Why do people say there are people out there who simply did not do what they need to do to deserve something good?
Then, they take things from others and give it to the lowest common denominator as afore mentioned, philosophizing that it means more people will get what they want if someone gets something over others for no reason and over others who deserve it.
They think giving more to bad people means that everyone will get it because the worst could even get it, without giving it to others or not letting them have it or seeing this take place.
Disclaimer: No offense to real individuals.
Sunday, September 18, 2016
What if..
..What if the default is telling people to experience that which is unpleasant, bad, and uncool?
Trying to Be Something You're Not
Late Boomers and probably their children appreciate life for its utmost beauty. How can someone who was not a kid at their times know that? I can understand it, I know, at least in some ways. I just feel it's something for someone else and feel tricked into giving up on living the right kind of life, like this; what they do is also "the right thing." If there's a contest for everyone else, I feel I must be being held back in some way for some reason. I feel numbed out of living life trusting anyone of my own race or the white race, the way I thought I would. I guess it's just a problem.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
My dad knows no boundaries and neither does his former nuclear family. Life for me sometimes or often is just his secret painfilled ranting or that of his kin somehow affecting me. He really did proclaim in secret message affirmatively that I'm here to show him the way, meaning he wants to know how to change who he is this way and throwing me out as evidence or so I don't give evidence of his "using" his own kids. Sure, I already made clear I feel for people who are born earlier and wish they were born later. I don't believe in that it's so bad they have to hurt someone innocent like me. I'm not at the best of the best nor the worst of the worst. So, he blended me with someone else to assimilate their features to him without giving to someone who is also competition racially so he can be the only one. I'm not trying to sound like a jerk, just telling it like it is.
Late Boomers can see life slipping away, but we still make it.
What of all these annoying kids trying to dupe the environment?
All I know is I am nice and open and accepting to others, but I don't ruin my life for others. Ruining your life for others generally won't get you anywhere. It is thought it can get others somewhere but not you still.
So, I'm still at it, trying to be something I'm not. We're something called human. We come into the world to in the end waste away, like the living things we know. We can be happy and glorious when we die with hopes of better things afterlife. Otherwise, we can just give up and waste away that way.
Saturday, September 17, 2016
Friday, September 16, 2016
All About Late Boomers
Something's become overly obvious.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
People think that only Late Boomers and people born around 1997 and 1998 are worth anything.
It goes that Late Boomers are older than my generation and deserve to be felt up for all the effort they put into parenting my generation. In the end, my generation doesn't get the satisfaction they wish they could get in this world, possibly.
The funny thing is that they think Late Boomers should not be copied by my generation. It's the same as kids born later around 1997 and 1998 who are allowed. In fact, they are allowed to feel even better with Late Boomers as their parental generation.
Even if some people born around 1997 and 1998 held out and helped hold everyone up, they still have the opportunity in the near future over others in my generation.
Wednesday, September 14, 2016
Tuesday, September 13, 2016
Story
There was a girl who was 20 years old. She had black and brown hair.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
There was another girl who was 15 and she had light blonde hair.
The 1st girl was Bridget Olson, and the 2nd girl was Diamond Brite.
The 2 girls were the best friends as friends could get.
They had a big room and 2 little rooms connected. It had gray carpeting and spots to sit. They kept a bowl of cream for a little gray kitty with beautiful blue-violet eyes.
They were upstairs and downstairs there were many witches dressed up in ballgowns living life socializing there and about.
The men were outside practicing games.
There were more children about, some outside in bare feet who were about 30.
They all were going on a trip in a caravan.
Diamond Brite trotted along, while Bridget Olson rid in a vehicle.
They went to bed and set up fire all about. The youngest, Diamnod Brite, woke up and saw a wolf staring at them. A girl who was about 25 saw her and comforted her. A man woke up and shoo'd the wolf away.
They finally reached the festival. Bridget Olson went down the tunnel of love. Diamond Brite went on a ferriswheel.
Finally, it was time to return home.
Next, Bridget Olson sat on the bank with the younger girls around 15. She was in a yellow dress and boots. She sighed.
That night, they all waited on the bay for a ship. Some of the girls in their 30s were playing Ring Around the Rosie. Bridget Olson sighed. One of the ladies went over and comforted her. So, she picked her up.
Finally came the boat. The girls went to another country with 3 story cottages and merry food in the kitchen.
Finally, after months, they left. Bridget Olson went away and helped as a maid and nanny. Finally she went away to Africa and lived her own life.
Monday, September 12, 2016
Sunday, September 11, 2016
YouTube
I know 02:14-02:48 is especially good. I enjoy listening to the whole thing, and it's even more fun watching.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
This helped inspire me to want to pursue orchestral music in lieu of chamber music.
This is Orchestre Philharmonique de Radio France.
The "On Ignore" Race
I just thought of a great topic that doesn't get addressed.
I was watching some religious music on YouTube for children, and I remembered maybe one of the most important things to the Catholic/Christian/Jewish church.
It is true that some people's problems are not addressed and are ignored in the world.
I am pretty certain we are hurting our brothers and sisters interested in the Catholic faith who are Asian, our beautiful, lovely Asians. Catholics think Asian ways are sinful, I'm guessing because it seems cunning, sly, and socially handicapped scientifically speaking. As a tradition, it comes up as everyone classifying it as on ignore and ^sinful^ like they can handle anything but that.
We need to reach out and pray for not just what people expect these days but what they needed all along.
I think Asians are comfortable with how they are, but it is a problem for some people of mixed race. I feel people are going in and overly promoting people of all Asian and putting down people who are mixed Asians/Chinese.
Friday, September 9, 2016
Thursday, September 8, 2016
Schedule
I don't think I can catch Ellen next week. I am not caught up now and am tired. I was out jogging for almost 1 1/2 hours. I sleep a lot and need to learn to cook more. I barely like watching TV sometimes, but if I do it's often cooking shows. I might be able to watch her at a later date if things start looking up for me in fundamental ways. I hope I catch up with today and tomorrow.
What can I do?
At 1st, I was upset. No one said anything. I didn't lose it myself.
My dad is cool born in 1950. Why make up some old wives tale and say my dad is not young enough for me to be cool to even my own mom born in 1959?
I'm sorry if others have failed, but I had not.
My fallibilities may be because of things other than my dad's age becoming unnecessarily prominent. I'm not a bad person, like a monster. Just look around.
No wonder I was a limp baby. No one thought I was cool nor loved me in some certain end. I just didn't feel anything, like all these other people do to tear me apart before anything else. How would you like to be a baby? and with a dad born in 1950? He is cool, but I guess people like what's uncool.
Even if it is the time of my dad's birth did not mean I was to be abused. I can't even see a clear scale between me and my friends where I'm treated fairly considering my dad's age.
I don't want to be in trashy situations cuza my dad or his age or something. I think most families are trashy in their background, if I'm considered how I am.
What of Late Boomers thinking they need even more stimulation but others no? It's not all that drama about Early Boomers tearing me up while Late Boomers reap the fruit of labor.
My dad is cool born in 1950. Why make up some old wives tale and say my dad is not young enough for me to be cool to even my own mom born in 1959?
I'm sorry if others have failed, but I had not.
My fallibilities may be because of things other than my dad's age becoming unnecessarily prominent. I'm not a bad person, like a monster. Just look around.
No wonder I was a limp baby. No one thought I was cool nor loved me in some certain end. I just didn't feel anything, like all these other people do to tear me apart before anything else. How would you like to be a baby? and with a dad born in 1950? He is cool, but I guess people like what's uncool.
Even if it is the time of my dad's birth did not mean I was to be abused. I can't even see a clear scale between me and my friends where I'm treated fairly considering my dad's age.
I don't want to be in trashy situations cuza my dad or his age or something. I think most families are trashy in their background, if I'm considered how I am.
What of Late Boomers thinking they need even more stimulation but others no? It's not all that drama about Early Boomers tearing me up while Late Boomers reap the fruit of labor.
My Honest Feelings
I don't think I need to feel an old person is peeping thru the windowpane telling our family that me being good does not mean I deserve what I have and to instead work out unraveling my little brother.
I know I had a friend who I think her dad decided he needed to prevent from seeing me and trying to affect my family in bad ways, just for fun cuz she had nothing to do sometimes/too much.
More about the social scene, I think someone I know with a teenage mom at birth is the life of the party, following her peers's every move, and dictating the lives of people like me by making statements in secret message I have to adhere to, tho she is younger. Just so you know, I'm not actually jealous of her mom being born around 1970 and mine in 1959. So, if you have special needs and have issues need to take care of them! I guess I don't mesh cuz people think my mom is too young to have me and hate on me but not on someone with a teenage mom. They seem to take to my dad okay. He's born in July 1950 so pretty cool I guess, knowing people with parents born in the 1940s and 1950s.
I know I had a friend who I think her dad decided he needed to prevent from seeing me and trying to affect my family in bad ways, just for fun cuz she had nothing to do sometimes/too much.
More about the social scene, I think someone I know with a teenage mom at birth is the life of the party, following her peers's every move, and dictating the lives of people like me by making statements in secret message I have to adhere to, tho she is younger. Just so you know, I'm not actually jealous of her mom being born around 1970 and mine in 1959. So, if you have special needs and have issues need to take care of them! I guess I don't mesh cuz people think my mom is too young to have me and hate on me but not on someone with a teenage mom. They seem to take to my dad okay. He's born in July 1950 so pretty cool I guess, knowing people with parents born in the 1940s and 1950s.
Wednesday, September 7, 2016
"My son!"
I've revived my little brother before, after he was in something like intensive care as a baby. I played with him and brought back the meaning in my mother's life.
Bad Gospel Reading
I missed church this Sunday due to my back being terrible, but I heard it was about leaving your family behind to follow Jesus, which means not to let them lead you to sin nor detract from your training to be a disciple, even if it requires sacrifices of other people.
No, we need to learn about modern problems!
No, we need to learn about modern problems!
Young Adults Group
I went to my 1st Young Adults group at church. I found that they were too shy around me to be polite socially, especially considering how uptight they intended to be.
I tried to connect with the leader in front of everyone, naturally, who is weeks younger than me, and I said we connected well both being from the beach and other people from different places, like Orlando. I couldn't get a response from anyone. She's from California, and my parents moved to Florida when I was born.
To be honest, I am suspecting someone told people in the parish to be mean to me. I detected an outcome, which is that I'm not coming back to the Young Adults group meetings cuz ballet is at a convenient time then. They lost a little respect.
Something else that flared up was I said the pastor might be getting back surgery, and someone acted like I was a problem and said he was better. I said, oh, I heard it a few weeks ago..
Much more drama than that, tho, that went down this night.
I tried to connect with the leader in front of everyone, naturally, who is weeks younger than me, and I said we connected well both being from the beach and other people from different places, like Orlando. I couldn't get a response from anyone. She's from California, and my parents moved to Florida when I was born.
To be honest, I am suspecting someone told people in the parish to be mean to me. I detected an outcome, which is that I'm not coming back to the Young Adults group meetings cuz ballet is at a convenient time then. They lost a little respect.
Something else that flared up was I said the pastor might be getting back surgery, and someone acted like I was a problem and said he was better. I said, oh, I heard it a few weeks ago..
Much more drama than that, tho, that went down this night.
Prayer Request
My little brother was sending me secret messages supposedly from someone I like and look up to that were mean and I thought for him to stop it too much and it affected him but not sexually. Dx
Yay
Ellen is a good bud, like a favorite toy. Is that appropriate to say? I am watching again! Hopefully nothing will come up and I can watch every day. I so hope I run into cool fans online! I have stabilized an active social life outside of the show, "so help me God!"
Paranormal Cativity
I was walking down a road and felt like headlights were coming at me tho lights weren't moving. I turned around and it was a cat. I felt its heat. It was like 20 or so feet away from me. I crouched down and it came to me and rubbed me.
Monday, September 5, 2016
Puzzle Solved
It seems to round off that Ellen DeGeneres is "snappy" and sometimes overly concerned concerning herself. She seems as tho she knows she provides for all others worthy emotionally etc. or brings about a certain sensation to viewers. However, I wonder if she actually goes by what she was like as a kid, rather than the idea she grew up.
The Greatest Wish
I know life revolves around people who happen to be born around 1960 or the late 1950s. I see the crappy ads with thinly sliced beef in a whopper of a bun. I know they had a proper childhood, life is just a party, etc. They are even convinced they are the ones who did the work and did everything right while others didn't, just going by generation. No wonder kids today are so shitty.
Exercise
I think I need to stop jogging. I have other exercises. I'll need rest for the ballet classes. xp
Boing Boing Boing Boing
I was thinking of doing hip hop, ballroom.. but I found some ballet that might be good. I also didn't want to partner up in ballroom. Line dancing is fun if you can find a class. I used to go in Louisiana.
Sometimes, I wondered if this composer and teacher at a music school did jazz or something before she came to work.
Boing Boing Boing Boing
I was thinking of doing hip hop, ballroom.. but I found some ballet that might be good. I also didn't want to partner up in ballroom. Line dancing is fun if you can find a class. I used to go in Louisiana.
Sometimes, I wondered if this composer and teacher at a music school did jazz or something before she came to work.
Edit
I can see it. Late Boomers know they are popular [deleted] but someone like me with a dad born in 1950 is not interesting, tho my dad still is. I become the butt of no joke.
I do not trust in some people.
They don't want you to have what's best. They disapprove of you cuz your parents aren't Late Boomers and the kid/you are not born in 1997/1998. They think it's okay to mess with your life and put you in drastic situations and lie about you.
Hard to Get By and on Tiring Psychotic Pills
What do you think about people praising those with more money who are famous for being healthier and then dropping everyone else?
How I'm Doing
I just watched Kindergarten Cop on TV.
I've been on painkillers for the lower side of my back by my hips. It hadn't been getting better and I keep taking the pills. I feel weak and tired, perhaps from not sleeping thru long enough.
I think it is happening because I overate. My pills slow down my digestion. There is hope; I just have to move out and my parents won't make me take the psychotic pills, which is probably reason for having diabetes and high cholesterol. I need to get healthier, maybe learn to cook something. Right now, I like when I have frozen chicken pot pies. I also like juice and fruit cups. It's better than a possible addiction to soda.
I've been on painkillers for the lower side of my back by my hips. It hadn't been getting better and I keep taking the pills. I feel weak and tired, perhaps from not sleeping thru long enough.
I think it is happening because I overate. My pills slow down my digestion. There is hope; I just have to move out and my parents won't make me take the psychotic pills, which is probably reason for having diabetes and high cholesterol. I need to get healthier, maybe learn to cook something. Right now, I like when I have frozen chicken pot pies. I also like juice and fruit cups. It's better than a possible addiction to soda.
Who You Are
I am in trouble if I feel I am my mom's child with benefits from my dad's race, but my dad keeps secretly informing me I am shit because of who he is. I am also a mix of both and my own person. Some people probably don't take to either parent.
Another thing that people go by is their whole race and ethnicities. Like, they may not have vulnerabilities from either parent, but they say both parents are very white or something. They're either a happy medium or some sorta twin.
Another thing that people go by is their whole race and ethnicities. Like, they may not have vulnerabilities from either parent, but they say both parents are very white or something. They're either a happy medium or some sorta twin.
Sunday, September 4, 2016
"I want more...."
It's interesting how someone can say someone is wrong, but like people around me keep testing me that they have "more" than me in some perverted way because they are not part Asian/Chinese.
Mixing Race
It's interesting a country like Africa could welcome a Norwegian, but a country like Germany supposedly could not welcome a Chinese/Asian.
A Good One?
The Muppets are on, and there is a number on that they are doing a sequel. They think they just said people were not supposed to complain about bad sequels online all the time, but at least they got me and they go around pretending things about me that I am bad and outspoken in the world.
Feel the Hate
If people do all this for younger kids with a Late Boom mom, why won't people stop hating on me for it and not others?
People With Light Hair and Eyes
What if that's the only reason they are attractive and seem to glow? It's a tough world out there.
Trying Spying Out
What do you think of those people hiding out there with dark/black hair who are attractive? Imagine them growing up and becoming adults. They have a lot in it socially.
YouTube
I played this my 1st semester of college and got an A!
It went on my piano favorites playlist.
It went on my piano favorites playlist.
Saturday, September 3, 2016
Racial Transformations
If Italian people can look black, then Asian people can form some of their look to white.
Like, All the Movies
Why are movies about accepting men born in the early 1950s and people who are like in the middle between good and bad?
It's out.
If you're about to say something someone doesn't want to hear, realize you're out already.
Oxymoron
People are so finished when they are served and are different that they don't want nor need you to talk to them anymore. Like, you know when I say my life is hard, people say it's not.
Where are the movies?
Attractive people are making it by being like social toys with their families, and in the end they admit they aren't all that. That's how you live without making a spectacle of yourself in a movie.
Let's make a movie.
Attractive young people who wanna have more interpersonal experiences do not appear in random, overrated films.
Irish and Polish Americans
Irish and Polish people remind me of our roots in Africa, like they don't wanna have a fuzzy emotional time.
Well would you look at that, The Cat in the Hat
I feel like I'm still respected when I watch movies this old. True, they were mean to the actors and shouldn't have been too, tho. They got carried away with the truth but are not truthful in that way.
"Kids! What's the matter with kids?"
I feel I have to look around every corner. Before, I could feel good even if I wasn't perfect in my thinking or was ignorant of how to react when I process something.
Violence on TV
A white guy who travels across the globe to see monkeys in the islands thinks if I think I'm white I will and/or should be dead. It's like minority/non-white people are taught to treat white people like some future dream. That's just silly. Some minor races can look white if they could figure out what they wanted to do with their life.
I should be President in November.
Trump wants to employ people out of the US to more menial work and canceling factory jobs in America.
Hilary wants America to win over Germany and China.
Hilary wants America to win over Germany and China.
Good Morning America
There is a white blonde lady and a dark brunette lady. The dark brunette lady didn't try to make the white blonde lady less white. The white lady was so insecure about herself that she acted like people like me weren't white despite what we do.
More European
The way being 1/2 Asian makes you more European is that different parts of European genes can feed off the Asian genes in ways different European genes simply clash.
Haphazardly
Do you know people who either do or do not do act good and say, "I did what I did, I'm some person, and I deserve all the attention and affection because I exist and no one else does nor can."
Where's the part that says they can tell others what to do? They're just biting off more than they can chew.
I like Helena Bonham Carter, but she was with Tim Burton during his prime and now has left him. It seemed like everyone was upset Tim Burton was not single. He doesn't seem to go as public now, like online and with things of the nature of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory going over.
Where's the part that says they can tell others what to do? They're just biting off more than they can chew.
I like Helena Bonham Carter, but she was with Tim Burton during his prime and now has left him. It seemed like everyone was upset Tim Burton was not single. He doesn't seem to go as public now, like online and with things of the nature of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory going over.
The Cold Shoulder
I guess I'm not talking to people who think if you bring up a topic it means something simple and there's no story.
Update
New Page - About Me
Maternal Race:
•Chinese/Asian
Paternal Race:
•Up North in the US
•all around Pennsylvania, New York
•Norman-Irish, Dutch, German, French, Swiss, English (Anglo-Saxon,) Irish
•Amish Culture - German, French/Huguenot, Swiss..
•Chinese/Asian
Paternal Race:
•Up North in the US
•all around Pennsylvania, New York
•Norman-Irish, Dutch, German, French, Swiss, English (Anglo-Saxon,) Irish
•Amish Culture - German, French/Huguenot, Swiss..
The South
Did you know people turn on to people from the South without parents from the South but in a negative, excluding way?
Typical
I saw Indian statues, and they looked like ladies who are like jazzy like from New Orleans. I think that's Italian cuz I know a lady who seems like that. I've also seen someone who looked colored who was French, too.
Same Story
It seems people glaze by saying they are affected by something for later just because they are seeing that I "dig it."
It's funny the lengths people go thru
to not be racist and to be in the moment, and then see what everyone else does instead.
Keeping Their Blood Pure or Personal
Why do Germans think they have something more than other cultures and believe we are all divided by our races? I just looked up ethnicities and I think Germany has it in for it the most.
I got the impression the English go by our last names and now that the Germans go by the mother's most maternal line.
I got the impression the English go by our last names and now that the Germans go by the mother's most maternal line.
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