Classical Music - "Simply the Best"

Bach + Handel are born the same year and a favorite of mine, "hand in hand."

I think their method of being popular is similar to pop music, simply, like, "I smell sex and candy."  There are simple ways to sound cute in basic ways, like in pop music to slide the note.  You know, I'm from Slidell, partly.

Learning Music vs. Singing

I took String Class for a year in college 3 days a week for about 45 or 50 minutes, I think.  I had a trust that it would be okay.  I was kinda nervous about the difficulty I anticipated about finding the notes, some.  I have a hard time now on my own after 11 years of not touching a violin.  I took violin my 1st semester because I had to.  I stuck with it cuz I was already on it.  I wanted to play viola at times.

I was in choir for 3 years in school and later just at church.  I feel that compared to a string player as a singer that I am not as reliable because conducting singers in a choir, we all have different voices, but with string instruments there are only 4 kinds of instruments or "bodies," if you will.

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A Musical Experience

I went to an event at Rollins College performed by 2 members of the Bach Festival Society.  The conductor there said I could join the orchestra at Rollins College in the fall!  I told him I only knew 3 keys.  I don't even have to be an enrolled student to join, which I am not.

The event was a performance by 2 violinists who are married, a Chilean man and a Latvian woman.  We had tea and scones with chocolate chips or berries.  I had iced chai tea.

I talked to the violinist man after and he said 4 or 5 years I can be a good violinist.

I take violin lessons and learn things on my own, too.  It's been like a month so far and "so far so good."

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Depressed

I said bye to someone as far as wiring in saying they have to be mean to me goes, but they still made my life miserable and took another step in removing the person from my real life.  I didn't mean bye for sure.  I didn't write it.  I was under pressure too much that I'd lose it anyway, but apparently they believe that I won't.

I just want to feel that my life is in order so I can rest and do things I need to do, like laundry and hopefully schooling..again!  Even just laying down to rest or leaving my room.  I just feel all I've sacrificed gone to waste.  I stopped watching The Ellen DeGeneres Show, maybe not good for me and so I could focus on not getting on the bad side of anything.  I mean, my case is pretty legit.  I don't go off and get a Disney pass right now so I can be more holistic and buy things I need and pay for violin.

I found someone I look up to, as anyone, gave my parents an agenda on how to be mean to me, bargaining with me with a possible lie that I will never escape this kind of life.  Look, my intimidating mom is just waiting around the corner, too.

My parents are supposed to be sending me off to other people!  This was not about me getting closer and closer to my family but to others I like a lot.  Ever since I was in more trouble for no reason, they made their presence overly clear.

You know, I can't figure this out.  I just wanted to feel at peace.  Instead, I'm here doing this.

If I move away for college, I'll have General Studies courses to distract me.

I'm the one who made it.

My parents may have trashed me as a baby, but I'm a person as much as anyone.

"Did you know that?"

I am respectful to my elders.

Central Florida Garbage

I'm not garbage to Central Florida, they are garbage to me.

I feel like garbage to the world cuza them.

Asians

Do Asians just want to be popular but not smart about the truth?

What's funny?

I programmed myself that, like, no matter what happened on this here earth, I would not be mean to a certain someone I had a shot at a clean record with.  Instead, I didn't win some inner fight and now this person is supposedly/seemingly being acutely hurtful to me thru others, constantly actually, but also doing something bad big if I feel upset on the inside.  This is not good for anyone.

"What's with all the hate?"

I'm not a bad, disgusting person!

Am I so acutely targeted off?

What if we did this to you?  Do you think I was the one who ruined my life??

Like, What!

Is something seriously getting in the way in my life?  People who like me have been stifled.

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It would be fun to accompany. I pretty much know the whole musical. I listened to the CD while I did homework in junior hi, too. I know one comment asked about the "score." I guess opera is more like a refined version of regular music like musical theater. I just don't understand why they never sing in a speaking range because that probably makes music like musical theater and church music what it is.

Modalities in Music

Children learn in different ways, like kinesthetic (doing,) visual, auditory, and tactual (building ideas/things maybe..)

Opportunity

I just e-mailed the church to ask if I could play violin.

I played a year in a group class in college 3 days a week.  I have been taking lessons for about a month.  College was 11 years ago.

My Supposed Place

I'm pretty sure I was ambushed from the womb that I was to be a certain somebody because my dad is the oldest and has 2 cute younger sisters.

"Getting Down"

Maybe, I will listen to adults, but I'm not someone who's badder than the rest all of a sudden.  I find I have rules by people experimenting and spying on me and manipulating my life and people in it that no one else does.

Well

I wonder about people thinking they admire me and look up to me but by finding out what I like and saying they want every one of those things for themselves but not for me too.. not for me too?  What about the saying that there's "nothing in it" to relate to me like a normal person but to take advantage of me because I don't want to sin and be mean to them.  Jesus Christ?  I'm sorry, but this is creating problems and not just involving myself, if that matters to you even..  You gotta try, try, try.  It's work.

Nah, Nah (Now, Now)

I was in Ohio and NY and I heard voices and seen a ghost!  I can totally connect to these stories on TV.

Idea

Just like voice, I was thinking of quitting and learning violin on my own rather than a 30 minute session every Saturday morning and with early bussing over 6 hours total.  I want to work at a daycare and just learn violin from the books and when I can to play in a local amateur group and maybe accompany musicals.  It would be a dream to play classical professionally but not necessarily a soloist.  I wish I could be a 1st violinist cuz I loved singing in groups, choirs, and feel like I should be given some honors because I did it so much when young.

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Does This Happen in Your Family?

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Anytime my mother tries to take me to task for something my Grandmother will say "Don't worry honey, when she was your age she used to do xyz" ruining my mother's lecture by pointing out some form of hypocrisy. Has anyone else gotten bailed out by a grandparent when getting lectured by a parent?






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Most people born right before the Baby Boomers seem to do that.

proud European + Eurasian // ½ Asian / Germanic / Anglo

Not Dealing With It / Forgiving / Trusting

How can I deal with, like, all these people I meet who are good being so weirdly bad to me?  They're just human but "by a large margin?"

Remember when we were told some people are good and some are not?  I think it's just a fad, but you can single some people out as especially good possibly for some reason or another.  Maybe, they are attractive.

Not Making It??

Do you all think you'll make it in life listening to my dad like he's popular more than me and I'm not?

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Latin Americans!

We need to see them as real Spanish people like Italian Americans are real people.  I might have some blood.  I'm not a person.  I'm 1/2 Asian 1/2 hairy Caucasian and proud of it.

What if..

What if people tried making me look different from someone they knew I'd run into?  So what, I'm an American and proud to be free.

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Music

Music

I always thought it said, "I can't see you anymore.."

Music I Grew up Knowing

easy to sing to

Music

Who I Am

I feel like a record of mistakes.

Opportunity When Being Tested

When I am tested, I feel it is an opportunity to do something unnecessary and get more of what I want and need in life.

Keep Sinning, er, Smling

Do you know that people who you like a lot are popular for acting like all the wild, confusing people who seem to have such a miserable life that they let out contradictory instructions on what to do that overcome the world?  The very likable people say, "Hey, yea, that's okay, just rattling up the tight stress and making things more comfortable even tho it's like a sin.  Let's all submit to this instruction."  Do you realize what this says?  It says, "Hey, keep sinning cuz it makes life seem easier to copy from.  Maybe, this is the right way to eventually ride into death by the time one is an old man or woman.  Hey, nothing wrong with being, like, a dump truck driver, after you've dedicated to some other path, cuz hey you know it really is okay so why not give up the other dream for something else - jump on the bandwagon too?"

I'm not trying to victimize people.  I notice this desire from a lot of things I bet.  Who fits the description in your life?

Did you notice..

Did you notice people who always want you in limbo, like what you think is never right either way cuz it's supposed to hurt you?  They just wanna keep the mystery.

Just Stay Calm

I learned ways to deal with different kinds of anger of how others are to me.  I feel like I'm 5 tho and can't seem to get it coordinated.

Turning Me On

I know people can turn me on and make me mad if they can create a pretend reason, like if I feel a little guilty about my behavior (well, inner thoughts others can detect) tho it wasn't really that bad yet to a degree.

Thinking of You

Before, I felt pushed to think about someone I like when I was able to give myself down time.

Now, I feel I cannot think of them at all because of others.

Who cares..

I bet people think who cares Christina is Chinese toss her.  That's why me having a problems blog is unacceptable to others.

I understand it sounds like a regiment to go by.  I don't think I've seen the issue solved, and I don't see how it is a real issue other than to get at me.

Also, I think that most racists are just prejudiced.. obviously.  If you're white, why not just say the Chinese don't matter but should be off-ed?  You don't have any blood or anyone to care about.  It's accepted popularity-wise.

Supposedly, I am not a person just because you decided and if considered bad say it's popular.  It's not even cuz I'm Chinese but because I'm like a kid to people who don't want me to be.  We all understand that.  It's a simple problem with a simple solution, in some ways.

Elimination!

I thought you were against abortion.

Why do..

Why do Baby Boomers think they are so much better than Generation XY?

My Identity

Why do people think I am a product of my parents and that they aren't good enough for me to be who I want?  That's far off the mark.  May as well seek out a poor black kid in Africa and ask them to lead a nation.  Plus, may as well discount all the princesses.

Having Pennsylvania Blood

It feels like I'm a dog following a bone hanging from a stick attached to my head.

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Self-Centered

Problems

This is an old unpublished post.

Others having problems with others should not affect me negatively.

Belief

Everyone has to believe I'm in the wrong.

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Get all the pieces in place.

-Sufficient Exercise
-Fasting to Healthy Foods
-Respect Your Inner Connoisseur for Food

Wrong "Punishments"

I don't like people "punishing" me when I am the one being attacked and acting like it's a part of the circle of life.

They think they are catty and solved an issue.  Well, nope.  I don't know why people venerate others in some ways.  They are trying to look good socially, too.

I don't take being talked down upon as an assumption of who I am.  Not everyone lives life that way with that sorta threat to their personal space.  It is actually racism about my mom's genes in me.  I am a successful person, but people are listening to others/someone else who I "accidentally"/whatever spammed and beating on me that I'm nothing like there's something wrong with my parents.  I'm also on psychiatric pills I don't need, which helped result in other maladies.

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Like, hard to hold onto the thought, but like trying to abuse me more emotionally.

I don't like how this is going.

So, my parents are getting into me more.. like trying to overcome my passion for others.

Pathetic

My parents took a turn for the worse when I got interested in others and left me "in trouble."

Waiting?

So, I'm just waiting abused racially?

Schedule

I may not watch any of Ellen until my busy week is over on Sunday.

Problem

I don't believe people who think you should be a series of steps without problems coming up and if you stop and think about it you're a problem.

I don't get it.

It seems a lotta people want me d**d, a little more for everyone then, just jealous because I did it but not jealous before.

Liars

They do it to save their own hide cuz they were being s***.

I just shouldn't care about anyone.  Those older adults will be there to save their hide by being racist as an excuse.

Ruining My Stay

I've been in Orlando a long time.

People just assume I am worthless cuz I'm 1/2 Asian from my mom.

Idiots!

Why are these crazy, selfish people there trying to say I am bad?

Back Talk

Do you know people who talk to you just to negatively affect the situation?

Romping Around

Do you know people who want to wake up because of race because there are things to do to beat out the Asians from being on the human genome?

Why are..

What do you think of people messing around acting like I'm bad and then I'm good, like it's just a game and neither answer is correct?  Do they think they are better than me? as well as others?

Good Girl Gone Bad?

Think of all those fools who go by the supposition I am bad in life.

Oh, yea, that's nothing.  That's the opposite of everyone else.  Let's just flip something around and all our problems shall be solved.

Comfort Inn

Why is it "in" for kids to feel comfort?

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Re: It's your choice to be offended

Not if you can't figure a way out of it. 

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Re: Women are not good leaders.

Female toddlers and young girls certainly are..were. And the bitches last in their brattiness until teenagers and young adults. 

Cool Kids

My dad says sometimes kids are silly when I was talking about someone as a kid then teen..

Older adults today, Baby Boomers, bank on the "people who are a bit younger than me," like 10 years younger.  They think they followed the real program and I'm toxic waste.

Do more people..

Do more pathetic people puncture you emotionally?

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Mario Lopez was a great personality!

The little strong African American boy was so good!  Good personal trainer to some of Ellen's assistants!

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About Mario Lopez, I like the Spanish from living in the oldest continuing city in the US and 2nd oldest, Saint Augustine, Florida.  I feel a distance from when I moved away to where Ellen is from.  However, I still can retouch some of the magic.  I never was very much made public in my interest in the Spanish nor had a very in some way intense confrontation with the Spanish.  It was a distant "relationship."  I have a stronger connection with the French, which has to be from living in the New Orleans, Louisiana, area.

Independence

Do you feel more independent of your parents or like they've "fixed" you a lot?  Like when you're inadequate or down.

Non-White Heritage

White people need to be the best at everything any race does so much they made the protocol of non-white a part of their surrounding requirements, while they coast nonchalantly dissing the actual non-whites themselves, like they don't matter and aren't "human"/"real people.."

A Strict Thing

Why would people get mad at a "child" such as me about giving attention to someone quite a bit older?

I mean why me?  I know other kids it's impossible.

The Church is Schizophrenic.

"Is The Music really praising the Lord??"

Time

Have you ever spent too much of the wrong kind of time with someone? to the point it rubs on you and you lose your identity.  Yet, you never go out of your way to see said person?  Have you??

Being Bad

Am I bad, too?

Dysfunctional

When something goes my way, logic fails around me.

Facebook

I found out I could major in singing!

I will ask them to steer me towards my true interests and may fly to study somewhere someday for a semester or something.

Altering Nature

Do you know when people say you aren't really that great all of a sudden-

Ellen DeGeneres has turned into..

Lately or Handler

always stands for what she believes in

Do you ever feel..

Do you know that feeling when a feeling, usually physical dawns on/manifests in you and you have to fight or do something, like you can't lay still and let be?  Like an inner fight of forces in your body.

It's like..

..someone ^has^ to beat me.

"Love is around."

Everywhere around me I am surrounded by depressing people.

Doing What You Should

Do you ever know you did everything you're supposed to do and the world tells you something else now that you cannot fix?

More "Southern" Europeans

I am part Southern European myself.

I don't mind them joining in on my fun, but I don't want to be eliminated.

Schedule

I don't know how often I will catch Ellen as of this past week.  I was watching 2 episodes and cut it off.. then "got sick" and threw up.  Sometimes, I used not to catch Fridays.  Pretty pathetic.  I have to do some ironing and want to watch today but unsure if I will be able to catch up.  I tried to catch up earlier, tho.

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God is great, God is good.

God overcomes us, one and all.

Looks like I missed it.

Ellen later this week

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Picked On

I still feel picked on.  I am such a nice person, but people find me who don't know me and "use" me.

Differences

We're all different.

We're not all in the same boat.

Whatever floats your boat.

The Ultimate Mistake

The ultimate mistake is to say in the end I don't get what I got in life.

Mind all the little things you do/say against me manifesting in some problem.

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How often have you seen it happen in a person?

Did you notice..

Did you notice people heave like they're saying, "Well, okay!" in a friendly yet introverted way like they're bubbling or puffing out, when someone else has taken the brunt of blame for life's challenges?.. like they're the savior?

New Picture of Me

Stealing Our Dream

People my age had a dream, some of us at least.

Did you ever see men born in the later 1950s going around acting like it has to be it for their little princess like their fair-weathered claim on how good older dads's girls had it?

I never have to ask for anything, like to be approved of.  Now, people experimenting on me are making people not accept me.  I found it "repulsive" how people demanded attention of others.  They are just messing with nature.

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