Should I entertain myself

eating lunch with my parents?  What if it's not a good idea?  I don't feel up to ironing, yet.

No Answer

I contacted to see if I could record over a karaoke to sell.  Been a day.

Christmas CD

Zooey Deschanel

Too bad she is also older than Josh Groban.

Imagine

Charlotte Church being asked to sing "The Little Drummer Boy."

Well

I got up today.  It seems that they don't sell lyrics online.  There are legal places to get them.  (?)  What about VEVO?  They exist there.  :|  I mean, the lyrics to like 50 Christmas songs is overwhelming.  I don't wanna learn "The Prayer" that way, though.

Wow

You musta done something good.

You sit on a pedestal yet thing the rules don't pertain to you.

I'd like to apologize

for my illness, but I was figuring out why I was mad I guess.  I don't wanna stay mad.  I wasn't mad at anyone, like I said.

Upset

Josh Groban, it is not true that people who are not famous singers are all bad and that you just answer people who are bad because of it.  That is twisted.

We were not disobedient.  I was unable to get a record label or whatever.  I am still practicing each day and got some Christmas songs.

Maybe

I will watch TV after a shower and change and gotta iron.

If you're famous

at least you always have something to do and somewhere to get away from it all and for your family's needs.

Maybe

as it gets longer the highlights will reincrease.

I can't

seem to afford to do my hair.  I want clothes, too, children's dresses?

I want

my dad and depression to not injure me.

Should I

watch Ellen now?  No?

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About 10 Years Is Already Too Long

for me to have been sitting here posting on IMDb waiting to see what happens next. Now, I find myself seeking out college admission.

My dad isn't supposed to be mad at me

because of the year he was born.

Ellen

I can catch you on Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday.  Is that too much?

I wish I could stay awake now..

I need to sleep..  I'm making my way.

I wonder if a new hairdo will make me look older.  Who doesn't want short blonde hair?  Hm.. Longer blonde hair?

I feel my current do is old.

I feel sad.

I mean, I wish they were the same as before Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  I feel their jealousy of my life, too.  I love giving people tips online.

No one cares.

About their squeamishness and other things I can't say.  Seriously.  No one cares.

Problem

Are you pretending to mess around because of inlaws?

I don't wanna leave home

cuz my mom is sick and my dad is old.  Everything for my little brother.

Interesting

The posts I see online.. some to me.

Hm

How strangely comfortable Rebecca Newman is on Twitter.  Woke up to a rich home.

Why

When I was being nice to that girl was everyone mean to me?

O Boy

So, you insinuate I do things for unsaid reasons, but I find that you do that, that the reasons you disclaim, "just the same, just the same.."

She is indeed guilty.

She has not helped by being a goody good to bad people.  It is not in her intent to reach out and speak to me.  When she embraces that which is evil.

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Did you all just give up?

I'm looking at the boards online these days, and I mean what can I say? What can I say? 

Good Night Soon?

Want to wake up!

So

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show" can put me in a bad mood due to bad news of what Ellen can't handle socially actually.  I already care that we get what Late Boomer kids have.

To me

Chinese people look new.

So, you eliminate races 1 by 1.

1st hated is Chinese, take Jews for thinking they are better than not just them but everyone?

Just want to watch someone take all the burden.

No one cares about me.

You just care about people who are white and their mistakes.

You all throw at me

stuff that only bad people believe in, like here put pressure on this put pressure on that.

I must weigh

in the 140s now.

See

I don't wanna be mean to that person.  I just don't approve of the bad things that have been brought out.

No More

No more saying my dad told you to have kids and now you don't wannem.

Why do I need this experiment in my life..

..other than to help me feel better about not being shot?  I'm just blogging.

What a joke.

Telling me to not like Ellen because I'm Chinese.  That would make me weird.  Telling me not to like something good.  Well, what about liking a flower?  Isn't that good?

Go ahead, grace me with your general pure blood racial ramblings and sojourns.

I know.

This show has no mental value.  It's about bad people.  I don't bargain myself to anyone.  I know enough about the show's personality to sit here and blog about it like I did other things when I stopped doing anything.

I can explain?

I just zonked totally that watching "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was a waste of my time and went into the new girl she's into.  I mean, it depresses me.  I don't like the TV like that.  I'm not supposed to think about it personally.. that's hurting me.

If you want to hold people accountable for not contacting you

cuz you're famous, I don't think you picked the right person.  You have to say loud and clear I want you to contact me for such and such.  Why?  Because lotta people are feeling put down by the middle ages in Hollywood.

What can I go by?

I can't even say I'm a good person?  That's bad?

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Do you post to people here for the posts or..

..who the poster is? Why would you care who the poster is?

I'm not here to deal with

that you get away with everything, what you do online!  Stop saying I'm bad.

Well

Ellen, don't know when I'll feel better and get tired of blogging, but I hope to catch the show soon?  Maybe, I've seen enough?

Why can't I seem to rejuvenate?

Now, this is an important post.

I had a long conversation

with a girl who was like 1/2 Spanish and 1/4 Italian 1/4 black.

But I'm not sure about

college..  It's just something to do.  It's what made my mom sick.

You have intense anger yet belief

with the Chinese race.

And if it's bye bye to that because of Thailand, then it's bye bye to your being white alone.

Thanks a lot

for being trashy, but you can't seem to leave me alone.

Other Mistake

My life is jeopardized, socially, because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

What do I have to hope for?

I found

I have to reapply for a scholarship in New Orleans or ask the office.

Mystery

Do older people like Ellen have older friends or parental figures?  How do they find appropriate ones for certain needs that younger people have?

I need help.

I don't know if I wanna join up and experimentally dye my hair in order to have a different personality.  I don't mind lengths so much being changed.

Well

Ellen you're outta business.  People are all bad, and you follow them.  Things can't stay this way mentally.

Help!

I said if I live my life my dad gets worse.  Please don't hurt him.  I see my mom has managed to get sick.

Don't give him reason to get mad.

Weird

I don't like mothers who put their kids on a guilt trip to shield them from the view of the world.

Talk About Anything

or you'll forget it all anyway

So

Ellen, how can I possibly watch your show if things at home are causing problems supposedly with me as an audience member or rather viewer at home?  These things aren't my decisions, so I'm the sane one.

I see my dad sneaking about "getting" to judge people.  Who?  Well, he does it..

Learn to talk it out in a nice way.  It's the topic itself.

Problem

I hope he is okay.  I came out after leaving the TV on as I said but this time older white girls.  I for some reason was out of control with how I walked, and I was too late that it bothered him.  I don't know why I didn't stop, but I was battling what would sting otherwise, me thinking of the word "nigger" or "piece of shit" again or why my walking naturally would hurt someone, like I was partially zonked out.  I didn't mean to, but we best not have that happen to anyone.  What's everyone else's story??  Ever had this tragedy occur?  What is on TV?  I mean, other people think this stuff is funny.  I don't.  Where's my prize?  Where are my needs as a living thing met?  I got told I couldn't return to college and do what I did before.

If I want

my dad to leave me in peace and quiet, he has to do it, as I am 28.  He would, anyway, in a way.  I mean, I do not bother him.

About that..

..replacing me?  Trouble still abounds.  I'm not submitting nor denying my interests.  I'm not waiting for something big to happen.

See, you bribe me.  That in and of itself is worth poking a stick with.  Perhaps, you just don't want to reveal your answer, too much in trouble and too different.

Well

If you can't be a productive citizen, I guess there's an issue.  Best leave me alone.

If you're white

What's your excuse?

Go impress other races.

Did it stop time?

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I have the funniest joke.

Don't worry about the probability of alien abduction 

but of meteors hitting the earth. 


Which is the foreseen threat? How does that change the statistics?

Now, the Question

What are the chances of that happening to me?  I haven't heard much on alien abductions but the probability.  Be more worried about comets hitting the earth.

Threatened

So, you could be chained down if I could - literally.  Why don't you leave me alone?

If you're racist,

You've made a mistake.

What It Is

It's that you've hurt another human being.

Why

Why don't you 2 or however many get a room?

HA! and leave me alone!  See?

My dad is mad.

Even if you told him in a way that touched a nerve he is onto me too much somehow, with what little I do with him and how much I wanted a good relationship he seems unable to let me have with anyone.. he would say I'm in trouble and stick to his simple-minded upbringing.

Possible

My dad influenced me to AFTER I spammed my friends help mails of concern over e-mail.

If we have enough

it'll come.  Solve this.

Telling me to go on a break

and stay in my room was an error.  I don't have the money to be comfortable by myself!

What has happened to the world?

Leave me alone!

Everyone has gone mad over Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.  Why?  Why?  Don't you care more about them than your petty desires?

You can't label me a generation.

Funny

I can't seem to stabilize a relationship with my own parents.  My dad wants to get too close too fast.  But not in a good way.

You all fall for him.

He doesn't like that.

I feel threatened.

If I mention Bella Thorne through the wrong toothhole.

He must be insane.

When I was 11, he came home from work, and I said, "Oh, no!"  I was SHY.  Also, if he asked why, I'd say, because I didn't finish my homework yet, which I'd been at since I got home.

Be mad.

But he seems to manipulate my life.  He doesn't want me.

My dad's trigger

is my comfort and debate.

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Why don't you all just consider Hollywood as your field?

You're all lonely and jealous and want the attention. Better tell yourself you tried. That way you won't get mad at people cuz you'll learn from your mistakes.

I have a weird feeling

Ellen.. I just do nothing and I will get messages from you, which are critical of me in ways that don't help outfront at least nor maybe at all.. and I will end up posting how I feel and it won't be a mood to watch your show but to do bigger things.

See

Ellen is a fighter.  I'm so depressed about the show.  Everyone is hooked to the TV like a marathon.

See

Ellen doesn't care.  She's paired me with my dad.

I can do anything legal.

My parents have no say, otherwise.

I have my own brilliant ideas, and I don't want their long-standing lessons.

If I was thrust into the world

My dad doesn't care about me.  He cares about his reputation and not my life nor anyone else's..

The Show

I need to watch it but am on a heated debate and need to sleep otherwise.  I don't even know if I'm supposed to catch Fridays, naturally or unnaturally.  :(

Upset

I didn't check Twitter all day, was meditating.

But, I'm not on Facebook now.. disgusted, not at anyone, but I am.

So..

..someone bad needs special reassurance?

I feel something is wrong.

Quit being mean to me cuz yer afraid of my parents.  What?  You really believe they would hurt you?  Well, you're all hurting me.  May as well leave me alone if that's the case.  We might meet up later, but who cares?

I found

I was whiter than blacks and more Northern than real Southerners and therefore am the boss.

Remember when it was a mystery

someone who is biracial?  Well, it's still a mystery.

I might have found

that many Asians who look white or Europeans who look Middle Eastern have high self-confidence.

Blew a Fuse

Ellen is not in this world.  She makes me uncomfortable by accident|nature.  That's okay, though.  Keep it up.  For now.

I mean, basically what I can collect in my thoughts now is that like it's not your normal hi nice to meet you, everything's cool..but wait it's not.  She knows the danger of everyone liking her too much yet acts like hardly anyone likes her, when I mean it can be either both or not, not just not and some negation of the truth in detail.  It'll affect how she's delivered herself.  The simple fact is we all want to know her.  When we find out we don't deserve it or didn't win or weren't this or that or your favorite, people will riot.  I wonder what she'd be like in public on TV with Portia all the time!