Tuesday, February 17, 2015

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I am very sorry for my actions today.  Have fun with others who are ready to welcome your kindness.

I did have partially a good day but got so tired for some reason.

Dr. Phil - Facebook

The plot thickens, yet the excitement seems to be over.  They have yet to learn that life is 1% inspiration 99% "perspiration."  It's actually as simple as making a few positive -permanent- changes.

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I've behaved my way to success my whole life, but people just want to tell me I can't be anything because I have a boring, Chinese side.  I don't linger on these things.  I identify them and then go away and live it up, so to speak, with or without public attention there!

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I believe that the destination should be longer than the journey. :)

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The good you do is like keeping up the good work, like staying fit and exercising.  Part of that is getting up and doing more things for yourself..  Life.. 99% perspiration 1% inspiration.  I've had enough inspiration.  I have a life of perspiration.  I don't know what lies "at the end of the rainbow."  Also, exercise is 30 minutes a day of keeping your HBM at the high altitude of your age range.  That is what is required to live an honest, healthy life.  I did that thru running outside, running on an indoor track, running on an eliptical, or doing the tredmil.  Try and do it without food and you fail.

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People tend to know about me without having really been "friendly."  I've had boys I liked abandon me, whene everyone else used to find me very attractive and "above it all," tho I don't understand the veracity of that judgement.  And those boys are playing around whether or not they want me, some/one.  They don't talk to me.  I consider that stalking.  Following me but not talking to me like a person would.  We had some bad past, not sure if the memories are done.  The boys who talk to me in private who aren't like me but want me are getting more demanding and violent-seeming.  I feel my dad is stalking my mom but that other people are mean to him.  I mean, if I am bad, my dad privately beats at my mom..  This must have gone on for at least about 20 years.  I want them separate.  I swore it on the Johnny Depp board of IMDb.  I hope this post is helpful.  Stalking is a commmon term.  People, they are so self-righteous.  I think the girl on your show today was stalking that teacher.  Try to talk to her and see she does not open up yet begs your attention.

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on his wife's 5 lessons in marriage

That's wonderful!

Monday, February 16, 2015

I realize I am not a native of New Orleans by any factual means.  I am a native of Florida.
People are suggestive to me cuza how they're treated.
I feel like people are jumping from toe to toe around me taunting me that they're someone else.  What I said was I don't think I should be in trouble for if a curse word comes to mind by accident.  That's rather insulting after I've been insulted.  I guess I could try and not recognize them.  That's not what I was aiming for.  I should just go on and ignore this stuff.
I hope you're not rounding up all the people on my good side to go against me.

cont.

I mean sometimes it's appropriate, nothing to linger on.  I ain't listening to the people bothering attacking me during the day.  It's not like I had to write it down.
I don't give a bats*** about the language I chose to use.

On My Part

I believe I do have wayward thinking.  It's the thought police, too.

My Moral and Religious Creed

If some thought confuses you and puts you in strife, you're supposed to be understanding cuz it's not supposed to be like that.
Sometimes, I complain because I am deeply cut.
Decided Saturday.  Inspired.  :)
Want Music Ed now.  At a 2-year college.  Til a DME.  Instead of just an AA in General Studies like before for now.
Sorry @ this morning.  Do what you all want.
People are eager to know I get no.
You're still open for others to do what I want.

And to anyone I meant no offense.
It wasn't like this before.  Why be bad to me?  Don't threaten me for not listening to that which is unnatural, people.  I see you being sneaky and taking what I have.  And I see you being sneaky about the n word thing.  Saying that means something bad for me.  Why so big a deal just for me and when I was called not white and they wanted me to do it to them?
What is fueling this person to feel better over me and identify herself as me but whence I suffer?  I try to like totally ignore it/the person sometimes for whatever did things to me.

Quite a morning.  People driving by.
Why is Ellen DeGeneres more comfortable than me in going with the flow and being accepted for it?
Ever heard of "the single's bars?"  "Single's Bars" is in a song of All Dogs Go to Heaven..
See, they don't even know why they're not talking to me.  "You do the crime, you do the time."

cont.

It's okay if they do wanna be famous, but  not like that.  That's up to you to wanna see..
If my old friends were and will be or are rude to me does not seem to matter to anyone.  Maybe, they weren't really -my- friends, tho I liked them.  Seems attractive people are stuck up.  Not sure if they have friends.  "Blood is thicker than water."  I don't wanna see attacks on things I did in Orlando on the big screen every movie I see and be cursed at for talking to them too much.  I was in Orlando.  They didn't answer and say stop.  One did say stop once.  It didn't sound natural, tho.

Understatement: "Blood is thicker than water."
I just looked at the profiles of 2 old closer friends.  I find them judgmental with wishful thinking of exterminating my happiness.

Edit

I moved Facebook up on the side of the blog.
The world is not supposed to be at a standstill because I am not born in 1997 but, rather 1986.

New Photo Album of Me! ...Me! ..Me!

Facebook
I just m**********.  I don't like to do it cuz I did it once.

New Audio of Me Singing

New Twitter List

Impersonal Posters - Sarah Brightman

Crush

I've had a crush on the guy in Titanic, the bad guy, for awhile, must have been at least a year.

New Twitter List

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2 people who post fluff

Sunday, February 15, 2015

Apology

I don't mean to go blaming people who are nice to me.  I didn't mean it in that way.  I went to go change what I wrote, but I know it's already out there.

We Are Called





Dr. Phil - Facebook

They expelled me from going to college, said if I step foot on that campus I will be arrested. I was taking theater from a teacher I liked, 3 classes in a row. She said I went to the bathroom too much and wanted me out. I called the police waiting with my therapist, and I was locked up in a mental hospital for a month.

This sounds like a good show! :)

TV

I will try to catch Ellen more but haven't been lately and probably can't tomorrow but hopefully the next day.

Dr. Phil - Facebook

My problems all come from secret messages like pounded or thrown at me.  I don't cause myself unusual problems - I am not one pathetic little individual.

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My problems won't stop from others, like my dad, Ellen DeGeneres, my dad's oldest sister, my dad's mom.

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I know, it's a key to a relationship of good exchanges.

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Some people say 16 and out, so no.  I just e-mailed at 18, no blog yet.  I feel I am behind in the world but you know not really.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: Is there anyone here without any white blood?

I can't compare myself to others without white blood cuz I'm mixed and I can't prove anything about not having white blood or something like that. Hence, I don't know if Chinese is white. ðŸ˜¤ 
Why did people know I'd get in trouble?
having a lolly night

Ate

whole cooked. zucchini 3I

cont.

Of all the people in Titanic, he is strangely attractive in his actions and is English.

Saturday, February 14, 2015

Crush

I have a crush on past appearance of the bad guy in Titanic (1997.)

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: I don't want to age.

As I was jogging, I realized as the universe expands it is probably also compressing. There has to be another dimension. I have seen and heard things, magic or that which is not alive.

Sounds like it. 
People with dark hair have big noses.

TV

Titanic! Just started I see..

Robin McGraw - Facebook

Beautiful eyes. A lovely growing family of blondes. :)

Dr. Phil - Facebook

My posts tend to follow the base symptoms of the world. I post all day every day on Blogger it feels.
Everyone sees me and goes, "Mama, Mama, Mama!"
If I did everything I was supposed to, why am I in Hell on the popsicle pyramid?
I don't need to "hit that bass" when my reputation is all C's and above and my race = F.
I will not be told what to do by any older person.  That's just stupid.

IMDb - The Soapbox

What is Ben like?

What does he look like?

What does he do?

What is his personality? 
I meet these people via social media, and my dad takes it away.

IMDb - Ellen DeGeneres

Kids! What's the matter with kids?

If she chose not to have kids out of fear of the world or anyone for that matter, make sense? it's interesting the things she brings others to come to. I think she's too concerned about discipline when she doesn't practice it-like with kids or people who work for her in a more office-like setting.

She finds everyone in the world incompetent but cannot express exactly what her perfect world would be. What are all the things that would be in a world made by her and how would she be able to make something like that?

She is not better in every calculated way than every other individual in the world as though it's stupid not to be famous. I'm sure there are many people who would love some fame, in fact, but they can't seem to find it. They live with a network of relationships, but some don't because of bad schools and bad classmates.

As for her being so basic in her ideals in pleasurable ways to others and herself, lotta people see more in life than looking like a basic Barbie doll, typical blonde hair, attractive nose, and sparkly eyes. Round head, 2 ovals slitted for eyes, ya ya we know that. Isn't this her grounds for not trusting in the world and how we all think?

I'd like to say I'm more of a faithful citizen than other legends like her insofar as tho I also look very "symmetrical" I do not say everyone should be droids or something.

I'm saying, if she can't be trusted with kids, why do "kids" or teens rather wanna see her become President, for instance?? Would you like it in the same way if I did?

What place is she in her mindset to be racist to people like me who are 1/2 Chinese, like we "want" tackily? She revels in her mom's Ashkenazi Jewish last name like she's so different and yes she is very special in a good way.. but if she wallows in it, then she can't bring others to wallow with her cuz she chose to wallow rather than fit in. Get it? I'm not trying to be insulting, but you might figure it somewhere.. I'm not! How can she dictate along with others that Asians can't be treated as white? Or is it just me? I am more competent than most people in what I say and what I've just said. You would think it was all connotations of stupidity.

OK, I've said what I've said, and I mean no offense. Really, have a nice day! ðŸ˜ƒ Follow me on my blog and try to engage in it. The offensive part is because of things like that I care about her and maybe she would think I didn't or something. It's just I'm talking like what goes on in my thinking rather with the idea I'm not really being that negative. 
I would be welcomed warmly if I weren't 1/2 Chinese 1/2 white.  Like a nice smooth oh hi Josh Groban.
Some people don't understand the unfortunate.  "Why aren't you tall?  You're skinny, tho!"

Facebook Messaging

Friday 4:51pm
hello
15 hours ago
hi
12 hours ago
how are you dear
7 hours ago
hello christina
about an hour ago
gud u
am fine
and nice to meet you
hello
hello are u at work or sleeping
hello are u at work or sleeping
I'm preoccupied. What else do you have to say?? about anything.
All you boys are all the same.
One of the unfriended me when I was interested in getting back with him.
You all act like Johnny Depp.
Jittery and agitated.
hmm
please sweetheart
You're weird/
i believe that my instinct is what makes me who i am today
But you're not talking about anything and you keep buzzing at me and taking awhile to respond even that.
am know more a kid
Well, tell me when you have something to talk about.
trust me ,b=====by

Dr. Phil - Facebook

Just how popular?

Johnny Depp may appeal to kids.  With adults, it seems they all wanna prove they can be as good as he is.  Wondering how he gets around, exactly.

Dr. Phil - Facebook

I sure am sorry for that guy for losing his dignity, but I still see him with dignity as a person because life is unfair.

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At that point of independence from life, I'd be in a job and I'd scrounge to make it thru.  I am gonna get an AA at a Community College in General Studies.  It will be a task riding a bus.

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Phil & Robin

Hip Hip Hurrah!  You're a #1 couple!

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20/20 Diet #1 Seller

I love the 1st 3 sections.  I am looking forward to going in and tackling the rest!  I have a feel I'm trying to follow a diet like it, already.  To me dieting is fasting.  I can't wait to see who gets to talk about it on your show.  I could use some detox.  I think it will take more than 20 days for my particular case.  xp

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Arguments need to be solved on a special blog to toss your life's problems at.  Relationships - it's too bad I don't have any.  I have ones I've made by going online but not seen IRL.  No one ever said I was a dependent and they were my parent and I can't say to a stranger, "Why are you looking at me?"

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(mental illness in a spouce not told earlier grounds for divorce?)

It's not something to get all uppity at - I was diagnosed and don't believe it and they just treat me like I don't matter and I'm not smart..

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There are places where you can go to to cure this, not like schizophrenia which you always will be labeled as by those you know.

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I feel the same way about having kids as you seem to be about grandkids - cute, smily, sorta coasting thru life with their best foot forward.  I noticed that in them.  You have #1 grandkids.  I believe they love you dearly and deeply.  You'r a lucky man!

Friday, February 13, 2015

This is cute.

eBay

Today

I am a bit drowsy in an unconscious way.  I wanna clear the laundry and dishes.  I'm just rereading my blog.  Getting enough activity is needed as much sleep.  I just feel so beaten down.  Like, I'll think of those punishment secret messages as I work or get stiff folding laundry.
I just want the feeling I am good.  I wonder if it started with my aunt cuz my cousin influenced me not to be as inhibited.  Our aunt used to always curse at my cousin, and now she is mean to me secretly, nonsensical and petty.  No pun intended, she curses herself.

See, it was always about my cousin until maybe later.

New Videos of Me Talking


Submission to Dr. Phil

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New Dr. Phil Submission

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I'm getting used to lots of things.

Like laundry on time.

I can't get to sleep.

I'd better shower.  Skipped 2 days and found a spider.
I feel as though people are taking from me.  Like, I'm outlandish to want something like affection.  Not saying anyone has to give me any, but they can't stop someone from giving it for no reason..

New Twitter List

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What are you supposed to do on Twitter, anyway?  Post useful things or lots of things - useful things.  I have a blog for splurging!!

Dr. Phil - Facebook

response to fan

Thanks for letting me know again not to do weird things and to see that my dad does the best he can, however crass he is.  I don't want to be related to my parents in certain ways.  They fight over what to do with me secretly.

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We are all getting older, and our bodies are dying.  We can "take a leap of faith" and find ways to stay more pumped up or trembling with life.

If someone likes to drink is up to them, but at least get up to greet the day, live in tidiness and send your kids off the right way.  They are gonna need you less and less..

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response to fan

Well, people need to do what they want.  I'm not sure if the case is the same for everyone.  I feel the barbarians have taken over with the sound of mind, a different twist on things.

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I wonder if he has an irritation for being manipulated or outright controlled even..

Also, he just got done doing some shows with 1 a murderer and 2 a black rapist.  The 1st turned himself in and got 27 years, and the 2nd got life.
Well, Nite!

Dr. Phil - Facebook

My dad is rough. He said his dad was very bad and an alcoholic. I don't think he was able to do anything technically unusually illegal. I'd say my dad is harder to grow up with, at least now.

Thursday, February 12, 2015

Edit

last post on Valentine's

Dr. Phil - Facebook

I don't have anyone but my stuffed animals.  But you all have a good one!  ;)

Robin McGraw (blog)

Post

How beautiful!  I'm sure Phillip immensely appreciates all you do.

Your grandkids are so neat.  That girl is so cute, and the boy looks so caring, like his father/grandfather.

I am interested your other son who is my age also likes to tour his music.  I started in art young but didn't get into music until I was able to later on.  I sorta dropped interest and can't seem to get to where I was.  I was planning on touring, msyelf.  Let me guess, your son is a pop musician?  Sounds good.  Pop music is so much fun, especially if he gets into Euro, or European Pop, some of their bests..

Robin McGraw - Facebook

He's pretty sweet! I think it was very creative.     I used to do a lot of crafts as a kid and got crafty a lot thruout school. This is just so cute!

Robin McGraw - Facebook

Valentine's Day is a lot like Mardi Gras.  The people with ancestry in New Orleans to whatever degree hold it very dear.  I'm so thankful you've brought the spirit of Valentine's so much!  I like to see it in a contemporary way and got Sponge Bob cards for my fam..  What I mean is more a classical contemporary feel, like those modern ads you see of business offices, those inspirational movies that we used to supposedly have.. like those 2 things combined.  I think that movies have died along with MySpace and the alternative rise of "Facebook," which I have grown fond of having yet again.  I've had like 100 accounts.  I've changed my # twice for it.  I don't really seem to use Twitter, anymore.  I used to read Ellen there, but she just posts fluff.  Know what I'm saying?  I like Dr. Phil's take on reality.  They wanted Ellen for President, even, so I wonder if they'd want Dr. Phil to work for world peace!  I guess Valentine's is also like an Ellen day.  I've been in her studio audience twice cuz we got a pass to come back for the Christmas "12 Days of Giveaways" prizes.  I didn't get any regular shopping gift cards that day, tho, but that's cool.  Funny the plane ride was more expensive in the winter.  So, Valentine's is like Elle cuz they're both love fluff and something everyone celebrates.  What about Mardi Gras?  Ellen is New Orleanian.  I too from living there acquired a "Southern Drawl."  Floridians apparently have a talent for breaking up what they say.  You know, it is cold enough to go ice skating for Valentine's, whether you can do it or not..  I know when I was little, people loved skating.  I was born in 1986, so this would be 1988+.  There's this rare or maybe known stop motion animation.  It has all the holidays in it.  It's about the Easter Bunny, tho.  LOL.  I also had the one about Rudolph and the New Year.  Tim Burton was all up into the animation things.  So, 1 is Rudolph and the Shiny New Year.  The other is Here Comes Peter Cottontail.  There's another cartoon I don't know the name of, too.  Anyway, if ya'll have grandkids in the family this should do good.

About the blog post, yes, I find everything takes planning and a gradual completion of those steps.  My life sometimes gets better and in some ways gets worse.  I am always treated like I'm bad, but sometimes I can also see the silver lining.  I dunno, drinking ain't bad, but I don't do it.  I'm always in trouble for something or nothing.  I try to achieve, but people just tear me down.  They go into things that I do that aren't "perfect" but don't care if others have it easy with their hard times when it comes to others.  So, the blog post is a good testimony in my eyes.  It reminds me of things that once were, that good behavior guarantees a positive response.  :(

It looks like Robin modernized up Valentine's Day, as well!  Nice Blog Post!

I guess my Valentine's day will revolve around candy.

I hope my post is okay and of a related interest.  :) <3  Happy Valentine's!

Being Happy Takes True Grit | ROBIN 365

Being Happy Takes True Grit | ROBIN 365

Dr. Phil - Facebook

flushing system of alcohol

That's cool, like the 20/20 Diet! It would help temporarily just like flushing out your eating system! A lotta work!

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flushing system of alcohol

That reminds me of how gymnasts and ballerinas eat.  Gymnasts tend to gain weight, and ballerinas tend to get cancer? or move on to grapic design as a career.  I was a gymnast as a kid but didn't go every day, but anyway I ate a lot after I had gone on this diet at 16-19.  I don't know where my system is, but it left me with a lotta addictions.

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Wait, "take it back" as in take back what you said or regain power?  I will make myself to take power over mistakes and silence myself.

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drinking score: 0%  I got 0%. A lot of those things apply were you to take out the word "drinking," but I don't drink.  I think I'm getting better at tempering my s** needs thru m..

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mother has son from "riches" to "rags" battling aloholism living in woods

He decided to do that to be cool.  It's probably not a flat out addiction.  Same with living in the woods.

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Phil's Valentine's to Robin

She is awesome!

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How precious!

(I thought of something interesting:

My family is divided. 3 people on my dad's side including himself studied psychology and my old best friend and another friend who roomed with another best friend. My mom was supportive of my hatred for "clinical psychology." I was taken to the counselor probably just for fun if you look at the big picture. No one would ever touch me. I could not understand it.

Anyway, to make my point my point, I don't trust psychologists at all.. I think if they saw someone like the child or grandchild of a celeb, they would blindly say they don't have a mental disorder whereas a "sheltered" "boy in a bubble" (girl in my case) Eurasian or biracial child .. isn't! And it is white, it's Chinese. People overlook me and pay more attention to those who are full Chinese. I even am Chinese Indonesian and have beautiful Chinese Indonesian "cousins" out there I get pictures of once in a blue moon..

I'm saying I don't trust psychologists because if they saw Dr. Phil's grandson, precious, the only reason he would not be diagnosed like I was would be because he's the grandson of a celeb. They wouldn't even analyze him on the start.

Why would they diagnose me? I'm precious, too!)

What kind of problems would they have? The fact that I'm closer to Dr. Phil than he is? (I'm sorry I said this, I guess it just processed like some kinda math. Does he want to be closer or is he already? Does he wanna get close to someone who's not related?) He's my #1. So what? My mom hates on me with a passion in secret message when she feels like it. My dad doesn't even think I'm white, obviously. They sneak out, like my mom, and live it up other ways..

Thank you for replying. I hope my post was okay and insightful. I did mention their grandson, but I just think he's so cute! *rubs noggin*
Who knows who's really #1 in Phil's life? Maybe he has more than 1. :3

I hope this post was okay, just complimenting and making related conversation.

What I Should Have Said

"Who is #1 is" not to imply who it was.  If I answer back, that will do, but what I said also seems informative, being that it's past.  I'm sure he has more than 1 #1.

Dr. Phil - Facebook

Ow Ow Ow - I wonder if drinking is only for the privileged who can enjoy it with s**?  Just wondering.  Relying solely on drinking does not suffice.  I personaly am not comfortable with s** with a lotta guys, but sometimes I arouse myself.  I used to do it more, but I can't now for some reason.  I don't drink, neither.

OK OK

I just m********ed and couldn't pee with a big belly.

New Videos of Me Singing



Update

Race - ? 50% Chinese 40% Irish 10% German ?
Do you know about not feeling good to get more attention?

Robin McGraw - Facebook

Christina Barrett LOL so you're Dr. Phil's wife doing art, and I'm an artist publishing a psychology book!   
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Apology

I didn't mean to say I meant you as in singular when I said I wouldn't forgive for emotionally attacking me.  I don't wanna indicate who it is, not sure if I should.  I can say what I think is the right thing.  I didn't call anyone any names.  I was attacked.  I want to discuss things I don't forgive.  No one person supposedly full out did that deed.

Disclaimer

I guess it just came out, I am fine if Dr. Phil's #1's does not include me.  ;)  That's why it came out.  It's okay if it's not so.  But he's my #1.  I'll wait and see if I get a reply and answer, I guess.. you can see my Edits on there, too.  Also, they have 2 kids, so maybe they don't have 1 #1.  I was wondering if his grandson was his #1, but maybe that topic shouldn't be.  I dunno!  "I'm so confused!"