Thursday, September 11, 2014

Watch this.

Ellen goes along with the crowd and is like, "Okay," to my old best friends, *beep* what's this?

My X Best Friends

They were not nice.  It's so annoying that all the movies are about them.  I was desperate and kept e-mailing, but they didn't say anything and wouldn't give me a reasonably timed response.  They've been bad!  Real bad!  But do they pay?  No.

Why do people care

what my dad thinks of me?  I'm trying to get away from him.

How am I going to solve my problems?  What if everyone is like him?

I can't live in a world

where people trash kids.

Are you scared

of Ellen DeGeneres?  Do you mean what you say..?

A Weird Thought

My behavior has been pretty appropriate most all my life.  I don't like people suddenly attacking me.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Anyone have Family Problems?

Like, when your parents get to close or make you think of curse words? My family care if I think of a curse word or something disagreeable. Then, I get punished.. I don't like it. They can't control me. I'm 28, and I was always good and didn't need their supervision. They started attacking me acting like I'm bad all the time. I come in all good and something happens. They blame me.

Check out this:

if you want

link

My family was on top of things, but now like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp are the ones being overly protective over their children and rubbing off a certain way..like my aunt who's born in 1960 promoting her child, her daughter, when she usually thinks she's bad and is disciplining her..I mean like saying hey we're born around 1960 and here are our kids.  You're not allowed to know my mom's age, but you can guess.  She's Chinese-Indonesian and my dad is born in 1950.  Then, there's Ellen DeGeneres, who would naturally and we'd have to let her take to the side of people like them as opposed to seeing anything like that in me.

I will not accept the fact that like my aunt is so gleaming about being on top, like her goal was to say she was above my family..that people like Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, who used to be humble, are now overly ambivalent for their children and sucky to people like me, telling me I did something I shouldn't have that's any of their said business.  What about me?  Why should I care about anyone if most everyone I see is shitty to me?  Well, some people have made an effort.  What do I think of the people I mentioned in how they treat me?  Best not point to what that would say!  :(  But it's something to notice and say.  What they treat me like.  They may not have had perfect lives, things got in the way.  But it's not a scramble for actors to get their children above all others.  Most younger parents don't do that.

Before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory in 2005, my family was on top.  There's no shifting places.  We were nice, well-liked so much, so respected.  Now, life is dirt.  Life is dirt.  So, whoever is responsible is looking for trouble.  Hope that I mean no offense.

I'm not one of those people who is trying to make a monster of anyone.  I mean being boastful about their kids and not accepting you.

Auditions

What I'm Doing Maybe - link (Charlie and the Chocolate Factory)

What I Was Gonna Do (From Them) - link (super short)

I should do both to meet the time requirement..

Apology

I like when you like to make pictures for someone to get a rise from them.  I just found it extremely self-cenetered, but what would you expect to have to be?

Update

YouTube layout

Edit

I made Ozma of Oz my new profile pic.. link

Book

I'm picking up this: link.

It was on "The Ellen DeGeneres Show," today.

People for Someone to Talk To

I was wondering if Josh Groban likes David Foster a lot.  He needs people there for him.  I think I'm pretty entertaining and can hold up.  He just has to realize both of those kinds of things.

TV

Well, I'm on the Wednesday episode, and I saw Ellen in the Nikki Minaj video.. and I'm like wow she's so hot and whatever that is is too good for me and not something like I should be the 1 dealing with.  Maybe, I can be hot, too.. but I mean I'm like wow this woman is amazing.  Look at all she's put into this.  I hope that this is going out to people and that she has fun more in whatever ways are right.  I mean, this is like precious, Ellen dancing out in shorts to a girly girl music vid?

Okay, okay.. ?

Also, I love Nikki Minaj's shirt.  It's like the 1 I wore to my 1st dance when I was 11 in 1997.  It, however, had a zipper at the top with the collar-like thing hanging out.  So, it's long sleeves and white.  The long sleeves are supposed to be *** inducing, in fact, and the zipper is supposed to make it for the day and age.  It's almost like the way old times fell apart, like farms and all the healthy food that kept them going so much.

So, people, please watch precious Ellen.  She only comes around once.  Get your daughters to watch and sometimes your sons.  I'm hooked every day.  I record it and you can fast-forward through the commercials.  Part of it is just a band, so I mean you don't have to watch that.  I mean, you could or should, but like I dunno the show just seems so long and like I wanna play.  I do like watching it, I mean, but I mean I'm not saying I like watching it more.  This is just a tip if you don't like zonking out to TV for too long in things that might make you feel shocked, like.  Not sure what most people watch on the TV.  So, the total time skipping commercials may be around 45 minutes.  Minus the band might be 40 minutes.  That's pretty good.  I just, tho, have this feeling I need to move on in my life, as well.  I want to accomplish something before I die.  I mean, the show is good, but I want to be a performer, as I have my whole life.  I've done performing things and still want to perform in the classical arts.  I don't have the money to take private ballet and stuff, but I do sing now.  I need my body in shape before I do ballet, probably, and I'm getting there.  I use my money to go to Disney about each week, tho, and if not I use extra money to get necessities at the store.

So, I love lounging around and catching the show, too, but it'd be great not to be at home doing "nothing."  But I've been posting online this whole time, too.  I'd like to work or go to school.  I'm gonna just stay home and try to get in shape for acting.  My hair is still short from being shaved.  I like it curly, too.  If I dyed my hair, it'd look fake and the roots I'd have to deal with.  I am gonna try to go out in the sun or something.  Maybe, soak in the bath.  Right now there's a spider, though.  :(

So, plan your life well.  Be able to do things like catch "The Ellen DeGeneres Show."  Post about it online.  I know it seems like old news, but you don't see how important it is for you and how we all hold up for you cuz it's made for you.  If you post online, the show will be even better.

TV

So, I was watching Ellen today, and I got to a commercial and drank some ice water.  However, I was wondering what her followers are up to.  Some people watch her every day, the way I watch Forensic Files but don't post online and most everything else if I ever watch.. animals, aliens, monsters, ghosts.  But with Ellen, I HAVE TO HAVE TO post about it online.  I'm very interested in her and the people on her show, but I think it needs to step up some.  I mean that in a good way.  Like, I wish people on her show felt even more special.  I guess I can see where they're coming from now.  I also wish people would use my forum.. I should have an Ellen topic or board there.  :|

As far as following Ellen, I mean I just want to see the show.  I did not watch the music yesterday nor the 1st ep. in full on TV..  I might have ADD or maybe Ellen has bigger fans out there who don't show.  I admit I wish that like she look at my blog once a week, which isn't much.  I used to e-mail and get so frustrated no one wrote back like as fast or whatever so I could think of more to say cuz I'd read an e-mail and it's like reading nothing.

So, I will still try to not make my blog as negative and see if I can avoid thinking it important to put down bad stuff.  As for like if I could talk to Ellen I dunno I mean maybe I could be on the show someday like everyone's dream but not a big deal that I'd have to be, I mean, but like what if the ideal happened and more people got together, like famous stuff, like with Tim Burton etc.  Like, Ellen does go to stuff.  What would happen is I'd go, too, and she'd remember me and her saying hi would mean so much to me, like an arts teacher I like or something..  In the end, you realize some people aren't for you in their kinda caliber and you meet other people you see more regularly.  They might be upset, but maybe you just didn't try hard enough.  Like, you should do something for people that make them want you, like selling things or hosting a private forum company online, like message board forum to talk about normal stuff or anything.  I think it would attract someone such as Ellen DeGeneres if I could ge the attention of other people 1st.  Then, I'd have the world at my feet just by me being creative and getting a cute computer "geek" to make it for me.  Like, there would be little cute things that tell you about more messages, like it could beep on your computer if you want.  It'd be designed by me probably along with the computer geek and be really attractive.  My favorte forum is EurasianNation.proboards.com.  I think it died down.  I had an account on there called PerzanKitKat05201986, and I am worried that people think I am spoofing Johnny Depp for having a French wife, like all you need is Europe and you got everything.  I'm not, I just like the idea, and he happens to practice it like against us it feels, though I'm still a big fan, maybe not the biggest but who knows??  I don't hear of Johnny Depp tattoos and posters all the time.

In this way of the forum I thought of getting a teacher I like here to post.  I wonder.. I don't have the money now.  I'm hoping to get money from being a movie extra, which is $875/day.  You know, it'd be akward and too weird if I talked to Ellen outta the blue, so I don't really wish that.  I post on my blog to the world.  I don't post just to her it seems.  I need to learn to e-mail again, might try starting with my aunt and maybe dad, but I dunno maybe not my dad.  Even though my mom is like bedridden with bone cancer, I don't think she wants to e-mail me.  (She should get better in 1/2 year with pills.)

I was telling a famous young actress I hope she gets to e-mail Ellen.  She seemed like she wanted something else.

It's sad, I don't think I should e-mail someone like Ellen if I e-mail no one else.  I always wanted to.  My blog, though.  The stuff I post online always means something, like pretty much it's entertainment, stories that are deep.  I have these comments based off the interests of the show.

About her thinking of me on the show.  All I can say is that's something she probably wants to do with people and other people should start blogging online like me.

Correct me if I'm wrong, but-

Does Josh Groban think he's better than me for being famous and put in a Muppet movie probably to annoy me .. when I'm happy for him and the others but know it's to annoy me .. the fact I've been trying to be famous and I never get picked and I can't seem to improve here?  And I guess I didn't phrase the 1st part right, but you might get the picture but subtract that I think he's mad at me?

Don't take this seriously, but us non-famous folk have opinions to laugh at-

Them thinking it's so funny and known that I wanna be known and be a performing artist?  I'm not blind.  Why can't I get the copyright and stuff to sell?  My voice is scratchy from throwing up recently.. ruined something I was developing.  I need enough sleep if I wanna feel like writing out the melody and chords myself.

Singing



So you know, I shouldn't be mad at others unless they express happiness I lost the power of my singing voice by taking a break to be a better actress.

If you think it's something anyone could do, you shoulda respected me.  You know I sound better in real life.  What does that say about singing?  What do you all think I am, some joke?  People always adored my singing!  What, now you're all too good for me cuz you have Johnny Depp and Tim Burton??

I don't know why I'm mad, but they just tilted my thinking..as I began this nice post..  :(  It makes sense.

If I say okay, I've always wanted to be a singer, then why go encourage everyone but me?  If I look Chinese, it's not my fault unless I did it as a baby?  Am I just some person you know is darker cuza race, like I'm not fluffy and white with fair hair?  I could be!  *D:  I wear sunblock when I go out.  I need higher SPF and to wear it indoors.  Next time, I will get a higher SPF.

Also

..did you just say that I crap at people?

Also, why do you make fun of me if I don't post about what you did?

Problem

They did something on the computer that I can't seem to get over, just sent a message by blinking something.  I can see it might be friendly, but I still couldn't get over when people are mean to me.

Look, I just got a message from IMDb about the Chinese.  I wanna get to bed tonight!  Why would I get a message now?  I mean as a message?  How do I know they're not jeapordizing me racially?  I'm mad!

Apology?

I do not think it was nice what said person said and did.  I am sorry if I was less than graceful in my good graces.

How could you attack me..I know it is just to be safe so you don't boil up later, which is not a good thing to have to worry about..

If you listen to my dad, I mean that's probably not a good thing.  He has some good things to say, but a lotta times mostly he's mean it seems in what he really thinks or does or means to say.  It's too bad, of course.

I'm not sure what to make of this post..

I guess what was said is sorta okay.  I do feel attacked by people in a taunting way.  You are not all "more Southern" than me and therefore cooler, not at all.  That's very mean and annoying!  :(  What does anyone make of this?  They are half asleep in heritage.  It's not like the lottery where you get specific numbers and things out.  I don't care if you're older than me.  I'm even an adult, 28.  You were mean to me.  You were not right.  You don't get that, like you're busy drinking alcohol.  :(  That's too bad, of course.

Perhaps, I'm listening to other older people and should not.  That's all I can imagine you getting from this since you don't listen, unfortunately if my writing's not cool.  I just meant like you gape at me as a lie that it's that way that I didn't listen to someone older, like that's not okay.

Message

Dear Josh Groban:

I noticed mostly your Twitter pictures 6 picture cube at the bottom shows you feel that you're beig placed with negros when you're a big talent.  I did just realize you could pretend I just harrassed you at once on purpose with your success which should be celebrated.  I only get at other people who dispresect me or who I'm jealous of..

I think all the pictures show you as subhuman, not only that but your profile picture is very scary.  It shows someone with a deflated head of some sort, no eyes even there, just ears, like you're some scary picture from a long time ago I think..

I also see it means that you're the 1 in the middle, and what was able to happen was they deflated Kermit the Frog, a costume you posted, like someone just farted.

I see the police are coming like it means they don't like what you say cuza your race, which is actually mixed race or all white.  It's like when I come up to a mean Italian.  Not you, them.

Furthermore, I did not make as big a deal about being "jealous" as thought by some..and what I do say is fact.

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Problem

I'm not loitering my blog by telling you they still have an obsession talking about someone I don't want to talk about and pretending it's overly obvious we "had babies."  Don't you think that's rather mean?  It fits a crime for a jail sentence of some sort.  Notice how other people don't have to do it.  Don't even think about making my dad happy with it.  I blame him for me being slow in homework for psyching me out with silent guilt.  He deserves a heavy punishment.  It's not okay.  I managed to take all afternoon or evening to get the highest grades and not get enough sleep.

Sleep

I slept 3 times.

2 times for 8 hours and once for 6 hours.  There was only a bit like maybe an hour in between or so.

A Bit Rude

I was trying to joke around on Twitter, but you can't even tell what the joke is..  :/

I said:

>> Why don't ya'll finally sing together? Not me, I'll get over it. ;}

I meant why don't they finally get over it and sing together.  I have some impatience with waiting for big things to happen and think I should be a part of some of them.  I was a strong singer when I was their age and still have been trying to sing again for a long time like that.  Adjusting my health is helping, but I'm no longer a teenager like 16.  What about Josh Groban?  He probably doesn't even have as much free time as a poor person.  He never took a break like me so doesn't have to work hard.  He does some things that seem extra or maybe to flavor his impressions.

:D

Depressed

I'm not depressed about me being in trouble for me not starting anything but for the fact that I'm in trouble.  I'm probably depressed anyway and felt really low without my pills.  It's just my personality.  It's taking away my artism.  The doctor won't listen to my crap, probably coupled with racism.  He just sent me to another doctor if I want to get off the pills cuz he likes me on them.  My appointment wasn't on and will be in a few weeks, so I can get a recommendation then, like my dad suggested.  I think the pills even help give me diabetes.  My mom said I did something, and he gave me another pill..  :(  They were worried I lost my female thing again.

I'd like to know more about the idea that certain things are being thought of as punishment.  The things are fine.  It's just a bit irritating.. to think that that's what it is|why.  I think it's a step up, tho, that can be agreed.  I think before it was crazy.  I think she's got something going.

Time to eat..

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

Problem

They are telling me that my aunt is telling them what to do with me.

That's it

Ellen lied, she's making fun of me

Would you say

Ellen is not better than me?
NO I SAID GET MY DAD TO STOP

:(

Ellen can't be the 1 to get all the glory and us not.
STOP TELLING ME THAT'S WHY!!!!..

Problem

They keep trying to bother me.  Now, there's a topic like that on IMDb.

Also, once Ellen made me feel something in my bust.  She's just in disgust.  How rude..  You can't just keep doing that stuff to me.  I don't do it to you.  I was upset yesterday, but you are the 1 who started it and won't stop!

IMDb - The Soapbox

Problem: They just ruined my bust.

Ellen saw I wasn't trash in how I dress and thinks I have to trade places. It feels like my flesh has folded over in a pattern like an ugly dress front with pieces folding over. 

She thinks that I have to be like bad people.

Stop being so invasive

about my family who are mean to me.  You think you've "discovered a secret" and are acting out on it.

Problem

Don't tell me to be like someone else I don't like.

My bust feels like there are layers folding funny from annoying noises they made..

I'm being told

that Ellen or whoever is going through all these expenses to do big things, like get someone clothes, just to annoy me with the message.

Problem

An English man threatened he could zone me out and manipulate me to be an ugly black person cuza my mixed race, but instead I look better so I don't see the point..

What?

You're weird..
STOP

I SAID STOP

Problem

You can't have Ellen do things to me at home via other people if I don't want to just cuz she was mean to me.

Problem

Why are people telling me I'm bad that I know?!

I also got more secret messages..

Quit telling me I learned a lesson.
:|

I told you to stop.

WHAT

They tried to make a special part my "brother."

So

I found that supposedly everything is okay, but then in the end it isn't.

Sorry I was so upset about my mom getting cancer.  I don't agree with it.  It's not even funny..  I don't get it.

Ugh!

Threw up like 5 pounds.

Sorry, I've been so scatterbrained and nasty.  Maybe, I should stop..

I don't know how to say how I feel about the things that aren't that nice.  Guess it meant something for someone.  I might still post what happens.

You're sick.

Talking to me via how my screen loads with *beep*

Don't hurt me, go get the people who did it.  I don't have to listen to anyone!

Problem

They are trying to bring my dad into my future daughter's life.  I will not allow this silliness.  Ellen comes from a *beep* culture, and I know it.  I am not supposed to have to do any of that.  My daughter will not drool over my dad.  Don't even bring it up.  It just shouldn't happen.  Go talk about it yourself.  I'm also not clocking my day out to posting your insults online.

He was just on TV now.

I think he's trying to change.  I don't really want to marry right now, actually, too, so no one would I say yes to.. but I think I'd say yes to some people in Europe..  :/  But I would worry about who likes me..  I think Leo is up there like Ellen is.  Probably wouldn't like me like that.

I wanna

be a kid and act, but should I be an adult soon?

I know his problem

He tries to outsmart people and still is growing.  I'm talking about "Leo."  I made a topic on IMDb.  Like, reminds me of how I was part of my life but not really now.  I think he's cute, but he just doesn't show it.  I don't know why.  I would like to talk to him, would be a fun thing.  I don't need to be his friend long-time, though, technically speaking.  I don't think we'd share similar interests, but there are other reasons that matter.  I am open to being "friends" with anyone, but as far as settling down, I've never been that kind of fan but remember those things.  It's sorta romantic, I was only 11 when Titanic came out.  So, I can see why I'd care about him and be interested, but not marry, not that he's worse than most other people for me.  So..

What are you doing?

Think I want to flirt about that?  That was suggestive.

Yes

I respect everyone, but I don't say, oh this is the only person I will like who I don't, etc.

You're a big

curser.  You curse things, put spells on them, and won't be right.  You're a joker.  I remain unconvinced of your respect.

So

Do you even know what's so interesting about this?

Well, you must.

I just was upset, and now you are doing things I don't like.

So what?

Ellen "is the animal?"  Rawr.

(So be it.)

What?

You just gonna grunt and squeak?  I want my life in some peace.
I told you to stop.

Mad

I never had this problem before you attacked me and pretended about what I did.
You're the 1 making a big deal out of this.
THEY DIDN'T STOP

I SAID YOU WERE WRONG
STOP ACTING LIKE I'M A SHITTY ITALIAN  YOU *BEEP*
Quitttttttt
STOOOOOOOOOP

I HAVE FRIENDS - I DON'T WANNA THINK ABOUT THIS - WHY DON'T YOU

I feel better

after eating a small meal.

Still

I do not like what you're doing.

I'm serious.

:(

What are you trying to say to me??

Sick

Why are my 2 mean friends famous?

I'm not listening to your irritations.

Thanks for not leaving me alone.

Problem

They made things so that I would coincide with someone who's annoying.  I'm sick of all these messages.  My life sucks.

Problem

They won't stop acting funny to me like I'm doing something like someone did.

You people online

longer and when younger think you have it all, but you have a mistake.  Do not push me to be something else.  Trying to track this down, by Ellen?  Ellen says this, too?  That's controversial, and I disagree you can do that.  Sorry to burst your bubble.

Edit

I edited my last post.

Problem

You think I'm unpopular cuza what others said?  You think you're "something?"

Kids

I'd like to think of kids I see as like my own.

I might wait to have kids.  ..but still I see they're bothering me.  I was just gonna talk about the problems.

I can tell it's a joke.

What am I supposed to make of it..?

Well, you just did it.

You threatened my future babies yet yourself were overly cared for.

You took a break when I said I was well-behaved yet made not to be how I want.

Why should people today who are good be treated better?

Feeling Bad

I can say I don't mean it.  What can I do about my problems?  My dad was being pretty crazy.  I just wanted my family happy..

My dad

etc. thinks too highly of himself.

I was talking about

what they were kidding about.

I just threw up everything.

Like 3 pounds.

150.0 pounds.

I wasn't being nasty.

I was just saying what happened.. I can see why now, but I don't like it..

and it's a match!

link

Problem

People are threatening to m***** me so I don't get attention from anyone I like.
I TOLD YOU NO WHAT YOU DIDN'T READ IT?

I would be..

a positive actress.
STOP THREATENING ME
IS SAID NO.

Problem

They are attacking me with more than I feel like typing.

STOP IT.

Problem

Johnny Depp or whoever just posted sliced beef.  Well, you can't go around being a lunatic concerning me.  You're just sick and seem to obviously have nothing nice to say.

That beef represents bad things, me being cut or that person having the food that Late Boomers had, nice hearty beef and all..  What about us?

Problem

I see Johnny Depp is approaching that person with positivity.  Whatever.  Thanks for treating me like a lunatic..

Perfect age for a dad?  Get outta here!

I see

Ellen DeGeneres and Johnny Depp are getting at me for not having parents from the South, unless Indonesia is the South, too.

Johnny Depp just got overly excited while Ellen just says that I'm in trouble so she pays attention to someone else all the time like.

That's just sick.  I AM from the South.  This is quite a cat fight, and it appalls me.

I am innocent.  You can't use my dad against me.  I already have posted about this enough.

Stop it.  The people experimenting on me are just being nasty.

Also, my dad was rather violent wanting everything to be about him concerning me, when I don't want to be around him like that.  He's that kinda person, and it's that kinda thing.

What I Was Trying to Do

I was tempering myself with some fantasy so that m********** wouldn't onset.

The wall was hit twice.

TV

I watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" and it was the 2nd episode of the season.

I thought Kim Kardashian needs to find something more specifically about herself to talk about with Ellen.

Was Upset

My dad made such an annoying noise in the bathtub, and it overcame me who done it.  I was so upset I thought of the word "kill" a few times, like, "Do you want me to **** you?" or "How about, '**** yourself?'"

What can I say?  It may not happen again.  I did get upset that I thought someone would give me cancer after another spell came over me.

I just feel that my life is shit, and no one admits it.  I hope to make my own way well.

Upset

They wish

Something were there naturally.
I mean I honestly think it's time to get going.  They made Elsa after Ellen just to say she was something when if she wasn't said she was she wouldn't be, she'd retreat some.  Why don't they think she naturally is how she is without need of support?  I guess it was just their way of celebrating.  Maybe, they knew it would make for a good character, but I know sometimes..

Sorry the way it sorta slammed if you knew what the connection was.. I guess I had said it right before-  xp  I so need a new phone.  I hate the iPhone.  I want 1 with a keypad..

The Opposite

Ellen DeGeneres and Nancy Grace

Nancy Grace is about like when something bad happens to your kids.  Ellen DeGeneres would rather be harsh and hard about things like that and even "ruin it" for you..

So, even if you are not ready for kids, Nancy Grace has made her life based to righting you from these wrongs, while Ellen threatens to harm this, like it's our fault we had kids.

So I Noticed

Ellen you keep taunting me like you "woulda done this" "woulda done that" if I didn't get upset at you being mean.  What makes you think you can keep thinking that way?  I've already said no.  Why do you bother talking to me?  I am appalled at your saying I "accept" my mom got cancer from you.  Well, I don't agree there, neither, so I don't know why you think to say that.  Why should I have to pick through your show when I watch for any reason of watching it?  It's just a series of insults, and I don't know if you gave me or would give me something fatal like a tumor in my brain.

Point?  Why do you use giving that girl attention like punishment and then say it's not punishment?  I say something, and you use it to say something else.  Then, you make fun of why I said it, like this is something you need to spend a part of your life doing.

Evil

"Evil" Ellen

Having a baby is a serious thing, and you better get out all these insults.  I don't want you messing up my life.  You can't do that to a person.  Stop acting like you can do that.  You sending clicks in my room and annoying messages.  I can't even be around, like, my dad, if I had a kid.  He doesn't even know!

Problem

The people experimenting on me are being mean, again.  I think it's because of Ellen DeGeneres.  We were fine before her show started.  I haven't even turned on the TV, yet.  My mom says no this isn't for fun.  I guess you can't have a reason.  You're probably just workers blood-thirsty for vengeance for my father's sick desires.  I think that action, if detected, is a crime.  I could summon the police when my dad's not home or something so they can't say I have schizophrenia.