Monday, March 30, 2015

Welcome!

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I can do it.

There is no point in giving up my life for something weird.

Are people just pointing fingers at my reputation from the past as being academic and quiet..?  So what?  That has nothing to do with my personality and who I am..  Maybe, I was just sensitive then.

Not an Achiever

I have to understand in some ways I am unaccomplished and others I am.  I am accomplished in retaining myself as a person but unaccomplished in achieving.

"Being a Kid"

Why do you look at bad kids with good parents and say they are okay but not me cuz I'm also not like my parents?

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You know people who just wanna nestle in a hole at some point in their life.  Well, fat dads don't want their ballerina daughters to be fat, too, and same for fat moms, as you well know.  That's just an example.  So, why spend my life bribing I'm like my parents but in a bad way cuz you just want my parents to make you feel cozy as they are adults and not me?

Good Looks and Essence of Personality

I don't have exactly what I want and don't want to be a copy of my family.  I feel like I'm going thru a process of change, similar to others.

I don't share the same values as my family.  I feel people only want to see me as my family in a negative light.  I must be stuck with some of that, on top of the benefits I've enjoyed growing up.  I feel I've been trapped in more mature age to do things that babies do.

I feel empty like I can't do anything, can't change, can't move around, can't be attractive.  I just get seen as something else and knocked around til death.

If the problem is my parents aren't what they wanna be like, how they act and dress, I understand.  If they don't do it, that's not my fault.  I've hit the ground running.  I have needs and responsibilities in my generation.

For a fact, I want you to know a secret.  The youngest girl in The Brady Bunch only was able to act about skin deep.  She easily digressed into something else or someone else.  Now, she's from LA.

Water Buffalo

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originated in places like Southeastern China

Moonflower

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Exercise

I also did a 5-10 minute workout for my upper body/core.

Dieting

I started eating more healthily.  I had a Dole fruit cup for breakfast and my salad with no dressing but oil for lunch.  I am gonna cook seafood for a dinner.  I also have frozen Japanese vegetables, nice and healthy.  ^--^

Hair Wraps and Shirt Clips

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This is done in places like Key West.  Also, in Southern Florida they wrap their T-shirt up in a clip.  Here's a sample of someone wearing it low:

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Sunday, March 29, 2015

Let It Go - Frozen

Let It Go - Frozen

Let It Go - Frozen

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Eloquent. I'm always stuck with some sting from the past. -by me

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Hay House Daily Meditations's photo.

This needs to be done in the morning LOL. -by me

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    'Together, WE CAN make a difference...'
    Together, WE CAN make a difference...

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    'If you agree,TYPE YES.'
Sounds like a life for someone in jail or like me, always having to suck up to stay positive. -by me

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Then, someday, we will all be in jail. -by me

Saturday, March 28, 2015

Looking Back

I miss the old days when we were new to Orlando.  I hadn't gained my weight totally until awhile after withdrawing.  Things were still magic, and I had hopes for the future.  I could've gone online then.  I think Facebook became popular my 1st or 2nd year of college, but I was not in on it at the exact start of its popularity.  I might've even still been in my senior year of high school.

Girls Looking for a Challenge

You always get those somewhat intellectual men slapsticking the girls who are an overly intellectual challenge.

Men are afraid of being outdone, but they grow strong muscles and intellectually cannot seem to be gone thru to.

Mistakes

They get made in different ways, also for different reasons.

(1) It might be you're offing someone on purpose.
(2) It could be a slight, like people taking in what goes on inside when you have a right to privacy.
(3) It could be only 1 or so big things.

I do #2 and #3 in a way, and most everyone does #1.

People in Their 20s

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People make the mistake to neglect their health, which may be a bigger fallacy than withdrawing from a course in college.

People in their 30s stop to look back and wonder what just happened and what caused it to be that way.

Money can make you or take you.

They give up.

Frozen's Overseas Translations..

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Over 2/3 of Frozen is overseas sales.

"'For international success, we need to make sure we have universal [stories] with universal characters that are relatable to today’s audience,' Del Vecho said.."

"And what the “Frozen” creators found was an international audience ready for new approaches to storytelling and themes that better reflect modern life." ... "The central character, Elsa, is complex and tests notions of the antagonist. It’s a love story, but not a romantic one at its center."

Do you do this?

Fart
Grunt
Have Your Stomach Grumble
Cross Your Eyes a Little
Go Mad

I'm mostly worried about #1.

Double Standards

In the US, we have set ways of thinking programmed, but we also hold ancestry in Europe and even other parts of the world..

If you say we have to do something a certain way that is detrimental in fact, then so would you based on your argument of background.  That kinda topples over most ways of thinking.  I just can't remember what it was.

"Anything you can do I can do better.."

"1: I can live on bread and cheese.
2: Just that? So can a rat!"

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In Dulci Jubilo

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Germany

Elsa - Bad Romance

Josh Groban: a Successful Singer

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People like Christina and Eminem may be big MTV stars, but Josh Groban does classical-like music.  He could be an easy appearance on something like People magazine.  Josh was ready to fill in the shoes for Andrea Bocelli as a teen with the help of David Foster, a song writer, producer, and accompanist.  He went to an arts school.

Josh Groban on Liking Girls

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Josh Groban has been questioned this question, and he said he wouldn't be afraid to say if he didn't.  The article is from 3 days ago.

New: Racial Tension Against the Chinese/Asians

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I wonder if this includes Japanese.

This article is about San Fransisco with Asians and blacks.  1 Asian was punched to the ground, dying after hitting the ground.  Some of the victims were older middle aged Chinese people.  The article was published in 2010.

You know Koreans were also helpful in war.  The fact of the matter is there are only 4 Chinese-related Asian countries: China, Japan, Taiwan, and Korea.  Vietnam is actually an older singled culture, as for other countries in South Asia by India.

Friday, March 27, 2015

Lupines

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Kat Dennings

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She is Josh Groban's girlfriend.

Josh Groban

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He got his education at an arts school, in high school, and his career launched from there, being asked to fill in to sing with Celine Dion, a renown pop singer.

Chris Mann

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He is a celebrated classically trained singer who got his music degree at a highly prestigious university.  He was so good, he got cast in an opera in Italy upon graduating.  He also was a runner up in The Voice.

He now is touring as the phantom in The Phantom of the Opera around the US.  I got to see him perform it 3 times!

Waterfalls

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Baby Arctic Fox

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Arctic Fox/Wolf

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Social Bullying

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There are 3 forms of bullying - physical, verbal, and social.  It is the result of prolonged indirect passive aggressive behavior.

Your personal background can determine if you will be socially bullied or maybe just be unlucky in a given situation that has to do with your background.

Somewhat Lengthy Discussion on Interest in Performing Singing..

I mentioned things like that Josh Groban and the guy playing Phantom grew up playing piano.  I focused more on ballet those years when I could.  The gymnastics as a child got my voice in shape when I started singing.  I wanted to be a singer my whole life.

..They seemed happy to know I was accepted to music school in college.

Kids and Too Much School/Homework

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Kids these days do college level work, whatever that is - lecture, useless notes, and possibly text?

Kids in the late 90s don't have as much substantial work, I feel.  Homework levels pump up for some in the 2000s.

A Beautiful Flower

Tagetes Petula - French Marigold

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Welcome!

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Problem

Why is my dad sometimes acting concerned about our relationship and others acting like of course I'm in trouble still when I did nothing wrong?

Problem

Why, now, do you keep insulting me?  You can't take me away from people.  You gonna stop?  Are you threatening to do it if I still am liking someone?  I'm not listening to my oldest aunt and Gramma.

So far so good.

No more problems from me.

I dunno why I said all that.  It was that one statement with the stimulation, "No, you go back to work."  I think it made me want to m******** in my sleep.  Also, I believe it is important..  I wanted problems-free, but I guess I'll have problems even if I were living as a normal person.

Messing With Me

My dad won't quit messing with my new relationships.

Lying All Day

They keep shooting lies at me.. like "you can't pick up your baby," "I'm not gonna touch you.."  I know Ginny Kopf started this.  I don't care!  You're bad.

Problems

I met someone I like a lot, and I happened to be upset that day and posted about it on my blog.  I repeatedly thought of things to post.  My dad didn't take that and now people I find are acting like this person is getting stimulated.  I fel distanced, and it's painful.  Yesterday, nothing much happened that I remember, but my oldest aunt supposedly had her going all dizzy and saying, "No, you go back to work."

I like this person a lot and find it done robotically and even just as a check or precaution without explanation that Bella Thorne takes away all my relationships.  There were big things done.

They keep interjecting things that she says that are negative and selfishly picky, so it's probably not straight from her.

Also, it might be cuz my Gramma once acted like she said, "If it happens around something, why, then, it must be re-Lated," and that "if it happens when I've been thinking of a person (I like) that person must be a problem."

Things have been pretty good without all this.

My dad yesterday seemed to say, "I'm making so-and-so into soup and leave you in your crib.  See?  I did it."  I don't want that feeling, neither, of being stuck with my dad, like that's my message in life.  He might not think that at another time.  If I'm c***, that's not my fault.  I'm mad at my parents for that, my dad in this case.  They can't stimulate others and keep me for themselves.  I don't want him (like that.)

I will not take nor let you get away with stimulating her.  I will not take that it's over cuza something I did.  You don't lose people like that.  I think it's my dad's fault now.  My mom thinks if they said something they can't take it back.

Quit acting like me posting this is bad or you're my enemy.  I was thinking of not, but the stimulating factor is too much.  I felt like m********** while I was asleep and I feel the effects now.

You don't go and r*** someone just because they are a role model and you think they "need it," like if they're attractive.  They might be somebody's mother!  You don't just "press the button."  No, you're not getting away with this.  I don't know who did what, honestly, and I'm not threatening to hurt anyone, but justice must be served.  I can't even reverse the process and don't know what to do.  It's my skittish, drawling personality of a dad in action.  I don't know how to deal with this.  I figured I'd just not talk to others as much if possible.  I really won't take this!  What can I do?  I started liking someone, and everyone is acting like the person is being stimulated just because I posted about my problems when I met them!  I don't care!  It's not funny!

Do you wanna talk this out?  I won't accept it.  This is absolutely ridiculous.

Also, why are you so attentive to Bella Thorne and being mean to me when I mention her or think about her?  I didn't do anything bad like she did to me.  Did you know that when I was sharing something with my dad he made a noise that knocked out a part of my brain forever, the front, and right after I said Bella Thorne was being shown affection being picked up?  So, in the end, yes I am nice to Bella.  Why do you keep pushing me about how I treat her, then?

They could give me messages all day, and I'll have to boomerang back to here.

Bottom line, you don't ruin my relationship with someone just because you see me post about my problems and maybe you think the relationship is too perfect.

I know, they'll get tired of keeping this up.

Now, I just have to worry about the new inappropriate messages.  I was mainly backing up stuff I didn't write about when I tried to lay off it.  I will not take this new way of acting about someone I like!  It's not for you to monitor.

Also, I got upset the other night and now my eyes are seeing faintly in double some things sometimes.  I think Bella Thorne did it posting 2 images of herself in one picture like a trick.  Someone told her to do that to me.  Why am I the bad guy??  I don't do anything.  She did.  It's nothing to go viral about, but you tell her to be mean to me and she decides to.

Now, nothing "wrong" about what I said.  Most good people would agree or care about it.  You're just making up stuff, like I'm bad if I informed of this.  Lotta things happened, but this is bigger.  They keep acting like someone I look up to is just stimulated into a stupor.  Get it, now?  Cuz I've had to say enough.  It's time to get breakfast.  I didn't do anything to deserve to be treated badly.  It is important that I post about this.  It's not really bad.  It might not be to your liking cuz it's about what you do wrong to me, which you believe is right.  Don't just get mad.  If you wanna tell me it's bad, figure out a reason.  I should post about problems, you think just not to do with you.  I realize it's not perfect.  I am an adult, and I write my own blog.  It is not for you to edit and be bad about.

Did you know also I think my dad and Ellen and others may have made my left nostril have a whistling hole in it sometimes when I started singing lessons once?

So, another reason I posted about this again is because it damaged me.  It's for me to write and you not to bug about the fact I wrote it.  Maybe, there's a hint of an attitude but not especially.  You can't go making up stuff, neither, about what I really did and then trying to bug me about it and get all mad.  I'm sure you appreciate the news of "what's going on."  I will continue to blog freely about my life.  Maybe, this all doesn't matter, but maybe a little of it does, the stimulating part.  I feel I didn't go about saying it in just the right way, tho.  It will probably at 1st cause more stimulation, even.  I dunno.  A lot happens, and I say about it all.

I don't know about the fact that this person needs to be stimulated inappropriately and from some revoltingly, but I saw you change my life.  What's with all the good people being stimulated inappropriately?  The bad people are just losers.  Now, we have no one to talk to cuz they've all been drawn in to be stimulated inappropriately like it's funny.  I didn't say, "No, they can't be stimulated in any way," like a kid would say.

Also, quit acting like I'm bad.

I'm gonna go ahead and post this and hope nothing bad happens.  I'm just reporting and solving, not trying to even insult the bad people..

About the stimulating, I think it's important cuz it's really happening.  I am not inappropriate to deserve this annoying treatment.  Maybe, I was tired on the meds.  I thought my dad didn't even care if things were neat and tidy for me and even was silly enough to think it was bad to make myself happy cuz he thinks I'm bad.

They were just mean to me again!  They made the aura around my hands feel cross-eyed..

I see there is a point for me to post this.  Quit being irrational.  You were mean to me just because of me posting about Ellen and my problems!  Now, the world will know!

Thursday, March 26, 2015

Good night!

Prayers that people be well in the world.

Another Thing

I had to walk with a limp when I took my walk cuza my foot.  We were at the gym today.

Glamour Queen

It's not like, "Oh, Christina didn't even do this.  So this person is yours!"  What?  Someone I like I can't like?  Because of drama queenness?  I'm #1 in the ways I'm #1.  Others are #1 in their own ways.  You know, I know you grew up laid back, cozy in your den, deep seated, but you can't go and ruin the world as is socially.  "People who need people are the luckiest people in the world."  Some people have created some sentiments and regiments, and they are not to be halted.  We don't want a bland world.

Again

I'm truly sorry.  I'm sure it's been done to me by them.

What can I do?

To gain forgiveness for this accidental thought that happened too quickly?  I was being stressed out.  Someone/something just upset me.  It was wrong.  I've been very stressed out all the time for my interests recently.  People are against me deserving to think about it.

I was talking about this person..

..today, concerned.

Did you know I took action..

..and watched criminals on TV so I wouldn't become one?

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Something strange is my dad made a noise that seemed to knock out a front of my brain forever a few days ago.

Apology and Need 1 From You

I figured it was an accident or rash action sorta that I thought something that involved violence, just a tap into things, but I feel better now that I can do it in controlled quantities.  I'm just frustrated about being in trouble for nothing.  I do what I'm supposed to do.  I'm not silly.

I found when I watched Dr. Phil, he sorta sits back and doesn't remind you of things that could keep you from being mad.

Unforgivable

You adults pampering young adults who flip off your affection and leaving me to suffer cuza my race, which isn't a problem for me.

"Playing It Cool"

It's not just oh I'm cool, I deserve to be with everyone.  There's not just 2 of us in this kinda room.

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People With Things Going for Them

It's funny how some people all have something going for them.  Like, oh, I happen to live in Europe.  I happen to already be a child actress.

I wake up or whatever, and what do I have, I have nothing.  I've spent enough time both off and online.  Still, no result.

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The more the merrier.

The more the merrier.

Stealing

Someone showed me someone I like who I might have found anyway, anyway.. now, everyone wants to take them because I like them a lot.  I probably like them cuz they're so good.  These relationships are ravenous and real.  I guess if you're on top you get treated like this?  I feel I've been downgraded ..and get treated as badly still.

What if..

..we put psychiatrists out of business, too?

Without your crazy, careless contraptions

no one would give a crap about me.  I would be well-off and I could meet people.

At least..

..I know I won't get arrested

Cursing on my blog, not using danger, cannot get me arrested.

So, what's for lunch?

Scallops! and Dole Fruit Cup

I can see the lies.

Mature adults have to reject me just because of my race.

What did it take to realize I was worth anything again?

tho I'm 1/2 Chinese

knowing about Anita Lehtola-Tollin who sang Ievan Polkka?  because she's not really that famous yet like me?

I'm sorry to say

but I do not like some parts of LA

I don't like the famous people who make home there.  I think I got the message from Bella that there's nothing to do there.. and right now she's flown to NYC.

What is "Modern?"

Just because I look old in some ways does not mean I am not as modern.

Bella Thorne and Socializing

Bella Thorne accepts attention.

She was raised with hardcore family values.

She balances it out.

I don't always accept all the attention, but in a way I do.  In personal situations I don't.  I think that's becase Bella is Spanish and I'm French.

Not Totally Modern

I don't think Bella Thorne is as modern as I am.

That's it.  She's authentic.  She could be.  :)

Young people can be stress.

They command all the attention in the family, party, or the world.. to you, those around you, and those that exist in the world.

I just realized why Bella is not post-modern.. hehe!

Because she was born in 1997.  Post-modern culture begins with the next generation, born around 2002.  It seems to end around 2005-2007.

Quick Comparison: Me and Bella Thorne

I am more post-modern as a person because of where I'm from.  I'd say Bella Thorne is more even-keel, into cool things and not like the world turned over.  She probably feels more emotions and is more hands on.

Identity ("ID") - I've thought of this twice today.

You might say it's time to check out who people really are, as tho they could control their life at a very young age.  No, you have 2 parents and school to do that.  You might get more than you deserve and very possibly less.

You might say someone is loaded with gifts socially, but prejudices exist between generations who live in different places in the country and the world..  So, some people were set up to chase their life down the drain.  There's no interesting question to wanna talk about.

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Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Good night!

Schedule

I don't feel like watching TV at the mo.

Video of Me Singing Today

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What do you wish you looked like?

 taller, skinnier, fairer 

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Do you wish you were still in high school?

 You know, I found no interest in the internet. I had everything I needed. I was worried about being bullied online. I think I would have liked a blog, a lot, but it seemed something would go wrong. I was just always so busy. You were supposed to chose between posting online and playing video games. I got a piano. 

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Words

I have the 1st verse memorize to the Finnish Polka mostly.

Tacky People

I see you've fallen over yourself and made a big deal outta all this like it's just tacky.

You can't really keep this up.

You can't keep using the excuse my dad is not good so I am not good.

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What Weirdos

Bella and I are both good.  You can't prove a point with that.

New Twitter

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The Beach

Why are people so nasty to people from the Miami area?

because

don't say I have a problem like you

What are you like?

Who really reminds you of you?  Not, who do you wish you were that hangs out with you.

My Ethnicities and Races

I will know the from 23andMe.com by the beginning of May!

Brats

Kids who go out and act like they are punishing you by like saying "Oh, when you have your baby you will think of such and such or a kitty."  Like, if you are thinking and you stumble on something upsetting.  Or they'll suggest your dad is the next Johnny Depp in a weird way that makes it seem less special.

New Video of Me Singing