Friday, December 6, 2013
Problem
STOP why did I hear a click on either side of my room? Stop acting like I did something. This shit has gone on for 8½ years. I can revel in it if I like, but this is just stupid. I am not stupid.
I SAID I DON'T CARE @ LAST WORD STOP IT
I SAID I DON'T CARE @ LAST WORD STOP IT
Over My Back
I feel as though my parents will make my future daughter not have fair skin. Must wait til 40.
Problem
I don't care what you say, Ellen, you having the last messages is retarded and I don't want to unravel it. I believe the last 1 was a purple spider up in my room..
And there it is
The experimenter is droning on as though I just did something and gave a mean message @ the boy from England, said like Kate Bush in a tacky way, "You bet that's Dad dead." I don't think he has problems with my dad, but he's different.
Problem
This experimenter later in the dust is o well no one's perfect I don't GIVE A CRAP @ a mixed Chinese family..
Should I consider not cursing?
I thought wow maybe today will work out.. and someone who did it to me thinks I owe them something.
Sorry
I don't mean to be so mean so much.. I just wanted to say that I don't really acknowledge it as something I'd do to anyone. You just think @ my kids. Well, just get it out in private.
If you don't curse
I mean to say I don't give a damn if Depp and Ellen wanna offer me a chance for being mad at what THEY did but not mad otherwise and ruining a household appliance as a memoir. I don't give a fuck even if you said it.
What, now?
You did something to me, I didn't curse right at you, just @ something.
Ugh, what if they're mad I cooked something my mom got in the freezer she leaves there a long time?
Ugh, what if they're mad I cooked something my mom got in the freezer she leaves there a long time?
Problem
Experimenter, you think your suggestions are okay. Ya'll stop reveling in me as tacky like an annoying old best friend.s
Wow, so who thinks I'm bad? NO! You start everything.. I just get mad at it.
Wow, so who thinks I'm bad? NO! You start everything.. I just get mad at it.
Problems
My oven has finally stopped taking the Bake sign off when reaching the point it's ready to heat. Really, Ellen|Depp, I don't give a crap. I can get upset on the inside if I wanted @ you being mean to me things like eating and sewing all of a sudden, starting to cook "in Florida."
My dad was looking at me so tackily and annoyingly. I want him to take me to the Y.
My dad was looking at me so tackily and annoyingly. I want him to take me to the Y.
"Not a Chance.."
What are the chances of me being in a movie with Johnny Depp? Should I consider myself an actor and model?? I wouldn't want to act like with someone else unless it were something cool. I mean, yea, but like I might have priorities, now.
Song
Listening to "Veruca Salt" makes me in tune with how younger kids are treated.. Danny Elfman seems open to older kids musically. Well, teens, these days.
I would be a great foil as Violet. I so hope they make another 1 and I can be that. You'd have the prize role reserved for someone else. }:] Here we go again.
I would be a great foil as Violet. I so hope they make another 1 and I can be that. You'd have the prize role reserved for someone else. }:] Here we go again.
So, what's the difference-
b/w being nice to someone all the time as opposed to messing up, under pressure?
Dream
My dad carried me like 2 or 3 times maybe and it felt like m.. he tried to squeeze me and stuff and I didn't feel anymore.
I already said I don't like that. Why does our world center on this? I think it's a bit different than touching someone. There apparently are different ways of touching someone.. It's funny when you dream of these things at older age.
Out of interest sake, I never liked being held, essentially. People acted like I was mini and submissive. It wasn't friendly, and plus I'm ½ Chinese. I was very mad not to get proper attention from others as a kid, very mad, didn't talk @ it maybe as much as I was upset @ not being like younger than other kids ever.
In the dream, I went places with other kids.
I already said I don't like that. Why does our world center on this? I think it's a bit different than touching someone. There apparently are different ways of touching someone.. It's funny when you dream of these things at older age.
Out of interest sake, I never liked being held, essentially. People acted like I was mini and submissive. It wasn't friendly, and plus I'm ½ Chinese. I was very mad not to get proper attention from others as a kid, very mad, didn't talk @ it maybe as much as I was upset @ not being like younger than other kids ever.
In the dream, I went places with other kids.
Ellen DeGeneres W/Tim Burton
I know she could be nice, but she thinks we are to be punished for thinking we can make it at all in the world of fame with the rise of Tim Burton. I thought it was specifically something he did to us.
Has anyone seem them together? They must have talked at some point.
We need to know that this will happen after we are doing something that has to do with him. We should have known in the 1st place.
Has anyone seem them together? They must have talked at some point.
We need to know that this will happen after we are doing something that has to do with him. We should have known in the 1st place.
Problem
Ellen, I will not feel I deserve to be punished for violent reactions, not violent actions. I'm feeling pretty annoyed. You know, I would never do anything like this. I have needs that are not being met. Those needs include like having a clean room.. I dunno what else. Oh yes, a place to go. To leave my room and the house for organized activity. To be on top of things and not under any muck.
Question
Someone on IMDb tipped me off that other people are talking to me and people connected through people who shouldn't be connected. It doesn't seem that good for me. You all just got hold of some pictures I had at a certain age having lost a good 1|s.. I totally didn't "do" anything wrong.
TV
Carrie Underwood - The Sound of Music live - @ 20-30 minutes of the 3 hours
That is SO good! I felt comfortable when trying to sing with the beautiful parts of the orchestra.
She is so good and same with the rest! She was so beautiful and amazing and good! I like how good she is at sliding to different notes! My teacher said not to, but oh well. It was very beautiful and ringy and Christmasy!
That is SO good! I felt comfortable when trying to sing with the beautiful parts of the orchestra.
She is so good and same with the rest! She was so beautiful and amazing and good! I like how good she is at sliding to different notes! My teacher said not to, but oh well. It was very beautiful and ringy and Christmasy!
Hey
Ellen, "Touch my body" makin' me feel like I'm from New Orleans.
Ooh yea!
..AND - TOUCH - MAH - BOD EH
Ooh yea!
..AND - TOUCH - MAH - BOD EH
HOT
This is why I'm hot, This is why I'm hot
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
This is why I'm hot, This is why I'm hot
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
I'm hot cuz I'm fly
You ain't cuz you not
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
I'm hot cuz I'm fly
You ain't cuz you not
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
MIMS MIMS mims mims
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
This is why I'm hot, This is why I'm hot
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
I'm hot cuz I'm fly
You ain't cuz you not
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
I'm hot cuz I'm fly
You ain't cuz you not
This is why, this is why, this is why I'm hot
MIMS MIMS mims mims
So, yes..
I'm looking for the audition links. I found 1 where I send in an address with a headshot + a page for my resume..
Thursday, December 5, 2013
Pirates of the Caribbean 5 Plot
link
"But talking ghosts, witches, and a whip smart girl who puts Jack Sparrow to task?"
It has a wedding! What if they got a really young girl? To which character?
"But talking ghosts, witches, and a whip smart girl who puts Jack Sparrow to task?"
It has a wedding! What if they got a really young girl? To which character?
Decision
I want to be a villain in Pirates of the Caribbean. I want to fight Jack Sparrow- Yes, a good villain..
You know what happened today?
I was waiting for the Disney auditions, and the people were all in my face, clearly a younger generation, correcting me with their every move!
We'll find out
what was at stake with all the attacks on me that got me to repeat some things in my mind, why I think it's okay and right and why I don't like to do it.
Problem
I don't give a fuck @ you cornering me with Ellen DeGeneres's pretend mom. LEAVE ME BE. GO **R* YOURSELF INSTEAD! This has gone too far! You won't stop being nasty. I can pretend what I like in private, I wasn't talking to you and don't care to hurt anyone..
Problem
I wake up every day to being annoyed by someone just for sport. Who's in charge, no one? You all make fun of me for what I don't know.
Stop acting like there's a reason. My parents provide a shitty home life. Does that make you wanna be mean to me, that I said it? I can't go out by myself wherever and whenever I want. I can't do anything I like. I don't get to use a whole lotta money, which in some ways is okay. My parents started holding grudges.
Stop acting like there's a reason. My parents provide a shitty home life. Does that make you wanna be mean to me, that I said it? I can't go out by myself wherever and whenever I want. I can't do anything I like. I don't get to use a whole lotta money, which in some ways is okay. My parents started holding grudges.
I think partially
I was just worried Ellen is starting to round in on me. She's so scattered in her relayed thoughts, and people tell me I'm schizo..
Problem
Ellen is so negative. I am a good person. You can't tell me anything bad and everyone else feel good for being younger than me.
You know what's been done to me??
My mom made me bloated, and my dad gave me a double chin, kept happening as I tried to raise it.
I mean come on..
..I came home to read this. She has a silly secret grudge on me. She makes up berserk rules to remember that make no sense and are no fun.
Problem
Why would you chose to hurt me, or did the trash man do this 1 on his own? Was it just the Jesus sign? So what, if you were mean, I wouldn't accept it from anyone.
I'm sorry to say..
Ellen is racist.. and she participates in stupid messages. I'm not sure what ticked, but I think the messages are a waste of my time. I didn't hurt anyone, I just didn't care.
O Wow
The New Orleans zoo is against me. Stop listening to Ellen, everyone. She is being mean to me. That is so nonsensical.
Problem
WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM. ARE YOU NOT A PART OF THE WORLD?
You said what you said and did what you did. So I didn't talk back to you! I'm just replying to your HATE and NEGATIVITY ALL THE TIME.
I'm quite certain of what you're doing and what you just said. STOP IT. Explain to me your problem. I am not a nigger!
You said what you said and did what you did. So I didn't talk back to you! I'm just replying to your HATE and NEGATIVITY ALL THE TIME.
I'm quite certain of what you're doing and what you just said. STOP IT. Explain to me your problem. I am not a nigger!
Problem
She just keeps posting shit for me. You're older, so why don't you grow up, 1st! No one cares @ your teen children. Some of us have parents that aren't so old they are from the stone age. You wanna give everything to the teens today and keep being shitty to me. Who gives a fuck if I don't watch your show? You were mean to me for not following you on Twitter all summer a year and a half ago. The truth is I like your show and I like you, but in the end you always succumb to treating me poorly when you pay attention to me .. like just now. I saw someone write Jesus in the sky and an annoying coloured guy treating me like a nigger doing the trash awhile and made me feel as though I felt bad.. and I began to think @ it.
Problem
Why is Ellen so negative? Maybe she has no double meaning. I'm not gonna sit here and unwrap chocolate bars. Sometimes, with what she has, she has to be incredibly highty-tighty. I don't want to use a bad word.
What Doesn't Work
Ellen can't emulate someone from up north anymore than I can someone from down south cuz I also am from New Orleans. I lived in the area, went there, and finally lived there in school and that tips it off sometimes for me.
What doesn't work with anyone is getting mad at me when I'm good all the time.
What doesn't work with anyone is getting mad at me when I'm good all the time.
More New Orleanian
I noticed a lot of posts from Britney Spears, and she seems pretty sweet but a bit condescending for no reason.. like to younger fans. I wonder if she thinks Ellen is more New Orleanian.
I wonder why Ellen gets mad at me if I wanna have self-esteem. You're not supposed to do what Ellen hints we should do, instead. It's just her way of saying bye to some, wonder if she ever was nice. I still like talking about her. I just notice what's behind certain messages. Like, I specifically mean her being mean to me for the incident with Nell Burton. I am mad at everyone, not especially anyone. Did you notice I'm still pretty powerful? I just don't use my sting.
I wonder why Ellen gets mad at me if I wanna have self-esteem. You're not supposed to do what Ellen hints we should do, instead. It's just her way of saying bye to some, wonder if she ever was nice. I still like talking about her. I just notice what's behind certain messages. Like, I specifically mean her being mean to me for the incident with Nell Burton. I am mad at everyone, not especially anyone. Did you notice I'm still pretty powerful? I just don't use my sting.
More Strange Things
I find it a bit amusing but quite weird that Ellen has to show off that she can figure out the beach better than someone else. Ellen, that's not gonna get her friends.. A lot of people we have to figure why they are or aren't from New Orleans. Compare every other place in the U.S., and what do you get? New Orleans is mostly made of New Englanders, which is the very northeast. I kinda think that says the opposite of what we've been believing.
Sick and Tired of Covering These Things
It is not a sin for someone not a European from the South in the U.S. to enjoy the beach or live there. It is true they have made fun of Southerners. A lot of people aren't really like that. I don't at all understand your belief a European from Europe can get to know the ocean and someone not from the South but in the U.S. all can't.
What I Think
I want this to be over. You weren't more blessed to be from the South than I was, and up north there exists lots of nice things waiting to happen.
No, I am not a failure like Tim Burton and from the South. Tim Burton isn't really a failure. I dunno, I mean I remember there was a special feeling to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Then, it was about the music, which I was a musician. I would say Tim Burton is a bit silly, but that's to be put aside. His daughter seems silly but not really. The thing is I am different from most people and it's not "because my mom is Chinese." I mean in a certain way. In a lot of ways, I fit in as similar to others.
No, I am not a failure like Tim Burton and from the South. Tim Burton isn't really a failure. I dunno, I mean I remember there was a special feeling to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Then, it was about the music, which I was a musician. I would say Tim Burton is a bit silly, but that's to be put aside. His daughter seems silly but not really. The thing is I am different from most people and it's not "because my mom is Chinese." I mean in a certain way. In a lot of ways, I fit in as similar to others.
Not Making a Big Deal out of a Big Deal
Ellen DeGeneres seems to piece things together from ner "New Orleans" heritage.. love how she says that. I kinda pieced out the background 1st.
What do you think @ people from the South all of a sudden saying they are more ***y? If you are from there, you are probably not bad if your parents are from a nice place.. Now, I mean, you probably were raised totally different. Some people hold onto their childhood more than high school.
A Deep Cut
Ever since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton became big as far as fame goes.. I feel if anyone sees me try to stimulate them by how attractive I am that they will get jealous and find some way of startling me. Startling in general happens all too much. I feel so threatened, and I feel something of the world is gotten the better of me. Everyone gets mad at people from popular places, like the state of Florida. I've had friends on the beach. They seemed fine. They weren't Pennsylvanian. Why is the world so different in that way, too? I find it psycho.
Chosing
Maybe, Ellen is above me. Maybe, those teens are above me.. Why would Ellen chose all those people who aren't better than me. I know for a fact it's my race that makes me not great. My life seems calculated, but I'm a normal person and I fit in. Who cares if I don't have a mom to pity though she's Chinese. Ya'll think these "lies" are a dream for me. Don't worry @ my parents, I am that I am.
I'm not much.
Howcome people who said they "did it" to some extreme failure because of some setback they won't take care of "get" to do things that help them and I don't.
Also, I will never be all that Ellen is, and obviously no one likes me because these people seem to make fun of me a lot for things I didn't do and I think it's just my race. I am okay, but then they just wanna kill me. I don't know if all I do is worth it. I feel it strange my generation is a total failure and I am prevented from succeeding but am told to be a leader and not a follower, a giver and not a reciever. I have nothing to give, ya'll think I'm nothing|crap.
Also, I will never be all that Ellen is, and obviously no one likes me because these people seem to make fun of me a lot for things I didn't do and I think it's just my race. I am okay, but then they just wanna kill me. I don't know if all I do is worth it. I feel it strange my generation is a total failure and I am prevented from succeeding but am told to be a leader and not a follower, a giver and not a reciever. I have nothing to give, ya'll think I'm nothing|crap.
Problem
Why did Bella Thorne Retweet a black Asian-looking guy? She doesn't seem to be as forceful as me about being white. I know it's her bud, but I mean really, what's her problem? She's from Fort Lauderdale, is that it? She does mean suggestive things. I talk about my life. I do wanna be famous, too.
Amanda is the 1 who started bringing it up. I bet Bella doesn't like that cuz her dad is Hispanic.
Amanda is the 1 who started bringing it up. I bet Bella doesn't like that cuz her dad is Hispanic.
Sticky Tactic: Just Knocking Down Those in High Places
Some people develop certain lives and they have certain "needs." People do not treat other people like me. I did "what I was supposed to do." Therefore, I was successful. That success was taken from me.
Not in the Game..
I know that people 5-10 years older than me are just finding some excuse to be mean to me cuz they know I'm ½ Chinese. People like this fix it up like a game, like me being bad will make others feel less stressed.. really, lots of people used this tactic. You sense it in the air. Some people know if I was mean it would hurt them, their feelings. So, they get too picky and I mean I know they mess up. That is considered gay.
Everyone's as Good as Ellen at Some Point
What can I say? People seemed all over me in the world when I was 11, but things unfolded and happened. I was always so good around my friends at school. Like, all those stimulating things people would feel pressured to do to me. I'm still to be loved, but people don't seem to find me intelligent online. In real life, I don't look as good as I used to. Things were set up to say I had the opportunity and for some reason taken away without knowing what to do. Should I start exercising again?
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