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"People keep acting like I am bad and did, like, all these bad things."

It's theirs.

Kids born around 1997 and 1998 care about Late Boomers because they already have the connection.

These people don't have a single point.

They're all over, and they monitor my thoughts.. which warble and then bad things pop up which didn't before.

The people talking to me secretly.

This is something like not presenting thoughts in words on the computer.

Cheated Out

So, I try so hard to be good and get tired out and rejected of success and reward so I can move on at all.

Know my race, eh?

Since when does anyone know enough about me racially to say I don't deserve something all of a sudden because of what others think of me racially? like my relationships.  I didn't say I don't share.

America: A Dying Culture

We need more white culture.

Evidence

People say oh you have a problem cuz you aren't white, but you'll find they started with the problem.

Issue

I was trying to be friendly, and I get struck down on Twitter.

I have a strange wish

that I was 5, like a ghost cuz that's when we left far Southeastern Florida.

I am a real person.

I do like Jacksonville and what went down, but I am a real person and I would probably grow up okay in the far Southeastern Florida.

I wonder if that's where I'm bound to go next and grow up.

Pictures

Edit: I don't really know if I will have kids, but I was planning not to and it's hard to change that plan unless the world changes.

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"Walk the walk, don't talk the talk."


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Cute Girls

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Wanting

If I don't at all want guys or s** does that mean I want less?

My Kind of People

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I was suicidally lonely and no one would talk to me.  I spammed them good advice for a long time.  Still, no response, overall.  Now, people are following the evil ways of these lost friends and family.

Oh, do you know..

Did you notice older teenagers get stimulated a lot by Late Boomers without doing a fuck?

They just go by age and need help to get something going, including me.

IMDb - The Soapbox

It's being flooded by nothing but trolls, it seems.

ha ha

Most people here are trying to get the better of me and don't talk to me when I'm the only one here. Do you even know how to spell "e-mail" and "IM?" 

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•Proud White European Caucasian

IMDb - The Soapbox

Do you feel worthy as a person, like looking at your looks and style?

I can see why I would be seen as nothing, but I am who I am and I am a person and I do do things. I do have a personality and a certain look and style.

So, yea, I may not amount to much to others.

I'm mostly sad prestigious people are usually nice to me but now they aren't. I think I'm being framed, tho..

Oh well, I don't hate people other than whoever they are.

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Peers - Opening Up

It's interesting to see my peers open up like they know a hateful secret about me in relation to them.

Race

So, it's a rule now it's safer to have white European genes as opposed to anything else.

General Social Pattern

What do you think when you like someone and they talk to someone else when they've told you like they don't talk?

I don't have a weird problem as a person with what I'm like.  I'm getting ripped off.

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IMDb - The Soapbox

As Queen of the Soapbox..

Does anyone think that other posters don't have much to say and act like you have a problem if you say anything? 

Lies

People think I'm having a hissy fit about not wanting to interact and pay attention to younger people.

They think I don't need nor deserve attention from older adults.

Facial Features

If you have more creases rather than smooth face just means you're a different kind of person or a drastically different age.

You can't play going back and forth saying, "Oh, no creases means not that you're young but that you're smart and don't need lines, except for everyone else it means a good thing."

Cool Eye Color

In America, we tend to have lighter eyes, but really cool people in Europe all seem to have dark blue eyes.

Being Mean to Me

Do people now have to be mean to me or want to be mean to me?

Being Tested

People keep testing me to show off to get people to like me.

Leech Woman from Puppet Master 2

I just got it in the mail!

Asians

People like to see people who are all Asian more than me.

A Quiet Life

Years on end, people think I'm behind socially because other people have alienated me.

Attacks and Rudeness

So, people look for those who did themselves the best and are out to get them thereon out.

People in Europe can be so rude listening to people like that and regurgitating it back to me in their own style.

Setting Me Apart in a Bad Way

People seem to know that there are possibly bad things about me more than others and discriminate against me from Europe like they like sloppy people tho.

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When I was 11, I was doing my homework when my dad came home, and it just came out maybe, "Oh, no," and he said nothing, when I was gonna say it was cuz after yet again doing my homework since I got home am not done and cannot have enough family time. I just wanted to joke around.

When Together, Not Even Simply Coexisting

If I feel cool about someone else, why can't I just exist too without being clawed it when there's something that could be going for me in the world?

I know someone thinks about me as a person that "there's nothing in it."

People who really are harsh on them are "cool" tho, with them.

The Coolest Saints

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There are possibly fallen angels who have half human half angel hybrids, something God did not want.

There are at least 2 female angels mentioned together in the Bible.  However, angels may not have a gender.

Maybe, another gender of angel exists if the fallen angels reproduce.

Are they cherabim and seraphim?  Their definitions are ambiguous, the 1st supposedly guarding Eden and the 2nd being of highest order.

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Flubbing on the Spot

People today keep acting like I'm weak and think things that have big, bad purposes.

They're making it up on the spot, one after another.

Just watch TV.

Older Teenagers

Did you know teenagers born around 1997 and 1998 believe people my age shouldn't be growing as the kids we were when they were born?  Like, their childhood is lasting now almost 20 years.

They seem to think it is inappropriate for even babies today to look up to them as someone older.

Post - Eurasian Nation

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It sounds like you did not have a straight answer for your daughter. I do not feel I have a straight answer for you. I think you can identify yourself as either white European Caucasian or Asian, and Asian can be white, tan, or yellow. You would not be called yellow, unless your skin really were yellow, which I've seen Asians with yellow. Tho, Europeans would see Asians as having more of a yellow tone than they do. I do not have many Asian traits for some reason, so people do not generally seem to wonder about my color in relation to how Asian I look.

He he he

My dad thinks since I'm being monitored he can tell me what to do via who's watching me.

Before, they said he didn't or couldn't do that.

Problem With My Hair

I used to dye my hair a lot in a short period of time cuz my hair is so hard to dye and impatience.

It still prickles from it.

It seems a hair falls out every time I comb my fingers thru my hair.

I'm trying to grow it longer and grow out my bangs.  Something's wrong with it.

Haphazardness

If I am being experimented on, why would I listen to anyone if I'm the one who's being followed for intelligence?

They are too sloppy with me or mean on purpose.

An *Alter Ego

No offense, don't take this post sarcastically!

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I may have always been in trouble.

I'm in a program where I meet people I like online or other ways, while being monitored.

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Supposedly, I am in trouble and someone else is meeting these people too.

I don't think it would be odd for me to be like everyone else and meet people on my own.

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I am not upset at the person meeting people with me, just that it is found necessary by people I like to use the person against me.

That's not many people.

Yes, the person meeting people with me has been mean to me without being sorry.  I feel they are supported to do this by people I like.

I don't care much about people I don't like.

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People I like may find that I have negative beliefs, but that's not what this says, in American English at least.

Like I said at the beginning, in case you didn't realize: "No offense, don't take this post sarcastically!"

This post was carefully written not to say what you might still think I think that I don't.

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Playing in the Orchestra

I wish I made up my mind sooner.

I should have listened to being recruited to something fun like band and played the oboe.

I just started individual violin lessons after a group class in college 11 years ago.  I am serious about it.  I'm gonna be in an orchestra in a couple weeks.

I'll probably keep playing in college and am interested in pursuing a doctorate in violin.

Stereotypes

Now, that I have a high school diploma, I'm not learning so much about History but Music History and Theory.  It's a different game.

Since school is starting..

..and yes, I plan to go back to a community college next semester.

Homework.  I think teachers should never give busywork, like learning thru taking notes.

They could hand out the outline and a copy of the lecture.

Forget the textbook.  This isn't Mother Goose.

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

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Me

I added my parents's ages at the end.

Feed Your Brain

Generation X is more intellectual than Generation Z.

Old People

They are siding with the bad young people.

In the end, I never talk to anyone I want.  I do talk to people I don't want to talk to so much.

These people may not be my strongest desire to talk to, but still I would in my way.

Old people are offended if you feel hurt by bad young people.  They just wanna be cool.

The Coolest Saints

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There are possibly fallen angels who have half human half angel hybrids, something God did not want.

There are at least 2 female angels mentioned together in the Bible.  However, angels may not have a gender.

Maybe, another gender of angel exists if the fallen angels reproduce.

Are they cherabim and seraphim?  Their definitions are ambiguous, the 1st supposedly guarding Eden and the 2nd being of highest order.

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Sick of It

People are going around picking on me for my flaws.  They think I believe in things I don't.  It's hard to explain.

For example, I see Asians, Latinos, blacks, Middle Easterners, and white Americans totally give for white Europeans.

The Reason

They just answered.  They said they didn't really do it.  They suggest that I did, but I didn't do what they're talking about.

Living in the Moment

I noticed some people acting like different ethnicities.  There are both positive and negative motives/repercussions.

The negative part is the part I unraveled, at least in some way.

I noticed they were doing it to make a statement but in a certain way don't really care.

They deny I care, but I didn't use it as an excuse to not do the right thing in some part of things.

Welcome!

Welcome to my BlogSpot!

Did you see the trailer for "Mother's Day?"

I actually like Julia Roberts, but they dyed her hair red to look like Bella Thorne.  I like what Ellen DeGeneres stands for, but she is making me like Jennifer Aniston, instead.  That's insulting to Jennifer Aniston.

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Ballet

My mom wants me to take ballet.  It has beginning/intermediate twice a week for adults.  There's an advanced level, too, but I'm taking beginning/intermediate.

Here's what the kids do:

Brooding

That's often not for me!

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How I Feel

Some people may be withdrawn or ^preoccupied^ and even mentally ^disturbed^ and ^need help^.

I feel "emotionally ^challenged^."

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Prejudice of a Certain Stereotype

If you are prejudiced towards males who are dark with dark hair and dark eyes with a gruff look, then you are missing something and that is shallow-minded to believe cool people are all one way, like Hitler, long, thin, blonde, smooth, but ditzy.  You can be whoever you want eventually, but you are wrong to musjudge people and be rude "to their face."

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"Solo" Musicians Gather to Flock Together

I am watching TV, and they were showing the blue whale, the largest known animal in the world.

I noticed the background music sounded like high-pitched choral singing with an orchestral group in the background.

I wish I could just participate in something like that and have already long quit the piano and organ.

If I knew a bit earlier even that I could rent instruments, I would have been learning the oboe.  I am doing violin, now.

You know, they really have a comfortable life, in a way.  They play instruments that play one line.  They start in grade school and perform every semester.  They can join a group rather than becoming like the phantom of the opera in their basement playing and singing along but almost always alone.

Actually, I've been in church/school choir mostly age 8-18.  It was actually one of the biggest things of my life.

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Prestigious Colored African People

There are 2 kinds of colored African people, dark and light.

I notice there are some healthier looking people of African American heritage and very few of them seem fair tho some do.

For example, on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, there was a mom and daughter dancers, and the mom, who was African American, seemed fair and very smart and to act good according to standards of Europeans/White Americans.

Leontyne Price (opera singer from Mississippi in the New Orleans area)
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Sacrifice

Before, older adults respected me, but now they think they are off-limits because they might be as hot as Johnny Depp, who is off-limits.

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Piano Playing - Arthritis

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That's one more reason to stay away.

Brandenburg Concerto 3-1 - by Bach

They are from Las Vegas.  The Carolinas and Las Vegas remind me of my home in the New Orleans, Louisiana area.

TV

Are shows like Access Hollywood like the new SNL?

New Blog

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New Blog

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My Dad

I think some people I really like did something cuza my dad, committed their bodies to 1 soul and make it so I can't feel worthwhile among them.

Ha..

Ha ha laugh at yourself and lie to others.

Manners?

Do you know of someone getting mad at you for thinking highly of them and then blaming you for not being good enough for themselves in their opinion?

Praytell

What did other people do to deserve to get my relationships and keep me from having them, like oh maybe they met them or something..

Lies

They act like it's different people.

Redundancy

So, they're coming in my home telling me an insult and then another to top it off, like I can't cope.

Weird

It's not about what you do but what your races is.

Can't Really Get Out of This

If I'm smarter cuz I'm not born around 1997 and 1998, why not listen to me?

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Talking Me Down

Who says they can do that?

Problem

No, you are mean to me.  I don't wanna waste my life on that.

Problem

They said someone doesn't want me in place of someone mean.

Problem

They are telling me too many things to post about.  I'm going gray.

Music

My violin sub seemed to think I needed even more practice to do anything, at all.

Singing seems more worth it for me now Maybe.

Problem

They are insisting moreover.

Why?

Issue

It has been said it was weird to worry, but people like Ellen DeGeneres supported it.

Issue

What's wrong with talking about my experiences.

Problem

They keep insisting someone I like is really saying these mean things to me.

Problem

Some keep pushing that people I like do this stuff.

Issue

They said they caused the recent killings.

College

General Music Education as a Singer

Height

So, what is it?  Am I short at 5'5"?

Problem

They won't all quit.

Problem

They are acting like they are all that and that person has been onto me for this, like some big secret.

Problem

I was looking around the room, and they were acting like someone I like would be mean and do away with me.

Messing With Me

My dad acted like he was some thing I could never get, like that thing exists.

Problem

They said it was okay for people who are nice I like a lot to be mean to me.  One bad thought hits my mind, tho, and it's over.

Problem

I accidentally simply had the word come to my mind and say it in my mind, "Kill her," about someone.  I don't really care to mean it.  I've lost a relationship that has been a part of my life more than I wanted in some ways but not in others, and now they are teasing me with it saying I can't have another relationship I had from before because of it.

Problem

They are acting like something big just happened.  I don't even know what it was.  I just know I was attacked by my parents socially, secretly.

Attacked by Ellen DeGeneres

Ellen DeGeneres won't stop putting Bella Thorne in my life ruining it cuz I cursed about the illegal, hurtful noises she had put in my room.  Nothing seems to really be about me.  My dad seems to be the problem, causing this.  I want to not feel molested by my parents.