Friday, November 15, 2013
Problems
Why is my dad always mean to me? I want my family back. Why does Burton get his all comfied and mine gone?
Problem
Don't you dare ruin my future. This can't happen. There is no excuse. I will not submit to the slime of the world. What's going on? Why can't I ever seem to relax?
Problem
I've been being nice to my dad, had asked why he did something and he got upset.. he's not stopping nor forgetting, did something to my future daughter.. how am I open to that?
Ugh
Just cut the whites off all my nails but didn't dig into it and painted them pink.
Also.. I ran outta underwear, 1 pair left.
Also.. I ran outta underwear, 1 pair left.
Thursday, November 14, 2013
I am ready.
Okay, Jackie, I am ready to sing with Sarah Brightman enough to be entertaining because that's a singer's life, how about you?
Question
Why are ya'll being so antsy @ what Olivia Newton-John does? It might be fine, but it might be something someone else is doing to be annoying.
I just read it only to wonder why I said it.
I think it's like race, some things are just the way they are, like women born before 1950.. I am not that. I think my generation some are born her time. My mom doesn't actually let me tell her age, in case someone asks..
I just read it only to wonder why I said it.
I think it's like race, some things are just the way they are, like women born before 1950.. I am not that. I think my generation some are born her time. My mom doesn't actually let me tell her age, in case someone asks..
Guilty..?
Against the Burtons for qualirty, I can ride w/whoever caused the N word "event" with me in the mental clin'c on a pill.
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Priss
Your life may not be perfect, but ours is Hell.
Also, I catch wind Ellen might have made me lose my relationships and doesn't care.. don't think so completely..
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Also, I catch wind Ellen might have made me lose my relationships and doesn't care.. don't think so completely..
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Having a Good Time
I wonder why Ginny was mean to me having fun in college.
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I had spoken @
Sarah Brightman starting singing and dancing and piano at 3 and competing even then. Wow, I was still a lumpy, loose toddler in gymnastics classes. It really got me in great shape as a toddler. I know it's what made me a good singer, in the end. I wanted to just do ballet so quit when we moved, but I had to wait to move again.
O Boo Hoo
*hands in face*
Now what, is that what brings anyone joy, me being beat around like so? I need to get myself apart from those who bother me, if I can.
Like, I wanted to blame my dad, then he acts like someone else did it. I thought he just had a personal issue. What is this! This is all after Tim Burton and Johnny Depp. I can be a fan, too!
Now what, is that what brings anyone joy, me being beat around like so? I need to get myself apart from those who bother me, if I can.
Like, I wanted to blame my dad, then he acts like someone else did it. I thought he just had a personal issue. What is this! This is all after Tim Burton and Johnny Depp. I can be a fan, too!
Problem
I think the more that Nell Burton comes back in full flesh the less I'm going to get my point in even being alive. I need to sacrifice that I don't hurt others somehow.. My dad was bothering me again in a sensitive area physically!
but .. "now .. and .. for .. all .. ti ii ime"
but .. "now .. and .. for .. all .. ti ii ime"
I JUST WANTED TO TELL YOU
I HAVE BEEN SURROUNDED BY PEERS POUNDING IN MY HEAD - "MY MOM'S GONNA KILL ME" OVER AND OVER .. "*BEEP* *BEEP* *BEEP*" I KNOW IT DRILLED A HOLE IN MY HEAD AND YOU DECIDED TO TAKE IT TO THE PUBLIC
Problems
My dad is afraid of what I'll think because of getting upset but not outwardly. I don't really like thinking of the word ****, I don't use it in real life.. but it came up, and I was upset @ my dad. I don't know what's gonna happen to me. I just was upset, maybe seemed tacky and messy-looking, that we were like putting me in sessions all the time of being punished. You know, that Nell Burton issue, it doesn't matter. Why don't you talk @ it until you're happy cuz I don't care. It's not my fault.
I just don't want anything because of her, and I don't wanna juggle things in my body that feel amiss. I really didn't do anything to deserve this, this constant rubbing in of stuff. Blame Tim Burton, see how he likes it. Can you argue that? What happened to my life cuz of his cursing orders with Johnny Depp to hurt nice people to get it out? They don't even know what they're doing! So, please don't be too upset @ me. Maybe, it wasn't meant to be, that's fine..
I just don't want anything because of her, and I don't wanna juggle things in my body that feel amiss. I really didn't do anything to deserve this, this constant rubbing in of stuff. Blame Tim Burton, see how he likes it. Can you argue that? What happened to my life cuz of his cursing orders with Johnny Depp to hurt nice people to get it out? They don't even know what they're doing! So, please don't be too upset @ me. Maybe, it wasn't meant to be, that's fine..
Wednesday, November 13, 2013
Why..
Why do you keep squaring me off to see how I react?
I lost some of the essence in my life from being in the experiment, namely the sacredness of the modern toilet.
I lost some of the essence in my life from being in the experiment, namely the sacredness of the modern toilet.
Concerts
Wow, Sarah Brightman, your concerts sure are good. I think the people all love you. I need to get my butt up and put myself to use in the world, how exciting for me!
TV
Wow, Ellen, you sure looked cute having wine and talking on the sho' (show) with that guy.
I would like to talk to that nice, ½ As ku Nazi Jewish guy.
Christina Aguilera on "The Voice" sure is pretty. I wanna get on "America's Got Talent" for my singing, hoping I am contacted before Spring 2014.
Kellie Pickler was outta this worllllll (world) amazing!
Those 2 girls happened to know The Hunger Games? I wanted to read it and am a fan in a way and am very excited for this installment.
I would like to talk to that nice, ½ As ku Nazi Jewish guy.
Christina Aguilera on "The Voice" sure is pretty. I wanna get on "America's Got Talent" for my singing, hoping I am contacted before Spring 2014.
Kellie Pickler was outta this worllllll (world) amazing!
Those 2 girls happened to know The Hunger Games? I wanted to read it and am a fan in a way and am very excited for this installment.
Veh Lee Plitty (Very Pretty..)
My hair is getting so much lighter. My weight is normalizing in proportions. I need to be fed. 3I I walked my dad, like 15 minutes possibly, not too far..
Veh Lee Interesting (Very)
Wow, Ellen, I just watched the baby on your show, today. Cootchie Cootchi Coo! I would from my side have a dumb baby.. it sounds interesting.
Help?
I wanna work out, am a bit tired and wanna lie down, maybe listen to my own singing, no money. Maybe, if I wake up early tomorrow I can go out. I just wanted to sing in front of the camera, too, so may do that before or an interview soon.
Looked Back
I looked up my saying nigger, looks like wasn't as bad as I thought. I didn't literally say it, was making a joke.
Totally Mad
I feel so irritated at my dad and was at my mom, thinking I always need punishing like you bad people, but I don't, I did nothing wrong. I can't fix my life! You all always get away with everything. I thought this roller blading would help, but I only went across some of the sidewalk like 4 times. All that gear.
I told Ellen why do you keep getting mad at me @ Nell, but she still does it and does new things and gets all silly like I am supposed to watch her show but is mad maybe I watch it. That's pretty psycho to keep at a person for something they didn't do, even if they took it back and don't really do it.
Also, sorry I told my dad the torture joke @ talking back all the time? But I still am fooling @ it.
I told Ellen why do you keep getting mad at me @ Nell, but she still does it and does new things and gets all silly like I am supposed to watch her show but is mad maybe I watch it. That's pretty psycho to keep at a person for something they didn't do, even if they took it back and don't really do it.
Also, sorry I told my dad the torture joke @ talking back all the time? But I still am fooling @ it.
Apologies
I wonder if I can go back and say where I associated the word nigger with Ellen and today with my mom said my dad was nothing for being mean, in a sarcastic way.. didn't literally mean it! Probably overrated even. Anyway, with Ellen, I said no I'm not really calling her that, just mean parts of the definition..
Shopping
I got the Go Lighter Shampoo and Conditioner. The spray has turned my hair like my dad's youngest sister..
Problem
Why did Sarah Brightman unfriend me on Twitter? I was able to Refollow. 3 women I loike have done something like this. I guess it wasn't meant to be, but my dad seems to have made my life like this. You all don't care @ me. I can't take that, like I said, it's not okay.
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Issue
I think when Ellen wants my Da Da, she is actually turning off being motherly, but in a "bad" or "sarcastic" way that hurts and leaves you hanging.. and doesn't make sense..
Problem
You know, you just act like I'm really a bad kid when everyone said I was really good. Blame Tim Burton and Johnny Depp, unfortunately, because that's what people did it for. I know these people were a bit mean, all along, always complaining @ their life, thinking all the good things were only for them, afraid of fame but afraid to lose their chance.
Do you wanna know something really bad and trashy?
Get mad at me let me know @ my body and then hurt the most critical thing in it.
A Special Apology
I wanted to say nigger and extract meanings from it without intending the word, but like if a black person called me 1 I might not care depending on why..
Let's just say it.
It's like Ellen's a nigger trying to look cool cuz she's mean. How, why.. Lots of things. She thinks it's funny to say she has to seem to insult me, so much. Doesn't say much to anyone. I don't take that with anyone. I fight back. Burton is a loser.
Problem
So, someone hurts me, I ask @ it, they act mean again, then they do something else. Then they get mad at what I write..
STOP
Why is Chloe attacking me? She's a waste of life.
ELLEN WHY DON'T YOU JUST *BEEP* YOU KEEP HURTING ME FOR DUM NELL BURTON SHIT
ELLEN WHY DON'T YOU JUST *BEEP* YOU KEEP HURTING ME FOR DUM NELL BURTON SHIT
Don't Care All That Much
All Ellen seems to have in the world is being stimulated in real, uncomfortable ways that don't work out with how some people feel because of problems they have in life.
See, they're being mean on Twitter and my dad isn't home, those nigger racists, not calling anyone a nigger really though just saying it to look good and because I mean the definition in a way. I mean they aren't cool..attractive..like they should be, more ratty, and I wanted a rat. They just want to hurt people. Most people aren't in this game.
See, they're being mean on Twitter and my dad isn't home, those nigger racists, not calling anyone a nigger really though just saying it to look good and because I mean the definition in a way. I mean they aren't cool..attractive..like they should be, more ratty, and I wanted a rat. They just want to hurt people. Most people aren't in this game.
Well
I don't have to be considered whatever you say.. It looks stupid, too.
I saw that UNICEF people of a colored race, like a more Caucasian, dark Asian..
I saw that UNICEF people of a colored race, like a more Caucasian, dark Asian..
Just admit it.
You all are shit to me. Jimmy Fallon was ignoring me. He is NOT like Ellen. I am, and everyone knows it! WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM YOU LOON?!
Don't Like Her
Ellen is having an attitude when she hurts me. Why don't you hurt yourself?
She looks so tacky and it's so disgusting when she gives in to people like that. You don't really like me, apparently. You think you have to do it. Like, she looks dry and smiley and like she did something.
She looks so tacky and it's so disgusting when she gives in to people like that. You don't really like me, apparently. You think you have to do it. Like, she looks dry and smiley and like she did something.
Problem
I told my dad he shouldn't have said "7 years" to me the way he had to say it.. He's acting all snotty and goody-good now like he can annoy me.. I would rather not ask, but I did cuz I was irritated and I know IT'S CUZ OF NELL BURTON.
HOW'S MY DAY GOING TO GO?
That freak and liar. He said he was over it.
HOW'S MY DAY GOING TO GO?
That freak and liar. He said he was over it.
Upset
My dad hasn't come home for lunch. I don't wanna think about these secret messages.. That means he's busy doing something today. Sometimes he pops his self in late.
New Video
New Video of Me Singing
"It only sounds so good because I don't sound like Charlotte Church. Why does she think only her way of singing breaks through? (It ruined my voice.) But yes I like Charlotte Church and do love her singng."
"It only sounds so good because I don't sound like Charlotte Church. Why does she think only her way of singing breaks through? (It ruined my voice.) But yes I like Charlotte Church and do love her singng."
Oh no!
So sorry I felt violent on my walk.. what shoulda not somehow, stayed closer to home that day cuz I felt it.
Sad
Ellen, what should I have done on my walk, stuck it out? I was like feeling so mad and like you were taking advantage of me, like for all time. You seem to lose focus on other people's children.
Concert
Sarah Brightman looks so cool in them. I wish there were more posts of them. She seems so intelligent and with excitement. The singing is so glorious. The music, it's so beautiful, her singing included, as well. I like the way she slides and echoes and has such good command. Mine still sounds like I'm wheezing. I'm supposed to be asking the doctor @ the phlegm in my throat. Funny, dunno if I will take singing nor when. I wanna buy a doll this month and a book of Vocalises, singing workouts.. Ah ah ah ah ah.
Was Upset
Still am, didn't know how to react at 1st, a bad habit. I think I mainly said 1 statement and then said I was uncomfortable..a bit weird. I am not to be trusted. 3| Also, what @ Ellen? I couldn't shrug off that compensating idea in my walk. It felt like I was being used..like it could change me in a way I don't like and that there was never any reason with these things.
What I Have Problems With
It's just things like sending me secret threats and playing with how my mind is functioning. It can surprise me, but I don't curse AT anyone, in public.
I'll try to bre nice today and hope things work out. My pinky seems to be sticking out, and the cut stings, as well. I guess I'll just ignore bad things and try not to talk @ anything with my parents like that.
Sorry, if I seemed mean @ Sarah Brightman yesterday, guess I was upset. I wasn't trying to sound mean to her but think I succeeded in that. =[ I was gonna come back and complain but forgot. I had been going along not feeling a need to.
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I'll try to bre nice today and hope things work out. My pinky seems to be sticking out, and the cut stings, as well. I guess I'll just ignore bad things and try not to talk @ anything with my parents like that.
Sorry, if I seemed mean @ Sarah Brightman yesterday, guess I was upset. I wasn't trying to sound mean to her but think I succeeded in that. =[ I was gonna come back and complain but forgot. I had been going along not feeling a need to.
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Dream
Foremostly, I remember that we were somewhere dark, like I rose up from a sleeping bag. We had to listen to handle like a game or battle in how we act. A person became designated somehow. Finally, it was over. I remember being in our kitchen with an uprised long thin somewhat dish washer. Something was burning in the kitchen I told them to run, but my mom was turning it down. I was too tired to dream the 1st part again.
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