I didn't

want people to make such a big deal of this.

They are threatening my relationship.

So..

How nice to treat this person!

I am glad church took care of some of this business.

Did they mess with my hands privately?  I don't have issues.

What now?  Clearly, people are mad.

Not Over, Yet?

I went to the kids's mass, and I heard the person I look up to is "still out of it" and bemused they messed with the spiritual strength of my hands.

One unsuccessful relationship is getting in the way of another.

My hands feel different!

Why be even harder on me with my burden of having to interact with my dad when I run into him at home?

They are just pissed off I was gonna do for others what others did for someone.

They threw away my relationship in the end cuz they're jealous of what I've accomplished and acquired.

I had something, and now I have nothing! cuza my dad!  I still am concerned about him.  I think because I simply thought my dad is old enough to start worrying about death they think they are powerful and should cut things short.  I don't believe in you people.  Nothing is good cuza my parents making life crappy.

They are supporting someone else doing things that others who really want to can't, maybe just not creative enough to do something right and out to get me.  I didn't say they couldn't do it.  I just got into a mess and was attacked.  Who cares?  People don't know what they're doing, but that shouldn't ruin my life.

I am here and interested but don't know what else to say and surrounded by confusion.

I also am getting that someone I know has to bind with someone else.

I just am a bit perturbed.

People here are all up in my business and in the end taking my relationship from me.  They said this person is stimulated forever in a certain way.  They want me to be crap and like them.  I didn't do something to deserve this.  Would you like this trip?  Life has not been seeming well.

I said it's okay if this person feels very good, but some other things happened.

Problems

I think I just got in a bunch of trouble.

People are telling me I did things I didn't do.  They are steering thoughts wrongly.

Supposedly.. or they thought.. me using the word "selfish" ^meant something^ that I did not intend for it to.  I said people made someone feel selfish.  Love is not selfish.

I am at church and so I thought there are people there.  Why not make them feel that way?

So, if I look up to someone do you pour alcohol down their throats every day?

What isn't selfish about doing that to someone?  Who are you to judge you did what was best for others?  Make it real by blaming me?  Why make it so no one trusts anyone to make them feel good for admitting what I say?

I didn't want go say this but guess my blog and not other people will be the parasitic host and its place.  There are people who act meanly here, too.

Why are my private feelings abused too much?  Is it cuza my dad?  Other people don't live like this.  So what?  Do only others get a reward and no one else and say I did something?  Wow, that's pretty nitpicky.

I bet you think I should not post this, but I don't want it to leak into this reality.  You know I gotta go soon and can't revise this.  Like I said in my last disliked statement, no offense.  I just want to post my life, not doing anything wrong nor saying someone should not feel pleasure and like that.

People are threatening a relationship and having their fun saying I hang with someone else forever and not have my other relationship.  What sinful people.  They don't know how life works.  You know what I feel, but what did I do wrong?  I used the word "selfish" fine.

So, let's call it a night!

Nitey nite..

TV

Possibility of an alien invasion!  Did they take away the dinosaurs?

If I weren't in arts/entertainment, and I were in science, I'd do:

biotechnological surgical researcher

link

My Good Tolerance

makes me feel like a bulldog dressed up in pink bows.

Edit

I edited the post "Cool!"

Movie

He sang "Everybody Wants to Rule the World" with an eager band, which probably wants to rule the world.

Cool!

link


Who wouldn't want a body like that!  Ooh Lah Lah!

The main difference is I'm fat and my legs are wider.  I wonder if I'll ever have a picture close to this!!

She'd look lovely in natural hair.  She could bleach it in the sun.  I wonder if she needs sunblock.  I guess white skin being popular is making a comeback.

How does your picture look in comparison hers?

Pixels (2015)

Josh Gad (1981) from Hollywood, Southeastern Florida

This is really cute.

I saw this one in theaters.  I think it was pretty big, in a way.

Highlight for spoilers and there's a link to a picture:

Q*bert link

I hope..

I am nicer to my parents even if they are bothering me.  I'm already not mean.

Problem

I'm being messed with if I do anything that's imperfect.

Going to Sleep..

..Ho Hum

When your on psychotic pills not much to do otherwise.

It seems..

like I have to do the right thing and that's the right thing to do.  It seems like it's okay.

Well

We all have different social situations.  Why not?

I guess..

..I was wondering cuz it's fun to follow this person and they come up in my life.  They don't have to like me.  I hope I am nice to them, at least now.  What did I ever do to them?  Listen to others?  Well, I have always been that way.  I figured she was punishing me and sometimes thought I wasn't okay racially and should be sorta tossed aside at some points, maybe to punish me or something.  So, I joke about feeling suppressed, tho I don't know if it seems that way to you.  I think someone tells them to be mean to me and don't blame them for that.

Well

Not sure what went wrong.  I knew this would happen.

It's not important that I posted this, but it's rather something in my life that's fun to write about cuz I like this person.  Like, why do you go on Facebook?

I was..

just worried what might come up and didn't mean anything bad.

Good night!

Okay, sweet dreams, everyone out there!

What I Thought

I thought you didn't wanna talk about this.

This is a sign that I'm right.

What?

With strangers, it's not a problem.

What?

I didn't say anything bad.

Something I Don't Believe In

If I have something good there has to be something so bad it's wrong.

Is Hollywood for us

Italian-American?

Hm..

My relationships keep being ruined.

Lily Rose Sweet Melody Depp

link

She reminds me of Lily Rose Sweet Melody Depp.

link

You mean..

..you can't do what she does?

Why isn't her hair still red?

link

You can't make people..

..hate me.

Just because the world has been blessed

with a lovely girl does not mean it's the dream to hurt the rest of us.

What now?

There's no point.  This is just bad.  Anyone would think so.  I was being careful!  It seems I can't do anything right.  I left it at that, but something just keeps coming.

I thought I said

I didn't do anything bad nor did I intend it.

Picky?

Who would care if it weren't for this experiment?

No, I know I'm in trouble!

People don't care about my well-being.

It's not just a nice relationship.

What wasn't..

..presentable?

Maybe, I'm coming from somewhere else.  These people get away with things that if others saw wouldn't be doing.

These Outbursts

from my dad are not okay cuz they shake up the rest of the world when I'm in pain.

I need to appreciate my parents harder.

I have a dream..

..if I knew about children acting in musicals.. would I do it?

I think if I had a musical instrument I'd play it.

What about look at..

..when I think about something related it came up?

No one else cares.

I thought I was being nice.  I'm not always friendly, sometimes serious.

They are robotized.

If I say anything about someone, they find something related that's bad, like if it's about a cat they'll think of something negative about a cat.

Did they chose one person and have them represent everyone else, too?  If so, I might better understand the situation.

cuz

I'm righteous.

Mua ha ha!

I will not change for you in this way.

What!

I was being extra nice!  What evil did you all weave outta that?

What is this?

This isn't a big deal.

Are you trying to hurt me?

Agitated

What business does anyone have tricking me to think I'm so bad?  Judgment?

I think they "stopped, dropped, and rolled," and I don't know exactly why.

I realize..

..the English of late have secretly given us some nasty habits.

I just am not a bad person who averts satisfying discussion of important topics.  I don't skirt around things I don't have to and shouldn't.

A Nasty Situation

If other girls with young moms don't need a nasty situation, why should I put up with one?

Here's the Lowdown

I am not gay.  I can talk about whatever I want as long as it's right and done the right way.

I wish.. I wish.. I wish in vain

I should have had a kid when I was a preteen or in high school.  I don't want one now.  I want to be a kid, again.  Also, I tend to like people who are not related to me.

Sad

Late Boomers want me to give my flesh to children born around 1997 and 1998.

I am nice to them like you're supposed to be already!  I don't give my flesh.

So, why am I in the wrong in this regard?

What?

I just don't want to "stop, drop, and roll," if something like this comes up.

Destination Imperfection

If I mention someone who comes up in my life in a good way, the attention goes to them, like they're getting attention instead of me then because I was mean to them?  I wonder if it's like this because of an accident I made of if it's the way it is and something true to think about.

I didn't think I acted meanly towards them.  Maybe, it's just something sensitive.

This isn't really a nice way to be, when they come up to me every day and for this.

I know, tho!  I'm just in trouble and anyone can do whatever they want to me.

I don't do this to them!

It's too bad it has to be this way.  I wonder if this is a price to pay for something bigger and there is no real solution.

I'm not being "derogatory."

I just feel pressured if I do talk about them and when I'm talking about something that could be related.

Hm, tho.

I'm not really mean/unfair to anyone when I post.

I'm working on considering people want to be like me again.

"Do unto others as you would have others do unto you?"

My Anger

I can deal with people being mean to me online, strangers, celebrities..  However, if it has to do with Ellen DeGeneres said they could and should be mean and do whatever they want to me, it's not okay.  People have turned on me cuza her.  I guess, if I don't accept Ellen DeGeneres, people must be still fighting it or something for this to happen.  People who are closer to me do this more.  Maybe, they have more plans.  I think some people must really like her a lot to do this, or maybe some people just want things from me and see it as an opportunity.

Um, excuse me?

Why do people like people my age with big noses so much and are mean to everyone else?  It's not like I did anything.

Why don't people care about me?

I realize my life is about fixing myself concerning things like money and chores.

Otherwise, I mean, I am not set out to be bad.  I feel like I'm treated harshly.  Has everyone always been treated that way?

Going in Circles Here

I realize that I'm French and I go in circles and think anything can be seen in a positive way.

How did I end up in such a mess?  To be safe, we should just say no to me?

I think about everything I do, in a way.  I don't just say no for no reason.  I know why, and I agree with why.

Things That Don't Sit Well

(1)  I feel that people are trying to make my life miserable cuz I'm not born around 1997 and 1998 to Late Boom parents.

(2)  People are acting like me speaking to someone who is cool who is a Late Boomer is too much and matters.  They are stealing opportunities maybe I could have had.  Basically, it's that they think I cannot talk to prestigious, emotional older adults.  I used to be welcome to do that.  People doing this are just messing around and don't care and just wanna be bad and mean to me.  It doesn't matter.  Let's not wait until we discover every individual in the world 1st!  The word would stop going round.

(3) People present me with the lie they can ruin my relationship by me saying there's absolutely nothing wrong with them talking to people I like.  That's a different issue.

Question, anyone know?

Do you know exactly what all you want from me?

Something in Common

I noticed Bella Thorne and I are both form Florida and moved away.  I don't remember what, but some things were in common.  I know how she "makes it."  1st, you do something incredible that no one else can achieve.  After that, you take a break and take watcha really want!  She was in a TV show and she had to memorize soo much and with dances most episodes and isn't even an official dancer so must be something!  It was so much fun to watch.  I saw her in several movies in theaters after, and she had small main roles surrounded by other "stars."  I think she went back to work, but I don't know if she will be in theaters in a more main role or a show starring herself.

What's different I'm wondering is that I want to live in glory in a way that was painful again but more organized and such.  I wonder if she needed a break from the TV show before doing more things but after she graduated from high school.

I know the way to go.

You have to have white hair but be that mental case school drop out passive aggressive female.

You can count me out.

I see people are concerned about being treated nicely like a daughter, but there are such nice people older than me who people who could be my parents might be rather young to be all theirs.  So, I have 1 point there.

Hocus Pocus (1993)

Everyone loves this.  It has Bette Midler, too, who I also like in Gypsy (1993) with a lotta catchy/popular tunes.  Everyone else prefers the little girl in Hocus Pocus as far as why they like this film.  I find myself in the same boat.

Did you feel like a little princess when you were a little girl? because in this movie the little girl reminds me of people I know who are younger than me.

Fat People

Do you click and go? or are they a threat to your time/life?

The Theory of "One?"

People think when they see people like Tim Burton as an animator of stop motion that everyone should be the only one like that.

When they see people like Johnny Depp, they think they should be the only one all about him all the time.


I think these things are strange.  I honestly don't want my life to *all be in a box*.  I like a world full of more than a single point of a single thing.  This is one way of looking at how I function and like it.  What about things like you could be a classical artist?  That's something different.  It's not that you can't do arts and crafts.

Matilda (1996)

It reminds me of the A Little Princess (1995.)  Which one are you comfortable with?..

Highlight for Spoilers:

A Little Princess - a girl being reunited with her blood father after a war

Matilda - a girl at the end becomes adopted by her teacher and spends more time with her than she would with her blood parents

The actors are both sweet.  A Little Princess is 2 years older than me, and Matilda is a year younger than me.  The actresses are similar in many ways.  I wonder how old their mom is.  I guess people with older moms seem younger cuz they are babied more.  I wonder if that's wrong.  I wonder if they don't like it in that way.

I have an older dad considering my age.  I feel like he and others try to act like I'm infantile in stupid ways, to "take care" of me.  How cheap!  I also find myself in messes, like my room and how possessions and important things have developed.  It looks sorta cool, but I was hoping for it to be more artsy and complete.  I go out in the house, and it is not something I want to like it looking like a warehouse.  I want an escape.  Like, when I was like a toddler or little kid I didn't have anything to do or look forward to.  I mean, I had more time before I started school to learn to do chores, but then I wasn't given the opportunity.  Later, I was tired from life and not enough money for food and things.

Too Late?

It seems too late to get to know about the other countries in Europe and the rest of the world because they've all grown up and married.  You'd have had to have been smart and gone online and posted there around year 2000 or the late 1990s.  Maybe, you'd become accomplished plus famous somehow / as a celebrity of some sort.

I'm also relearning values, normal manners, etc., from the English takeover that made us all too close and carefree in bad ways.

Some Pointers/Ideas

(1) People and Their Relationships
     (A) Notice when people get along with those they like the most in certain ways because of complimentary personalities and personal preferences.
     (B) Do not push people into unpleasantness in relationships, but remember to also respect them in having relationships they really would like.

(2) Respect others who have built themselves up as somebody known to others.

Edit

The pan pizza at Papa John's is a limited time offer.

NO!

Limited Time Offer

When you get pizza..

what do you get if you get dessert?

Cinnamon, chocolate chip pie, or a full brownie?  I like the chocolate chip pie too much.  Maybe, I should get a brownie this time.  It has chocolate chips, too.

I just had some rice crispy treats.  I like the M&M ones better than coco treats.

I had like a couple last night and 3 this morning.  The M&M ones are gone!

Papa John's

They have pan pizza now.  I saw an ad on TV.  I'm getting one!

Back to Bed

Woke up to an ad for a blender and had a smoothie and back to bed!

Halloween

I bought my Halloween costume today!

On the Toilet

at a buffet alone!

Quest-

Why would I want to have a bad relationship with anyone?

"I work hard for 'the money!'"

"So you better treat me right!"

What I Have

I have a higher understanding than that.

"Don't push my button!"

Can I at least enjoy "who I am" in private?

Wait..

If you can do whatever you want to me..

Humourous

It's funny when people tell me I should be with much older people.

Why..

..can some people go without being excited/intent on seeing people like ever?

What should I do?

Am I just playing around by myself?

Really?

Do the Irish really have pep in their step, or is it the ones who are just English or German?

They think they know "what's the story."

Everything you try to say is good is "just an act."

The South

People from here who are white need diapers emotionally.

Why do some people feel they are perfect?  They need diapers in that they must let out if they see someone do something questionable that it's wrong.

Male Prowess

Why are they so proud to say how they are going to punish me, like it's my fault I did something else?

Disturbed

Why would anyone care about me?

Hurt and Sad

People are pursuing me like "there's nothing in it" in me.

They like to say I'm bad to lure anyone into sparing a few moments of their life communicating with me.

Is there anything in it?

If I don't worry about losing relationships now if I have any, can I go around and believe I am a good person again?

As Good As Blonde

I could pass as fair with my skin, which is flushed with some color and from being Floridian from the beach.  My hair has highlights but not as seethru anymore.  Yes, it has "dark roots."  When I straighten it out it's not black at all in the light.  I don't, tho, so it doesn't get ruined.

Into the Woods (2014)

It's on TV.

I'm trying to get sleepy.  Church again tomorrow!  I just used the bus to go this evening, and I will use the bus again tomorrow.  You know why?  I want to see what the people if any thought of what I posted online from the festival, including 2 girls singing karaoke.

Being "Cute" in a Cool Way

Why does my parish think only the pastor is cute insteada following his good example and giving themselves a good identity?

This Morning

I stretched up to exactly/over 5'3".  When I stand I look shorter, tho.  I see girls slouched/popped over sometimes.  I still feel short.  I'm not sure if I've grown or if I was just shorter recently.  I just slept a lot.

"Examination of Conscience"

I wonder if I deserve to be killed by the old German Nazis that existed.  They look like they're right.  What if it's something my dad believes in already, that people have to work and providing jails for criminals to live in is a sin already?

The Civil War

was pointless and not that exciting.  Who cares if the hot people in the South need slaves.

No One Talks to Me / I Don't Know People

Why do the bad people in my life hold more significance in it?

I am not talked to by others, and their negativity takes hold on my life.

It's like it's time to gather around.  People judge me as not that good because they want to find reasons to like others and not me.

People would rather fight, debate, and hold a conversation with a surprise of people but only certain people, who can't seem to hold a conversation whenever they're with me or messaging me.  I have people in my life who have abandoned me, seems to happen quite naturally with those who knew me, when strangers are so respectful and seem to have the opposite feelings about me, like they don't know me cuz they are respectfully shy even.

Also, if you know me, why do you have to know everyone in my life and have good people have to go against me?  I'm not asking for attention, but it's clear I don't get any.  It's not kinda true or something.

To Have a Round With Germany?

Why are Germans so uptight about manners and supposedly teach others, in lieu of WWI + WWII?  I mean, if I think something that's tiring to think, they can tell I am not on top of it and I'm immediately eradicated.  I don't have that kinda racial pride on my tailhide to keep me awake and aroused.  Maybe, like my mom raised me as a half Chinese person, my dad influenced me to be nothing but Irish from him.  What, are the Irish fresh outta luck compared to Germany, England, France, Spain, whatever? and he feels a debt to them cuz he's part Irish?  So, I guess Germans are better racially and that's why we shouldn't be mad at them for WWI + WWII.  They weren't going to attack, anyway.

Do you "stop, drop, and roll?"

When you see others are bad, do you take it in stride or do you find it in you to somehow convert them?  I mean "when they don't have their act together."