I just found out..

..my generation is @ like Italians, indians.. Karen Carpenter would like younger kids.

I don't think m.. helps.  I don't feel accepted as I go around, like around my dad, feel shy, not dressed, neither cuz I wanna nap and don't have money for nap clothes and wear glasses and have shaved hair.

Well

I guess Karen didn't want to be there for us.  Think @ being too submissive in life, the younger generation.  What if she was mad @ her body?  It seems as though it wasn't hers.  I am actually trying to come in tune with the situation, people thinking of her body reincarnating and all.  I am actually wasting time trying to figure out life.

Raising Souls|Seeking Ghosts

Since Karen Carpenter was killed from the hospital putting on 30 pounds in too short a period of time and she could have been brought to life on the spot, was looking good, I mean now I dunno.  She wasn't an old lady, died @ 32, no life since.  Her body may be preserved young.

In Another Way

I feel I'm acting nonchalant, like I have my roots somewhere else.

I feel myself a numbness that shouldn't be.  It's the numbness I've become.  Never do I want to redress my life of emotions until I can lay me down in safety.

Never Been Quite So Upset Inside

@ Karen Carpenter not taking a sabbatical but dieting..her killing herself or the fact she is so decidedly and reasonably dead. I'm sure we could summon her likeness.  I dunno, I watched the videos and something hit me by my recycle bin on my desktop.

The Beach

Would love to live in Miami Beach.

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It's hard to accomplish these days even when sacrificing, thought anything was possible.

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Grotesque Figures he he he

Ellen thinks she's pointedly nice but makes intrusively constructed jokes. Like little messages you get, like that don't make sense to a lot of people, like oh you're bad or Christina is bad.. she is the 1 who is working out this morning and yadada. I was wondering how she's "all polite" if she claims to do these 2 different things.

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Life was so perfect @ 16. Too bad for courses in lecture and reading.

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I brought the wrong card to 711.

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Hunger

Karen Carpenter would be hungry for my attractiveness.

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Whaa

Karen Carpenter died from being too small and short and young.

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Well Wishes

I hope Ginny is doing well.

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Mobile

may or may not post

Childish

Karen Carpenter

Draining

Isn't it?

A Lost Soul

Karen Carpenter thought she had to die, too.  Like Jesus?  That used to infest my brain.

Something struck a nerve in me..

..and I dropped the last little bit of my remaining hot dog..  Karen carpenter might not be healthy as in eating enough nutrition and getting plenty of exercise.

Problem

My initial memory of thinking of Karen Carpenter literally with the word mom was thinking of my therapist saying she didn't know the carpenters.. I know something like this has happened.  Things like that don't come up..  :|

I also feel threatened for telling @ it.  I know it's because people are groggily flipping between thinking I'm not perfect and the N word incident.

Supernatural Activity or High Technology

I was walking home and felt a solid object fall down my back.  I don't know if it went down my shirt or disappeaered.  I was thinking of Karen Carpenter.