Out of Place and Inappropriate

the English

Get your buckin' teeth outta my fuckin' beeswax.

They light up and glow at inappropriate times, like a coping mechanism.  AHA!

Imminent Danger

When I meet people or if I meet people, I feel a sense of foreboding coming from others I know like they want to flip my life around, friends and family.

No..

I don't believe in this being mean to me to mean something good.

Oh, did you know..

I am too disturbed to pray?

Why do..

people I like come out being hostile against me?

Sad

I think my family only wants to help me.

Happy

That was bad, but I came out.

Sad

Things happen that don't need to happen.

I'm sorry.

There simply isn't enough to go around, anymore, is there?  Or maybe people are waiting for me to be taken out of the game.

cont.

older

Good Times

Why did people lie and say they don't like "old people?"  I know I do.

Well

I came home and was all dazzled I guess I got shocked with negativity.

I don't like how my life has always been negatively affected.

I thought I was independent of my parents.  My dad seems to have stopped treating me the same at 16.

Do you know "real people"

Do you know people "who didn't do it?"

Why

do some adults think they are of a higher caliber than young people and tease them with the idea that they are some prize of giving attention to others that is not really meant for others, in a fair way, tho sometimes seem to do it unfairly and at the expense of others?  Just call it off and put a paper bag over one's head, a figurative, humorous, harmless, and beneficial/good-feeling joke not meant at anyone.. before someone puts that bag there for oneself.  Pretty much one might say something like, "I will never give any of you attention," and then one wouldn't be a problem.  How bad can a young person feel, do they need and deserve to get intimate a lot?  I just kinda feel bad myself about this experiment thing pretending I am in trouble and they're not.  (Who knows what else could go into this?)

Disclaimer:  I don't mean anything bad at anyone in reality.  Sorry if it seems like it.  I do have concern for real situations.

I can't live like this.

I'm not really in trouble.

Suggestive/Bordeline

to suggest that I'm in trouble for not being cool.

Mad

Why do some people get mad so easily?  It's called being "ticked off."

Journal Entry

I wish I could post a video of what happened.

I got to karaoke today.. I couldn't believe it.  They said I was the 1st person on the 1st list.

It was great.  Another chance will come.  Always a learning experience.  I bowed to the ground and to the nice black guy I gave the mic back to.  A girl said I did really good as I left.

OK, you're right in some way..

..but this didn't have to happen.

I didn't have to come upfront..

..and be in trouble for something.. like I "know" something else.

It..

didn't have to happen.

It..

It didn't have to happen.

Me Playing Organ on Keyboard

"In Quiet Joy"

like "Good Christian Men Rejoice"

I played this on organ in college, by Marcel Dupre.  I found it all over YouTube, but they all played it too slowly, in my opinion, "like a dirge."

Quotes

Halloween (2007)

"I may have been born, but I wasn't born yesterday."

"It sounds like you're talking about the anti-Christ."

Question About Right and Wrong

How do you know if something is right or wrong?  If you don't know or know what others believe, you could get into trouble.

Church Festival - Karaoke

I think they are canceling it.  Some pros were gonna participate I know.  They got calls saying people would not be able to do it cuza the hurricane.  I had to cancel my violin lesson cuz I didn't have a ride and wanna be fresh to work 3 hours of cotton candy tomorrow.

Before you think to Americanize someone..

Don't you know in the end you think Europe is better?

Asian Tendencies

Me?

Not Godly

In Orlando, your roots as a person are lifted.

People think I'm not godly enough because I am human and have needs, wants, and desires.  I lost some of my skills and am constantly ratted out here and not allowed to settle like others.

Sharing Secrets to Apply to Me Singled Out

I am not the one who is racist to Italians.

Holding Out

It's better to be on someone's good side.

Cool New Playlist

link

I wish .. I wish

that people not be disturbed by my dad.

Well, g'nite!

G'nite!

What's there to figure out?

I figured it out.

They know I strongly disagreed.  They didn't do anything.

Last time, I was just hitting my punching bag.  We'll see who cares and this time too.

1st time, I was already in the middle of a tantrum on my sofa.  Funny the medicine doesn't take care of that.  I could lose my life if that were to be true.

In the end, I got a rather empty heart.  That shouldn't be so.  Go take away the love from the life of everyone who breaks down or punches their pillow and every child that has a tantrum!

At Least

I don't fall for what other people say.

My Interests

You think I am more interested in other things now?

Love and Flowers - what am I now?

"drunk."

What do you want

your sex?

That's not an option.

To say I'm not as good cuz yer mom's the same age but you were born 10 years later and you gotta dad the same age as yer mom.

Is it time to

throw me away?  Then, why am I still here?

Oh, do you know, where you're going.. to..

Did you know adult mentors did not act like my parents?

Hm.. Do you even

like these people?

Do you settle for less?

Or does someone else end up with someone better, pretending you thought they weren't good enough?

Dsiturbed

I can't believe the things some people would say to me.

About the Experimenters Not Being as Social

"If you don't have something nice to say, don't say anything at all."

Me

I can have my own opinion and an understanding of the truth.

All is still

I am cooking beef and a squash.. made a vanilla cake.  Beethoven's 9th Symphony live tonight from home by a choice orchestra: link.

Racism

Who thinks I'm "uncool" and isn't afraid to say it?

Poker Face - France or Germany

France


Germany

An Earnest Concern About Church

I thought being involved and cheery was a good thing, but now people think it's a simple "I like the pastor" and so whatever you do isn't as amazing as it would be in a different situation.  I guess some people do not wish to juggle the ideas.  It's a lot of older people who are criticizing things not to do with religion or anything you'd want them to be because they don't have as much important else to "tend to" otherwise; I've heard of it.  They are probably in all honesty simply jealous the priest is younger than them.  I think I've seen the early Generation X ladies get excited about the priest and ignore you and test you about if he's on your mind and it isn't fun to be tested and not know what to do or how to react.  It is good they are excited in some way, tho.

Disclaimer:  No offense.  What else is new?

Who cares?

Who cares about Baby Boomers, anyway?

Well, no matter what..

No matter what I do, people tell me I did something in my past that was not perfect and won't talk to me nor leave me alone and stop being mean to me.

He He

I didn't even do anything wrong to cause it!  Other people are let off the hook.  Only some people are responsible for themselves.

Bringing Others Up

Why do you keep using me to bring me down to bring others up?  Can't you just bring people up without bringing others down?

This just has to stop.

People can't suddenly tell me I don't like to be white anymore.

Commandment from God

Do not worship ^false gods^.

So

You have randomly decided to pull just me outta the game.

Hey

I'm being attacked that supposedly I have nothing and even if I were thin again I would be nothing as tho I was nothing in some way before.  I wasn't always like nothing too much compared to everyone else.

I think

My parents hate me for my uncertainties as a baby.

So

People think they can attack me because of my race?

So

People hate me cuz my dad is born in 1950? but not my dad.

The Baby

I figured it out.  Late Boomers do not believe in babies cuz then they're not the baby.

They made Generation X wish too much they were the baby, and they blamed the desire on them.

Something I Know

People with older moms do not talk to people with younger moms.

What if this was all..

..true?

Sad to Say

I don't need people born around 1997 and 1998 with Late Boom parents to be over and above me.  I appreciate all they do and their parents teach them or get out of them.  There's just some thing.

Desire

You don't even care.  You just want to clash people together who are in a friendly relationship.

Easy Street

So, what?  Is all you have to do is to put yourself up at risk claiming you are attractive and to complain you don't get enough attention but in people's faces?

Freedom of Speech

I can believe what I want.

Cool YouTube Playlist of Mine

link

Judgment

People think I am bad and are messin' with my socialization.

Concert

I just watched the Freiburger Barockorchester play Beethoven, 6 and 5, live, in Mexico, and they are from Germany.

It was a great concert!  I liked the strength they had.  I'm very crafty with that, even when and if it isn't loud.

So Uncool

I don't deserve to be hurt, by anyone, the people experimenting on me, etc.

Why are the cool people all lying that I'm uncool?  That's uncool.

Why?

I don't believe in saying that Late Boomers are the only people worth something.

Stupid People!

Why is everyone hating on me for my dark hair, etc.?

The Rosary

They are praying the rosary after church this weekend.

I like this more integrated study like memorizing and using the beatitudes.  The rosary is meditation and group acting.

The Door & Beatitudes

"Knock and it shall be opened unto you."

"You know not the hour nor the day."

Don't be mean when someone comes a knocking, or you will be the one found a knocking at a foreboding door that does not seem to ever open.

"Seek and ye shall find."

"Ask and it shall be given unto you."

The Woes of the Beatitudes - According to Luke

"Woe to you who are rich, for you have already received your comfort."

"Woe to you who are well fed now, for you will go hungry."

"Woe to you who laugh now, for you will mourn and weep."

"Woe to you when everyone speaks well of you, for that is how their ancestors treated the false prophets."

Beatitudes

"Blessed are they who mourn,
for they shall be comforted."

"Blessed are the meek,
for they shall inherit the earth."

Who gets sympathy for failure to do what is right?

Why do they show so much sympathy for some people and not others who are obviously in harm's way socially?  What's important to you?

Speaking of the title, everyone has an excuse, some more than others.  Everyone will always find some problem, it seems, that seems more significant than that of others.

Our Church Agrees

it wants to be more holy .. it guesses, according to the sacrificial statement of the Hispanic priest.

That's an insult and suggestive that it isn't already.  I think I can admit here that they are aiming it at the pastor, just because he has his own thing going with others that others like that others think others don't deserve cuz they have nothing to do but cause trouble.

Edit

I edited my last post.

Easy Prequirements and Not Too Late

1. Being good.

Issue

I'm not here to ^show off^ others to win having relationships.  I don't even know what just happened.

Update

New Twitter Pin

⚡️ "I <3 Penguins"https://t.co/0mv11pm8CC

— Persephone (@goddessofhades) October 7, 2016

Something came up.

I feel that all this everyone being mean to me are ruining my relationships.

Treatise on Treats of Life

It does not happen I deserve less than anyone without a fair start.

People can't take away my relationships because they think I'm forever in trouble.

People can't condone me as a part of a generation.  I didn't do anything that stupid by a mile.

People can't suddenly say they are better than me just to take advantage of me.

If someone likes me, they shouldn't give me the cold shoulder when they meet someone else.


Disclaimer: This does not exactly apply to anyone.

Community College

I guess I will take 1 or 2 community college classes online.  I want the AA (General Studies.)  I had a nasty thought about my being hindered in life for whatever reason because I am uneducated.  Later, I can work out what career, as I do not know the way to go.  Plus, General Studies are hard for me, so it'll be good this way.

We made it!

My family and I went to see some relatives.

Mandatory Evacuation?

I think we're evacuating for a hurricane!  I slept 2 or 3 times tonight each for like at least almost 6 hours.  My mom came in and told me to pack at the 3rd cycle I think.  Things were going good before I went to bed, but I guess people are beating at me, maybe blaming me for the past.  Came online to do something, gotta finish packing, mostly done it seems.

Me

I'm actually very open to helping others!

So..

..If someone does not like something about me is fine, but I have problems no one cares about like I'm out cuz I'm blind.

Being Better

Can you believe people who go out and tell others they are better?

I am with bad people cuz good people are too self-centered.  I am kind.

I'm just concerned, not trying to fight anyone.  Is it true?  Like, some poor stolen kid or something?

Still Cool

Do you ever get a feeling people ruin your life but you're still cool?

Ethnicities

Germans may be particular to theirs, but it is not 100% ideal over all.

..I guess

I'm being slowly filed out.

How Absurd!

Why can someone feel a caring emotion for someone younger, but they hurt me?

Something Left to Be Desired

Why is that insulting?

No Hope

School is over.  I can't go back.

Work it out!

you can't start early enough: Luciano de la Parra obviously like gut strings :) @alondradlp @FreiburgBaroque #FBOMEX @PalacioOficial pic.twitter.com/BKTAzkFCLK

— Matthias Beltinger (@resonanzio) October 2, 2016

Talk about making the situation work out.  I do feel this "cold shoulder."

Excuse of Denial to Your Understanding

So, do you know people who deny you because they are too good or too bad, but they don't seem to know which it is?