Race

There isn't "some thing I didn't do."  You all just made like a dash to overdevelop early and not in the right way so you can seem to beat people like me.

Upset

I can't seem to enjoy the dog I posted on the side of my blog cuz they made it get a tacky owner that looked black and after the credits started looked white.  That does prove something is up.  Seriously, I wonder what was up with that.  Is the answer negative?  I feel pursued, too, if anyone can see into that happening.  It makes sense, but it's not a mistake I would want to/make.  I dunno, why do people keep bringing up black people?  I thought animals had a sense of purity.  That dog looks lonely with that woman.  It was better off in the wild, but I guess it eats trash cuz it can't hunt like a wild dog.  I guess it's just a "story" for kids.  They don't know what's going in their heads, tho.

Worried

What people do when they know I've gotten mad and forget people were being mean to me.

For instance, there will be another Charlie and the Chocolate Factory, in the style of the Glass Elevator.  Tim Burton the old director and Johnny Depp the old Willy Wonka didn't say they'd do it again, yet, but I know they said in the bonus features of Sweeney Todd if they wanna meet someone from a/their movie/s it wouldn't be Willy Wonka.

About people being mean, they pretend to be other people and it seems to have fueled a revolution against me because sometimes I find myself mad at the idea of who I like that they portrayed in some way.

Essential Elements

It has such great songs, I must get an oboe!  Little melodies!  I need a Broadway oboe book?

Southern Europeans

Why would you make any Americans like me assimilate in an "issue" of like being Italian but not people in Northern Europe?

I'm ready for a normal life.

I don't have quite enough money for college.

Raw talent - film acting.

What I Could Do

things like rythem

Skype

christinaa.barrett

Saving Up

I want to play an instrument.  The oboe is expensive.  So, I'm getting it.  I can get it on eBay for $150 or $200.

Performing/Arts

No one set an age for us to do it, when it's easier to start young.  We need to do it good by the time we're in high school.

They just wanna see who'd see thru this all, suck up to adults with art love, and then get encouraged to go for it rather than finding it's too late even for that.  There's no individual planning.  It's all about being encouraged when sucking up tackily to adults and getting mushy and stuff and losing your dignity to them by acting submissive about it.

Whatever

They are suggesting Florida is their lost home with a sneer towards people like me who like Florida and lived there or maybe it's just me for convenience sake.

The TV

Why is TV filled with such annoying people?

Gymnastics on TV

Gymnastics on TV

New Video of Me Talking

"Haters Gotta Be Haters?"

You can't hypnotize everyone to hate me because they know my private life.  I mean, they were convinced to believe lies about "the big picture."  I don't know of doing anything wrong..  :|

Tired

I'm so sore from 3 days of Body Beast.  I have to get some sleep.  I haven't been lifting.

And..

..you can be upset, but I did try to just act normal like it's silly to collect or change thoughts, but maybe it's not.. and I feel ideas get put into my head.

This time..

..I was really feeling hurt for a long time.

I get put in bad moods.

Sometimes, I keep getting pushed for a long period of time, like 1/2 hour.

Why Not Christina?

Why not I experience an embarrassing stimulation?  Well, I do need to experience something, but what about everyone else, I say?  I don't think it's going to happen.  Sometimes, I wish people wouldn't be paying attention to my race like that even if they know what it is to help.