Monday, October 24, 2016
What wasn't..
..presentable?
Maybe, I'm coming from somewhere else. These people get away with things that if others saw wouldn't be doing.
Maybe, I'm coming from somewhere else. These people get away with things that if others saw wouldn't be doing.
These Outbursts
from my dad are not okay cuz they shake up the rest of the world when I'm in pain.
I need to appreciate my parents harder.
I need to appreciate my parents harder.
I have a dream..
..if I knew about children acting in musicals.. would I do it?
I think if I had a musical instrument I'd play it.
I think if I had a musical instrument I'd play it.
What about look at..
..when I think about something related it came up?
No one else cares.
I thought I was being nice. I'm not always friendly, sometimes serious.
No one else cares.
I thought I was being nice. I'm not always friendly, sometimes serious.
They are robotized.
If I say anything about someone, they find something related that's bad, like if it's about a cat they'll think of something negative about a cat.
Did they chose one person and have them represent everyone else, too? If so, I might better understand the situation.
Did they chose one person and have them represent everyone else, too? If so, I might better understand the situation.
I realize..
..the English of late have secretly given us some nasty habits.
I just am not a bad person who averts satisfying discussion of important topics. I don't skirt around things I don't have to and shouldn't.
I just am not a bad person who averts satisfying discussion of important topics. I don't skirt around things I don't have to and shouldn't.
A Nasty Situation
If other girls with young moms don't need a nasty situation, why should I put up with one?
Here's the Lowdown
I am not gay. I can talk about whatever I want as long as it's right and done the right way.
I wish.. I wish.. I wish in vain
I should have had a kid when I was a preteen or in high school. I don't want one now. I want to be a kid, again. Also, I tend to like people who are not related to me.
Destination Imperfection
If I mention someone who comes up in my life in a good way, the attention goes to them, like they're getting attention instead of me then because I was mean to them? I wonder if it's like this because of an accident I made of if it's the way it is and something true to think about.
I didn't think I acted meanly towards them. Maybe, it's just something sensitive.
This isn't really a nice way to be, when they come up to me every day and for this.
I know, tho! I'm just in trouble and anyone can do whatever they want to me.
I don't do this to them!
It's too bad it has to be this way. I wonder if this is a price to pay for something bigger and there is no real solution.
I'm not being "derogatory."
I just feel pressured if I do talk about them and when I'm talking about something that could be related.
I didn't think I acted meanly towards them. Maybe, it's just something sensitive.
This isn't really a nice way to be, when they come up to me every day and for this.
I know, tho! I'm just in trouble and anyone can do whatever they want to me.
I don't do this to them!
It's too bad it has to be this way. I wonder if this is a price to pay for something bigger and there is no real solution.
I'm not being "derogatory."
I just feel pressured if I do talk about them and when I'm talking about something that could be related.
My Anger
I can deal with people being mean to me online, strangers, celebrities.. However, if it has to do with Ellen DeGeneres said they could and should be mean and do whatever they want to me, it's not okay. People have turned on me cuza her. I guess, if I don't accept Ellen DeGeneres, people must be still fighting it or something for this to happen. People who are closer to me do this more. Maybe, they have more plans. I think some people must really like her a lot to do this, or maybe some people just want things from me and see it as an opportunity.
Um, excuse me?
Why do people like people my age with big noses so much and are mean to everyone else? It's not like I did anything.
Why don't people care about me?
I realize my life is about fixing myself concerning things like money and chores.
Otherwise, I mean, I am not set out to be bad. I feel like I'm treated harshly. Has everyone always been treated that way?
Otherwise, I mean, I am not set out to be bad. I feel like I'm treated harshly. Has everyone always been treated that way?
Going in Circles Here
I realize that I'm French and I go in circles and think anything can be seen in a positive way.
How did I end up in such a mess? To be safe, we should just say no to me?
I think about everything I do, in a way. I don't just say no for no reason. I know why, and I agree with why.
How did I end up in such a mess? To be safe, we should just say no to me?
I think about everything I do, in a way. I don't just say no for no reason. I know why, and I agree with why.
Things That Don't Sit Well
(1) I feel that people are trying to make my life miserable cuz I'm not born around 1997 and 1998 to Late Boom parents.
(2) People are acting like me speaking to someone who is cool who is a Late Boomer is too much and matters. They are stealing opportunities maybe I could have had. Basically, it's that they think I cannot talk to prestigious, emotional older adults. I used to be welcome to do that. People doing this are just messing around and don't care and just wanna be bad and mean to me. It doesn't matter. Let's not wait until we discover every individual in the world 1st! The word would stop going round.
(3) People present me with the lie they can ruin my relationship by me saying there's absolutely nothing wrong with them talking to people I like. That's a different issue.
(2) People are acting like me speaking to someone who is cool who is a Late Boomer is too much and matters. They are stealing opportunities maybe I could have had. Basically, it's that they think I cannot talk to prestigious, emotional older adults. I used to be welcome to do that. People doing this are just messing around and don't care and just wanna be bad and mean to me. It doesn't matter. Let's not wait until we discover every individual in the world 1st! The word would stop going round.
(3) People present me with the lie they can ruin my relationship by me saying there's absolutely nothing wrong with them talking to people I like. That's a different issue.
Something in Common
I noticed Bella Thorne and I are both form Florida and moved away. I don't remember what, but some things were in common. I know how she "makes it." 1st, you do something incredible that no one else can achieve. After that, you take a break and take watcha really want! She was in a TV show and she had to memorize soo much and with dances most episodes and isn't even an official dancer so must be something! It was so much fun to watch. I saw her in several movies in theaters after, and she had small main roles surrounded by other "stars." I think she went back to work, but I don't know if she will be in theaters in a more main role or a show starring herself.
What's different I'm wondering is that I want to live in glory in a way that was painful again but more organized and such. I wonder if she needed a break from the TV show before doing more things but after she graduated from high school.
What's different I'm wondering is that I want to live in glory in a way that was painful again but more organized and such. I wonder if she needed a break from the TV show before doing more things but after she graduated from high school.
I know the way to go.
You have to have white hair but be that mental case school drop out passive aggressive female.
You can count me out.
I see people are concerned about being treated nicely like a daughter, but there are such nice people older than me who people who could be my parents might be rather young to be all theirs. So, I have 1 point there.
Hocus Pocus (1993)
Everyone loves this. It has Bette Midler, too, who I also like in Gypsy (1993) with a lotta catchy/popular tunes. Everyone else prefers the little girl in Hocus Pocus as far as why they like this film. I find myself in the same boat.
Did you feel like a little princess when you were a little girl? because in this movie the little girl reminds me of people I know who are younger than me.
Did you feel like a little princess when you were a little girl? because in this movie the little girl reminds me of people I know who are younger than me.
The Theory of "One?"
People think when they see people like Tim Burton as an animator of stop motion that everyone should be the only one like that.
When they see people like Johnny Depp, they think they should be the only one all about him all the time.
I think these things are strange. I honestly don't want my life to *all be in a box*. I like a world full of more than a single point of a single thing. This is one way of looking at how I function and like it. What about things like you could be a classical artist? That's something different. It's not that you can't do arts and crafts.
When they see people like Johnny Depp, they think they should be the only one all about him all the time.
I think these things are strange. I honestly don't want my life to *all be in a box*. I like a world full of more than a single point of a single thing. This is one way of looking at how I function and like it. What about things like you could be a classical artist? That's something different. It's not that you can't do arts and crafts.
Matilda (1996)
It reminds me of the A Little Princess (1995.) Which one are you comfortable with?..
Highlight for Spoilers:
A Little Princess - a girl being reunited with her blood father after a war
Matilda - a girl at the end becomes adopted by her teacher and spends more time with her than she would with her blood parents
The actors are both sweet. A Little Princess is 2 years older than me, and Matilda is a year younger than me. The actresses are similar in many ways. I wonder how old their mom is. I guess people with older moms seem younger cuz they are babied more. I wonder if that's wrong. I wonder if they don't like it in that way.
I have an older dad considering my age. I feel like he and others try to act like I'm infantile in stupid ways, to "take care" of me. How cheap! I also find myself in messes, like my room and how possessions and important things have developed. It looks sorta cool, but I was hoping for it to be more artsy and complete. I go out in the house, and it is not something I want to like it looking like a warehouse. I want an escape. Like, when I was like a toddler or little kid I didn't have anything to do or look forward to. I mean, I had more time before I started school to learn to do chores, but then I wasn't given the opportunity. Later, I was tired from life and not enough money for food and things.
Highlight for Spoilers:
A Little Princess - a girl being reunited with her blood father after a war
Matilda - a girl at the end becomes adopted by her teacher and spends more time with her than she would with her blood parents
The actors are both sweet. A Little Princess is 2 years older than me, and Matilda is a year younger than me. The actresses are similar in many ways. I wonder how old their mom is. I guess people with older moms seem younger cuz they are babied more. I wonder if that's wrong. I wonder if they don't like it in that way.
I have an older dad considering my age. I feel like he and others try to act like I'm infantile in stupid ways, to "take care" of me. How cheap! I also find myself in messes, like my room and how possessions and important things have developed. It looks sorta cool, but I was hoping for it to be more artsy and complete. I go out in the house, and it is not something I want to like it looking like a warehouse. I want an escape. Like, when I was like a toddler or little kid I didn't have anything to do or look forward to. I mean, I had more time before I started school to learn to do chores, but then I wasn't given the opportunity. Later, I was tired from life and not enough money for food and things.
Too Late?
It seems too late to get to know about the other countries in Europe and the rest of the world because they've all grown up and married. You'd have had to have been smart and gone online and posted there around year 2000 or the late 1990s. Maybe, you'd become accomplished plus famous somehow / as a celebrity of some sort.
I'm also relearning values, normal manners, etc., from the English takeover that made us all too close and carefree in bad ways.
I'm also relearning values, normal manners, etc., from the English takeover that made us all too close and carefree in bad ways.
Some Pointers/Ideas
(1) People and Their Relationships
(A) Notice when people get along with those they like the most in certain ways because of complimentary personalities and personal preferences.
(B) Do not push people into unpleasantness in relationships, but remember to also respect them in having relationships they really would like.
(2) Respect others who have built themselves up as somebody known to others.
(A) Notice when people get along with those they like the most in certain ways because of complimentary personalities and personal preferences.
(B) Do not push people into unpleasantness in relationships, but remember to also respect them in having relationships they really would like.
(2) Respect others who have built themselves up as somebody known to others.
When you get pizza..
what do you get if you get dessert?
Cinnamon, chocolate chip pie, or a full brownie? I like the chocolate chip pie too much. Maybe, I should get a brownie this time. It has chocolate chips, too.
I just had some rice crispy treats. I like the M&M ones better than coco treats.
I had like a couple last night and 3 this morning. The M&M ones are gone!
Cinnamon, chocolate chip pie, or a full brownie? I like the chocolate chip pie too much. Maybe, I should get a brownie this time. It has chocolate chips, too.
I just had some rice crispy treats. I like the M&M ones better than coco treats.
I had like a couple last night and 3 this morning. The M&M ones are gone!
Sunday, October 23, 2016
Saturday, October 22, 2016
Male Prowess
Why are they so proud to say how they are going to punish me, like it's my fault I did something else?
Hurt and Sad
People are pursuing me like "there's nothing in it" in me.
They like to say I'm bad to lure anyone into sparing a few moments of their life communicating with me.
They like to say I'm bad to lure anyone into sparing a few moments of their life communicating with me.
Is there anything in it?
If I don't worry about losing relationships now if I have any, can I go around and believe I am a good person again?
As Good As Blonde
I could pass as fair with my skin, which is flushed with some color and from being Floridian from the beach. My hair has highlights but not as seethru anymore. Yes, it has "dark roots." When I straighten it out it's not black at all in the light. I don't, tho, so it doesn't get ruined.
Into the Woods (2014)
It's on TV.
I'm trying to get sleepy. Church again tomorrow! I just used the bus to go this evening, and I will use the bus again tomorrow. You know why? I want to see what the people if any thought of what I posted online from the festival, including 2 girls singing karaoke.
I'm trying to get sleepy. Church again tomorrow! I just used the bus to go this evening, and I will use the bus again tomorrow. You know why? I want to see what the people if any thought of what I posted online from the festival, including 2 girls singing karaoke.
Being "Cute" in a Cool Way
Why does my parish think only the pastor is cute insteada following his good example and giving themselves a good identity?
This Morning
I stretched up to exactly/over 5'3". When I stand I look shorter, tho. I see girls slouched/popped over sometimes. I still feel short. I'm not sure if I've grown or if I was just shorter recently. I just slept a lot.
"Examination of Conscience"
I wonder if I deserve to be killed by the old German Nazis that existed. They look like they're right. What if it's something my dad believes in already, that people have to work and providing jails for criminals to live in is a sin already?
The Civil War
was pointless and not that exciting. Who cares if the hot people in the South need slaves.
No One Talks to Me / I Don't Know People
Why do the bad people in my life hold more significance in it?
I am not talked to by others, and their negativity takes hold on my life.
It's like it's time to gather around. People judge me as not that good because they want to find reasons to like others and not me.
People would rather fight, debate, and hold a conversation with a surprise of people but only certain people, who can't seem to hold a conversation whenever they're with me or messaging me. I have people in my life who have abandoned me, seems to happen quite naturally with those who knew me, when strangers are so respectful and seem to have the opposite feelings about me, like they don't know me cuz they are respectfully shy even.
Also, if you know me, why do you have to know everyone in my life and have good people have to go against me? I'm not asking for attention, but it's clear I don't get any. It's not kinda true or something.
I am not talked to by others, and their negativity takes hold on my life.
It's like it's time to gather around. People judge me as not that good because they want to find reasons to like others and not me.
People would rather fight, debate, and hold a conversation with a surprise of people but only certain people, who can't seem to hold a conversation whenever they're with me or messaging me. I have people in my life who have abandoned me, seems to happen quite naturally with those who knew me, when strangers are so respectful and seem to have the opposite feelings about me, like they don't know me cuz they are respectfully shy even.
Also, if you know me, why do you have to know everyone in my life and have good people have to go against me? I'm not asking for attention, but it's clear I don't get any. It's not kinda true or something.
To Have a Round With Germany?
Why are Germans so uptight about manners and supposedly teach others, in lieu of WWI + WWII? I mean, if I think something that's tiring to think, they can tell I am not on top of it and I'm immediately eradicated. I don't have that kinda racial pride on my tailhide to keep me awake and aroused. Maybe, like my mom raised me as a half Chinese person, my dad influenced me to be nothing but Irish from him. What, are the Irish fresh outta luck compared to Germany, England, France, Spain, whatever? and he feels a debt to them cuz he's part Irish? So, I guess Germans are better racially and that's why we shouldn't be mad at them for WWI + WWII. They weren't going to attack, anyway.
Do you "stop, drop, and roll?"
When you see others are bad, do you take it in stride or do you find it in you to somehow convert them? I mean "when they don't have their act together."
Friday, October 21, 2016
Thursday, October 20, 2016
Nothing Wrong Here!
If someone is a certain way, they can be that way, but I didn't do anything wrong to anyone!
Fun Fun Fun Fun Fun
Why make fun of a good program in life? It's not tacky to succeed. I am not unworthy now! It seems life is tricking bowling over.
Some People
seemed nice, but now they aren't.
Someone is upset of things being about me, the things that are, and they took apart my situation like, if it can be explained in black and white, it's for them and not mine.
Here's the lowdown.
So, some people just "get" to follow what other people say about them feeling pleasure over others, like it suddenly doesn't matter and no one else matters tho they do, at least the people telling them that?
This nonsense sounds like it's from some of the immigrants to L.A.
Why do some people have to smile to stay outta trouble.. because trouble is around them?
What do I have to say about my life!!
The people who bring me joy are transformed into evil, selfish robots, in some feeling? Famous and feeling all the pleasure like no one else can have any? I can't trust nor look up to anyone remaining in this life. It's not coo'. They said I deserve this in a sneaky, false, claimed way.
Disclaimer: No offense to anyone.
I'm still there.
Why is someone mad if my life is not about someone else following me in my glory? How spoiled, selfish, and unfortunate.
Something About You?
What if something about you was about someone else? I guess it only matters when it's not about me.
What if you were great and people just found some way to say you are different and took advantage of that saying you were just bad and so much worse than everyone else?
What if you were great and people just found some way to say you are different and took advantage of that saying you were just bad and so much worse than everyone else?
Wednesday, October 19, 2016
Bedtime for Me!
Church tomorrow probably for a 1st excursion?
I'm too depressed to practice violin, maybe. Tired, too, didn't sleep much well last night.
I'm too depressed to practice violin, maybe. Tired, too, didn't sleep much well last night.
If you’re under thirty, you’re welcome. https://t.co/7lFyhODJBa— Ellen DeGeneres (@TheEllenShow) October 19, 2016
Unless you're around Ellen's age, too.
Hey, guess what? I'm serious.
I don't get certain affection outta relationships, but others are stealing some opportunity from me in life. Why do these people have to follow me around like I'm their mom?
Sh! You could say it does not affect me, but it is a real situation. They weren't around before.
Sh! You could say it does not affect me, but it is a real situation. They weren't around before.
Ethnic Swapping
Did you know they encourage someone who is part one ethnicity to be another but with me think I am a slave to theirs?
Uncertainty
People have inner fights on if they want me to "touch" them.
Either way, I'm out to them.
Either way, I'm out to them.
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