I noticed some people acting like different ethnicities. There are both positive and negative motives/repercussions.
The negative part is the part I unraveled, at least in some way.
I noticed they were doing it to make a statement but in a certain way don't really care.
They deny I care, but I didn't use it as an excuse to not do the right thing in some part of things.
Monday, August 15, 2016
Sunday, August 14, 2016
Did you see the trailer for "Mother's Day?"
I actually like Julia Roberts, but they dyed her hair red to look like Bella Thorne. I like what Ellen DeGeneres stands for, but she is making me like Jennifer Aniston, instead. That's insulting to Jennifer Aniston.
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Ballet
My mom wants me to take ballet. It has beginning/intermediate twice a week for adults. There's an advanced level, too, but I'm taking beginning/intermediate.
Here's what the kids do:
Here's what the kids do:
How I Feel
Some people may be withdrawn or ^preoccupied^ and even mentally ^disturbed^ and ^need help^.
I feel "emotionally ^challenged^."
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I feel "emotionally ^challenged^."
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Prejudice of a Certain Stereotype
If you are prejudiced towards males who are dark with dark hair and dark eyes with a gruff look, then you are missing something and that is shallow-minded to believe cool people are all one way, like Hitler, long, thin, blonde, smooth, but ditzy. You can be whoever you want eventually, but you are wrong to musjudge people and be rude "to their face."
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"Solo" Musicians Gather to Flock Together
I am watching TV, and they were showing the blue whale, the largest known animal in the world.
I noticed the background music sounded like high-pitched choral singing with an orchestral group in the background.
I wish I could just participate in something like that and have already long quit the piano and organ.
If I knew a bit earlier even that I could rent instruments, I would have been learning the oboe. I am doing violin, now.
You know, they really have a comfortable life, in a way. They play instruments that play one line. They start in grade school and perform every semester. They can join a group rather than becoming like the phantom of the opera in their basement playing and singing along but almost always alone.
Actually, I've been in church/school choir mostly age 8-18. It was actually one of the biggest things of my life.
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I noticed the background music sounded like high-pitched choral singing with an orchestral group in the background.
I wish I could just participate in something like that and have already long quit the piano and organ.
If I knew a bit earlier even that I could rent instruments, I would have been learning the oboe. I am doing violin, now.
You know, they really have a comfortable life, in a way. They play instruments that play one line. They start in grade school and perform every semester. They can join a group rather than becoming like the phantom of the opera in their basement playing and singing along but almost always alone.
Actually, I've been in church/school choir mostly age 8-18. It was actually one of the biggest things of my life.
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Prestigious Colored African People
There are 2 kinds of colored African people, dark and light.
I notice there are some healthier looking people of African American heritage and very few of them seem fair tho some do.
For example, on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, there was a mom and daughter dancers, and the mom, who was African American, seemed fair and very smart and to act good according to standards of Europeans/White Americans.
Leontyne Price (opera singer from Mississippi in the New Orleans area)
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I notice there are some healthier looking people of African American heritage and very few of them seem fair tho some do.
For example, on The Ellen DeGeneres Show, there was a mom and daughter dancers, and the mom, who was African American, seemed fair and very smart and to act good according to standards of Europeans/White Americans.
Leontyne Price (opera singer from Mississippi in the New Orleans area)
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Brandenburg Concerto 3-1 - by Bach
They are from Las Vegas. The Carolinas and Las Vegas remind me of my home in the New Orleans, Louisiana area.
Friday, August 12, 2016
Monday, July 11, 2016
My Dad
I think some people I really like did something cuza my dad, committed their bodies to 1 soul and make it so I can't feel worthwhile among them.
Manners?
Do you know of someone getting mad at you for thinking highly of them and then blaming you for not being good enough for themselves in their opinion?
Praytell
What did other people do to deserve to get my relationships and keep me from having them, like oh maybe they met them or something..
Redundancy
So, they're coming in my home telling me an insult and then another to top it off, like I can't cope.
Can't Really Get Out of This
If I'm smarter cuz I'm not born around 1997 and 1998, why not listen to me?
Monday, June 13, 2016
Music
My violin sub seemed to think I needed even more practice to do anything, at all.
Singing seems more worth it for me now Maybe.
Problem
They are acting like they are all that and that person has been onto me for this, like some big secret.
Problem
I was looking around the room, and they were acting like someone I like would be mean and do away with me.
Problem
They said it was okay for people who are nice I like a lot to be mean to me. One bad thought hits my mind, tho, and it's over.
Problem
I accidentally simply had the word come to my mind and say it in my mind, "Kill her," about someone. I don't really care to mean it. I've lost a relationship that has been a part of my life more than I wanted in some ways but not in others, and now they are teasing me with it saying I can't have another relationship I had from before because of it.
Problem
They are acting like something big just happened. I don't even know what it was. I just know I was attacked by my parents socially, secretly.
Attacked by Ellen DeGeneres
Ellen DeGeneres won't stop putting Bella Thorne in my life ruining it cuz I cursed about the illegal, hurtful noises she had put in my room. Nothing seems to really be about me. My dad seems to be the problem, causing this. I want to not feel molested by my parents.
Monday, June 6, 2016
Nice People
It's nice to see nice people are afraid to be mean about me and cut off the conversation with others.
Fighting Their Way - But Against Me
It's funny to see people, esp. other minorities, climb their way to the top by saying I'm an outcast and odd.
Classical Establishments
People say liking church music, Renaissance, church, etc., are "just having sex" like an insult. What next?
I'm not stupid.
I can tell people who are not all white suffer undo hate and stress and look worse, when it's oh-so-important for all whites to feel good.
Careers
Can you be trusted if you don't have a career? This is an old one. You need a career to keep yourself improving? Well, I know how you have to sacrifice other careers for it.
Alike
They say I am like my parents but would be willing to do me in and then changing to be more ideal.
Wednesday, June 1, 2016
Okay, enough is enough!
Regardless of the age difference between our parents, I wished the best to you and if you deny it then *desist to bother me.
*desist - cease; abstain (link)
*desist - cease; abstain (link)
I'm right.
Just because my thoughts come to me viciously still sometimes now, does not make me wrong! You'll lose!
No Remedy
You say I have these promises, but then you keep threatening it like I'm a slob in life. I have a hard time on medicine, and you'd suppose everyone'd know by now that medicine makes you fat in the end.
"Other" Relationships
It looks like you're seeking just to destroy my most special, earned and in some form generally needed types of relationships and give them all to other people who aren't a big part of my life but some of whom could have been. They are people like Bella Thorne, my younger girl cousin who is the daughter of my dad's youngest sibling and sister, who I hardly see and who doesn't talk to me much, and old best friends who made me look like I was the bad guy unsuccessfully.
Then, why..
..do I feel Bella Thorne is getting things she didn't earn and sending a message to me that I don't deserve what I earned socially? I don't care if everyone else does it. She shouldn't have crossed paths with me like this. I don't even follow her anymore cuz she was Ellen's idea to follow like a queen or princess and I don't watch Ellen now.
Well
They were always atrocious to work with. Why ask them for anything? Supposedly, some people are detaching themselves from the experiment/'s problems.
Like, I'd wonder why am I in trouble when it's their fault experimenting on me in an un-ideal way, without understanding.
I enjoyed some of life during this very much but mostly not. Primarily before I was in trouble. I don't think this was allowed to happen. I think my dad went out of control.
I had already given them a warm invitation to leave, but now I've met people. That just puts another issue into perspective. I think it's fun when I'm not in trouble, but they think they can just go insane, or my dad, and curse my present life. They have so many weird problems. They never were "above" me.
I found my career path was a big problem, cuz I lost it. Now, I have found an improvement of one. I have one thing to deal with, and that is that I got to take violin kinda by accident in my past and now I feel something of a virtuoso in 3 keys considering I'm not advanced.
Like, I'd wonder why am I in trouble when it's their fault experimenting on me in an un-ideal way, without understanding.
I enjoyed some of life during this very much but mostly not. Primarily before I was in trouble. I don't think this was allowed to happen. I think my dad went out of control.
I had already given them a warm invitation to leave, but now I've met people. That just puts another issue into perspective. I think it's fun when I'm not in trouble, but they think they can just go insane, or my dad, and curse my present life. They have so many weird problems. They never were "above" me.
I found my career path was a big problem, cuz I lost it. Now, I have found an improvement of one. I have one thing to deal with, and that is that I got to take violin kinda by accident in my past and now I feel something of a virtuoso in 3 keys considering I'm not advanced.
"Just say it," "right now."
They are taking away my rights to talking to others, but they don't seem to always realize that other people are getting to talk supposedly or someday they say sometimes and not suffer what I do.
Listening
I am listening for the truth so I can filter it out when I lose my anger trigger I had since starting to watch The Ellen DeGeneres Show.
Tuesday, May 31, 2016
Ellen DeGeneres
She is mad at me in ways that don't make sense. I was testing her validity and truthfulness.
I just had to post about this.
I found 2 people I liked in Europe, both female and older. One was not as much older than the other, both could be my mom. Because of Ellen DeGeneres, everyone has Bella Thorne as the hot potato to steal me getting attention the right way. The younger person was like, "Oh, no, you did not just do that!" All I said was Bella Thorne was more supported in her relationship than me, like the people around who know. Now, the other person from Europe has to do everything the 1st person did to "stay cool." Well, Bella Thorne is still here stealing my esteem and pleasure I earned in life. Ellen DeGeneres is waiting to fight me. I know she has tricks and gets more of what she wants in ways.
Also, I'm on ignore to a degree when I come home by someone who lives here, also old enough to be my parent. Apparently, people were scared I thought I was something. They made everyone be as nasty to me as possible like that's okay. Well, no, it turned into a trick even more.
Also, I'm on ignore to a degree when I come home by someone who lives here, also old enough to be my parent. Apparently, people were scared I thought I was something. They made everyone be as nasty to me as possible like that's okay. Well, no, it turned into a trick even more.
Twitter / New Audio of Me Singing
@TheLauraBretan Here is my audition + Nessun Dorma like Laura!..https://t.co/a9y1PAhoca— Christina Barrett (@Chris1986USA) June 1, 2016
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"Concert Classique - FREIBURGER BAROCKORCHESTER - FESTIVAL D https://t.co/i7lM2JsTog via @parisiensortie" Simply best - Bach + Handel. 💒 💧— Christina Barrett (@Chris1986USA) May 26, 2016
Certain Floridians are Formulated
They are casual people but eye me with a stern look if I indicate some joke about being moved along regarding "work."
Ya'll (Not Indicating Names)
If you don't have it, don't worry, you don't get that certain prize, anyway.
Open the Floodgates to Heaven! Ehehe!
I see other people getting something I could have been happy with. What's wrong now? I'm drained and unimpressive? I get things, and some things get taken away, too. It's funny what people get. I know cuz I was considered worthy as a person to try. Hell, Orlando!
Sad to say, but for me it's..
..summer break!
In the fall and spring, I plan to be in the orchestra at Rollins College, which ranked #1 in the South as a college. I don't have to pay nor enroll.
In the fall and spring, I plan to be in the orchestra at Rollins College, which ranked #1 in the South as a college. I don't have to pay nor enroll.
Well, it's official. I'm allowed to be in the Rollins College (was ranked #1 in the South) of Central Florida orchestra. I don't have to pay anything to be in it.
I also bought Rosetta Stone online access in German levels 1-5 for $180 as opposed to $500, on sale Memorial Day. It's on sale at BN as a CD it so happens until like June 10th. I am getting a new Windows laptop so I can do Rosetta Stone on it and access iTunes, etc. I already own a working Google Chromebook, which has worked very well. My old Windows tablet laptop touch screen slowed down, tho, or something like that.
The best experience I had I know in music was my college Loyola University New Orleans's University Band. I played bells, as I had in 12th grade. As a pianist, I don't get around as easily, but I have accompanied and played with others for awhile. I've kept up my music skills by going back to singing after wanting to be an movie actress/model. I did Broadway singing on my own. I've wanted to be a singer since age 5. I wanted to play flute when I was about 6 or 7. I wanted to play piano just for fun. My parents/dad got me in lessons at age 9 1/2. I started choir at age 8 mostly until college for church. I got to take organ when I was 16. It was hard with school. I should have known to focus on my career rather than just random subjects if it was too much for me. I wish I chose a major instrument after my 1st semester, but I guess I did not know. The added history intro course in music requiring library visits was too much, tho I got an A easily. I actually did not memorize my major instrument jury, piano, because of that class. I was taking 3 private lessons instruments, like the 1st semester. I know a lotta people do actually take 2 private instruments. All the theory teachers were organists, but the college added organ special. I don't know how much money I can make as a violinist. I've been encouraged it will happen someday, several years ballpark. I think this orchestra will really help. It happens in the fall and spring, I think. I think most people who do music have some outlet of performing. I tried to make singing CDs and perform and tour, but no luck. I could learn some folk songs on the piano and sing and sell it, tho.
I also bought Rosetta Stone online access in German levels 1-5 for $180 as opposed to $500, on sale Memorial Day. It's on sale at BN as a CD it so happens until like June 10th. I am getting a new Windows laptop so I can do Rosetta Stone on it and access iTunes, etc. I already own a working Google Chromebook, which has worked very well. My old Windows tablet laptop touch screen slowed down, tho, or something like that.
The best experience I had I know in music was my college Loyola University New Orleans's University Band. I played bells, as I had in 12th grade. As a pianist, I don't get around as easily, but I have accompanied and played with others for awhile. I've kept up my music skills by going back to singing after wanting to be an movie actress/model. I did Broadway singing on my own. I've wanted to be a singer since age 5. I wanted to play flute when I was about 6 or 7. I wanted to play piano just for fun. My parents/dad got me in lessons at age 9 1/2. I started choir at age 8 mostly until college for church. I got to take organ when I was 16. It was hard with school. I should have known to focus on my career rather than just random subjects if it was too much for me. I wish I chose a major instrument after my 1st semester, but I guess I did not know. The added history intro course in music requiring library visits was too much, tho I got an A easily. I actually did not memorize my major instrument jury, piano, because of that class. I was taking 3 private lessons instruments, like the 1st semester. I know a lotta people do actually take 2 private instruments. All the theory teachers were organists, but the college added organ special. I don't know how much money I can make as a violinist. I've been encouraged it will happen someday, several years ballpark. I think this orchestra will really help. It happens in the fall and spring, I think. I think most people who do music have some outlet of performing. I tried to make singing CDs and perform and tour, but no luck. I could learn some folk songs on the piano and sing and sell it, tho.
Monday, May 30, 2016
Sunday, May 29, 2016
The *Predecessors to Us Millenials
Generation X. Their little act or game is that they are nervous but nervous to be as cool as Late Boomers. Their hormones are them thinking this and that don't matter. Then, the blame is fed to us younger generations. If something is marked off from being important, it's the existence of Generation XY. The *predecessors live. They live being *"a nervous wreck." It's always about being someone other than Generation XY. The joke is on us. When does that stop being the answer people give? Obviously, I was right that wasn't right.
*predecessor - a thing that has been followed or replaced by another (link)
*nervous wreck - a person suffering from stress or emotional exhaustion (link)
*predecessor - a thing that has been followed or replaced by another (link)
*nervous wreck - a person suffering from stress or emotional exhaustion (link)
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