Thursday, October 30, 2014

Hurt

My stomach and lungs were hurting.

I might watch TV now, though, anyway.

Then, my dad cuts my hair.

If a favorite thing of mine is being European..

..why would someone make it their point to be it against me their point?
Good Night?

Why

are people always making fun of me?  Thanks, a lot.  Is it because of Tim Burton and the N word thing?

Think

A lot of things out there go with that.

ATTACK

Nonwhite people won't accept me because I am a successful nonwhite.  They're just too stupid.

Using Life

Some people use life and forget the schedule of about when they will have to have passed away.

American Blood

What do you hate about someone who is better as in nicer and more hard-working/accomplished socially if their blood is American compared to someone with no American blood?

It's so sad..

..when someone cares about me and someone else doesn't and shits all over me.  That's what the people waiting for the bus are like.

Mine

My hair color means nothing to anyone.

Problem

People keep telling me I'm a less than because my dad is born so early on in the century compared to another dad.  You can't tell me "what" I am.

Do you like only certain hair colors?

I just can't imagine the whole world having the same kind of hair.

Those people

I know they are thinking about me.

We are never ever ever..

Funny

People are addicted to their nonwhite race.. I wouldn't want to be someone just because they were white.

I'm learning to smile

at kids who are better than me.

Website Update

How to Change Yourself

Be like Princess Elsa.  Be the one to be more European like it's in you.  I take credit from the middle singer here: link.

Wut?

Is my dad an Asian-Nazi?

Website Update

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How to Be More of a Look Alike

Do something just to be different from someone else, etc.

How to Be Ready for the Holidays

Not to be accomplished but to be able to reach out.

People are in on

being tacky of a generation they've already trashed to trash the people in it who think they're gonna make it racially.

Cleaning

I got a little cleaning done.

Apology

I'll try to have my thoughts sorted out.

Wednesday, October 29, 2014

Wow

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Me Talking

Yesterday

Vocaroo


Record and upload audio >>

TV

The Ellen DeGeneres Show

I forgot I loved that animation speaker yesterday about the shell with one eye with a black piece of dust like a poodle.

Today, the 1st guy I remember coming on was so astute and it's amazing.  I wonder how he prioritizes.

I liked the singers and the guest singer lady with short spiky darkish hair.  The drummer/s really knew how to pep it up!!  I had some issues, but they seemed to lighten up, as people do, I guess..

The cross country girls were cool.  One of the carried a hurt one.  Now, I did cross country, too!  I should scan a pic or something.  I saw the benefits I got of doing cross country my 1st year as opposed to people who started the next.  We were warned about our time and that nothing will come back.  I didn't do it my 3rd year, 16, and just did adult ballet.  I went back to everything at 17.  Funny I flunked that semester.  Not enough time to myself.  I did do theater in the summers mostly.  I visited people I missed away from my old homes.

The girl at the end throwing was good.  It reminds me of me at Disney trying to win such a cute stuffed animal.  I wanna get there earlier next time and win.  I already got the bear for the Food and Wine celebration at Epcot!!  It's Duffy the new Disney bear.  It's so perfect, I got it the next time I went.

Today, Ellen seems okay.  I want it to be more about her and like people who fit in with her that she likes a lot.  I know there's a thing actually if you deny someone liking you tho, too, so I need to figure out what that is..  I tried making like that Twitter account to post things that would interest her, famous people, at twitter.com/Ellen3.  I also have Ellen4 as things for her fans.  I'm not pushing her into people, neither.  I just want to disperse myself and feel that my life is a failure.  I am interested in directing and making my scripts I will turn into books and hopefully direct a movie from.  Then, I will not be a waste of space.  So, it's taking awhile.  I can do like a paragraph at a time it seems now.

Oh, the Halloween kids were so cute.  Halloween is on its merry way.  I will try to get lots of candy.  I'm trying a backpack Trick-or-Treat bag.  I have an Elsa costume that's popular on Ebay from China.  It's not the real thing, too bad, but I just got it.  It does drag along the floor and is pretty.  I just liked it, didn't realize it was from China.

About the idea of being a waste of space.  Everyone should follow their dreams and forget the things that they don't need to waste their lives doing.  People should talk to others about Ellen DeGeneres and the show, too.  I wonder if I can find fans today.  I have another Ellen account where I can Tweet stuff for her or on my regular Twitter.

I feel people are depressed about me living by Disney, like jealous, and I was upset the day before I went once and feel that it is making people superstitious.  Well, it's almost Halloween, Friday the 31st, 13 backwards.  It'll be great.

I think people are trying to get their lives together.  The thing is to do it gradually, working out, if they can get slightly more healthy things.  Do it once in awhile or for how long it feels natural to do what.  I bumped up and felt like a longer break and am not incredibly fat.  I do take walks most days of the week, though, for over an hour.

I think people need blogs so they can be discovered.  Their reasons for not are forgetting why they wanted one.  It's hard to like get people to talk to.  My comments are not always approved, and I don't really do that that much.  It's fun to, though.  I don't know what I'm getting myself caught up in.  My blogging taught me what's wrong with me and reminding me how to write.  You should also record yourself talking..

Apology

I keep coming up with not being afraid to be mean to one person but another.

Website Update

Advice

I don't diet too heavily because I know I will gain it back later.  The same goes with overexercising in ways I don't like.

Nail Polish

I wear brown, dark brown.

What was once in

is now out.

Think about families with people born in earlier 1958.  They won't fit in with the new Ellen DeGeneres look-alikes born noteably in the 1970s.

They have those extended, overly feeling shaped thumbs/fingers.  All those Late Boomer families.  I feel that I know what's in and "that I was right all along."

Dreams

They were pretty dramatic.  I can't remember.  I had 2.

The 1st one I was worrying and concerned about Ellen DeGeneres's body being okay.  I wanted to go put my arm around her and give her a hug and like hold onto her.  I found myself on her back, too, still worrying about her.

The 2nd one was cool.  I remember at the end I was wondering where I think Celine Dion's body guards were, a 2nd set in the dream.  They were way behind, and 2 had a cannon and cannon ball.  I saw the rifle, too.  I just can't remember what I did.  The 1st one had more things I thought.

Website Update

I unhid some pages.

Website Update

My Websites

EllenFans3
EllenFans4

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The Great But Not So Great

Me, Christina..

I am just a thick hollow thing with crinkling hair who remembers how to talk.

My Match

I don't see how this girl is bi, well I guess since it's both: link.

TV

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

That guy, Steve Harvey?, was so so funny.  He made it on Ellen.  He was just so funny about being black and connecting black for all ages..

The girl was very nice, as well.

Ellen had sorta a hard time.  She looks stressed.  She is being good and nice.

The singer keyboardist girl was outta this world.  I saw her play a few notes.  I can only play a few songs..  :|  She should be known somehow.  I used to listen to Hit List all the time, but it's so repetitive.

I loved seeing all the cancer patients.

What I gather from her shows is she brings agreeable people on who have a quaintly acute sense of humor.  She brings on stars.  If I get on the show, I hope if it's as a guest it will be as a star.  Johnny Depp got to go on her show twice.  I honestly am not the Ellen fan I wanna be.  I wanted to watch before but didn't.  I thought I was too late and not ready and busy with other things that mattered or not.  I think people should seek out any opportunity to like improve having acquaintence relationships, like meeting people at Disney or talking online.

I think about myself and how I pucker up and give Ellen a kiss like a fish online when I drop these little notes of love.  However, I feel I didn't "do the work" and that my parents don't really love me because they don't let me do what they want me to do even that would be better.

About Steve Harvey, it's like he was eying his own son the whole time.  He is so kind and on the ball.  We all know what he's thinking.

That girl was so celestial.  She deserves a lot for what she does.  She was sweet and pretty.  She's just a nice person.

OK, I've been up and about and am gonna post this.

Tuesday, October 28, 2014

Wow

Ellen is such a kind person.  Let's take care of her so she lasts.  Doi!

New Picture of Me

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Ow

I found some cramping today.  A long day at the therapist bus-ing.

Disney

The Tennessee Bear

It looked so sweet and caring, like Kentucky.  It was so detailed and trying to care and stuff.  It had like feminine eyes, pretty much.

Seriously..

Do you ever feel like pigs looking for "what's not yours?"

Hair

Light Cool Blonde - looks like ash blonde some, too - 2013 Parents - Mom Knows Best Beauty Awards

Lightest Cool Blonde

Search: Cool Natural Blonde

Do you know people

who don't want you to think and tell you what you really mean?

What Comes Up

Your nastiness shows only because you claim it would come out naturally by accident.  Wait, does this even make sense??

Hair

"Ultra Light Natural Blonde"

I'm going to dye my hair white blonde.

I will have bangs to the side parted off-center and the hair will be as short as possible but without layers.

Samples

Well, "natural palest blonde" came up twice.  I'm guessing at JCPenney they will bleach my hair and then color over it some shade of white-blonde.  I need extreme hair repair, as well.  I know there's an ash blonde, a golden blonde, and natural blonde of different shades.

Website Update

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How to Be More Like an Ellen Look-Alike

Leave things out that you want made obvious.

She's fine.

It's just what happens to people after what matters.  They all wish to be the only winner for no reason.

Just So You Know

I didn't make that post for nothing.

Another Spoiled Famous Celebration

Do you find the shit people say we have to believe in Ellen kind of unpleasant?

1. We have to make everything for her because she was born around 1960 and is a Late Boomer.

2. She always is the youngest, prettiest, and overall most ideal, while the rest of us cannot chose to do so.

Website Update

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How to Be More Like an Ellen Look-Alike

Have the side of your face slant more toward your chin, like.  Don't do it if you don't get it.

Take 1 more step to be more bold.

Story

I restarted some of my 2nd story.

I plan to

sell my stories as a book.  I want to direct them as movies and not be in them.  There's no part for me, as of now, neither..

Monday, October 27, 2014

Why I'm No Good (to Some)

I think that Ellen is really mad now that I said she gave my mom cancer.  I was in a freak state but now realize it's not good to just go (all) out and say that.

I'm not as cute as a few of my cousins, if not most of the girls, I see.  So what?  It's not my fault.  I know their parents rushed them into it.

What about comparing me to most people?  They accept me because I am nice.

I missed the deadline for school.  I didn't know I needed my transcripts in by October until October.  1 school didn't send it in when I asked and this time I was too late.  I forgot about the FAFSA (sp? lol) financial aid, anyway.

I don't think that Seminole State has film, but I could go to the supposedly costly Full Sail.  My dad suggested acting, too.  I keep sending myself in, but I gotta be harder on myself.  I'm getting my hair redyed, as well.  It didn't turn out right at Dillards and too much money.  Last month, I spent a total of like $185 and it's still yellow.  I need to buy extreme hair repair shampoo.  I heard any hair could be repaired, which is a fact for me at least or as a rule of this thing that it means something to know it's in the back of your head and you have to use that you know this..

So, I feel sorry for Ellen because she things she's obliged to me sometimes, but I know that these people who know me know other cousins and "friends" or people I follow who are cuter.  You know Lauren Lee Smith felt safe being like Ellen around her, and so are other people to me, but she was not comfortable in the light of day.

I think Ellen is very interesting and deserves the best.  What about some of my old friends?  I bet they'd be her type.  They tend to walk about and trash this trash that I'm so cool I'm blonde and my eyes they blue!  I think I did it, wanted to be a brunette in life if my parents were in it.  They thought they were better.  I came out fair and full of color or sometimes white pigment.  It's sad.  Our life is ending.  The more I blame, the worse it gets, but I don't blame to blame.  Some people just hate people for their race mostly, and I can't have that.  I think my family stay out of harm's way pretty clearly!

So, like round em up!  Look for people who Ellen would like.  There are cute people going around with benefits.  That's all she can take.  Nice people with benefits.  What about multiracials?  I'm gonna get them as fans and put them online.

I feel all I am is my blog, and I think she would agree.  People seem to gloss through and ignore the opportunity to talk.

Edit

I added a tag to my last post.

TV

Taylor on Ellen

I have so many feelings for this girl all about the same thing, her pride in her heritage she carried with her to Tennessee.  I feel more open about different cultures, honestly.

I liked her performance so much.  I think I know 5 some form of blonde haired blue eyed people from Pennsylvania who are singers, the only oldest one being non-white blonde maybe.

She's such a pioneer.  I admire her so much for just doing that.

She looks good.  I feel she is still developing, but she is so tall and her heels were so tall, too.  I liked to see Ellen hugging her.  I feel she's broken some barriers by sitting in a chair with a fan and hugging her.  Taylor.

I fell in love with the Tennessee bear at Country Bear Jamboree.  I didn't do Pirates of the Caribbean nor the Haunted Mansion today, but I did see this mainly for the Tennessee bear's what sparked an interest.

It is interesting to see how Taylor cares so much, maybe made to care too much, and she turns off.  I don't think I turned off up north.  I think she's just like that.  I don't think it's a good Pennsylvanian trait, no offense.  It's probably confusing to her.  Maybe, it was inflicted via fame.

I think that she needs to recognize there are other people out there.  She seems like she's from the country big time, though.  I wonder if she wants to live somewhere else.  She is a singer, after all.  LA she probably already is there.  You know, she reminds me of Britney Spears being proud of where she's lived and what she can do.

She seemed annoyed at things people from Pennsylvania get annoyed at.  Like, if someone wants attention, they just get so mad.  They don't know how to get attention.

She's too to sweet.  I just really connect.  I'd be honored to get to like talk to her about my experiences being Pennsylvanian and not living there.  I also sing.  It would be cool if she hired me to do something with her.  I don't know about touring a year, though, I have other goals and aspirations, now.  Film.  It's pretty serious.  I need to start.  I was thinking of Full Sail, the big nationwide film school.

So, good job!  I love this!  It was a good warmup/icebreaker together.

I found out why I get violent.

In New Orleans, I was threatened with suicidal noises that only I could hear, and when I was bothered I screamed and the police took me.

Contact

The Walt Disney Company

I want to sell myself singing the song "Let It Go" from "Frozen" unlimitedly on iTunes. Can you help me find out how to get the rights to do that and let me know how much it would cost? Thank you, so much!

I can't believe

at the last minute you get jealous.  It seems I've been hurt and am no longer worth it, a similar type of thing that happened to Steven Hawkins (sp?)

What?

How can you do this?  Why is "it" about people in my life you think I've suddenly wronged easily?

Math

People may sacrifice for you, but maybe it's just 1 + 1 = 2.

New Yet Offensive

What do you think of someone older than a generation of kids who thinks every time they do something cool it's bad because it's offensive to them in their opinion?
Pictures of Me

Waste From Race

All my accomplishments are gone to waste because of race!

Sleep

I'm having a hard time and might go somewhere tomorrow, at least I want to be ready to.  I have to wake up at 4.  I can wait and go Wednesday.  I have somewhere else to go Tuesday, which is lame.  The bus can seem to take so long.  I really don't know what to do, now.  I've slept a lot this week and don't feel too tired.  I woke up at 5PM.  If I'm so not tired now, I'd better go, might get a little sleep if I get tired.  I could get ready now and then sleep.  I just feel torn in half by what happened today, which is on my Problems blog.  I don't know how to feel well.  Disney is crazy.

What do you think of

people who have a say in the world?  Like without extra suggestive behavior being made by others towards them?  I feel my family and I have reached a dead end where it all stops.  Maybe, kids are the only people who have a say/maybe not?

Chloe

Sevigny

Website Update

About Me

I was born with dark blue eyes, and I've had solid non-black hair bleached from the sun more at the bottom.  It was a bright color, sorta brown, red, and gold, typical.  As of now, it is dyed to be like the Ellen DeGeneres look-alikes.

What if

Chloe Sevigny and Chloe Moretz were in Ouija?

Actress

Chloe Sevigny

link

It looks like her heyday was that she looked like Ellen filming Those Who Kill.

I kinda am hoping she will know if she can have a quiet life with kids or if she's in sync with the world in wanting to make it "different" and possibly more social for the people who can't seem to find anyone outside of "home."  Just passerby.

I know

the old dad thing is a lie because a baby with an older dad is still the age it is from when it was born, and when you compare it to a baby with a younger dad they are both still pretty young at least.

I know

why Ellen is so sensitive.  She built herself up to be attractive and wants no one to beat her.  Nor change her.

Sunday, October 26, 2014

Actress

I said that Chloe Grace Moretz was in Dark Shadows with Tim Burton as director and whatever she said was accepted, whereas with me all my hard work is just a matter of consequence.

Actress

I find Lauren Lee Smith, who was a child model since she moved too much to do drama, an interesting person.  She acts on TV and has to remember lots of lines.  I don't think I can remember lots of lines.

She looked like Ellen DeGeneres in a movie with Chloe Grace Moretz.

On Twitter

Do people on Twitter who are famous and have that little blue check on their profile get a notification if another account with a little blue check sends them a message?

Does that make you sick or just OK?  I tell you, it will mean something in the future as other things of this nature do.  It makes me think of my old choir director/organist who taught me some organ.  She's pretty, born in January 1954, and her husband is a multimillionaire or more from hotels in New Orleans.

Welcome!

to my BlogSpot!

More

My dad thinks that since I reacted it means something.  How weird.

I know what's going on.

I was very kind to my cousin, and now Ellen DeGeneres came in and said it's my fault she has a bad life.  Blame her mom!

Fine

Like, k*** me for having dark hair.  I'll never amount to anything.

Weird

So, what, Ellen is saying she is better than everyone else for stopping her career.  How rebellious.  I don't even follow these other 3 white blonde blue-eyed singers from Mid-Pennsylvania, anymore.

I don't get it.

She got nothing out of it.  She looks weird.

I find this to be quite.

weird

Dream

1st, I ended up where I used to live in the nation's oldest continuing city and 2nd oldest city.  I was saying I'd be a Jacksonville Jaguars cheerleader/dancer.  I saw a friend with her family at church.

I know later on they were buying Ellen DeGeneres as a little kid of like 3.  I think they bought something else before with a coin, a poor man, like $10,000.  I'm watching a movie called 10,000 BC.

The 1st part was spooky and engaging, in a way, but not perfect.

Good Night?

Good Night?

Buenos Noch es?

Gut nacht?

YouTube

I'm getting more out of The Voice Kids in Australia than Germany.  I know that lady is in it, though.

It's unanimous.

Ellen has always been our favorite.  Praise to the range of lookalikes!  And wannabes who are too skeert.

Website Update

People

Dinner

I just made some Garlic Chicken Stir Fry.  I think it's lowering my diabetes.

Saturday, October 25, 2014

Website Update

Best Memories

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Friday, October 24, 2014

Gymnastics

I guess it's full, so I have to do ballet.

Sad

After all I do, people still find fault in me.  I sure hope I start gymnastics next week.  It will help a little.  It is like it's my responsibility.

My life is like off..

..all the things I used to enjoy and hoped to.  People treat me like I'm weird and totally out of touch.

Cute Family

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New Facebook Page

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Article

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"Today s youth is crippled by a lack of self belief"

Teenagers

Teenagers - picture with an interesting blonde..

Plan

Ballet and Gymnastics each once a week for health

keep the blonde hair

Disney when I feel like it

Maybe

I can do gymnastics 1 day and ballet 1 day a week.

I know my problems.

The medicine makes me tired.

I need a regular physical activity.  I want to do gymnastics and ballet, but I use the money to eat at Disney.  Maybe, I should change that for now.  I wonder if my dad can ever take me or I use the bus.  Eventually, I will be good-looking and become an actress.  I have to dye my hair each month, maybe only about $30?