I just know that the dad seems like the kind of personality who would descend into abusive behavior, but he's nice, nicer than those I've known..
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I just know there has been a lot of confusion as to if daughters are as good as their moms these days because so many of them were flower children, and then it is this group of a generation who overshadow kids today, everyone knows that.
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I think it is popular for people to just blurt out to imagine people in their underwear, as long as it isn't Ellen- I know I'm being watched with cameras in my room even with my invitation to not have to do this, tho I'd miss whoever doesn't wanna meet me some other way. I assume I am in some solitary confinement. It really helps me that I get these messages, but I wish there were some normal way, like someone on a blog. No one is my friend, now, so that might be "why I get it." I can't really think like other people. There are other reasons. It may be why I can't stop letting bad words come to my mind sometimes. People don't like that, the people who experiment on me, as I say on my blog. F.y.i. no one seems to really communicate to me ever since this happened. It's a very different life and very sad and distressing, like being trapped in a box out in space.
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My extended is a game of mix and match. LOL. My parents were gonna separate for my brother, so he wouldn't have to move when my dad gets a job. He liked his dog trainer, martial arts instructor, and tennis teacher. I knew all these people, and they treated me graciously. When the hurricane hit, we all moved. I am so sad! College has been so bad! My parents seem like they are in a game where they judge who I am compared to like my mom, like it (things) makes my Gramma mad, who just knows what goes on via phone. My dad doesn't always stand on his own 2 feet, what can I say, and wants his mom to influence him with advice and listens to her obediently in her insinuations yet lets me know when I ask that she does indeed bother her, as we've seen the drama in the past. The thing they do is if I do something, they blame my mom, who cannot see with one eye and who has breast cancer and supposedly bone cancer and I thought something else. It's hard to think of an example. I know I broke 2 or 3 computers that were already broken supposedly. I know I am deeply ashamed by all I've done, all accidental errors. I understand if I am not forgiven and have to "deal with the consequences."
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I tried imagining my partner being like an exciting, upbeat, imaginative boy just slightly older by months. My other I fell for was like a twist on a "good" "devil" personality, who seemed a bit older. I can't settle on one thing. I will always love everything.
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I have a lot of experience messing up in life, like my whole life every day. About me, myself, and I .. Making kids the best they can be seems to work out if you learn lessons from different people rather than expecting things from other people who just aren't up to it for whatever reason. It's a lotta trial than error, but in the end it is your responsibility. Why? So you cannot blame another person.
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I don't believe in psychiatric medicine cuz it doesn't cure. As for those other drugs, I didn't think it was a joke.
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People are not ready for kids. They have not come to terms with themselves. Still, they have them..at least.