Thursday, September 4, 2014
Confused?
If it happened|happens, then it did. You make up stuff for me. You have nothing to say, whoever does this. You just stop the action and your responsibilities.
Sooner or later you'll pop admitting everything born after 1990.
You can't be to me like, "Wellprettymuchthtasit" "Christina is shit, she didn't do nothing, she just posed like she's the only attractive 1, which I know is a mistake all the time."
A pity I had to post this topic.. Is that's what you wanna talk about? I guess it's what I posted to whoever's listening, cuz that's the kinda stuff we exchange in secret.
A pity I had to post this topic.. Is that's what you wanna talk about? I guess it's what I posted to whoever's listening, cuz that's the kinda stuff we exchange in secret.
last night
the 2 songs @ 3:09 - lost some of my voice, tho, not that great.. only if you're out there and wanna hear what I sang last night.. :/
wasn't that great - oh well, maybe it's overrated
wasn't that great - oh well, maybe it's overrated
Why did my brother need the satisfaction
that my dad not send me a nice message, like he's helping my parents discipline me when he's a young teen and I'm an adult?
Problem
How can I go through life without thinking I deserve nothing cuz Ellen is watching or because of what I did, cursed about what she did?
Problem
So, no offense to him personally, but since Tim Burton you're trying to say I'm a lower category of person. You think I'm just shit. Well, I'm about to get outta the house more.
That guy
said he even read about me on IMDb. He's trying to suck up my attention. What if I don't like him like that?
What if someone in the experiment got him to do that? What if it was a real person?
What if someone in the experiment got him to do that? What if it was a real person?
Problem
I got a little upset at this 1 guy and he started talking to me more.. He doesn't get that he's off. I told him to post whatever the hell he wants on my forum or join IMDb but quit tailing me like he likes me. Sounds dangerous. Sometimes, I get dark outcasts who are trying to like "play" with me and what I feel about other people. People think there are castes, or levels, of people, and I used to be considered more top. I'm like an old has-been, like an old Spanish or Italian lady who is faintly attractive but older than they were before. You know, once attractive, but more in high school than junior high like me. Before I was as "attractive" I was considered differently, not as shit for someone like him. People made my life hard, and I have no wish to be in their crowd like on a leash. I'm worried I'm being made fun of like that's really me! They won't leave me the hell alone!
What about all those other people who get it all? Is this some racial joke for me? All these dark male outcasts? But no one else??
What about all those other people who get it all? Is this some racial joke for me? All these dark male outcasts? But no one else??
Change of Mind
(not up for all the reading as much..)
Want to do singing
Theory - 3+4
Piano 3+4?
2 Ensembles
2 Applied Lessons
Could go college courses before it or put it off for later.
Want to do singing
Theory - 3+4
Piano 3+4?
2 Ensembles
2 Applied Lessons
Could go college courses before it or put it off for later.
College
I will go to the new college, need a note to get back in the 1st. I think I will do theater and singing, but the singing is classical. I could go for musical theater.
Theater
-Theater Survey - talking about acting in general
-Survey Dramatic Lit - studying plays
-Acting 1
-Directing
I think the music would just be too much and honestly don't think I need it as much?
6 - 9 general studies classes left
Theater
-Theater Survey - talking about acting in general
-Survey Dramatic Lit - studying plays
-Acting 1
-Directing
I think the music would just be too much and honestly don't think I need it as much?
6 - 9 general studies classes left
Message
Josh Groban, I wonder when you'll sing with a CURLY|WAVY haired brunette. All will be over for me, then! Who knows what's next. I don't know many fluffy-haired dark brunettes. Seriously, mine has tinted to like all colors of the rainbow in my life. As for practicing. I do need to, but my throwing up hurt my voice again now. I'm also tired still from yesterday's disappointing supper or just not expecting it. I used to sing better, maybe will find a sample someday. Maybe, I could sell it.
Fighting on the Soapbox on IMDb
about telling people off.
Ever since Tim Burton, no one accepts anyone, anymore. No offense to Tim Burton himself.
Ever since Tim Burton, no one accepts anyone, anymore. No offense to Tim Burton himself.
Split Generations
I have to live with people 5 and 10 years younger.
Think of the Christmas spirit and a Christmas song. It's the people 5-10 years younger that get everything, that get to enjoy anything. We just stand there or always feel in trouble. For them, it's all about them. It's like never been about our success.
Think of the Christmas spirit and a Christmas song. It's the people 5-10 years younger that get everything, that get to enjoy anything. We just stand there or always feel in trouble. For them, it's all about them. It's like never been about our success.
.jpg%2B2.jpg)
Apology
Sorry if I ever was nasty to you about something that bothered me, just gotta be good, things don't seem right.
I woke up in the middle of my sleep.
And I had to sit up or otherwise I felt I'd get cancer. I felt like little places stringed off and like it would pop if I breathed normally.
Up
I just had some cereal for breakfast.
I was worried that when I do something my dad wants to be involved when I don't want him to be, like if something big happened, my dad also wouldn't "be there" for me. I just feel like he's harassing me. It's very possible.
What else? I was sorry about some things I've done or said on my blog.
I did clean the beta bowl last night. My dad sprayed for the spider this morning.
You know, my dad used to respect me. I think it's when I cursed on my blog that he felt he had something. That's too bad. I mean, I was being hurt, and cursing came to mind. I still would curse for fun. I feel a bit disrespected, like, "Ooh, Christina stopped cursing so much." Well, I don't want to. If I did ever, I would. I was mainly cursing about he noises, I thought. You're welcome to copy and paste your argument onto my forum rather than swinging around making a mess like a monkey throughout my life. Is that your goal, to always make me feel guilty, as a very good person, when trouble comes my way?
What else? Wish I had some good music to listen to, tired of my singing now, which is still hurt from throwing up.
Also, I already was aware of what people were doing wrong to me, and I see they realize it like it's smart, later. I know people just don't think much about some things.
Maybe, I'll make a breakfast muffin now? Like with eggs|cheese|sausage, frozen.
So, why doesn't anyone realize I'm here to talk to so we don't have problems? Lotta people out there I meet never find me online. :( I don't think you can network like that on Facebook, anymore. It's like people wanna keep hurting me an never admitting I'm willing to talk it out. Why would I be punished somewhat initially for doing bad in school when my life was an experiment which was supposed to end? Also, why get mad at me for weird things very little? I never felt that good about myself. There are other things..
I'm also not happy with what made me think of this. It's not a good thing to think. There are some things about the topic that are good, of course. It just doesn't relate well. It's something I've been wondering.
I was worried that when I do something my dad wants to be involved when I don't want him to be, like if something big happened, my dad also wouldn't "be there" for me. I just feel like he's harassing me. It's very possible.
What else? I was sorry about some things I've done or said on my blog.
I did clean the beta bowl last night. My dad sprayed for the spider this morning.
You know, my dad used to respect me. I think it's when I cursed on my blog that he felt he had something. That's too bad. I mean, I was being hurt, and cursing came to mind. I still would curse for fun. I feel a bit disrespected, like, "Ooh, Christina stopped cursing so much." Well, I don't want to. If I did ever, I would. I was mainly cursing about he noises, I thought. You're welcome to copy and paste your argument onto my forum rather than swinging around making a mess like a monkey throughout my life. Is that your goal, to always make me feel guilty, as a very good person, when trouble comes my way?
What else? Wish I had some good music to listen to, tired of my singing now, which is still hurt from throwing up.
Also, I already was aware of what people were doing wrong to me, and I see they realize it like it's smart, later. I know people just don't think much about some things.
Maybe, I'll make a breakfast muffin now? Like with eggs|cheese|sausage, frozen.
So, why doesn't anyone realize I'm here to talk to so we don't have problems? Lotta people out there I meet never find me online. :( I don't think you can network like that on Facebook, anymore. It's like people wanna keep hurting me an never admitting I'm willing to talk it out. Why would I be punished somewhat initially for doing bad in school when my life was an experiment which was supposed to end? Also, why get mad at me for weird things very little? I never felt that good about myself. There are other things..
I'm also not happy with what made me think of this. It's not a good thing to think. There are some things about the topic that are good, of course. It just doesn't relate well. It's something I've been wondering.
It was easy when I was just with mom..
..but my life became Hell the bigger my brother grew. Never got the right sleep and probably not the best choice of food..
.jpg)
On Full House
they harshly grounded an older girl but next ep not the younger 1. They were like they are to kids in school, telling them to forget the past. Me, they keep bringing it up! And there IS an explanation!!
Why should I be punished?
I think it's a mistake to. I simply didn't do anything. 1 thing was college, but for some reason my dad didn't accept that I thought my life was a fake experiment that was horrid that I would escape. What else is big? Me cursing about the noises Ellen put in my room? You think, oh but she did so much for you. I just wanted some help! So.. My dad thinks he's onto me for something after I did something a 2nd time, but it wasn't really bad.. I said "oh no" a few times when I was 11 when he came home cuz my homework wasn't done etc. Then I thought I was supposed to call someone the n word according to them sorta. This was online, and he found out through the experiment. I think people are just trusting old ways and being picky about things I do I don't remember exactly. The rest of the sound that I think will come out of me is that this practice is animalistic and merely thoughtless, like you go by a formula you don't understand for making people feel guilty for their age.
Do I seem old? Is that a compliment?
I notice all the generations above mine are made to be comfortable feeling on top.
Wednesday, September 3, 2014
All Day
at the bus stops I watched Josh Groban w/Charlotte Church and Celine Dion and David Foster. =]
Feeling Bad
The cheese, had some yesterday.
I don't feel awake enough to clean my beta bowl.
Recently, my dad got me food at the movies and offered also at the mall, where we both got smoothies. I was thinking of all the mistakes I made not accepting things before.
I don't feel awake enough to clean my beta bowl.
Recently, my dad got me food at the movies and offered also at the mall, where we both got smoothies. I was thinking of all the mistakes I made not accepting things before.
There's a shadow hanging over me.
My old friends didn't answer my e-mail and left me guessing. I should have figured it out. It can only cause problems now. :( Everyone is drooling all over it.. I have no clue how to stop something like that..
Devastated
I wanted Wendy's tonight. I feel disappointed. Grilled cheese tuna, maybe a meal. I thought of 2 curse words by accident. Apologize if I do so tonight, again. They just came, unhealthy, may break my hold.
Apology
I see some of my wording was off before. Hopefully you'll catch the change here, at least, if I don't go back and reconstruct part of the post to point it out there.
Topic
I don't want a parental connection with my dad, insofar as he is rather sick and gross about some feelings behind my back. It doesn't mean I don't want any relationship. He thinks he knows what I need and supposedly he got me even kicked outta college. Then, he took advantage and made it seem gross. It feels like being m*****ed. I don't f***in' need him. I don't need that much affection from him like that..
What are your parents like? Isn't that what you get from your mom? It's already been established I'm more white than him, like as a person. I don't want to be his situation like that. He can't *** control me.
If you're too immature to talk, you might end up m********ing.
What are your parents like? Isn't that what you get from your mom? It's already been established I'm more white than him, like as a person. I don't want to be his situation like that. He can't *** control me.
If you're too immature to talk, you might end up m********ing.
You better stop.
You think you have some romance that I'm not cool like Ellen but some saucy shit girl to elder men.
Are you people insane?
Why are you at me at all? You should have never bothered me or hurt me massively. What is this shit?
Well
I posted it nicely. I am feeling laughed at. I said I wouldn't be mad.. I do think it's wrong. If I didn't think that, what would that mean?
These Nasty People
They act like me and my family for some reason deserve to die as an excuse for their racial uppitiness with their own race, like that presenting oneself a certain way is everything, even if nothing bad really happeened. Like, oh, race, what, it doesn't matter, I'll get you as the wrong race by acting weird.
Everyone is saying..
..Ellen thinks I deserve to die. I'm tired of her double messages and pretending she didn't insult me only to bring it up again like she's looking it from different angles. That's all anyone thinks she does or is doing to me..
Ugh!
I was thinking of laughing with servile Latino men in my college theater class, and I imagined Ellen DeGeneres worrying she'd have to do that so rebelling and asking if I can do that. Mistake!
I wanna talk
about this:
So, my mom has breast cancer, and my dad's sister is really worried, the older 1. I don't know why she's visiting us so much, when it's just peace and quiet my mom needs. She zoned me out when she was in school.
People think Ellen DeGeneres rightly gave my mom breast cancer. It must have been out of her hands, meaning she didn't cause it. Ellen wouldn't be as good at the things my mom were raising me than her solutions to "what" I am from my dad's side. I just said she wouldn't have the same influence on what she thinks is better. I didn't block suggest anything, like everything is 1 thing or another. Life's more complicated than that.
I'm just wondering about Ellen DeGeneres wishing ill on me. She probably is only concerned about herself succeeding cuz she has to work so hard to keep her position, or job.
What if she did cause it by accident? It could have been caused by more than 1 person.
So, my mom has breast cancer, and my dad's sister is really worried, the older 1. I don't know why she's visiting us so much, when it's just peace and quiet my mom needs. She zoned me out when she was in school.
People think Ellen DeGeneres rightly gave my mom breast cancer. It must have been out of her hands, meaning she didn't cause it. Ellen wouldn't be as good at the things my mom were raising me than her solutions to "what" I am from my dad's side. I just said she wouldn't have the same influence on what she thinks is better. I didn't block suggest anything, like everything is 1 thing or another. Life's more complicated than that.
I'm just wondering about Ellen DeGeneres wishing ill on me. She probably is only concerned about herself succeeding cuz she has to work so hard to keep her position, or job.
What if she did cause it by accident? It could have been caused by more than 1 person.
I will never listen
to if you think my dad is okay with saying I should be in trouble. He should not be in my life, I order a divorce! I mean, I like having fun, with him.
What kind of trick is it
to tell someone they can't even talk but you can do something to them?
The only thing I got was image and quality of the post.
The only thing I got was image and quality of the post.
Mistake
You just wanna see younger kids pleasured and smile at it with younger people as parents. I don't want any parents if it has to be certain people of an older age. I'm doing fine already. My dad is the big brother.
Tuesday, September 2, 2014
Actors and Pop Singers
remember their craft heavily. Others, it's gone with the wind, more. As far as style goes.
Well, I'm awake!
Hope everyone is having a bright and blue day! I have no clue what happened last night.
Want to know something pathetic?
Where I used to live compared to where my cousin and aunts live, for my cousin who was always in trouble her happiness is a playground away or whatever, but I lived in Daytona Beach, Boca Raton. I am proud to have 1st existed in Pompano Beach, yes not far from the shore somehow. I was always very good.
Florida Homes?
"Buying the Beach" is on. It doesn't look as beachy as I'd have it. It's wood-themed. It feels very middle-classed.
Worried
I didn't get to see my Gramma, and people might play around by like unusually doing something about what didn't have to be done, but then that'll be "why."
I believe
I am being spoken to, honestly I think maybe by Ellen, in secret message through my parents..and she gets a kick out of wondering if what happened was because of something I did and thinks, "See, that's it." Well, that's not nice, even if you didn't do anything bad in doing what you did but bothering me about it to tie it up. I mean, making fun of me wondering what they're telling me. I am not bad and didn't do anything. At the movies, people were really bothering me. I did stop, so maybe it wasn't perfect. It's how I act, but that's not a good thing to do. It's just stupid, really. I mean, why do they deserve to feel the reverberations of their satisfaction?
Subscribe to:
Posts (Atom)