something else is in my life that wasn't there before.
I actually stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show. As of 2012 I watched every day. I like her. I just would rather watch something low-key.
I actually stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show. As of 2012 I watched every day. I like her. I just would rather watch something low-key.
How It's Going
I seem to have it more uncomfortable than full whites, full Asians, and other mixed people.
It's an amazing thing. Not many people are willing to provide mixed babies. Think of the insight they can have when connecting to any other culture!
It's an amazing thing. Not many people are willing to provide mixed babies. Think of the insight they can have when connecting to any other culture!
Wasting My Life
I think people wasted their lives with an interest in things like healthcare or rather healthcare on TV.
I have goals in life and don't want to make the same "mistake" for me cuz I'm interested in and very into stuff like that on the TV, too.
I almost feel I need to live in a dorm to get myself bolted down into succeeding. 1 problem is this isn't like going around even staying in a hotel auditioning on piano to get into a myriad of colleges, only to chose the most selective in the end which had everything I could ask for: bachelor degrees in Music, a ballet minor, an honors program, etc. It's beginning.. violin!
Judging My Parents from the Past
People want to not only make my life better somehow blaming it on my parents but want to hurt me and actually make it worse, thinking I need to learn something when I don't.
Really, they don't know me well enough, no matter how smart they are.
Really, they don't know me well enough, no matter how smart they are.
Hunt Down
I've been beat with people saying if I wanted to be famous I deserve to know no one but that all the famous people deserve to steal all my personal relationships.
Tip
F.Y.I., whenever people come up to you and act like you have to like them, you only have to be however you like in general compared to anyone.
Cursing
If Ellen DeGeneres hates cursing, she should look online.
Same with anyone with a serious problem. It's not your right to say it means something illegal. Like, "Aw, shit!" Or when feeling out of the box, "That BAMF!" What in the world could it mean? Let's all go on strike and not curse and see what other problems make themselves noticed.
Ellen DeGeneres!.. She is a talk show host and they are all suggestive, it feels. Talk shows are generally the land of the cursing feel. Commercials are nasty and suggestive, too, like the one with Flo suggesting her favorite student is "Gwen" to someone else she was just comforting. What about the Aveeno commercials? She acts like we did something wrong and have to think whatever she wants. She is supported to be that way. Maybe, I'm just alone here. I do like these people, tho.
Same with anyone with a serious problem. It's not your right to say it means something illegal. Like, "Aw, shit!" Or when feeling out of the box, "That BAMF!" What in the world could it mean? Let's all go on strike and not curse and see what other problems make themselves noticed.
Ellen DeGeneres!.. She is a talk show host and they are all suggestive, it feels. Talk shows are generally the land of the cursing feel. Commercials are nasty and suggestive, too, like the one with Flo suggesting her favorite student is "Gwen" to someone else she was just comforting. What about the Aveeno commercials? She acts like we did something wrong and have to think whatever she wants. She is supported to be that way. Maybe, I'm just alone here. I do like these people, tho.
Thursday, August 18, 2016
I am dying and straightening my hair and growing it a bit longer. I'm getting it dyed very light golden blonde. It's going to be solid color and not highlights. I recently was praying for my hair to be darker in some way and I noticed underneath it was so black it was blue, but the highlights are light. I would just as well shave it off now so may as well do something about it. Also, it's for orchestra, so I stand out in a better way.
Does anyone have any advice or last words?
Does anyone have any advice or last words?
The Coolest Saints
reference
There are possibly fallen angels who have half human half angel hybrids, something God did not want.
There are at least 2 female angels mentioned together in the Bible. However, angels may not have a gender.
Maybe, another gender of angel exists if the fallen angels reproduce.
Are they cherabim and seraphim? Their definitions are ambiguous, the 1st supposedly guarding Eden and the 2nd being of highest order.
(link)
There are possibly fallen angels who have half human half angel hybrids, something God did not want.
There are at least 2 female angels mentioned together in the Bible. However, angels may not have a gender.
Maybe, another gender of angel exists if the fallen angels reproduce.
Are they cherabim and seraphim? Their definitions are ambiguous, the 1st supposedly guarding Eden and the 2nd being of highest order.
(link)
Minus Racism
Will racists be sorry and forget about racism? when they see how amazing the lives of other races are? Like, look at their territory.
Getting a Makeover
I want to get my hair dyed very light golden blonde and wear light blue contact lenses. I will let my hair grow to my shoulders. It is a little curly. I'm not sure what kinda shampoo to use. Maybe try Aussie or Fructis Garnier Whole Blends, which is relatively new. I was gonna use Pantene Pro-V. I've been using Fructis Garnier.
I hope someday to shave it all off and grow it out again. I have a Fedora.
I hope someday to shave it all off and grow it out again. I have a Fedora.
Wednesday, August 17, 2016
YouTube
I guess it turns out singing and dancing isn't that great cuz I know I was amazing like that when I was a kid.
Music starts at 4:40. I watch the 1st song.
Music starts at 4:40. I watch the 1st song.
Left Out / Led Astray
I wanted to sing at age 5 and I told my parents/dad, but they didn't do anything. I couldn't do much at age 5. I couldn't even remember things in kindergarten, like where to put your papers. I asked my mom at 7 again, and I was put in choir by age 8. I didn't have music class in Pre-K. I remember listening to the soothing/enlightening toddler music as a toddler, tho.
I remember saying a lot I want to play the flute at least starting around age 6 or 7, but my parents never said anything.
If I knew I could rent an oboe of late, I would have. I was attracted to accompanying musicals.
I was gonna take private singing, but I changed to violin. I had just seen violin playing that looked exciting for the 1st time, like it took me 30 years to mature into this.
I got a little keyboard when I was 2, 3, or 4. I thought it was cool, but it was so small and I didn't play. My dad helped me learn Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, but he doesn't really play. I was put in piano at age 9 1/2. I ended up being a Piano major in Music Education. I got a violin as a present at age 16 I think, tho. I thought it was too late but didn't hate it nor play with it much. I never got the right kind of shoulder rest. I took String class my 1st year of college for Music Education, and I felt I did pretty good and was praised strongly. I stuck with violin the whole year.
I remember saying a lot I want to play the flute at least starting around age 6 or 7, but my parents never said anything.
If I knew I could rent an oboe of late, I would have. I was attracted to accompanying musicals.
I was gonna take private singing, but I changed to violin. I had just seen violin playing that looked exciting for the 1st time, like it took me 30 years to mature into this.
I got a little keyboard when I was 2, 3, or 4. I thought it was cool, but it was so small and I didn't play. My dad helped me learn Twinkle Twinkle Little Star, but he doesn't really play. I was put in piano at age 9 1/2. I ended up being a Piano major in Music Education. I got a violin as a present at age 16 I think, tho. I thought it was too late but didn't hate it nor play with it much. I never got the right kind of shoulder rest. I took String class my 1st year of college for Music Education, and I felt I did pretty good and was praised strongly. I stuck with violin the whole year.
Me Playing Violin
About the 2nd half has a lotta mistakes. The 1st part is about 40 seconds.
Record audio or upload mp3 >>
Record audio or upload mp3 >>
Tuesday, August 16, 2016
Update
Problems Blog - General Problems
I keep getting quirky messages and coincidences from my dad, and it's bothering me for some reason.
I keep getting quirky messages and coincidences from my dad, and it's bothering me for some reason.
Suggestions
I suggest things to suggest things that are important. I found out! I get in trouble for this when I do it in a nice way and others don't!
Backwards Ways of Being
People believe people being nice is showing off. No way! Just another way to cheat to get ahead.
Like it doesn't matter.
They keep saying I deserve not to make a point or else I won't have as good a relationship with someone.
What's up with this?
I get people in commercials on TV wanting to make sure I know I was just off'ed by them. How pathetic are this egotistical "BAMFs"/"SOABs?"
Issue
They think I'm not being nice and pretending there is a reason to be mean to me. No, they just are. That's why it's mean.
See, they get mad if I talk about what they do. What, do you want me to elucidate about things like pigs and chickens? The birds perched in the trees? Dinosaurs?
See, they get mad if I talk about what they do. What, do you want me to elucidate about things like pigs and chickens? The birds perched in the trees? Dinosaurs?
Forget?
Sometimes, people forget they are doing what they think they are supposed to do or are just bad and are being mean to me.
Really in Trouble
If someone makes you think of a bad thing complexly, shouldn't they be in trouble?
Parental Baby Boomers
Why does it seem Baby Boomers are going away? They haven't really been parental figures the right way.
There are a lot I like.
I wonder what people expect me to expect.
There are a lot I like.
I wonder what people expect me to expect.
What?
This is my blog. I can chose to talk about my opinion on popular topics.
Guess what? Every time I make a point, they say someone I know flips me off, even if it's good, like I'm trash. This has nothing to do with anything. They just know I'm learning to cope with my relationships being messed up.
Guess what? Every time I make a point, they say someone I know flips me off, even if it's good, like I'm trash. This has nothing to do with anything. They just know I'm learning to cope with my relationships being messed up.
Babysitting
I can't seem to chose to blog what I want without a relationship and my life being ruined.
Edit
Me Playing Violin
Edit: The 3rd one I was feeling upset because of people/involved experimenting on me.
Edit: The 3rd one I was feeling upset because of people/involved experimenting on me.
Like the Moon Princess..
..I would chose to meet these people on my own and not with my family, relatives, friends, and acquaintances.
What I Get Outta This
I think in the end I get nothing out of this. I just get a bunch of lunatics making fun of me.
Update
Problems Blog
Page - General Problems
They keep doing something worse and worse so I have more to post here.
Page - General Problems
They keep doing something worse and worse so I have more to post here.
Me Playing Violin
Edit: The 3rd one I was feeling upset because of people/involved experimenting on me.
Record and upload voice >>
Audio recording >>
Audio recording >>
Record and upload voice >>
Audio recording >>
Audio recording >>
What's so confusing about it?
Howcome people don't realize I am irritated and try to feel better to myself but others are approved and let alone?
"The Cold Shoulder"
I wonder why people socialize with others but ignore me.
I also dislike taking things in stride.
I bet they can tell something about my race they could not before.
I also dislike taking things in stride.
I bet they can tell something about my race they could not before.
Upset with Me
People find fault too easily with me. I'm probably as good as them, just people seem to have a problem with my race.
People with a Weak Spirit
When they do something that seems embarrassing, they have to catch their breath and say that I am the one with that problem and not them.
Itching About This?
Is it cuz I am 1/2 Chinese? Ha ha, they'll get people who suck and like them just cuz they're all white. Maybe not, tho. I'm just another person. Those white people must be special. Ha ha.
Well, okay, tho.
Whatever, about Freiburger Barockorchester blocking me just because I post regularly and try to be friendly.
There may be something terribly wrong, but maybe "desperate times call for desperate measures."
There may be something terribly wrong, but maybe "desperate times call for desperate measures."
Bubbly and Bad
Did you know they made me feel not as youthful, but the people experimenting on me and enacting others act so bubbly while they sin against me?
I think my dad did it.
I think my dad did it.
Having Kids
I feel pushed to admit I "had a baby" in a post.
I just didn't feel it was important at the time to say I changed my mind and how I might have a kid. I realized I didn't say anything and didn't change my mind so edited my post. Tho, I do think about better ways of having a kid from time to time. I don't think it's right to show off not having kids to people who have or want kids.
If my life is so bad, I can't survive either way.
They won't leave me alone.
I just didn't feel it was important at the time to say I changed my mind and how I might have a kid. I realized I didn't say anything and didn't change my mind so edited my post. Tho, I do think about better ways of having a kid from time to time. I don't think it's right to show off not having kids to people who have or want kids.
If my life is so bad, I can't survive either way.
They won't leave me alone.
Update
Problems Blog
Pages - General Problems
For some reason, they keep monitoring and going against my private thoughts.
Pages - General Problems
For some reason, they keep monitoring and going against my private thoughts.
Confused
I like the Freiburger Barockorchester, and they are apparently so popular they don't need any fans.
They blocked me on Facebook and Twitter for no reason.
It's probably because no one else posts there regularly.
Even in private, they know what I think because of the experiment, and they get mad for no reason.
Update
Problems Blog
Page - General Problems
Ellen DeGeneres is turning everyone on me. I used to curse about hurtful, illegal noises in my room that she put there.
Page - General Problems
Ellen DeGeneres is turning everyone on me. I used to curse about hurtful, illegal noises in my room that she put there.
Update
Problems Blog
New Page - General Problems
There are people spying on me in private and talking to me via how my computer loads and little ticking noises in my room etc. and secret messages via both people I know and strangers.
People I like are being mean to me via secret message. It might be because of the experimenting on me, but they may have still done it and meant it.
New Page - General Problems
There are people spying on me in private and talking to me via how my computer loads and little ticking noises in my room etc. and secret messages via both people I know and strangers.
People I like are being mean to me via secret message. It might be because of the experimenting on me, but they may have still done it and meant it.
Making Up Rules for Me
I don't think so!
No pun intended.
Key phrase, "making up."
What did I do wrong to anyone?
No pun intended.
Key phrase, "making up."
What did I do wrong to anyone?
Edit
Post with all the pictures.
Edit: I don't really know if I will have kids, but I was planning not to and it's hard to change that plan unless the world changes.
Edit: I don't really know if I will have kids, but I was planning not to and it's hard to change that plan unless the world changes.
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