Thursday, December 5, 2013
You know what happened today?
I was waiting for the Disney auditions, and the people were all in my face, clearly a younger generation, correcting me with their every move!
We'll find out
what was at stake with all the attacks on me that got me to repeat some things in my mind, why I think it's okay and right and why I don't like to do it.
Problem
I wake up every day to being annoyed by someone just for sport. Who's in charge, no one? You all make fun of me for what I don't know.
Stop acting like there's a reason. My parents provide a shitty home life. Does that make you wanna be mean to me, that I said it? I can't go out by myself wherever and whenever I want. I can't do anything I like. I don't get to use a whole lotta money, which in some ways is okay. My parents started holding grudges.
Stop acting like there's a reason. My parents provide a shitty home life. Does that make you wanna be mean to me, that I said it? I can't go out by myself wherever and whenever I want. I can't do anything I like. I don't get to use a whole lotta money, which in some ways is okay. My parents started holding grudges.
I think partially
I was just worried Ellen is starting to round in on me. She's so scattered in her relayed thoughts, and people tell me I'm schizo..
You know what's been done to me??
My mom made me bloated, and my dad gave me a double chin, kept happening as I tried to raise it.
I mean come on..
..I came home to read this. She has a silly secret grudge on me. She makes up berserk rules to remember that make no sense and are no fun.
I'm sorry to say..
Ellen is racist.. and she participates in stupid messages. I'm not sure what ticked, but I think the messages are a waste of my time. I didn't hurt anyone, I just didn't care.
Problem
WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM. ARE YOU NOT A PART OF THE WORLD?
You said what you said and did what you did. So I didn't talk back to you! I'm just replying to your HATE and NEGATIVITY ALL THE TIME.
I'm quite certain of what you're doing and what you just said. STOP IT. Explain to me your problem. I am not a nigger!
You said what you said and did what you did. So I didn't talk back to you! I'm just replying to your HATE and NEGATIVITY ALL THE TIME.
I'm quite certain of what you're doing and what you just said. STOP IT. Explain to me your problem. I am not a nigger!
Problem
She just keeps posting shit for me. You're older, so why don't you grow up, 1st! No one cares @ your teen children. Some of us have parents that aren't so old they are from the stone age. You wanna give everything to the teens today and keep being shitty to me. Who gives a fuck if I don't watch your show? You were mean to me for not following you on Twitter all summer a year and a half ago. The truth is I like your show and I like you, but in the end you always succumb to treating me poorly when you pay attention to me .. like just now. I saw someone write Jesus in the sky and an annoying coloured guy treating me like a nigger doing the trash awhile and made me feel as though I felt bad.. and I began to think @ it.
What Doesn't Work
Ellen can't emulate someone from up north anymore than I can someone from down south cuz I also am from New Orleans. I lived in the area, went there, and finally lived there in school and that tips it off sometimes for me.
What doesn't work with anyone is getting mad at me when I'm good all the time.
What doesn't work with anyone is getting mad at me when I'm good all the time.
More New Orleanian
I noticed a lot of posts from Britney Spears, and she seems pretty sweet but a bit condescending for no reason.. like to younger fans. I wonder if she thinks Ellen is more New Orleanian.
I wonder why Ellen gets mad at me if I wanna have self-esteem. You're not supposed to do what Ellen hints we should do, instead. It's just her way of saying bye to some, wonder if she ever was nice. I still like talking about her. I just notice what's behind certain messages. Like, I specifically mean her being mean to me for the incident with Nell Burton. I am mad at everyone, not especially anyone. Did you notice I'm still pretty powerful? I just don't use my sting.
I wonder why Ellen gets mad at me if I wanna have self-esteem. You're not supposed to do what Ellen hints we should do, instead. It's just her way of saying bye to some, wonder if she ever was nice. I still like talking about her. I just notice what's behind certain messages. Like, I specifically mean her being mean to me for the incident with Nell Burton. I am mad at everyone, not especially anyone. Did you notice I'm still pretty powerful? I just don't use my sting.
More Strange Things
I find it a bit amusing but quite weird that Ellen has to show off that she can figure out the beach better than someone else. Ellen, that's not gonna get her friends.. A lot of people we have to figure why they are or aren't from New Orleans. Compare every other place in the U.S., and what do you get? New Orleans is mostly made of New Englanders, which is the very northeast. I kinda think that says the opposite of what we've been believing.
Sick and Tired of Covering These Things
It is not a sin for someone not a European from the South in the U.S. to enjoy the beach or live there. It is true they have made fun of Southerners. A lot of people aren't really like that. I don't at all understand your belief a European from Europe can get to know the ocean and someone not from the South but in the U.S. all can't.
What I Think
I want this to be over. You weren't more blessed to be from the South than I was, and up north there exists lots of nice things waiting to happen.
No, I am not a failure like Tim Burton and from the South. Tim Burton isn't really a failure. I dunno, I mean I remember there was a special feeling to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Then, it was about the music, which I was a musician. I would say Tim Burton is a bit silly, but that's to be put aside. His daughter seems silly but not really. The thing is I am different from most people and it's not "because my mom is Chinese." I mean in a certain way. In a lot of ways, I fit in as similar to others.
No, I am not a failure like Tim Burton and from the South. Tim Burton isn't really a failure. I dunno, I mean I remember there was a special feeling to Charlie and the Chocolate Factory. Then, it was about the music, which I was a musician. I would say Tim Burton is a bit silly, but that's to be put aside. His daughter seems silly but not really. The thing is I am different from most people and it's not "because my mom is Chinese." I mean in a certain way. In a lot of ways, I fit in as similar to others.
Not Making a Big Deal out of a Big Deal
Ellen DeGeneres seems to piece things together from ner "New Orleans" heritage.. love how she says that. I kinda pieced out the background 1st.
What do you think @ people from the South all of a sudden saying they are more ***y? If you are from there, you are probably not bad if your parents are from a nice place.. Now, I mean, you probably were raised totally different. Some people hold onto their childhood more than high school.
A Deep Cut
Ever since Johnny Depp and Tim Burton became big as far as fame goes.. I feel if anyone sees me try to stimulate them by how attractive I am that they will get jealous and find some way of startling me. Startling in general happens all too much. I feel so threatened, and I feel something of the world is gotten the better of me. Everyone gets mad at people from popular places, like the state of Florida. I've had friends on the beach. They seemed fine. They weren't Pennsylvanian. Why is the world so different in that way, too? I find it psycho.
Chosing
Maybe, Ellen is above me. Maybe, those teens are above me.. Why would Ellen chose all those people who aren't better than me. I know for a fact it's my race that makes me not great. My life seems calculated, but I'm a normal person and I fit in. Who cares if I don't have a mom to pity though she's Chinese. Ya'll think these "lies" are a dream for me. Don't worry @ my parents, I am that I am.
I'm not much.
Howcome people who said they "did it" to some extreme failure because of some setback they won't take care of "get" to do things that help them and I don't.
Also, I will never be all that Ellen is, and obviously no one likes me because these people seem to make fun of me a lot for things I didn't do and I think it's just my race. I am okay, but then they just wanna kill me. I don't know if all I do is worth it. I feel it strange my generation is a total failure and I am prevented from succeeding but am told to be a leader and not a follower, a giver and not a reciever. I have nothing to give, ya'll think I'm nothing|crap.
Also, I will never be all that Ellen is, and obviously no one likes me because these people seem to make fun of me a lot for things I didn't do and I think it's just my race. I am okay, but then they just wanna kill me. I don't know if all I do is worth it. I feel it strange my generation is a total failure and I am prevented from succeeding but am told to be a leader and not a follower, a giver and not a reciever. I have nothing to give, ya'll think I'm nothing|crap.
Problem
Why did Bella Thorne Retweet a black Asian-looking guy? She doesn't seem to be as forceful as me about being white. I know it's her bud, but I mean really, what's her problem? She's from Fort Lauderdale, is that it? She does mean suggestive things. I talk about my life. I do wanna be famous, too.
Amanda is the 1 who started bringing it up. I bet Bella doesn't like that cuz her dad is Hispanic.
Amanda is the 1 who started bringing it up. I bet Bella doesn't like that cuz her dad is Hispanic.
Sticky Tactic: Just Knocking Down Those in High Places
Some people develop certain lives and they have certain "needs." People do not treat other people like me. I did "what I was supposed to do." Therefore, I was successful. That success was taken from me.
Not in the Game..
I know that people 5-10 years older than me are just finding some excuse to be mean to me cuz they know I'm ½ Chinese. People like this fix it up like a game, like me being bad will make others feel less stressed.. really, lots of people used this tactic. You sense it in the air. Some people know if I was mean it would hurt them, their feelings. So, they get too picky and I mean I know they mess up. That is considered gay.
Everyone's as Good as Ellen at Some Point
What can I say? People seemed all over me in the world when I was 11, but things unfolded and happened. I was always so good around my friends at school. Like, all those stimulating things people would feel pressured to do to me. I'm still to be loved, but people don't seem to find me intelligent online. In real life, I don't look as good as I used to. Things were set up to say I had the opportunity and for some reason taken away without knowing what to do. Should I start exercising again?
Pushing Me Away
Everyone isn't really pushing me away, but my teacher Ginny and Ellen DeGeneres are for other people, probably younger teens. I know Ellen made me mad at a bad time in a bad way @ her pretend mom. How can I react that well that quickly the 1st time someone does that to me?? So, let's look at Tim Burton, Ellen DeGeneres, and Ginny Kopf. I feel insults from them all in secret. They have always been racist to me. I know they did it cuz they wanted to. They wanted to make me look bad 1st to help them. I think Ellen is like, "Okay, Christina was mean to me." She put the noises and weird page loading thing and glitches and major events on me, so that is completely false. She is trying easy street. I liked to read her on Twitter and thought her show was fun.
I see Amand Seyfried just posted a picture of her with a Chinese. I didn't say what I would have wanted to say, but I believe she would have a flip reason for posting herself with an Asian. Why would someone as rebellious as her "say" something of that nature?
I mean, Ellen is nice, but I just wanted to say I felt I was being pushed away, more by Ginny and with a hint from Tim Burton. I feel if she wants to be popular, Tim will make things worse and she will rise her status. People already can see that she wants me to look up to her show and her fans attached to it as though I'm too old to watch it. I was an artist, had too much homework too. (Not just a visual artist.) Why am I not in a proper category? How do these other people get to watch her show with school. They knew better than me or just wanted to watch TV? TV was considered bad.
I see Amand Seyfried just posted a picture of her with a Chinese. I didn't say what I would have wanted to say, but I believe she would have a flip reason for posting herself with an Asian. Why would someone as rebellious as her "say" something of that nature?
I mean, Ellen is nice, but I just wanted to say I felt I was being pushed away, more by Ginny and with a hint from Tim Burton. I feel if she wants to be popular, Tim will make things worse and she will rise her status. People already can see that she wants me to look up to her show and her fans attached to it as though I'm too old to watch it. I was an artist, had too much homework too. (Not just a visual artist.) Why am I not in a proper category? How do these other people get to watch her show with school. They knew better than me or just wanted to watch TV? TV was considered bad.
TV Show
The Chinese-Burmese on The Talk is very beautiful.. Is she in the World News, too? I thought that was Washington. Wow! She is a more recent Chinese and considered Chinese. I'm considered a nigger if I think I'm Indonesian, but with the white side I could learn other things, too..
Did you notice
My singing "magically" got less magical? I think some Early Boom scouts .. I mean LATE .. said you go and get'm to people who haven't really yet developed and found their talent, just want attention for nothing and are not embarrassed. I know it's someone whose ass doesn't feel safe becuase Ellen DeGeneres seems to have found out about me and an incident online about Nell Burton somehow .. she's been so mean to me every day and planted people watching me in my room to torture me with noises and the page loading all day. Fine, punish me for nothing. I like to curse for fun but try not to as usual. I don't wanna make Ellen look bad. I'll just say it's something in a way everyone seems to do. That's what I'm being held accountable for. She even made me mad at her mom in a way that doesn't look like her mom would do to a person like me.. I have some things more in common with her than Ellen. I'm not rebellious toward my elders.
More Messages
My dad's chair always faces another way and now he faced it at another slight angle at me. I need to disown my dad's shitty ways, as I have, but no one wants me to.. How shitty. He did something else earlier, too, which made me very mad. Once, he chopped his hands for no reason on the car and my hands didn't feel as pretty.
Wednesday, December 4, 2013
It's too bad..
..I get mad. I think there are some rules to when things like that happen, and plus some people have to make a big deal of it. It might not be right to dwell on it and not realize there's something wrong.
New Pro Blog Post
New Pro Blog Post
Being Thankful Just to Eat
I don't particularly have anything right now made that I like to eat, but when I go tomorrow I may be thankful just to have a boiled egg. Some people are thankful for public restrooms for "other" reasons.
Even if you don't make a full Thanksgiving dinner some years, still you've done what's best.
I'm not thankful to m.. ...-wise, I don't know what makes me thankful. I guess it's all @ what it's all @.
I get very respectful of what I have as far as not being injured or disabled.
Even if you don't make a full Thanksgiving dinner some years, still you've done what's best.
I'm not thankful to m.. ...-wise, I don't know what makes me thankful. I guess it's all @ what it's all @.
I get very respectful of what I have as far as not being injured or disabled.
Watcha Think
of the crappy clothes and crappiness I grew up with? I wasn't at the show and in the meetings after dark.
Nice Episode
I had my citrus salad and watched "The Ellen DeGeneres Show." She was pretty okay in some ways. Does she hug people who come on? I dunno, it would still be fun without hugging her. There was an English guy on who seemed upset. They knew all these different actors from movies, and I never knew those people. Then, he was trying to get close to her inappropriately. He was probably younger. I don't know what to say @ that episode, I mean like the way they say you need to know all these actors you don't care about more than other things, like cooking, blogging, etc. I watch some TV now and have seem some things more than once that I like. I felt like someone was close to me inappropriately at the Apple store here in the mall. I ended up moving away. Oh well, must have been dizzy. It gets busy.. Too bad, not sure what Ellen wants, maybe more people with their lives together.
You should
have kids Ellen for your mommy.
Also, look into ghosts and the supernatural.. I found I wouldn't ever die. =|
Also, look into ghosts and the supernatural.. I found I wouldn't ever die. =|
What's to happen to me?
So, who made me mad @ Ellen's mom in pretend? I haven't seen much of her lately, but she doesn't bother me. You could make other people mad. It's too bad she also isn't online. She just took get well soon notes on Twitter over a year ago. My Gramma just moved down south and is only 2 years older..? She's in Florida, not the beach, with an aunt. I wish she'd stay up north, but it seems things aren't well. Like, in some ways she likes being here like when it's really cold. She used to but now has a trailer.
I'm watching the show now and for some reason Ellen has a bragging affection for silly animals. Well, I guess that's why it's on the show and online for her.
I do not at all get acting silly without settling my thoughts, too. It doesn't seem right. I don't know what you are accomplishing it.
I'm having health food and brush my teeth so I don't have cancer nor cavities.
I'm watching the show now and for some reason Ellen has a bragging affection for silly animals. Well, I guess that's why it's on the show and online for her.
I do not at all get acting silly without settling my thoughts, too. It doesn't seem right. I don't know what you are accomplishing it.
I'm having health food and brush my teeth so I don't have cancer nor cavities.
Finding One's Own Way
I am from Southeastern Florida. When my brother was born when I was in the middle of my 2nd year of preschool, I noticed my mom was no longer with me all the time, correcting my every move. I felt in some ways from remembering at the time that my parents wanted my brother to "feel good," were concerned about that, but lack social skills. I see these adults who look as though Mammy cradled them until they were a teenager and even guiding them after high school into young adulthood. People go by and wonder why I'm not calculated in my every move.
Bella Thorne
I think I can see how she functions. She comes from a place in Southeastern Florida where "cool" is "comf." Her singing is not especially otherwise emotional. It's more like a rap to show you have attitude but nothing @ like just pining over whether or not your voice is angelic enough then.. It just sounds like she gets whatever she wants, + cuz she is skinny which is also cuz she's from that area..
I am from that area, as well, but it looks like she's more well-treated than me or something like being spoiled, sorry to say, privileged in ways people won't treat others same as treating someone from England or Europe better than an American. Her dad is Spanish, so they probably think she is more "pure" in the South than someone with a North American father. I don't even have any clue where her mom is from.
I am from that area, as well, but it looks like she's more well-treated than me or something like being spoiled, sorry to say, privileged in ways people won't treat others same as treating someone from England or Europe better than an American. Her dad is Spanish, so they probably think she is more "pure" in the South than someone with a North American father. I don't even have any clue where her mom is from.
How're you gonna stop this?
They were messing with me, mean @ my birthday cuz I thought of the word "nigger" in a certain way. Wouldn't stop bugging me. I thought of the experimenter's kids birthday party.
You all are losers|annoying..
Most people don't agree with picking on me like I'm some minority race.
Problems
Don't worry, he's just doing something ***.
I ate when I woke up, really upset @ my sleeping schedule, and so I didn't eat with my dad when he got home and this whole time it's been I should be eating alone it seemed..
Also, if you threaten him because of Tim Burton he will hurt me. Same with his mom who just moved to Florida.. wonder who inspired this crazy idea.
I ate when I woke up, really upset @ my sleeping schedule, and so I didn't eat with my dad when he got home and this whole time it's been I should be eating alone it seemed..
Also, if you threaten him because of Tim Burton he will hurt me. Same with his mom who just moved to Florida.. wonder who inspired this crazy idea.
YouTube Comment
Jakcie Evancho
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You are an excellent singer. I'm getting ready to join you. I just have to get out a CD and get on TV.
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You are an excellent singer. I'm getting ready to join you. I just have to get out a CD and get on TV.
Problems
Why do my parents go crazy thinking I did something either intangible or partially tangibly wrong?
Also, are people from England acting coy and precocious thinking they are from the U.S.? I am from the U.S. and know what they're trying to be. Since when was that ancient England especially? Have they, as it says, "gone mad?"
Also, are people from England acting coy and precocious thinking they are from the U.S.? I am from the U.S. and know what they're trying to be. Since when was that ancient England especially? Have they, as it says, "gone mad?"
Hello there, Mister?
You would never say Ellen DeGeneres is better than me. If I have a problem, it's your fault. What a joke.
Sarah Brightman or Kate Bush?
Ginny and Ellen DeGeneres are not an option.
Most people would say Sarah Brightman is essentially calm and easy going, whereas Kate Bush is like a diva in some ways herself.. That's how I feel @ another substantial opera singer.
People are trying to say silly things like maybe Sarah Brightman is actually younger than me, fragile, much better at being gentle but in a cool way.. I mean, put her up to someone else and you think she has work to do. It's hard to see if you have a brain and if you have priorities.. :| Seriously, I just saw idea comes out of nothing, it just is the thing that annoys Christina.
Most people would say Sarah Brightman is essentially calm and easy going, whereas Kate Bush is like a diva in some ways herself.. That's how I feel @ another substantial opera singer.
People are trying to say silly things like maybe Sarah Brightman is actually younger than me, fragile, much better at being gentle but in a cool way.. I mean, put her up to someone else and you think she has work to do. It's hard to see if you have a brain and if you have priorities.. :| Seriously, I just saw idea comes out of nothing, it just is the thing that annoys Christina.
These girls look more Chinese-Indonesian.
They are from a big city in Central China.
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The 1s more inland look very dark and rubbery from not being near water.
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The 1s more inland look very dark and rubbery from not being near water.
Being Told Stuff
How do you feel @ being you and having people as though they come up telling you there's something wrong with you, even at an early age when things were good?
People of History
There aren't that many. I can't believe Mark Anthony, who recently passed away but held a record for most opereas at the Met, was with Leontine Price and they supposedly had no interest in 1 another, were shooting for the stars, so-to-speak.
I bet some people had a fancy for lots of people and never bothered to show interest. A long time ago, it was about how you prepared as a person. If you didn't, then no one would know what to do with you.
What about this. What if a ballerina mom had a kid with a dad who was a singer or something like that? That would be really neat. I don't know how I see myself mixed with my parents. I just pull strengths, but anyway.
Why wouldn't these artists bind together other than with a spouce to have a family? What about parental|prodigy bonds, too, on the side? It happens. I can't seem to make myself a success, yet, I feel fat and stuff. I just got all these sweets for Thanksgiving and need more ingredients to make a choice meal soon.
I know like Britney Spears shuns Christina Aguilera. Justin Timberlake seemed nice, too, of course. He seems a bit overloaded, maybe wants to be even more popular. I know Britney Spears really goes to Ellen DeGeneres, but Christina Aguilera is confident in herself, from Pennsylvania. Lots of people each day pledge their being hooked to Ellen DeGeneres, but it's like their parents didn't raise them right and that's the excuse.
I bet some people had a fancy for lots of people and never bothered to show interest. A long time ago, it was about how you prepared as a person. If you didn't, then no one would know what to do with you.
What about this. What if a ballerina mom had a kid with a dad who was a singer or something like that? That would be really neat. I don't know how I see myself mixed with my parents. I just pull strengths, but anyway.
Why wouldn't these artists bind together other than with a spouce to have a family? What about parental|prodigy bonds, too, on the side? It happens. I can't seem to make myself a success, yet, I feel fat and stuff. I just got all these sweets for Thanksgiving and need more ingredients to make a choice meal soon.
I know like Britney Spears shuns Christina Aguilera. Justin Timberlake seemed nice, too, of course. He seems a bit overloaded, maybe wants to be even more popular. I know Britney Spears really goes to Ellen DeGeneres, but Christina Aguilera is confident in herself, from Pennsylvania. Lots of people each day pledge their being hooked to Ellen DeGeneres, but it's like their parents didn't raise them right and that's the excuse.
I know how this works.
Do you want to meet Johnny Depp? If you are really attractive, he will date you. He left his spouce. You would have to be nice enough to be cool, not just be a rebellious, irresponsible human being because that will just ruin your looks in a snap, just like that.
I don't know how to enter Sarah Brightman's life.. She was with Andrew Lloyd Webber and is not gay. She is into other people but hasn't clicked to those around her that she supports in life.
Tim Burton, I imagine you'd have to be a great, emotional artist who rises over and above. In school, if you were like that, if you really play all your cards right, you can try to be in a relationship, send him something for his birthday, do something special for him on set, seee if you can work backstage with him cuz he likes that.
I don't know how to enter Sarah Brightman's life.. She was with Andrew Lloyd Webber and is not gay. She is into other people but hasn't clicked to those around her that she supports in life.
Tim Burton, I imagine you'd have to be a great, emotional artist who rises over and above. In school, if you were like that, if you really play all your cards right, you can try to be in a relationship, send him something for his birthday, do something special for him on set, seee if you can work backstage with him cuz he likes that.
Chances
There is a chance Ellen will never meet anyone again, like let attractive teens who love her like a mom into her life. It would be hard to meet Tim Burton for most citizens of the world. Johnny Depp may be easy-going, but there is only 1 like him. I think Sarah Brightman needs to be protected, but I mean if she wants to majorly meet people because of her dedication to fans online or such then I mean I would have to say yes. I don't know who will definitely meet me, but my 2nd cousin gaped at me when I mentioned the word e-mail. I just wanted to say I communicate in public online with people, on my forum and blogs, not via e-mail. Is that torture? She's @ 40. She knows I whined about being the oldest, and this has made my life torture to this day.
Ellen DeGeneres
Do you get jealous of her talking to all the famous people who go to events and dress up in pretty gowns and prom dresses? Do you realize those people are so messed up they have no chance of being one of the next Portias. They don't even know how to sign on to the internet! They think 1 day they'll be able to steal all the attention but are very wrong..
She seems to have an ideology that you have to be famous to talk to her much at all or be in a menial position financially. I guess she does what she does on purpose. I feel rather that it's weird she's been with the young Portia for so long. I don't have jealousy. I'm just talking about it. It seems a bit insulting and suggestive that she brushes all others aside for her. I wonder if she wants that. I just feel that she thinks she's "saying something." I don't have anything against her. I just don't understand how things in life can be so unfair and asymmetrical.
She seems to have an ideology that you have to be famous to talk to her much at all or be in a menial position financially. I guess she does what she does on purpose. I feel rather that it's weird she's been with the young Portia for so long. I don't have jealousy. I'm just talking about it. It seems a bit insulting and suggestive that she brushes all others aside for her. I wonder if she wants that. I just feel that she thinks she's "saying something." I don't have anything against her. I just don't understand how things in life can be so unfair and asymmetrical.
What I Think
I was wondering why my dad would dare send my mom a negative message. I think it's just a reassurance. My mom doesn't care to pick up after him.
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