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Tuesday, September 16, 2014

Do you post to people here for the posts or..

..who the poster is? Why would you care who the poster is?

I'm not here to deal with

that you get away with everything, what you do online! Stop saying I'm bad.

Well

Ellen, don't know when I'll feel better and get tired of blogging, but I hope to catch the show soon? Maybe, I've seen enough?

Why can't I seem to rejuvenate?

Now, this is an important post.

I had a long conversation

with a girl who was like 1/2 Spanish and 1/4 Italian 1/4 black.

But I'm not sure about

college.. It's just something to do. It's what made my mom sick.

You have intense anger yet belief

with the Chinese race.

And if it's bye bye to that because of Thailand, then it's bye bye to your being white alone.

Thanks a lot

for being trashy, but you can't seem to leave me alone.

Other Mistake

My life is jeopardized, socially, because of Charlie and the Chocolate Factory.

What do I have to hope for?

I found

I have to reapply for a scholarship in New Orleans or ask the office.

Mystery

Do older people like Ellen have older friends or parental figures? How do they find appropriate ones for certain needs that younger people have?

I need help.

I don't know if I wanna join up and experimentally dye my hair in order to have a different personality. I don't mind lengths so much being changed.

Well

Ellen you're outta business. People are all bad, and you follow them. Things can't stay this way mentally.

Help!

I said if I live my life my dad gets worse. Please don't hurt him. I see my mom has managed to get sick.

Don't give him reason to get mad.

Weird

I don't like mothers who put their kids on a guilt trip to shield them from the view of the world.

Ellen, how can I possibly watch your show if things at home are causing problems supposedly with me as an audience member or rather viewer at home? These things aren't my decisions, so I'm the sane one.

I see my dad sneaking about "getting" to judge people. Who? Well, he does it..

Learn to talk it out in a nice way. It's the topic itself.

Problem

I hope he is okay. I came out after leaving the TV on as I said but this time older white girls. I for some reason was out of control with how I walked, and I was too late that it bothered him. I don't know why I didn't stop, but I was battling what would sting otherwise, me thinking of the word "nigger" or "piece of shit" again or why my walking naturally would hurt someone, like I was partially zonked out. I didn't mean to, but we best not have that happen to anyone. What's everyone else's story?? Ever had this tragedy occur? What is on TV? I mean, other people think this stuff is funny. I don't. Where's my prize? Where are my needs as a living thing met? I got told I couldn't return to college and do what I did before.

If I want

my dad to leave me in peace and quiet, he has to do it, as I am 28. He would, anyway, in a way. I mean, I do not bother him.

About that..

..replacing me? Trouble still abounds. I'm not submitting nor denying my interests. I'm not waiting for something big to happen.

See, you bribe me. That in and of itself is worth poking a stick with. Perhaps, you just don't want to reveal your answer, too much in trouble and too different.

Well

If you can't be a productive citizen, I guess there's an issue. Best leave me alone.

If you're white

What's your excuse?

Go impress other races.

Did it stop time?

IMDb - The Soapbox

I have the funniest joke.

Don't worry about the probability of alien abduction

but of meteors hitting the earth.

Which is the foreseen threat? How does that change the statistics?

Now, the Question

What are the chances of that happening to me? I haven't heard much on alien abductions but the probability. Be more worried about comets hitting the earth.

Threatened

So, you could be chained down if I could - literally. Why don't you leave me alone?

If you're racist,

You've made a mistake.

What It Is

It's that you've hurt another human being.

Why

Why don't you 2 or however many get a room?

HA! and leave me alone! See?

My dad is mad.

Even if you told him in a way that touched a nerve he is onto me too much somehow, with what little I do with him and how much I wanted a good relationship he seems unable to let me have with anyone.. he would say I'm in trouble and stick to his simple-minded upbringing.

Possible

My dad influenced me to AFTER I spammed my friends help mails of concern over e-mail.

If we have enough

it'll come. Solve this.

Telling me to go on a break

and stay in my room was an error. I don't have the money to be comfortable by myself!

What has happened to the world?

Leave me alone!

Everyone has gone mad over Tim Burton, Johnny Depp, and Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Why? Why? Don't you care more about them than your petty desires?

You can't label me a generation.

Funny

I can't seem to stabilize a relationship with my own parents. My dad wants to get too close too fast. But not in a good way.

You all fall for him.

He doesn't like that.

I feel threatened.

If I mention Bella Thorne through the wrong toothhole.

He must be insane.

When I was 11, he came home from work, and I said, "Oh, no!" I was SHY. Also, if he asked why, I'd say, because I didn't finish my homework yet, which I'd been at since I got home.

Be mad.

But he seems to manipulate my life. He doesn't want me.

My dad's trigger

is my comfort and debate.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Why don't you all just consider Hollywood as your field?

You're all lonely and jealous and want the attention. Better tell yourself you tried. That way you won't get mad at people cuz you'll learn from your mistakes.

I have a weird feeling

Ellen.. I just do nothing and I will get messages from you, which are critical of me in ways that don't help outfront at least nor maybe at all.. and I will end up posting how I feel and it won't be a mood to watch your show but to do bigger things.

See

Ellen is a fighter. I'm so depressed about the show. Everyone is hooked to the TV like a marathon.

See

Ellen doesn't care. She's paired me with my dad.

I can do anything legal.

My parents have no say, otherwise.

I have my own brilliant ideas, and I don't want their long-standing lessons.

If I was thrust into the world

My dad doesn't care about me. He cares about his reputation and not my life nor anyone else's..

The Show

I need to watch it but am on a heated debate and need to sleep otherwise. I don't even know if I'm supposed to catch Fridays, naturally or unnaturally. :(

Upset

I didn't check Twitter all day, was meditating.

But, I'm not on Facebook now.. disgusted, not at anyone, but I am.

So..

..someone bad needs special reassurance?

I feel something is wrong.

Quit being mean to me cuz yer afraid of my parents. What? You really believe they would hurt you? Well, you're all hurting me. May as well leave me alone if that's the case. We might meet up later, but who cares?

I found

I was whiter than blacks and more Northern than real Southerners and therefore am the boss.

Remember when it was a mystery

someone who is biracial? Well, it's still a mystery.

I might have found

that many Asians who look white or Europeans who look Middle Eastern have high self-confidence.

Blew a Fuse

Ellen is not in this world. She makes me uncomfortable by accident|nature. That's okay, though. Keep it up. For now.

I mean, basically what I can collect in my thoughts now is that like it's not your normal hi nice to meet you, everything's cool..but wait it's not. She knows the danger of everyone liking her too much yet acts like hardly anyone likes her, when I mean it can be either both or not, not just not and some negation of the truth in detail. It'll affect how she's delivered herself. The simple fact is we all want to know her. When we find out we don't deserve it or didn't win or weren't this or that or your favorite, people will riot. I wonder what she'd be like in public on TV with Portia all the time!

IMDb - The Soapbox

Re: People who are good at arguing.....

Ellen DeGeneres, what else goes on with her?? What do people think of her? She's a debater of their feelings is what they experience. I think she has to say your race if you're not technically white. In the end, it won't be magical-am I wrong?

IMDb - The Soapbox

Knowing all races are mixed, how do you feel?

I mean, the Scandinavians are mixed with ancient Asian.

All the major countries in Europe are infused with Askenazi Jewish "migrators."

Native American indians are probably often mixed with Australoid and Mongoloid.

The other countries in Europe strive to be called Middle Eastern.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Are Asians the new black?

Are Asians wanting to be white and being denied the forming of a whole new way of life? I think they have really been confronted in the media. You think they aren't there, but they are.

I think they are confused. They are racing against each other. It's hard to know what to do when meeting an Asian. They can't really say they're strong to others like blacks nor over whites, really. What can they do? Are they a mangled race? Why? Why do people encourage them to stay ways they don't want to be??

I guess it's like with the Spanish. I don't see how a black person can be racist to a white person unless a white person bribed them into telling them that. [none]

Monday, September 15, 2014

So

Some things apparently have happened and I was upset in specific ways, not in the whole thing. That's it with LA.

If you can chose to abort your child..

..why couldn't I abort my inlaws - joke ahahaha.

Problem

I don't wanna be Chinese in a way that makes me not white.

I was only joking

about younger people because it came up and I thought of it and to be funny. How will I get by being rejected? Haven't I been framed? Johnny Depp is not as "nice" as other people when he thinks he's the only 1 in the world who's nice but then again he doesn't. Sorry, Depp, I don't have time to explain shit like this, ha ha.

I just wanted you to know

Ellen that you shouldn't make my dad turn on me cuz then it's bad for his health. You know what with you being involved in the experiment on me.

I mean, weren't you scared of him? Well, it's not easy on me living with him. I've already "disposed of LA" as it were here in Central Florida.. a joke I am not up to explaining.

So, the answer is not wanted. I mean what I told you is not what you want me to say. Also, this post isn't tagged for you to collect. It's for anyone to read.

I mean you wanted an answer in the positive. This is negative news.

I'm picking up hints.

Me not getting upset at Ellen for putting noises in my room and stuff means I get tortured later doesn't fly by me.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

Look Out

Ellen DeGeneres, people have a hatred about you in that you are born around 1960 and from New Orleans, that's 2 birds with 1 stone! Someone like my aunt will consider someone from New Orleans and then realize the only reason they are happier is they are from there. Then, they see that it wasn't even worth it being an Early Boomer!

Life Is Bad

I'm tired of darting people's insecurities. Bleh to them.

So

Are you bowing down to mean white people? You don't even know what white means. Have fun with the new crowd..

So what?

I get along with black people. I guess you just aren't multicultural. You had your chance and you still have it!

I don't wanna

I don't wanna take part in Baby Boomer's tacky little tactics against us.

You all need to stop

paying any attention to my friends just because I already know them.

Singers

Charlotte Church or Katherine Jenkins?

Why do you "have" to think I'm bad?

You just want me to foil others. I caughtcha!

I know what you're still on about.

When my cousin came into this world, things got worse and I can see her sneer about what she has, more affection even when she was provoked to be very bad, apparently.

When people yet again younger than her by the same amount come a new generation begins, a little bit stronger and little bit worse.

None of this makes sense. I'm not gonna literally foil your kids. I'm gonna foil myself and others in good ways. Anyway, I already have as for a population.

So, everyone's telling me to forget it?

My life needs to be different from what it is like now.

I contacted my 2 old colleges to see if I was still in and for the same price.

"Forget it," not sure what you're slobbering over, but it seems to be "what."

Some things I wouldn't want, anyway.

The reason I am contacting the colleges is actually different. I don't want to be sedentary. I want to make big changes in corners of the world. I don't really want to die without either being famous for my acting and the arts .. or at least succeeding with a college degree, which I will probably study the arts.

There's just not much to talk about sometimes it seems. I'm listening to Christmas music. I sang out today and need a break. A little each day in the right direction can go a long way.